The first thing Phil noticed when he woke up was the house was silent. This wasn't that unusual as Dan could still be asleep. But the thing was, Dan always woke up first. Not that Phil woke up that late but he always seemed to wake up to the sound of Dan clattering around in the kitchen or the quiet sound of Dan's singing while he showered. So obviously, Phil was a little confused to be greeted by the utter silence of what seemed like an empty house.
He got up, quickly slipping on a pair of jeans and a shirt before making his way to Dan's room. He knocked on the door softly, waiting for some sort of reply. When he was yet again only greeted with silence he called out Dan's name.
"Dan, you in there?"
No reply yet again. At this point alarm bells started ringing in Phil's head. What if Dan had fallen and hurt himself or something as equally dramatic as that. He carefully pushed open the door and slipped inside. He was completely prepared to see Dan asleep or lying on the floor unconscious but he wasn't greeted by either of them.
The room was empty.
A puzzled look overtook his features as he looked around the room. Surely he wouldn't have gone out without telling Phil first. Although their situation wasn't what he could class as a normal marriage, they still acted civil towards each other and would mention what they were doing that day. So of course knowing this Phil was a little confused to where Dan could be.
It was only as Phil took another step into the room that he noticed the paper on the bedside table. Without hesitation he made his way over to it and held it in his hands as his eyes scanned over the words on the page. It was a letter. A letter seemingly from Dan.
Phil knew as soon as he read it where Dan would be. What was that boy even thinking? He set the note down and quickly made his way out of the room and downstairs. He needed to get to Dan quickly before he did anything stupid.
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He couldn't do this. No matter how hard he tried he just couldn't. You needed to be a certain type of person to be in a situation and pretend every thing was alright, and Dan certainly wasn't that type of person. He tried, he really did. He wanted everything to be okay and to feel as if everything was normal, but it wasn't. Being a teenager was confusing enough without having to deal with some stupid marriage.
Out of the many ideas that Dan came up with only one seemed plausible. It was something he'd never actually planned on doing but now it seemed like the only choice. He had to get out of this and if running away was the only option then be it.
So maybe that's why he was standing on the platform of the train station in the light morning drizzle. The small pellets of rain gathered in his naturally curly hair as he stared straight ahead lost in his thoughts. Maybe this wasn't such a good idea, but what else was he supposed to do. He wished he could just go back to how things used to be but he knew that was impossible. So this really was his only option. Just to get out of this place and hope they didn't come looking for him. It wasn't what he wanted to do exactly, but it was the only way out.
And as Dan stood there trying to make his mind forget about all his worries he saw something out the corner of his eye. He saw someone, to be exact.
There, making his way across the bridge to his side of the platform was Phil. He had a look on his face which Dan couldn't really understand as he held a blue umbrella tightly in his right hand. Dan couldn't take his eyes off the slightly taller man as he made his way onto the platform and towards him. He didn't know if he should try run or just stay where he was. Who was he kidding, he couldn't just run away like some little kid. He had to face Phil now.
"What are you doing here?" he asked softly as he kept his eyes glued to the other man's shoes.
Dan felt the patter of rain on his head stop as Phil moved forward "Stopping you from getting soaked for one" Phil half muttered as he now held the umbrella over both of them "And isn't the second obvious?"
Dan looked into Phil's eyes then. His heart sank a little as he watched those blue orbs looking at him with such hurt and pain. "Where are you going?"
"I can't do this" was all Dan could get out "Not for you. Not for him. Not even for my mum…I just can't"
"Dan-"
"So I'm leaving. You could never understand how it is for me"
And for once Phil smiled at the younger boy. It wasn't a happy smile, more of sad one but it still made Dan get this strange feeling. Just seeing Phil smile made him feel incredibly weird.
"Try me"
"It's just…" Phil's smile faded as the first tear fell "I was supposed to be swept away. To have all my dreams come true"
"Dan…You've got all these little fantasies built up in your head. But life isn't like that. Life is just life" a proper smile pulled at his lips this time "It's unfair and sure it sucks, but it's life. Life isn't some fairy tale and you just can't expect it to be. And sure it's pretty bad for you right now but…that's why you have me"
The tears wouldn't stop now as Dan just stared at his husband. A million thought and emotions buzzed through him just making the tears fall faster "We have each other to help make it a little less sucky and more enjoyable. We have each other to… well to love"
And as Phil finished Dan couldn't help but smile. How could he not when Phil was being so kind to him "Come on" Phil whispered, carefully pulling Dan into his arms "Lets go home"
It seemed in that moment that they were home. Dan felt at home then, wrapped up in Phil's arms as he sobbed silently. He forgot about how he didn't like hugs or any contact because Phil was different to everyone else. He was kind and didn't scare Dan like they did. He was happy then, just being wrapped up in Phil's arms like that. It almost seemed as if everything would be okay from now on.
Almost.