Kaoru POV

The next morning was a very cold one that I didn't find the power to leave bed. the blankets were lovely, way better than the ones in the hospital. I rolled under them and noticed a cell phone and a wallet on the table next to the bed with a piece of paper beside them. Moved the blankets away a little just to be able to get my arms out and hold the stuff. I read "these are yours, you've left them at the hospital and they sent them home today. Hikaru" a sigh ran out of my mouth once I read Hikaru's name. the paper slipped down to the floor in slow motion and I felt too lazy to pick it up. Instead I held my cell phone and switched it open, I checked the gallery for any photos but there was none! "this is strange..didn't I take any photos in the past? Or did the jerks from hospital removed everything..jeez" I checked the messages and there was none, the applications were all signed out. I threw the device back to the table. My wallet wasn't any different..there were 5 credit cards and my ID. Nothing else. "DAAAMN" I shouted and rolled back under my blankets. I am still wearing Hikaru's jacket and those shorts, I needed to change to something more comfortable. I took a deep breath and decided to leave bed " good morning to me " I joked around and stripped out of my clothes, when the shorts fell down a whole collection of cards was on the floor "oh.." I picked them up and started reading names "Kenji ,Akio , Daichi , Hachiro , Hinata , chiro , Katsu ,Ryo , Yuta…" I threw them away, not interested to meet up with any of them. I noticed the bathroom door that was in the far corner of the room and walked to it "taking a nice bath in the morning is not a bad idea.." but before, I had to settle everything for my own enjoyment. I reached the land phone and called for a maid "bring me some donuts and caramel tea to the tub..Oh and bring some candles too " this would be good to clear my mind and analyze everything that happened the past 24 hours.

After 5 minutes, everything was ready for me beside the tub. I thanked the maids and entered the warm water as I expected "umm" I murmured and added some bubble shampoo to it. My muscles where still aching from sleeping so I raised my arms up and yawned "damn I need more sleep after last ni-" I suddenly looked at my wrists "HAH!"I sniffled. my arms were full of old cuts , some left darker marks than others. "did I do this to myself! why would I cut myself like this ! and for how long ! these marks will never heal" I looked closer to my left wrist and suddenly I saw myself sitting in the corner..bleeding to the fool as the blade I used to cut myself hit the floor. My breath was fast and I was shivering and scared , so scared that I needed to scream out. "Hika..Hikaru.."I sniffed and tears fell down my eyes as I called for my brother. After a minute the door went suddenly open "Kaoru! are you alright!" Hikaru was standing there, surprised to see me sobbing "no I am not alright Hika.." he walked to me and sat on the floor beside the tub "tell me what is it?" my brother worried look calmed me a little, I believed he'll never leave my side "Hikaru..look.." I showed him the marks and bit on my lower lip " I think I remember now..when I used to sit in the corner and cut into my skin endlessly.." Hikaru was shocked when I told him, I saw his chest raising then falling desperately. He opened his mouth to say something but then stopped..he turned his head to the other side, brushed his fingers to his hair and sighed. "you didn't want me to remember because it was that awful..Hikaru.." my voice was cracking with tears and sniffing , he raised his arms and wrapped them around my shaking body, I rest my head on his shoulder and wept. He stroked my cheek lovingly "it is all in the past, Kaoru..it's all done now .." he fondled the skin on my arms, making me calm down "I can't stop myself from wondering why…why did I do such a thing to myself Hikaru? I mean..one does not really hurt himself unless he found himself guilty , right?" I looked up to his eyes " I don't know Kaoru, it will only make things worse. Believe me little brother" he sighed. To argue now about this wasn't a very good idea after that flashback thus I decided to shake it all out of my head.

