Kaoru POV

Jealousy can lead to tragedies. Hikaru is not mature enough to see beyond the present and I knew that, I knew he just wanted his girlfriend to have a serious talk with Tamaki , I knew that Hikaru just wants to fix things up but by leaving her alone in that place with a person that has completely changed. Tamaki is no more the happy cheerful person that Hikaru and I once knew. Depression has been feeding on him for a year now, just like it did to me.

Three days have passed since we left my brother's -soon to be ex- girlfriend there. Silence was all I could do until someone broke into our room.

"Huh? Ranka! What's wrong ?" Hikaru said to the terrified man at the door. He was her father. I took a deep breath..

" where is she, Hikaru? WHERE THE HELL IS MY DAUGHTER ?" Ranka was sweaty , angry and horrified "what do you mean where is she? I thought she got back home but was mad at me for leaving her there alone and wouldn't answer her phone.." Hikaru said in a worried tone

"SHE DIDN'T COME HOME FOR THREE DAYS NOW AND I THOUGHT SHE WAS WITH YOU UNTILL KAYOYA CALLED ME SAYING HIS MEN HAVE SEEN HER IN TAMAKI'S CAR!" he spit out and held Hikaru's collar.

I stood back at my corner.

Kayoya stood at the door too , his glasses hiding his eyes but I could feel his anger.

"Calm down man! She must be fine , it's Tamaki after all.." Hikaru said unknowingly of what's really the case. In that note Kayoya looked at my side

"you didn't tell him did you?. How more selfish can you get? " the shadow king said to me and my eyes got teary

.. I am not selfish , she deserved that for hurting me all that time , why couldn't she be the one who's selfish , why is it me. she has hurt me and ruined my life..

I didn't say that to him I kept it to myself.

"don't talk to him like that! goddammit Kayoya ! " Hikaru said to Kayoya

"your innocent twin right there knows that Tamaki has turned to someone so cold and angry , TO SOMEONE THAT WANTS TO REVENGE ! AND NOW HARUHI IS IN DANGER !" Kayoya spit it all at Hikaru who stood there shocked" KAORU KNEW IT ALL BUT HE DIDN'T SAY A WORD TO YOU WHEN YOU FUCKIN DECIDED TO LEAVE HER ALONE WITH TAMAKI! "

"W-what..?" Hikaru said in a tone full of guilt , he looked at me questioning and angry

"my men are searching for her now but we can't be sure that she's still alive.." kayoya finished and left the room with Ranka. Leaving me alone with Hikaru ..

The only light in the room was coming from the fireplace , my corner was drowned in darkness and I hoped I could disappear into it. My brother walked to me in anger and slapped me so hard the I hit the wall and fell down to the floor. "WASN'T I THERE FOR YOU TRYING TO FUCKING LEFT YOU UP ALL THAT TIME AND NOW YOU DO THIS TO ME ! YOU ARE A FUCKIN' RAT KAORU YOU ARE AWFUL! YOU ARE SELFISH ! HER LIFE IS IN RISK NOW ! I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU"

he was leaving when I stood up , followed him half the way to the door and screamed out the pain "WHY!.." my chest felt heavy. He stopped and looked back at me. My tears fell down , hurting , burning , and I shouted "WHHHY! " I sobbed and fell down to the floor again. The world was no more there around me , I was mentally isolated as i hugged myself.

The only thing I heard was slamming the door.

He left for her…again

Hikaru POV

We were kids in a field when strong wind came by and a leaf flew away from its branch. Kaoru waited for the wind to come again and let the leaf back to the tree. minutes passed by and finally, we saw the whole tree hitting ground.

I put my jacket around my girlfriend's shoulders. We found her in a room in Tamaki's old house , she was left there for 3 days without food or water and gladly Tamaki didn't harm her he just watched her going mad. And he didn't say a word.

"damn you Hikaru .." she said and walked to Ranka who hugged her and left the place. Kayoya was talking to Tamaki about something and I sighed ..

"Hey Hikaru , let's leave" Kayoya said to me and we walked out of the gloomy doors to his car

"man..I have never expected Tamaki to change like this.. " I put the seat belt on and lit a cigarette

"oh yeah .. a lot of things have changed. I am just wondering if Kaoru has told you anything" he said and started driving off the gates.

"he didn't say much about Tamaki. Damn , I should have noticed that he changed this badly but I choose to ignore it" I shacked my head and sighed. He gave me a weird look and smiled "what? Is there anything I don't know?"

