Hey, sorry for not update sooner. For some reasons the words were gone when I touched the keyboards and couldn't write. I miscalculated the chapter and the tear jerking scenes will be in next chapter instead. Make sure to prepare tissues next time. Thanks a bunch for the reviews guys. I hope this is a good read. Reviews please. I need some motivations. ^_*
He pressed his claws hand over the wound, pushing enough pressure to prevent any more bleeding. In a flash she was quickly but gently lifted and landed on her bed. In those slit seconds she saw emotions on the demon's cold eyes; pain, guilt, regret, anger, worried, fear, and sadness. But it might as well be her imagination. The pains must have caused her to see things.
See what she wanted to see. Maybe she wanted to believe that someone cared. Funny that she still had such thoughts as wanted to be cared.
A demon healer came and stopped the bleeding, but she didn't know much about humans healing since humans and demons were difference.
Sesshomaru sent for the human healer in the nearest human village. She felt sorry for the middle-aged man who looked even paler than herself who was the patient. His eyes that went all over the place jumping at every little movement suggested that he wanted to be anywhere but here.
After tenting to her wounds and gave the medication she needed and did everything he could, he was sent home. She hoped he would reach his family instead of being tossed aside somewhere along the road.
But it didn't matter. What would happen would happen. She had no power to stop it.
She closed her eyes. The medication had numbed the pain a little and made her sleepy. A bit drowsy, but it was better than the pains.
She woke up sometimes in the late evening to a pair of golden eyes gazing over her. Sesshomaru was sitting at her bedside. She didn't know how to react. She didn't react. She closed her eyes and went back to sleep.
She woke once again and it was morning. Her clothes had been changed and she had been cleaned with wash clothes while in bed. She must have had a fever last night.
The demon lord was given orders to his retainer, Jaken, not too far away from her.
He came to her side as soon as Jaken left and he ordered the servants to bright her soft foods and medicines.
He never left her room for the next three days. It was suffocating.
She was hoping that the injure would keep the demon away from her for a while. Better if the scar would disgust him and leave her alone all together, but she was wrong.
As soon as she was capable of moving around, he ordered her to move into his chamber where he could keep an eye on her twenty-four-seven. Taking the little freedom she had had from him away. His office wasn't too far and he would often pop his stoic face to see her once in a while during the day.
"How are you feeling?" he would ask.
"Fine," she would answer.
At night he would lie beside her, cuddled her into his firm embrace while carefully with his movements to not disturb her wound. He sometimes ordered her to undress just so he could see the wound.
It was slowly healing.
She was wondering what the demon was up to? He did not need to sleep. Anytime she woke up he was always awake, yet he insisted on lying with her. Without coupled with her. Just lying there and embraced her.
His actions made her wondered how much she must have looked like this Rin woman he called for every time they coupled. But it didn't matter. Whatever he was up to was his business.
Maybe it was a game to him. Some man liked to do the chasing. The colder and indifference the female was, the more exciting it was to made her surrendered and begged to be wanted.
But that was the demon's business. He could do or think however he liked. She did her part, being his play thing, and that was all she would do. She would not give into his sick fantasy.
Even if she wanted to, she doubted she had any feelings left to play along.
Summer came and she was traveling with Sesshomaru on his patrolling routines. Everything went on in silence, peaceful and at a slow pace. Only Jaken would be babbling about this and that and boasting about how powerful his lord was when she was alone with Jaken and the two heads dragon that had a similar body with a horse. Only the dragon was cover with green scales.
The dragon was introduced as Ah-Un. Their eyes held great intelligence and almost too familiar with her. She liked the creature for it looked so pure and kind. Even though it was a demon it was a gentle creature. But she kept her distance from it. She did not want to grow attached to anything. The things that could easily be taken from her.
She often only half listening to Jaken to pass times since there was nothing to do. But the more powerful Jaken described his lord destroying his enemy only made her realized just how insignificant she was and how easily he could smash the life out of her just like killing an ant.
The outside world was now alien to her. It had been so long since she had been outside the palace walls and walked within the wild. The things that she sometimes wondered how it would feel to be amongst.
