First of all MERRY CHRISTMAS too all of you! (: The good news is that already 3 months passed and we only have 6 left for the new season! (: Thank you all for the reviews and enjoy this new chapter! It was actually harder to write than I first thought it would be but here we go!

Hold me

(S01x09 – Part 2/2)

They were sitting on the couch that night in the living room. Julia was nestled against his side, her body warm next to his as they were sitting side by side, his left arm resting on the back of the couch around her shoulder. Barbie's mind was however miles away and he was only half listening to Julia's recap about her day.

"But we couldn't find the mini-dome anywhere. I told them there has to be a logical explanation for why it disappeared. I mean this whole time I have been holding on to the belief that there is some explanation for why this is happening." She was confused and bewildered as she sat there, her legs curled under her spilling out her worry to him. He would have been interested… the mini-dome, she said she saw but disappeared in the morning was a mystery which could very well help them to understand the dome better but with all the mess Max took with her he just couldn't focus. His mind was all over the place, trying to find a solution which could save him... save them. Because if he lost her, he would be lost too.

Still the concern and worry in her voice had its effect on his body, like always, and automatically he wrapped his hand around her shoulder to run his fingers absentmindedly up and down her arm to comfort her.

"After today, I don't know. Maybe we will never understand. Maybe it is better to just say, screw it and stop looking for answers we are never gonna get."

That hit home. He was looking for a solution he would probably never gonna get. To keep her, keep his secret and get out from the control Max had on him with her blackmailing... It was just impossible. He squeezed her shoulder gently in encouragement and dropped his other hand on his knee staring at it deep in thoughts.

The moment she shifted beside him and took his hand in her own, he felt his body warm up again. How funny how that tiny little gesture made his body response immediately.

"Be grateful for what we do have." She said playing with his fingers idly and throwing a glance at him with a knowing smile obviously referring to their relationship.

Yeah, for as long as they had it… He was so dangerously close to lose it... And no matter how hard he thought about it, he just couldn't find a way to save them. He let out a deep sigh and finally looked up at her.

"Yeah, right." He whispered taking her hand in his and pulling her closer, wanting to have her as close to him as possible. His eyes lit up and darkened with desire as they always did when she was that close. He felt unworthy for her now more than ever but that did not stop his body from wanting her. His eyes drifted to her lips on their own accord and made him temporary forget all his concerns and worries, his whole being focusing on her.

"You want to tell me about your day?" She asked tilting her head and that made him clench his jaw his mind jumping back into focus.

He downcasted his eyes deep in thought. Now he could tell her. He could tell her the complete truth. About Max, about Peter, about everything. But if he did… he would lose her. Right here, right now. He won't feel her warm body against his ever again. He won't feel her lips on his, hear her giggle, hear her moans and gasps. The ghost of his past would take all that from him right here, right now.

"Nah, it can wait till morning." He said finally lifting their joined hands watching how perfectly their fingers entwined with each other's.

Her eyes burned a hole into his skull and he risked a glance at her. Her eyes were bright with playfulness and love. His eyes darkened even more and he felt the familiar heat rising up his body.

"Is that right?" She gave him a provocative smile, her breath quickened and his eyes dropped to her full lips.

"Mmm." Was all he managed to murmur as he leaned closer and closer enjoying every second as she filled his senses. He could smell the subtle fragrance of her perfume, he could feel her breath against his lips, it was almost too much to resist.

"Well do you want to take me to bed?" she asked tempting him like none else could. He let out a small chuckle and finally their lips met into a sweet kiss. But what was supposed to be a short sweet kiss, sent a flare of heat through his body. He had to have her. His body was demanding exactly that and his heart jumped with joy upon the idea. He wanted her. His arm wrapped around her shoulder and pulled her even closer, his whole body was on fire and he knew she knew it too. Her heart was beating fast against his chest, her lips demanded more. With a force he didn't know he had he pulled away and placed the sweetest of kiss on the tip of her nose. A small giggle left her lips. He quickly closed his eyes and looked away from her before he lost all his control. He lifted her fingers to his lips as he took a deep breath.

"Actually, I am gonna stay up for a while." he murmured and glanced back at her.

"Yeah?" She whispered frowning at him. She looked disappointed and worried. Even hurt a bit.

"Yeah." He said down casting his eyes. He could not bear to look into her clear eyes. He was sure if he would, he would be unable to say no to her.

"Is everything okay?" She asked and the sudden insecurity in her eyes and voice made his heart shatter into a million pieces.

"Yeah it is fine." He said quickly. His eyes drifting from her eyes to her lips and back again. "Fine." he whispered one more time well aware that his voice was deep and heavy with desire.

She looked at him for a moment longer then she nodded finally and got up from the couch. He looked after her as she disappeared upstairs. It was all Max's fault. He would now be up with Julia, loving and cherishing her if it were not for today's encounter with Max. Instead now he had to sit here downstairs, alone, trying to find a solution that would save them. That would keep this wonderful woman that was Julia, in his life.

He sat there for an hour at least but he came up blank once again. He had absolutely no idea what to do. It was a dead end. He had heard when Julia took shower upstairs a while ago; had seen the light coming from the bedroom. She had been reading… but now there was only darkness. Darkness around him and inside him as well. He grabbed a pillow from the couch and smashed it with all his strength against the wall. God damn it! Scratching his head in frustration he threw a glance upstairs. He had no idea where tomorrow would lead them but Julia was right. They had to be grateful for what they had. And he still had her. He jumped on his feet and made his way upstairs. He was upset, disorientated, confused and worried. He didn't know he could feel such fair over the possibility of losing her. As he stepped into the bedroom he found her fast asleep in the bed her hand resting where he was supposed to lay. He kicked his shoes and socks off, God he didn't want to lose her…

He crept his way to the bed and leaned down to place a butterfly kiss on her bare shoulder. She was sleeping in his shirt. Damn she looked hot in it. He placed another kiss on her cheek. She murmured and gasped in her sleep not fully awake yet but he could not help himself. His lips trailed up her neck and along her jaw line, causing a small whimper to escape her lips as he found the sweet spot behind her ear.

"Barbie?" She murmured her voice deep with sleep and desire. He silenced her with a deep, passionate kiss. When he finally pulled away for much needed air she giggled.

"Everything okay?" She asked but he only mumbled against her skin in response.

She let her head loll back as he kissed down from her neck to her breast, his hands wandering and going over her smooth curves. She lifted her arms and wrapped them around his neck.

"Don't let go." He whispered before he let his feelings pour out of him for one of the few times in his life. He gave himself completely over to the overwhelming feelings she alone could arouse in him.

Well, that was it (: Thank you all again for the wonderful reviews!

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