I never should have Fallen! Chapter 4: Loveable Drunks, a fairy tail fanfic

Cana and I found ourselves in the middle of a sprawling festival, donning fresh bandages from the local clinic. Our mission was a sucess so we decided we should celebrate. Since Cana was out of her personal stock, we would need to find a place somewhere on the overcrowded street to enjoy ourselves. We ducked into the first pub we came across, settling in at the bar.

I tried my best to ignore the other occupants of the establishment; this night was for my own entertainment, no one elses.

"Bar keep, get me two glasses of your finest whiskey!" Cana hollered down the line, said bar keep took one look at Cana's smileing face, and bouncing bustline. An instant later he had what she requested, ignoring the calls from the other patrons of the bar.

He set the bottle on the bar with two high ball glasses.

"Would you like ice, miss?" The man asked, opening the bottle.

"I've changed my mind, just give me the whole bottle. Lucy, hurry up and order or I'll pick for you." Cana took the bottle from the man's hand; she took a swallow and purred in contentment.

"May I have something strong, anything but whiskey." I leaned heavily on the bar, letting my sore muscles relax for a bit. The bar keep took a moment to bring me a bottle of fruit flavored vodka. He placed the bottle on the bar with a glass, which I refused. Tonight I was going all out, I had every intention to drink my fill my reputation be damned.

"You'll keep them coming right mister." Cana winked, and passed a large note across the bar top. "We're celebrating tonight."

"Yes ma'am." He had the biggest grin on his face as he shuffled to the back room, intent on bringing every last bottle of whiskey to his new favorite patron.

"Alright, let's do this properly." Cana shifted in her seat, holding her bottle up in a salute, I mirrored the action with my bottle. "I'm drinking to our success, and your well placed bet."

"I'll drink to that, and getting absolutely hammered." We tapped the neck of out bottles together, cheering 'bottoms up'.

We spent our time enjoying the drinking games that broke out all around us, some which we participated in happily. Cana drank them all under the table, while I managed to pull out a single victory at a game of quarters. I felt so light, so free. I could see why Cana enjoyed living in this state of mental suspension, I really didn't feel the need to brood over my troubles, I could finally just be.

It had been several hours since we had entered the establishment, and Cana was finishing off the last bottle of whiskey that the bar keep could find.

"'Bout time we move on." Cana gave a lopsided smile to the man, paying our tab happily. He cried, and invited us to come back any time, followed shortly by our drinking buddies crying that they'd miss us, some even challenging Cana to a rematch the next time. She had laughed at them, claiming that she'd wipe the floor with them anytime.

I was on cloud nine, just enjoying the feeling of freedom.

The street lamp lycrimas were beginning to flicker to life, casting a surreal glow over the people in the crowd. All around me people we carrying on with laughter and smiles.

Soft music was drift from an area up ahead, presumably a live band was playing in the courtyard of the city.

I took a deep breath, taking all the happiness in the air deep into my lungs.

"I think I can do this." I turned to my friend with bright eyes.

"Huh?" Cana wasn't really paying attention, she was more interested in the massive group of young men that had just passed by. "What were you saying?"

"I said, I think I can do this now." She gave me a look like she couldn't understand what I was trying to say. "You know the whole brokenhearted Lucy getting over the stupid headed Natsu dumping me even though we aren't together thing."

"Oh yeah? This calls for more booze!" She linked her arm around mine, swiping a cup off a vendor's cart with a wicked smile. "Maybe by the end of tonight you'll forget he ever existed at all." I was about to tell Cana that she was being a little excessive when I heard a gasp.

"L-Lucy-sama, is that you?" I swiveled my head, to find the only other celestial spirit mage I knew standing behind me, looking adorable in her soft pink dress and a pair of kitten heels that matched beautifully.

"Yukino, what a nice coincidence." I moved to give the her a short hug. "How have you been?" The light haired woman smiled at us with bright eyes.