Yet, even in such a big opened field and sky she felt caged. It made her felt empty to think that such a big world held no place for her. There was no place that would welcome her and made her felt free and wanted. No places she wanted to go. Nowhere she wanted to be. Not anymore. It was just a big empty meaningless world to her.
She decided to stop thinking. It was too exhausted to think too much. It didn't matter.
Sesshomaru got injured while trying to protect her. She was taking a walk with Ah-Un in the forest when out of nowhere a lightning bolt strike her way. She thought she would be a goner for sure, but just a blink of an eye and before her was Sesshomaru. He reflexed the lightning bolt with his sword, but his left arm was left bleeding.
"Are you hurt?" he asked, his voice was nonchalance.
"No," she answered equally indifference.
"Ah-Un, take her out of here," he ordered. They obeyed.
While in the airs on the dragon's back, she watched him demolished the strong demon that could easily kill her. Yet Sesshomaru killed him as if crushing a bug. He was living true to his name. The killing perfection.
Seeing how fast he came to her rescues even in such far distance only prove how closely she had been watched. She was never free.
He leaned against a tall willow tree acting indifference to the wound on his left shoulder. Jaken started to open his mouth to complain but before he could say much, he found himself wailing over the forest.
She did not care. She went on about business and took care of her food and needs. His fresh wound and tore clothes were as good as new after two days.
At night, Jaken and Ah-Un would magically disappeared when nightfall came, knowing full well what their lord had in mind. That was when she would play her role. The reason why she was told to tag along.
It was the full moon that night. She focused her attention to the big and round moon, the warm breeze, the dancing leave, and anything else instead of him. It was such a beautiful and peaceful night.
He was having his way with her as usual. But something was unusual this time.
She looked at his stoic face. His movements were the same, nothing changed, yet it felt difference. It was as if he had been burned. With each touch he looked painful. He was in agony instead of her who had been force into this. As if his chest had an invisible opened wound that pouring blood out with each stokes he made.
He did not cry. He could not cry, yet she felt as if his entire being was crying. Broken and trembling inside. The silence howl that begged to be heard. He looked so fragile, weak, and wounded, as if he would turn into nothing but ashes with just a little rough touch.
What had caused this creature such tremendous pains she wondered? Never could her imagine such a strong and powerful beings could be so weak and vulnerable.
In that moment she realized that this seemingly strong creature wasn't at all strong. He was weak, weaker than any beings she had come across. Strongest yet weakest. So weak that he wasn't able to stand the pains alone and had to find comfort in another.
She pitied him.
He deserved it. The pains and suffering he had caused to others. How many women were parted from her parents? How many lovers were separated because of him? How many lives had to end? It was all because of him.
He deserved to be tortured and endured these terrible pains.
Despite her thoughts and what he deserved, she found her arms snaked around the demon's back causing him to pause stiff above her.
He searched deep into her unfeeling eyes with his golden pairs, his silky silver hairs falling on her emotionless face. There were no words between them. No questions asked, no emotions exchanged.
But she held him.
He was slowly continuing what he had started. He then leaned down to take her, normally unfeeling, lips.
She responded.
She could felt his pains reduced a little. His invisible wound was still open, but it had stopped bleeding as she embraced him. The pain was bearable for him.
At that moment she decided she would be the woman he wanted in bed.
For this pitiful creature.
She had nothing left anymore anyway. She would be this Rin for him. As long as he was satisfying with her, no other woman would have to suffer the same faith as she. The longer her death was put off, the farther another replacement needed would be required. At least some woman out there could live the life she could not.
That was what she would do.
She had nothing left.
He collapsed beside her a few minutes later looking exhausted. He pulled her closer in his embrace and for the first time he slept.
Truly slept.
There were many first times that night.
The first time she saw him so vulnerable that made him almost seem human.
The first time he did not go another round after their first.
The first time he looked so exhausted and truly slept.
The first time she held him.
The first time she pitied anyone after she was sent to her doomed.
The first time she responded to his touch and kissed.
The first time she did not love or hate his touch, but just a routine she had to go through with him.
The first time she didn't mind sleeping in his embrace.
To comfort him.
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12-14-2012