Hiro thought he heard something. There were hushed voices, maybe some shuffling. He wanted to wake up to those voices. Something about them sounded familiar. Almost like Tadashi's...

But that was just a trick of the wind. Tadashi wouldn't be out here looking for him. He didn't care what happened him. He made that very clear. He's probably at work now, not even thinking about Hiro.

He heard rain and wind blowing fiercely. The calidity that surrounded him contradicted what his ears told him.

He was dead right?

He heard a voice before everything went blank. It sounded a lot like Tadashi's...

He's probably already moved on. He could get another boyfriend or girlfriend easily. He's probably with that Honey Lemon chick, she was pretty and from what it looked like the two were very close. She could make him happy. Although the thought of him with someone else still hurts. It's that kind of hurt that stays with you forever. You can push it back but it always finds a way to cling to your subconscious.

Hiro felt nothing.

What was there to feel anymore anyways? He didn't feel it when he cut himself for the first time or when he tripped and fell down scratching his face. He didn't feel pain when his stomach growled at him asking for real food after two days of not eating. He didn't feel sick when all that was in his system was alcohol. It didn't sting when he punched a tree out of frustration and his knuckles turned purple.

There was nothing.

Not anymore. Not after Tadashi.

Hiro growled, hearing hushed voices. He tried to ignore them and stay in the blackness forever. Who needed to wake up anyways? Wouldn't it be better to just stay this way. To stay in the dark, lonely, void of nothingness. To just stay asleep and be dead to the world. It's not like anyone would miss him anyways. Alison's already dead, Gogo hates his existence and Tadashi...

Tadashi wouldn't care.

There's was a wight suddenly placed on his forehead. The first thing he felt sense he came to this place. The wight rubbed his cheek, then moved down his neck, shoulder and back, then back up to his hair. Was he being petted?

It felt nice and was greatly welcomed. It was a different touch, but at the same time seemed so familiar.

It was a battle to get his muscles to move so he could roll over and press his face into a warm embrace. As he moved the touch tensed, before going back to the motion of traveling around his upper body. There was applied pressure on his cheek, on that was soft. It felt like the kiss Tadashi would give him.

It lasted just a moment, but the small gesture brought about ease.

There were words being said to him. Soft, reassuring, caring. The voice whispering to him, pulled him from the dark abysses of sleep and Hiro struggled to pull his eyes open.

He instantly panicked.

The first thing he sees is Tadashi's face staring back at him.

Hiro's first reaction was to run, to get out. So he tried to get up as fast as he could out of the bed, but Tadashi was on him in an instant.

"Hiro calm down. Before you hurt yourself further!" Tadashi said pinning both hands of the younger one to the sides and his body beneath him.

"Get the fuck off me!" Hiro screamed trying his best to get out of Tadashi's hold. While Hiro did have some fighting experience, Tadashi had more and was far stronger than him. Lucky for Tadashi, because otherwise he would of gotten punched in the face.

This wasn't real. Tadashi's wouldn't be here, he doesn't care about him. The only reason he would be here would be to arrest him and there's no way in hell Hiro was going to let that happen.

"I'm not going to let you arrest me!" Hiro growled, still attempting to get his arms free.

"Wait you think- Hiro no that's not why I'm here." Tadashi tried to reason.

"That's fucking bullshit, why else would you be here?" Hiro's eyes watered, this was the last person he wanted to see. He felt himself breaking down, he couldn't take this not again. His head swam with questions his emotions were in a knot and god why couldn't he just be dead right now. He didn't want to deal with this, he couldn't .

"I'm here because I'm sorry." Tadashi said, threading a calm essence into his voice. "And because I love you."

"No! No you don't, so please just leave me alone!" Hiro cried.

Tadashi looked at him with those eyes. Those stupid, perfect, unfair, fucking eyes. His brown orbs held so much warmth and so much caring and it hurt Hiro even more. To see those eyes looking at him with concern, concern that he didn't want to believe was real. He had been so torn by Tadashi's threats. So why? Why for the love god, did he have to come and torture him like this. Why did he have to sit on him like this and be so unnecessary close. He felt Tadashi's breath on his face, his presence bringing back unfair familiar times of happiness. These memories hurt the most. They hurt because they at the time felt so real so genuine. He loved the closeness, he craved it. He would take comfort in the fact that he knew that Tadashi would come home at the end of the day and would kiss him, while Hiro would try and cook dinner. He would sigh in delight as those lips left feather kisses on his skin. He would laugh and smile and would feel loved as they would snuggle on the couch together, talking about their day and robotics. He would try his best to listen as Tadashi talked to him in japanese and he would tease Hiro whenever He got a confused look on his face, from not understanding what he said.

All those moments all those small detailed moments, gave him something to live for. It was too short. That amazing few weeks they spent together were the best in the world.

But that shattered in an instant. Less than five minutes and it all fell apart.

He ran as fast as he could. And don't ask him how, but he somehow ended up in the old summer house.