"Great actually, I had a very easy job, so we decided to stick around for the festival." She motioned to the tall man leaning against a lamp post not to far from us. I raised an eyebrow at him then looked back to Yukino, she had a slightly guilty blush across her cheeks.

"That's lovely, do you want to join us? Cana and I are celebrating our last job, among other things." I tried my best to keep my voice steady, as my mind began to clear.

"Just the two of you? Where are Natsu and Happy?" The question was completely innocent, she had no way of knowing what had been going on behind closed doors. I felt the sting of pain rip through my chest at the thought that we might never be that close ever again. "I don't think I've even seen the three of you apart."

"He...I... well... that is to say. Um..." I was flustered, and it irritated me all the more.

"They 'broke up'." Cana interjected. "Jackass, did the breaking."

"Cana! What the hell?" I flushed crimson. "Dammit, you swore you'd keep it secret, traitor!"

"I promised to keep it from our guild, Yukino isn't a part of Fairy Tail, so fair game." She tossed the cup she had swiped from a vendor into a near by trash can and continued, ignoring my segmented objections. "Why are you being so shy about it anyway? It's not like you were even really dating to begin with. Do you think it makes your situation better to stay silent about being taken advantage of?" She pointed her finger in my face before getting serious.

"You've been head over heels for that boy for years, and for all intents and purposes you were "together". That boy has been all over you since day one, it was only a matter of time before you wanted more from him. It's his own damn fault if he couldn't see that you deserve the whole package." Cana took a deep breath before diving right back in. "He is a coward to turn away from your feelings like that. When I see him again I will tell him as much, and if I don't like his response I'll drown him in the pool. Lucy, don't you see that you deserve better than this? Don't you want someone who loves you too?"

I was absolutely shell shocked at her out burst; I hadn't realized just how angry the situation was making her.

"I feel like I've missed something terribly important here." Yunkino added nervously, as she looked around at the crowd staring at our little group.

"Come on, I'll fill you some where else, since I'm all sobered up now." Cana grabbed Yukino's arm and lead the way down a path to the bar we had been intending to continue our festivities in.

We took a table, and ordered a round of ale before I got myself ready for the truth to come out in full detail. Cana explained everything that I had told her, going into the bits that she had seen from afar about how close Natsu and I had been over the past year. She told them about his little trip and how he hadn't even had the "balls" to tell me to my face.

I felt my face burning in embarassment when it was all out in the open, hanging there between us. I never realized just how bad my situation would look to an outsider, I had always just accepted it for what it was.

"I couldn't help but develop feelings. I never really wanted to, I resisted it for a very long time. It got more complicated as we grew closer, eventually I started reaching out, and I thought he was responding in the right way to move forward. I guess I'm not as good at reading people as I thought."

"That's ridiculous, I'm going to beat him senseless revive him and then drown him in the pool!" Cana huffed, still irate with the subject of our discussion.

"You can't control your feelings nor someone's actions other than your own; you aren't at fault here Lucy. Stop beating your self up over something that you had no way of avoiding." Yukino's eyes were shining with tears, showing sympathy for my situation.

"I am responsible for allowing things to progress without clearing the air first. I never should have let myself get swept up in his game." I couldn't fight back my tears much longer, it was almost more than I could take.

"If you ask me, Natsu is a fool." I tried not to make eye contact as I lifted my head. "I agree with Cana, no one deserves to be treated that way." Rogue was ridged in his seat, the knuckles of his hands had gone white from clenching his fist through the whole story. Behind his stone mask I could see his eyes burn with the same anger Cana was expressing aloud.

"I was blinded, completely overwhelmed by the situation." I tried to smile, so that my three companions would calm down a little. "But it's over now, and I need to learn to be who I was before he came into my life again. That's partly why I'm still here in Hosenka, I'm not ready to go back and face everyone. I need to put myself back together again first."