"I..well , there's no good way to say that.." he hesitated

"this is the first time I see you hesitating!" I said to him

"I am the worst when it comes to feelings and this shit.." he said and stopped on a traffic light. "you know Hikaru , I have always had feelings for Kaoru.."

I got shocked ! " what! Are you saying this for real?" I couldn't believe him! " yes I am, but he never accepted to go out with me , depression has stopped him from seeing anything around him. he's emotionally destroyed and of course thanks to you "

"ugh , not again , everybody is throwing their problems on me , it's not the end of the world I left with Haruhi for only a year and now everything got fucked up!" I said , refusing to get blamed for this or that.

He dropped me beside the house and I walked in. What a night..it feels eternal , I just want to drown myself under the covers and just sleep!

"Hikaru sama! " a maid walked to me " you are finally here! Please go check Kaoru sama , he's in a very bad shape! " she ran to the room holding a bowl of water . I sighed and walked to Kaoru's room.

"what have you done now..OH MY GOD!" I entered the room and mom was holding Kaoru while the doctor was trying to stop the bleeding in his wrists. "Jesus! what happened here!" I walked to them "you fucking tell me Hikaru! What have you done to him ?" mom was shaking while holding Kaoru, I knelt down in front of him. seems that I fucked shit up again. there's nothing i could do , I held his face with my hands and fondled his cheeks " look ..I'm so so sorry Kao, I really am sorry " his eyes were buffed and he didn't want to look at me "listen I am an idiot.. I can't hold myself when I am angry and you know that. You shouldn't cut yourself , this is not going to solve anything it'll only hurt you" I said to him but he didn't say a thing instead he sobbed again

"mom , can you leave us alone please " I said but she shacked her head refusing "no Hikaru , how on earth do you slap him?.." she was really angry at me "you were the only person he trusted, I was building hope on you .. I was waiting for Kaoru to come back. But you damn destroyed him even more than before and now you are asking me to leave him alone with you!" she looked down on me. I deserve it. The doctor finished and went out "I'll come back sweety" mom said to Kaoru , gave me the death look and followed our doctor.

"look at me , Kaoru ..please.." I said , sat beside him and brushed my fingers to his silky hair, but he just looked to his wrists. "do you want me to leave..?" I asked him "..no" he simply answered still not looking at me. I moved his hair from his face and left a kiss on his left cheek , the one I slapped. He got surprised but didn't say a thing so I left another kiss beside the first one and another and another "forgive me ?" I said brushing his hair with my hand "..not yet.. " he said in a very low tone

I got his point and looked at mom beside the door. I left the bed and slammed the door shut and locked it with the key "DAMN HIKARU OPEN THE DOOR!" mum screamed from the other side " nope , let me fix this ..I am his big brother after all " I said so and mum didn't answer. I looked back at Kaoru who finally looked at me. I took off my shoes and socks and left them beside the door. I sat beside him and fondled his chine and we stared at each other's eyes for almost two minutes. I touched his lips and slowly closed mine with his. It was deep and I loved it now more than anything else.

I kissed him again and he kissed me back ,I squeezed my eyes. he put his arms around my shoulders and I did the same around his waist. This is not going to end innocently this time.

After what Kayoya told me about his feelings to Kaoru , something clicked inside of me.. I don't want anybody else to touch Kaoru. we stopped kissing and looked at each other's eyes for seconds before Kaoru shacked his head and unbuttoned my shirt "don't stop now..please stop running from your feelings" he bit my neck and I slipped my hands under his shirt and touched his chest. I was out of my mind. "ah-uh" a moan ran out of his mouth when I touched his hips "I like it there.." he whispered to my ear and took off my shirt, I was getting turned on. I took off his belt and unbuttoned his pants و slipped it down slowly. I went up and kissed his lips again hugging him while leaving kisses on his shoulder and neck.

I took off his shirt so now he was half naked " damn , come here " I held him tightly and licked his nipples "uh..umm.." he moaned again , I took off my pants because he was moving slowly and I got really hard. We were standing beside the bed so I got this crazy idea. I left him up "WHA!" he shouted and wrapped his arms around my neck and kissed my lips , I did the same and walked some steps around the bed before falling on it with him on my lap "what was that for hahaha!" he laughed and that made me feel better.