He's only been here a few times with Alison, but that was a long time ago. He didn't think anyone would think to look for him here, not that anyone would be looking for him.

When he got to the small town down the road, he did something he hadn't done in a long time...

He stole.

He almost forgot how easy it was to just take things without paying. Which is where he got all the alcohol.

He was a wreck when he got to the house. He drank, he would moppe, he cut for the first time...it was only about four times, all on the left side of his hip. He sat on the kitchen counter and used a razor that he always kept on him. Alison gave it to him, so it went everywhere he went. Even though he didn't have time for his shoes the blade was already on him. He didn't think Alison would want him to use her gift this way, but in the moment he didn't care.

He hated how he felt. He hated how he let Tadashi and him get so close. How stupid was he for thinking a cop and a criminal could get together.

The drinking didn't help him forget.

He couldn't run away.

All the drinking and forgetting in the world couldn't prepare for this. To see this man again.

"I'm a criminal remember! You said it yourself you hate people like me, we're scum of the earth remember!" Hiro felt Tadashi flinch at the last statement.

"Hiro I didn't mean-"

"Save it!"

"Please listen-!"

"No I won't! I'm not going to listen to you!" Hiro's face was red, his cheeks slightly puffy. "You already took everything I had away from, what more do you want." He turned his face away, how could he even look at Tadashi?

"Hiro look at me."

Hiro merely screwed his eyes shut defying Tadashi as best he could.

Tadashi shifted so both of Hiro's hands were pinned above his head in one hand, while the other went to roughly grab his chin turning it so Hiro's face, faced his. Hiro however being the little shit he is still kept his eyes closed.

Leaning in closer, Tadashi spoke barely above a whisper. "Open your eyes."

Hiro hiccuped, tears staining his face. Gather courage he opened his eyes.

Tadashi's eyes met his in an intense stare.

"If you can look me in the eye and tell me you hate me, I will walk out of your life forever."

Hiro opened his mouth to say it. To shout out go fuck yourself with a chainsaw and leave him alone. He would never have to deal with Tadashi's bullshit again. Wouldn't have to feel the terrible emotion called love. He could just go back to not giving a damn about anyone or anything besides himself. He would be rid of him forever...

...

...

Who the fuck was he kidding.

"I can't- Hmm!"

Tadashi cut Hiro off as lips crashed against his in the most affectionate way. Hiro kissed back pouring everything he had into the kiss.

Its perfect. Just like all the other times they kissed.

When the lack of oxygen became painful the two pulled apart. Brown eyes looked into brown eyes. Hiro saw so many emotions flash through Tadashi's. Guilt, sadness, love.

Hiro closed his eyes, he was still crying believe it or not and tried his best to ease his crazy feelings.

Loving kisses touched his cheek, kissing away his tears.

"You can let go of my hands now." Hiro said eyes still shut. Tadashi laughed sheepishly before letting him free.

"Sorry about that." Tadashi swiped his thumb over Hiro's cheek one last time to get rid of the remaining tears. "I am so sorry Hiro, I never meant to hurt you."

Hiro placed his hands on Tadashi's, giving a weak smile. "I know and I'm sorry too."

Tadashi's brows knitted together. "For what?"

"For not telling you the truth."

Tadashi sighed, resting his forehead to Hiro's.

"We can talk about that later okay?"

Hiro nodded in agreement before going in for another kiss.

'Damn Hiro, one kiss and you're already putty in his hands.' Although he had to admit, he still felt the sting of what Tadashi did. He couldn't deny it. It would be something that stuck with him forever.

Tadashi pulled back, moving off Hiro's stomach, which made him hiss slightly because of the cuts still on his hips. "Gomen'nasai" Tadashi said, joining Hiro to lean against the headboard.

Hiro merely shook his head saying it was fine. It was then that his stomach made its presence known by growling. Hiro blushed crossing his arms over his stomach. Tadashi chuckled. "When's the last time you ate?"

Hiro shrugged. "I don't remember."

Tadashi's face suddenly became serious. "You don't remember?"

"I don't really remember the last few days." Hiro admitted bringing his knees to his chest.

"Oh Hiro baby."

Hiro was going to try and explain, but a knock at the door beat his words. Then not even waiting for an answer Alex walked into the room.

She did not look happy.

"Tadashi now that Hiro's awake I would like to talk to him alone."

Tadashi was hesitant to leave Hiro's Side after finally getting him back, but rose from his spot next to Hiro leaving the teen cold.

As Tadashi left Hiro noticed the unwelcoming side glance Tadashi gave Alex as he left.

'Did I miss something?'

As soon as Tadashi left Alex closed the door behind him with a noticeable thud.

"Is everything okay?" Hiro asked.

Alex put on a smile. "Everything is fine." She said going to join Hiro on the bed.

"How are you feeling?"

Hiro knew something was off. This wasn't Alex, she was acting weird. He'd seen her act this way once, when Alex had a grudge against this freshman girl who made Varsity cheer. She put on the same fake smile she was wearing now and pretend everything was fine.

But he'd let it go for now.

