"Ema, Ema, wake up sweetie. We're home", I heard a sweet voice say. Voice was familiar with me, but I couldn't remember it. As I opened my eyes, I saw my home. Our living room, kitchen, door to my room and the beautiful view to Seine from the living room windows. Suddenly I saw my mother in front of me. She smiled as she always did. But then I heard crying next to me. My dad sat on the floor and cried. I looked back to my mom, and she started get awfully white. Her head started to bleed badly and all the blood fell down on the floor. Blood started to leak out of her mouth while she was still smiling. Once she opened her mouth as to say something, all the blood came out as a flood. Tears started to fall on my cheeks, and before I noticed my father was there with a gun in his hand. I watched as he put in under his chin. He grinded and said something, which I couldn't hear, since I was screaming; "isä", "dad".
Felt light but strong shake on my shoulders. I opened my eyes and saw Natsumes face in front of mine. He looked especially worried. After that I saw other worried faces around me. I started to cry swiftly.
"Ema, watch wrong? Did you see a bad dream?" Natsume asked drying my tears with his sleeve. I nodded and tried to stop crying, but I couldn't. Five seconds later he hugged me tightly. My tears stopped flowing as he said:
"Don't worry, we're here. If you need anything just ask." He moved away and looked me straight into eyes.
"Got it?" He asked and I nodded again.
"Natsume, that's unfair! I want to hug her too!" Tsubaki said behind me. Natsume rolled his eyes.
"Onee-chan, what was that dream about?" Wataru asked and Masaomi looked at him severely.
"I'd rather not talk about it, since it has a lot of things about my past", I answered. I looked through my window to the mass of clouds.
"They're starting to serve food", Kaname said. I put down the tray in front of me and stretched. In my dream dad wanted to kill himself, like he almost did. He got really depressed after mom died. If I wouldn't have come home early, I would have found my dad on the floor with a bullet shot through his head. I wondered why I had remembered such an awful thing. Natsume woke me up from my thinking mode and handed me my dinner. He also passed me my drink. I just stared my dinner, which was in some plastic tray.
"Ema? Are you okay?" Natsume asked and I boggled.
"Yeah, I am, don't worry", I lied. I definitely wasn't okay. I started to eat my hideous dinner and once in a while drank water trying to wash that awful taste out of my mouth. After dinner I put my headphones on and started to listen to music.
"We are arriving to the Tokyo International Airport. Please lift buffets up and lift up your seat directly. Switch off all electronic devices and open the window curtain. Please close your seatbelt. We wish that you have enjoyed the trip with us, and we hope to see you again", said a woman's voice.
"Look, I can see the airport!" Wataru said and looked out of the window. Indeed, clouds had faded away and you could see a lot of things up there. I sighed. That was my new home. I turned my eyes away. Once we had landed I followed Natsume when we got off the plane. When we walked to get our suitcases I watched around without even focusing on walking. And before I noticed I had stopped and lost my sight of everyone else. I stood there looking if I could even see Subaru, since he was so tall. But I saw only faces that I hadn't seen before. I sighed and started to look for signs that said where I could find my suitcase. I saw a sign that said; flights arriving and traveling bags. I started to follow those signs and finally found what I was looking for. Bags had just started to move on the conveyor belt. After few minutes, my bag came. I took it of the belt and stood there still looking for anyone I might have known. I moved away from the belt to make space for other people. I found a bench near the baggage claim. I just sat there looking for my brothers. I had once got lost in a zoo and my parents found me sitting next to the tiger cage, where I got separated from them. But this time it was a huge building and there were 13 persons to look for me. I got so irritated to not be found so I just took my sketch pad and pens from my bag. I wrote "Ema Asahina" with letters that were big as my middle finger. I drew an arrow under those letters and stood up on the bench. I held my sketch pad high above my head and searched for someone. I collected gazes that looked at me, but they weren't those gazes I was looking for. Finally I heard Louis's voice:
"Ema! There you are! Where have you been?"
"There where you haven't", I answered and sighed. Finally someone had found me. Louis called everyone where we were and people started to show up. When Natsume got there he was gasping. He had been running and calling for my name all the time. The rest of us left to get their bags, but Natsume stayed there to watch that I didn't go anywhere.
"Where the hell were you all this time?" Natsume asked me angrily.
"Well, when I got separated from you I thought that maybe you had continued to get your luggage, so I came here. When I noticed that you weren't here, I thought that you were somewhere else to look for me. So, I just came here to sit down and wait, if all of us are running around, it is hard to find each other. And then Louis found me", I told him, and he smiled.