"You can count on me to help you get there!" Yukino sang, the tears finally falling down her soft cheeks. "Rogue, you'll let Master know that I'm taking some personal time, right?" She turned her eyes on her partner, internally amused at how angry he was under his well constructed facade.

"He won't be happy, you know that right?" Rogue seemed to be against the idea of pissing his Guild Master off.

"I can't turn away from a friend in need!" She declared.

"Fine tell him yourself then." He tossed her a travel sized lycrima, his lips twitching into a small smile. Yukino's eyes went wide as the screen flickered to life, she panicked for a second before putting on her brave face.

"Yukino, it's late, what do you want?" The voice sounded irritated. "Make it fast, I have paper work to catch up on."

"I'll be staying in Hosenka for a couple more days, I ran into a friend who in a bad situation, and I don't want to leave her alone." Yukino was so adorable when she had her mind set on something, it reminded me of the look Lisanna gets when she has a fight with Elfman.

"Yukino, you have jobs waiting for you, the kind I can't give to anyone else. I can spare you for a day at the festival, but I really need you back here after that."

"Absolutely not, my jobs can wait, Lucy-sama needs me right now."

"What does the blonde Fairy have to do with any of this?" There was a deep sigh before he continued "There is no point to arguing with you, is there?"

"No. I've made up my mind. Lucy-sama is hurt and I want to help, I'll be home when she feels better."

"Is Rogue there?" The light haired girl nodded before passing the lycrima over to her partner. "Step away from Yukino, we need to discuss the job you were supposed to do, now."

Rogue gave Yukino a look like she had murdered a puppy in cold blood while whispering something about how she was getting him into trouble again before shuffling out the door.

"You didn't need to do that, aren't you going to get in trouble for talking back?" I had never heard Yukino be so bold, it was very entertaining.

"Rogue will calm him down, and I'll get my way, I always do." She shifted in her chair, taking a sip of her mug with a pleased expression on her face. "It's one of the perks of being 'a rose about the thorns' as Rufus likes to say."

"Meaning you still don't have many female members, right?" I questioned. Yukino's smile dimmed a little as she played with her index fingers.

"We're still recovering from the reputation our last Master and Minerva left us with. Most are too intimidated to make it past the grandeur of our main building." She sighed wistfully. "I would love to have other girls around to hang out with, especially now that we can enjoy ourselves. I've been trying to recruit, but it's not going very well."

A moment later Rogue came back in, looking rather annoyed.

"He wants to talk to you again." the lycrima was passed back.

"I'm still not coming back." She stated simply, she looked prepared for a staring contest in all seriousness.

"Yeah, yeah, I get that." He sounded absolutely defeated at this point. "You promised to come with me to this stupid Guild Master Ceremony thing at the end of the week, as long as you make it for that I'll let you off the hook. Oh, but if you aren't back the day before the event, I'll come over there and drag you back. You are not getting out of it, period." Yukino nodded her head, blushing slightly.

"A promise is a promise, and I keep all of mine, even if it's going to be as boring as the last one you forced me to go to." She groaned for dramatic effect. "I really can't wait till you don't need me for these kinds of things anymore." She puffed her cheeks out in the cutest way I'd ever seen before.

"Do you think I like dealing with all this? Someone will be suffering with me, and it can't be a guy. I learned my lesson about that when Master Bob latched onto me thinking I was one of those dude who went that way, which I absolutely am NOT." There was a sound of distaste, and I felt a shudder run through me. Master Bob could be scary at times, and he had a fondness for two of my teammates. I stifled a laugh, as I remembered their faces the last time we had encountered the Blue Pegasus Guild Master.

"You poor thing, that must have been horrible. I promise to save you from scary Master Bob." Yukino was teasing her Master, cooing like that. I felt like maybe this should have been a more private conversation, but everyone else acted like it was perfectly normal.

"Sarcasm doesn't suit you, Yukino. Anyway, I really do have work to do. So, as long as you're back by that evil thing I don't care what you do."