"I'm fine thanks, sorry for worrying you."

Alex sighed taking Hiro's face in her hands. Hiro watched her as she looked disapprovingly at his cuts. "Look what you did to your face. That's okay I can get you some scar cream, that might help a little huh?"

Hiro didn't answer. He didn't know how to. At the moment he felt a little uncomfortable with Alex. He knew she was only trying to be a good friend but his head still hurt and wanted nothing more than to be with Tadashi. That didn't make him a terrible friend does it?

"I would appreciate that." Hiro said putting on his own smile.

He knew Alex saw it as fake, but she too continued to smile. "Alright then." She said as she started to braid her hair. She did this whenever she was unsure or awkward.

"Hey Hiro you didn't kill that one guy right?"

She asked out of the blue.

Hiro wasn't prepared for that question at all. "No I didn't."

Alex visibly relaxed. "I see."

There was an awkward silence before Tadashi walked back into the room carrying a tray of food.

Alex moved to bring Hiro into a tight hug knowing that Tadashi was watching and was extremely possessive of her friend.

For her final move she kissed Hiro on the cheek. "I'll be downstairs." She got off the bed smiling. This one was real this time. The face Tadashi gave her made it possible. He glared at her, but she just brushed it off. She was untouchable and she knew it.

Leaving the room so the two were now alone, the atmosphere still held some intensity, making Hiro stiff. "What's going on between you two?" He asked Tadashi.

Tadashi shook his head, placing the food tray that contained a stack of pancakes with syrup in Hiro's lap. "Nothing you need to worry about. For right now you need to eat."

Hiro didn't have the energy to argue, but then again he didn't really feel like eating. But Tadashi made this for him so he had to force every last bite down. "Thanks."

While eating Hiro managed to get syrup all over his hands and face. When Hiro was done, Tadashi cuckled taking the tray and placing it on the ground. "You're so messy."

Hiro grinned. "You're right, I guess I should clean myself up." Hiro proceed to lick his fingers, cleaning them of the sticky matter.

He could feel Tadashi's eyes on him, watching him sensationally tracing his fingers.

"Hirooooo." Tadashi whined rubbing his face with his hands.

"What?" Hiro raised his brow in an innocent way. "Is Dashi thinking dirty things~?"

Tadashi face darkened, lust making itself present. Without a second to lose the two were connected by the lips once again. Hiro moving to straddle Tadashi's lap. Tadashi relaxed against the headboard, his arms working Hiro's sides.

Hiro moaned, encouraging Tadashi to touch him more. Trying to get on Hiro's good side Tadashi did as he was encouraged to do, reaching around to grab Hiro's ass giving in a squeeze. Hiro gasped and a tongue breached past his lips.

Hiro grabs handfuls of Tadashi's hair, showing how much he was enjoying this.

Hiro was about to take Tadashi's shirt off when Tadashi put a hand on his stopping him. "Does this mean I'm forgiven?" Tadashi asked suddenly worried.

Hiro closed his eyes, resting his head on Tadashi's shoulder. "I'm not going to lie, I'm still upset."

Hiro couldn't say that everything was perfect and dandie again. What Tadashi did really hurt him. It left him with a hole in his heart, one that would take time to heel.

But hey, even after all that, Hiro still loved him. Everyone deserves a second chance, well at least Tadashi did.

Tadashi exhaled. "Hiro let me makes this up to you. I promise from now on I will do everything I can to make you happy. You are my everything, you are mine." Tadashi gripped Hiro's hips almost painfully. "Although to be honest even if you said no I don't think I would let you go."

Hiro laughed. "Possessive much?"

"Only when it comes to you."

Hiro's heart swelled. This is the feeling he longed for. The feeling of being wanted and cared for. He spent so many nights alone. When Alison wasn't there Gogo barely noticed his existence and it wasn't like he had any true friends. He never felt like he was needed, that he was just a waste of space. Garbage in the environment. So when Tadashi said that he wouldn't let Hiro go ever again, it made him happy.

He lifted his head to kiss Tadashi on the cheek. "It's going to take sometime, but I really want to try again with you. I might be upset for a while, but being away from you would make me feel worse."

Tadashi smiled, he loved Hiro so much. He wanted Hiro to know that. "Let me make love to you."

Hiro nodded. "Please."

...

Hiro gasped as Tadashi's cock stretched him. He heard Tadashi sharply intake air. "God Hiro you're so tight."

"W-well it's be-ah! Been awhile." Hiro stammered as Tadashi began to move.

Hiro had almost forgot how big Tadashi was and how good the feeling of having something inside him was.

Tadashi picked up his pace, thrusting into the teen faster and faster. Hiro felt the bottom of his stomach began to feel hot.

"Tadashi I'm coming."

Hiro saw white as he came. White liquid coating his chest.

When Hiro muscles clenched around him, he spilled his seed into his lover.

"Ta-Tadashi." Hiro reached up to wrap his arms around him.

Tadashi smiled leaning over to capture the Youngers lips. "I've got you Hiro and I'm never letting you go."