"You really are a smart kid", he said. When the rest had got their bags we headed outside. Masaomi, Ukyo and Natsume went to get cars and Fuuto, Tsubaki and Azusa got picked up by their managers. Hikaru called a taxi. I went in Natsumes car with Yusuke and Subaru. I had butterflies on my stomach about my new home, or what I should call home. And suddenly the word flashed in my mind; school.
"Since I moved here I have to go to school, right. So, what about the fact, that I don't know ANY Japanese?" I asked and Subaru and Yusuke looked at me.
"Tokyo has a high school that has this international line. They teach everything in English, but you have to keep your grades high. I'm in the same school", Yusuke answered.
"I'm really not that good in school", I said and wished that he wouldn't tell me to start learning Japanese. I already knew how to speak three languages perfectly (or almost) and one language enough to survive with it.
"If you really were that smart on the airport, I'm sure you'll survive. And if it doesn't go so well, there's always Ukyo to help", Subaru said and I relaxed. I watched as people walked down on the street talking to phone or laughing with others. Maybe I could get some friends here too. I remembered when I moved to Paris, I had some trouble with getting friends. Everyone thought that I didn't understand french, though it was my other language. Everyone bullied me in french, and I understood every word. But then one time I opened my mouth and started to scold everyone in french. All those people had looked me and then started to laugh for their own stupidity. But now it was different, I wouldn't know anything they would say to me.
"We're here", Natsume told me and I looked at the big building. I stepped out of the car. There was this sign that said; Sunrise Residence. Natsume gave me my bag and his card.
"If you need help, I'll listen. Just call me and you're always welcome to visit", he said.
"You don't live with others?" I asked and he gave me a negative. He drove off and I put his card in my pocket. I followed everyone else to the house.
"This is your room", Ukyo said and showed me my room, which was more like a small apartment. There were some furniture already around, like bed, writing desk and a television. At the end of the room there was a door to a balcony. It was lot bigger than the one I had in Paris.
"Thank you! This is more than enough", I said and he smiled as an answer. I started to unpack my stuff and put it in my closet. I sat on my bed and looked at the television. I wished I had taken my game console with me. The rest of my stuff would arrive later with a cargo plane. Suddenly I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I was complaining about my battery. I took my charger and looked for a socket. When I finally found one, I realized that I had a whole different power cord. I panicked immediately. I went outside from my room and looked around for the elevator. When I finally found it I noticed that I had no idea where would everyone be. I approved my fate and just pressed some number. I got one floor down. No, no nothing here. I pressed the biggest number, 5. Two floors up. I stepped out of the elevator and walked through some corridor. I got into a place with a sofa and a railing. I looked down and saw the living room and a staircase near me. I walked the stairs down and counted how big that red sofa might be. It was big enough for four people to sleep on. Huge glass windows showed me more of Tokyo. Then I realized that the TV in this living room was big as, well, I don't know what was as big but thin at the same time. Then I heard Wataru to yell to me:
"Onee-chan, are you already done with unpacking?"
"Yeah, I am", I answered and he came downstairs.
"How were you that fast?" he asked me and I imagined the sight of my closet since I had thrown everything just in there without even folding them.
"Well, I'm always this fast", I said and laughed. I couldn't say anything.
"Oh, are you good at cooking?" he asked suddenly.
"I guess so, my friends said that I'm as good as a chef, but", I couldn't say more because Wataru started to drag me in the kitchen. The kitchen wasn't as big as I imagined it would have been.
"Can you make me a snack?" he asked me with his eyes shining.
"I don't know. I really don't know the rules so, I think we should probably wait for someone other", I said and his smile was gone.
"What are you doing?" I heard Yusuke ask. He walked through the living room to us.
"Wataru wanted me to cook, but I don't think I should", I answered.
"You should! Ukyo cooks here all the time and I would like to taste some of your cooking." Yusuke told me and then we heard Ukyo:
"Ema, you can cook here whenever you want. Since we ate at the plane, and the food wasn't that good, I think it's time to eat."
I smiled happily and started to listen Ukyo's instructions about where did he have different ingredients or tools. Since there wasn't much food in the fridge, I decided to make paella of what was left. I chopped vegetables and the chicken I had found and cooked it. After that I cooked the rice on a big pan and then added the rest of the ingredients. I spiced it and mixed the chicken in it. I left it there to get warm, and set up the table with Yusuke and Wataru. We called everybody to eat.
"Ema, are you a chef or something? This is delicious!" Tsubaki said. He and Azusa had just came back from work and were eating with us.
"Really?" I said and a smile showed up on my face.
"Believe him, this is one amazing dish" Iori said. It felt like this place, that I was so afraid of, was starting to be a home, and this group, that I had bad feelings about, started to be like a family.