Every time Natsume had free time, we spent it together. We played games, watched movies… And now we were kissing! When our lips hit, it felt like my heart was going to burst. He tasted like cigarettes and tomatoes. It wasn't so great combination, but it was the best kiss I had ever had. After that Natsume looked me in the eyes. He got closer for another round and I started to wrap my arms around him. Suddenly he pushed me away from him. I watched his eyes, they were full of anger. He released me, turned around and walked to his balcony's door.
"Natsume? Is something wrong?" I asked carefully and came few steps closer. His kiss and touch started to burn scars on me.
"Get out", he whispered.
"What did you say? Natsume, what did you say?" I said and grabbed his shoulder. He pushed me away and I my legs hit the coffee table. I let out a squeak.
"What the hell is your problem?!" I yelled. He ignored me.
"Tell me, what did I do wrong? Why are you so angry?!" I yelled.
"What you did wrong huh? Well you showed up! You came into my family and started to have those damn dreams. You said yourself that you started to see those the first time when you fucking moved here! Every time I had some damn time to rest, you showed up and I had to listen to your fucking problems. Like I didn't already have my own problems!" He yelled straight to my face with eyes that were almost burning with anger.
"Oh, you blame me?! Have you fucking noticed that I'm really not enjoying my stay here?! I had everything I needed back at home. My goddamn home is not here or in the Sunrise residence! Also I had no idea when you would have some freaking free time because you never told me! Every time I came here you had asked me to! If I could, I would just go back in time and not let our parent to meet each other", I told. He finally snapped after that:
"Get the hell out of here!" I grabbed my bag and ran out of the door. Before I left I kicked the door leaving a dent after me. I ran out of the building, and while walking to the residence I held in tears. I had lost the one person that I could trust.
After hearing Emas kick hit the door Natsume collapsed on the floor. He let out his bitter tears and let them fall on his floor. Why? Why? He asked himself. Why had he kissed her, why did he hurt her with such words? He remembered a shocked look on Emas face. She really was scared, wasn't she? Natsume sat on his bed and buried his face onto his hands. Even cats held some distance with him. He noticed Emas phone on his bed. He took it on his hand opened it. The lock screen appeared and Natsumes eyes widened. He saw his own picture as her locks screens wallpaper. I had been taken while he was sleeping and the cats laid on him. Ema was on the bottom left corner with a wide smile and a victory mark next to her.
"Why? Why do you make me fall in love with you even more? "He whispered.
When I got back to the residence I walked through the halls quickly. Unfortunately, Azusa saw me opening the door to my room.
"Ema? Wasn't you supposed to stay at Natsumes place tonight", he asked but I slammed the door behind me before he could even finish. I threw my bag to the corner without even thinking and undressed. I threw Natsumes clothes to another corner and dressed up into a t-shirt and sweatpants. I fell on my bed and let my tears out. Was he mad because of the kiss? I touched my lips gently. I still felt his kiss on my lips. Just thinking about it got me crying more and more. I had fallen in love with him for sure.
Natsume returned my phone the next day through Yusuke, and I returned his clothes by putting them on his mailbox, when I went out for shopping. I still saw nightmares, but they began to be shorter and easier to wake up from. I didn't scream after them anymore, and I had a small chance of falling asleep again. The most major chance was that I started to ignore Natsume whenever he was around. I was still angry with him. I didn't even say hello to him, and he didn't say hello to me either. Other family members tried to make us friends again, but I always ran away with a stupid excuse. I wasn't that good when it was about lying.
"You have to make up with Natsume", Tsubaki said to me while we were having dinner.
"Oh that's a great idea –not", I answered and continued eating my curry.
"How long are you gonna be angry with him?" Azusa said with a serious face.
"As long as I want", I said and asked for seconds.
"You can't be serious. It's almost two weeks since you started your fight. You can't stay mad at him forever", Subaru said and Hikaru, who was having dinner with us said:
"Leave those two alone. Woman's mind is something you can never understand. They'll make up when it's time." I left the table as quickly as I could and got back to my room. I opened my laptop and called to Sara.
"Hey", she said as she had answered.
"Hi, how are you?" I asked.
"Good. How's your thing with Natsume? You still not talking?" She said.
"Of course not, you know me. This is the second longest time I have ever been without talking to another person", I answered.
"What is the longest time?" Sara asked and threw a dart to a picture of his boyfriend. She had captured him cheating on her with her best friend.
"I wasn't talking to Maria for six months after our fight", I answered.
"Oh right, the crazy ass bitch right?" Sara said and laughed. Suddenly I heard a knock on my door. We cut our call for a while. I want to open the door, and Hikaru stood there.
"It's time for you to tell me what happened with my dear little brother", He said.
"What about, no", I answered. I started to close the door, but he stopped me:
"Listen, I am not like the rest of the family. I won't be mad at you, for whatever you did. I'm here to listen to you and give you some answers. Now, tell me, what happened?" Hikaru said and I made up a lie:
"I accidently broke something, and he snapped because of it", I said while Hikaru came inside. But as I well now, my lies never worked:
"You're lying. Tell me the truth Ema." We sat down on my bed and he looked at me with a serious face.
"Promise you won't tell anyone else?" I asked and he crossed his heart.
"Well, it happened so quickly, I don't even know what I was thinking, and then he just snapped and I snapped because he treated me like some toy and even the cats were there and I borrowed his clothes and that was kind on the thing it started from and if that damn time would have stopped everything would good and yeah" I talked so fast that Hikaru barely kept up.
"Wait, let me guess. So you kissed?" He said and a blush rise on my cheeks.
"You could say that", I answered and turned my face away.
"Oh lord. And then he pushed you away and you got a fight after that", he continued. I remained silent.
"How rude, first kiss a girl and then push her away. I have to talk to him about that", He said.
"No, you promised you wouldn't tell anyone", said and turned to Hikaru.
"I know what I've promised, don't worry Ema. I can see right through you and also right through him. You guys really don't want to be mad to each other forever. I also know that you love each other very much, even beyond siblings' level. Natsume can't understand his own feelings, if you can't understand your own. So please, before this turns awfully long, make up with him", Hikaru said and left my room. I sat there and thought; what were my feelings for him. Of course I knew I had fallen in love with him, but how much. How deep was I?
"We're going on a vacation. Next week we're going on a trip to our vacation home. I have a club in Yatsutake, and we're going to have a little festival there", Kaname told and handed a flier to Yusuke.
"Oh, I want to go!" Wataru yelled exited.
"I would love to take a trip!" I said pretty much as excited as Wataru.
"It would be great indeed. Let's call everyone and those come who want to come", Masaomi said and Yusuke got a bit depressed.
"I have a prep school that time, I can't go", he said and Azusa added:
"Tsubaki's concentrating on work, so he won't be coming."
"Okay, let's go on a trip", Masaomi said.
"Ema, do you want to wear a yukata at the festival?" Kaname asked.
"Sure why not", I answered. It would be my first family vacation. I wondered how it would turn out.