"Thank You!" She let the screen go dark before sending me a wink, and mouthing 'I told you so'.

"I hate you sometimes, you know that right? I'm taking the fall for that stupid mission." He folded his arms over his chest before continuing. "Apparently our client sent a complaint letter about how the job was handled straight to the guild accusing us of improper conduct."

Yukino didn't seem to worried about it, but Rogue looked absolutely unnerved.

"I don't see what the problem is, we did our job; it was the client's fault for withholding information." She focused on the mug in front of her.

"You know that you're not getting off that easy, right? I've been told that if I don't get you back in time for that stupid Guild Master's 'Meeting' he'll keep Frosh for another month. So you're stuck with me, and I'm going to make this a living nightmare if I have to!"

"Sorry to interrupt, but I've been meaning to ask you guys something." I looked from one to the other, both refused to meet my gaze. "You were tailing us on our job, right?"

"Huh?" Apparently Cana hadn't noticed their presence while we had been walking through the forest.

"Yeah, sorry. We were supposed to keep track of your progress, and alert the employer if the seal was broken. However, I refused to go back after your fight with that horrible two headed bear thing. I just couldn't leave you two, not when you looked so, pained. So we waited till you woke up and then I sent Rouge ahead, since he's faster." Yukino laughed lightly, rubbing the back of her neck.

"So he planed to cheat us somehow, that jerk!" I shook my head. "Super creeper and a jerk, I'm glad I squeezed the extra money out of him."

"I still don't get the three day deadline though." Cana thought out loud before snagging a waiter to order another round.

"Something about a woman refusing his proposal without a proper gift. She's coming to Hosenka for the festival, expecting him to have one by then." Rouge answered, his shoulders still stiff from annoyance.

"That makes a lot of sense, men in that world get desperate when they aren't married by a certain age. She is probably the only option he has left. High breed women are hard to come by after age twenty, and the young ones don't like to marry geezers." They watched me shiver at the thought. "I am so glad I don't have to deal with that anymore."

All eyes were on me now; I laughed nervously.

"What are you talking about?" Yukino shifted her head to the side, inspecting me like I was the two headed bear-like creature she mentioned earlier.

"What? I'm the only daughter of Jude Heartfilia, we were the wealthiest family in Fiore back before I joined Fairy Tail. My father had a marriage contract in place right after I was announced on 'society'. I've never really been an obedient child though so I took off and told him I wasn't coming back. I decided being a part of Fairy Tail was way better than the boring life of a socialite. Especially with my crazy friends dragging me into life and death situations all the time."

Yukino was laughing lightly and Rouge was still mumbling about his punishment when Cana suddenly grabbed my hands with a squeal.

"It all make so much sense now!" Cana mumbled. "I know how to fix this!" She pulled out her cards happily and started shuffling, it was a habit of hers.

"Fix what?" I really wanted to know since she seemed so happy about her conclusion.

"It all begins with your unhealthy amount of admiration towards that idiot! You were an only child, so my guess it that Natsu was your first real friend, right?" She didn't wait for my reply before continuing on. "I mean if you think about it like this, Natsu would go through hell and back for anyone of our guild members. He puts himself on the front line every time there is a major fight and some times he says the one thing that everyone needs to pick themselves up to keep fighting. Everyone admires him in that way, not just you."

"If you're trying to make me feel better it's totally not working." I sighed, trying to digest that thought. There were times that Natsu had done things because it was me, the Rainbow cherry tree for instance, that had been only for me. It was an insanely romantic gesture even though it hadn't been meant as one. There were dozens of other time, but I couldn't really say that he did them for any particular reason.

"I'm trying to get you to realize that you only see the good in him, and you are going to continue to idolize him so long as you keep that up; you practically worship him." Cana pointed a card at me accusingly.