I was upon him and my nose touching his when everything hit me at once.. I was making out with Kaoru. I felt weird for a minute and I think he sensed that "what's the matter Hikaru ?" I looked at him , I can't disappoint him once more.." nothing dear " I smiled to him and kissed his forehead "hey…you aren't sure about that right?.." he said looking to the other side of the room " screw it ! why should I be sure about anything!" I took off his boxers and took all of him in my mouth , I have never done that before but I didn't want to stop anyways. He took a deep breath "AAHH UHH! HIKARU.." His moans were load I thought that I must be doing it right so I started moving and looked up at him , he was wiggling while holding the bed sheets tightly. His cheeks were pink and he looked hot and got hard in seconds , I stopped sucking and kissed him instead , he was breathing hardly " I ..I love you Hikaru..I love you so damn much" he was about to cry when I gave him a deep French kiss "hey Kaoru , I am sure about this" I brought a random skin cream and put it on my hand while Kaoru took off my boxers "lemme do it " he held the cream and shyly held my dick "ummm.." a moan escaped from me, he spread it on me , I was extremely hard and ready for this.

Kaoru spread his legs and I took a long look at him "you're sexy " I touched him everywhere and kissed his legs "oh socks !" he was still wearing them and I took them off and kissed his toes.

I was bracing myself when he started laughing "wha! Did I do something wrong?" I got embarrassed, he sat straight and left a kiss on my lips "fingering first , you should get me ready before ..entering , you know baby " he kissed my neck "oh yeah ! right! " I have never seen gay porn before or anything close to that! I put cream on my fingers and Kaoru flipped on his belly , I touched his buttocks , he's really cute.

Even when we are twins he's a little more curvy. I pressed my body on him while my fingers were finding their way inside him. I kissed his neck again and noticed the hecky I left "AAH WOOH THIS FEELS GREAT" he screamed to me as I stabbed his hole with my two fingers and added the third after awhile "you're good ?" I was hitting my point , I needed to enter him immediately "umm..yeah..good" I took my fingers out and flipped him "Hikaru, be gentle " he said "yeah sure "I saidو not really knowing how should you be gentle in sex!.

I braced myself and entered him slowly "JEEEZ! TOO TIGHT " I screamed "AAHHH UHH" Kaoru moaned with me, it felt amazingly great , I had sex with Haruhi before but this is nothing close to that. He wiggled under me in pleasure , I waited a little till we both got used to it "uhhh okay ,unn move..give me more" I did as he ordered. I entered him fully and started moving in and out and both of us were moaning really load , gladly all the house rooms prevent sounds from being heard outside the room unless you are standing beside the door , so it never really matters!. We wear sweaty of all that hotness. After more hits we changed the position and he sat on my lap , we kissed and hugged while doing it , and I bet Kaoru loved that position more, "..uhh I am close.." I moved faster "hika..inside me " he moaned while breathing hardly , his cum was coming out on my belly and chest "AHHH" we both came together , I pushed inside more as I came.

I slipped out of him and relaxed beside him , "I love you Kao" hugged him closer to me , too tightly , I could never hurt him again , I'd rather die than doing that " I forgive you.."he said and that made me smile "promise me not to cut yourself ever again" I said brushing my fingers to his hair and breathing his scent "I promise " , "good , I am proud of you Kao" I kissed him on the top of his head. "it was great yeah?" he asked and I smiled rolling on the bed with him "best sex ever " we cuddled for some time but decided to have a shower before sleeping, we were covered in sweat and cum anyways.

The shower went calm , each one of us was drowned into his own deep thoughts. I wondered of where is this going to take us and if we are going to close into our own world again , was Kaoru dragging me into his corner instead of me dragging him out of his corner? I really didn't know , but I am sure of one thing , my feelings for him are all real.

We finished the shower and dried our hair "this is the longest and best day of my life.." I said to him and he smiled , "oh wait..the bed is a mess we can't sleep on it like that" Kaoru said "meh , no big deal , let's go sleep on that blanket nest again " I said , he smiled happily and took my hand as we walked out the bedroom to our own cage.

most of the story is about how you deal with someone that is depressed. it's not about the events so i didn't want them to take a big part.

also sorry for the late update , i made this chapter longer for you guys XD 3

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, oh and btw the kiddo that is named "fan whatsoever " you need to learn how to type first before leaving reviews and you should change your name when you want to leave two separated comments with completely different opinions, also i believe you are mentally sick to do such thing , but you know you can change the way you write some words so i wouldn't know you are the same crazy homophobic teenager. dumbo