"hey let me massage your back for you , it'll help you relax" Hikaru suggested and replaced his hands on my shoulders before I could say anything. Not that I disagreed on his lovely action it just felt weird and I was wondering of Hikaru's intentions. His touches were so gentle that I started blushing. He went down under my shoulders and massaged the stressed muscles there "uhhmm.." a moan ran out of my lips "feels good?" he was too close to me that I felt his exhale on my back "y-yeah.." my body was moving slowly with his hands, the water movement in the tub around me left gentle sounds. I decided that it's better to close my eyes and enjoy the moment than being over thinking about it. "I have always considered you as the cute version of me HAHAH seriously I would never look this adorable" he joked and I smiled "stop this nonsense ,Hikaru" I moved my hair from my face to behind my ear and Hikaru left a kiss on my shoulder. suddenly I could feel him separate from me , his hands were no more on my back. Instead of his nice touches there was only the feeling left on my skin. I turned my head automatically "where are you going?" I asked "hmm..ah..out" he was nervous that he slammed the door in his face "oh! Hikaru, be careful" I said " I am fine , I'll be waiting for you out for breakfast" he left and closed the door behind him , still I could hear him insulting. "aw.." I laughed gently to how careless he can be sometimes.

After some time I stood up took a shower and left the tub "towels..towels.." I looked around but there was none so I opened the door and went back to the bedroom, totally naked and soaked in water. "k-KAO! " Hikaru was sitting on the bed before he opened the closet and threw a very long towel at me " I couldn't find any towel in the bathroom plus I don't think that this is the first time you ever see me naked" I said and started drying my hair "whatever , here put this on" he handed me a bathrobe yet still looking away, I put the robe on and sat beside Hikaru on the bed, I wanted to talk to him about anything when suddenly my phone started ringing, it said Kyoya

"Hey !"

"Hi..How are you, Kaoru? "

"I am fine, actually great , you probably heard from your doctors that we ran out of the hospital"

"yes they told me so, well since you are free for anything I would love to spend the day with you today "

"yes that would be cool, no problem "

"great I'll pick you up at 3 "

"sure"

I put the phone back to the table and looked at Hikaru who looked frustrated. I brushed his hair with my hand "are you okay ,Hika?" he turned his head and looked serious "was it Kyoya?"

"yup". My brother wanted to say something again but stopped "Hey just spit it out Hikaru, what's wrong?"

"nope nothing. Breakfast is probably ready" he left the room in a hurry before giving me the chance to reject. I picked up a white shirt that has blue patterns on it with a black jeans and a jacket.

Hikaru POV

I was playing video games on my PS4 while Kaoru was having a nap beside me on the couch, I didn't know when did he actually fall asleep but I couldn't take myself out of the game until it was all done. I looked at the clock , it said 2:40 "hey Kaoru.." I studied his face and his steady breaths, I remembered I have read an article about sleeping positions, I think Kaoru's sleeping position was named The Foetus, anyhow , he looked so adorable. I leant down "a small kiss won't bother" Suddenly Kaoru's phone started ringing, I went back to my seat as he opened his eyes slowly and yawned before picking the device up and answering "yeah I'll get out in a minute" he put his shoes on and I continued gaming , pretending that I don't care.

I could feel his eyes on me and hear him sighing "okay Hikaru , don't you wanna give me any advice?"

"nope" answered with my eyes still on the screen

"okay then ..I'll be going" he walked toward the door and I was burning inside , burning like a volcano that was so close to explode everywhere. I ran after him for two steps and held his arm stopping him "Hika? What the hell are you doi-" I pushed him to the wall and captured his lips kissing him strongly twice before separating, his face was burning with blush as we shared a long glare. Neither one of us found it necessary to say anything, we just stared at each other's eyes. his phone started ringing again "ah..we have to talk after I come back, okay?" he said to me "okay "I rolled my eyes because I thought that kiss would prevent him from leaving with Kyoya but it didn't. he smiled to me and left the house. The couch was the only thing that I could drawn in now until suddenly I got an idea " Ootori..I won't let you take him away from me" smirked to the ideas in my head and decided to ruin their so called a date.