"It's not a bad thing to think highly of someone who would DIE for you." I was standing up at this point, knowing that I was over reacting to her statement. "So what if my feelings started with gratitude, isn't that a good thing?"

"No, I think that you are naive, and don't truly understand the situation you've been so carelessly putting yourself in." Cana was standing now as well, her voice beginning to rise.

"I knew exactly what I was getting myself into, I was willing to take the leap if it meant we could be together." I was crying now, feeling my heart tear with every verbal attack.

"Do you think you'd still be singing his praises if he'd gotten you into bed before crushing your heart?" Cana narrowed her eyes dangerously.

We had never gotten to the subject of exactly how far I had allowed things to progress, so the question caught me off guard. I took a long breath, shaking with anger now.

"How dare you imply that I would ever do something like that! I was raised better than to just give myself away!" I was ready to run away, I was ready to curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out again. "I never let it get even close to that, ever." I was ready to bolt out the door but Yukino stopped me, wrapping her arms around me from the back.

"I understand how you feel." She motioned that we were going to take a walk. Rogue made a move to follow, but Yukino shook her head muttering that this was something she needed to do alone.

We walked away from the bar, and toward a quiet alley. "You know, when I was younger there was an article in Sorcerer weekly about Fairy Tail, specifically a very pretty blonde celestial spirit mage. I was fascinated by your interview, so much so that I vowed to be as awesome as you some day." Yukino smiled as she pulled the crinkled old copy out of her bag. "You inspired me, and I am the person that I am today because of my desire to someday surpass you. I'm sure it's similar for you, right. Natsu is kind, yet strong. His heart is what inspires you to grow stronger too." She patted my shoulder softly. "I don't blame you for falling for someone who always puts himself out there for the people he cares for. He's handled you badly, yes, but it doesn't mean that he's any less the Natsu that you fell for."

"Yukino." I wrapped my arms around her sobbing.

"You can love someone without being in love with them, maybe it's time for you to try shifting into that frame of mind." She lead me back to the others slowly as I processed the idea.

"Thank you Yukino, I'm sorry you are seeing this side of me."

"We are friends! It is my duty to help you when you are in need, the same as you've always done for me."

We both smiled, and I wiped what was left of the tears from my face. It actually felt better to have it all out in the open, it was refreshing to have the weight of my feeling finally lifted from my chest. I felt like I could finally breath properly again.

I settled back into my seat, and Cana sighed.

"I went too far, I'm sorry." I nodded accepting her apology. "Now if you'll excuse me, I need something stronger than booze."

She already had her eyes on some poor bastard at the bar, and it only took a few bats of her eye and a suggestive glance at the door to get him to follow.

"Don't come back to the room." She hollered over her shoulder at me.

"Where am i going to sleep?!" I yelled back.

"Don't know, don't care!" She sang before she dragged her item of affection outside.

"CANA!" I tried to call out, but she had already danced her way out the door.

"You'll stay with me." Yukino sang, helpfully.

"If we can find a room, everywhere seems to be booked up." Rouge interjected.

"We had the same problem because of the festival. The inn we're staying at is a little out of town, and it's not as pretty, but it's a place to sleep."

"Sounds perfect, what was it called?" Yukino was up in an instant.

"Honeysuckle inn." I gave her a brief description and directions how to get there.

"I'll go get us rooms and meet you down at the karaoke bar by the main bath house. This will do so much fun, I can't wait!"

She was gone before either of us could object. I took a deep breath and called the waiter over to settle our tab, she handed me the bill, saying that the young lady with brown hair paid her already. I thanked the stars, I really hadn't wanted to spend all my reward on alcohol. I patted her hand, giving her an extra large tip before pocketing the bill.

"Karaoke, huh? Sounds interesting." I got up from the table and turned to Rouge, amused by the look of horror on his face. "You coming or what?"

I sat on one of the small couch in the room looking over a list of popular songs carefully, while Yukino played around with the machine. Finally she got it up and running as our food order came.

"I wish we had these sound proof booths at the guild, I'd totally lock Gajeel in when he's in the mood to torture us." I flipped to the next page, half aware that the other two were staring at me. "It's annoying, plus since our little competition at the last Games he's forced me to dance while he sings. It's totally embarrassing." I heaved a deep sigh, turning the page again.

"Gajeel sings? That doesn't sound like something a big scary guy like him would do." Yukino shook her head, I could almost see the mental picture forming in her mind.

"You don't know the half of it, but lets not worry about that right now. I think I've decided!" Yukino handed me the controller, and showed me how to put in my selection before enjoying the tray of sweets she had ordered for herself.

"I'm sure it's fun though." She added between bites.

"Yeah, it is."

"Tell me why I had to come again?" Rogue grumbled from the couch he had claimed as his.

"Because you'd be bored to tears in the room alone. So you're going to have fun with us instead." She danced around the table plopping the book on his face before dancing back to sit by me.

"I will not participate in this." He shoved the book to the floor.

"You're no fun." She pouted, and I had to stifle a laugh.

"Leave him be, it'll be more fun with just the two of us." I finished my selection and signaled for Yukino to pick up the microphone.

The lyrics popped up on the projection, the little ticker at the bottom of the screen counting down.

"Ordinary Day" (Vanessa Carlton)

Just a day,
Just an ordinary day.
Just trying to get by.
Just a boy,
Just an ordinary boy.
But he was looking to the sky.
And as he asked if I would come along
I started to realize
That everyday he finds
Just what he's looking for,
Like a shooting star he shines.

He said take my hand,
Live while you can
Don't you see your dreams lie right in the palm of your hand

And as he spoke, he spoke ordinary words
Although they did not feel
For I felt what I had not felt before
And you'd swear those words could heal.
And as I looked up into those eyes
His vision borrows mine.
And I know he's no stranger,
For I feel I've held him for all of time.

And he said take my hand,
Live while you can
Don't you see your dreams lie right in the palm of your hand
In the palm of your hand.

Please come with me,
See what I see.
Touch the stars for time will not flee.
Time will not flee.
Can you see?

Just a dream, just an ordinary dream.
As I wake in bed
And the boy, that ordinary boy
Or was it all in my head?
Did he asked if I would come along
It all seemed so real.
But as I looked to the door,
I saw that boy standing there with a deal.

And he said take my hand,
Live while you can,
Don't you see all your dreams lie right in the palm of your hand
In the palm of your hand,
In the palm of your hand.

Just a day, just an ordinary day
Just trying to get by.
Just a boy,
Just an ordinary boy.
But he was looking to the sky.

She took a little bow and handed the microphone over to me. "That's a nice song, good pick." She complimented me.

"Let It Burn" (Red)

I watch the city burn
These dreams like ashes float away
Your voice I never heard
Only silence
Where were you when our hearts were bleeding
Where were you? It all crashed down
Never thought that you'd deceive me
Where are you now?

How long can you stand the pain?
How long will you hide your face?
How long will you be afraid?
Are you afraid?
How long will you play this game?
Will you fight or will you walk away?
How long will you let it burn?
Let it burn?
Let it burn?

I watch the city burn
These passions slowly smoldering
A lesson never learned
Only violence
Is your world just a broken promise?
Is your love just a drop of rain?
Will we all just burn like fire?
Are you still there?
Tell me now...

...can you stand the pain?
How long will you hide your face?
How long will you be afraid?
Are you afraid?
How long will you play this game?
Will you fight or will you walk away?
How long will you let it burn?
Let it burn
Let it burn

Will you wait until it all burns down?
Will you hide until it all burns down?
Will it hurt when it all burns down?
Will you fight when it all burns down?

Will you stand when it all burns down?
Will you love when it all burns down?
Will it end when it all burns down?
Will you just let it all burn down?

Let it burn
Let it burn
Let it burn

I felt my face heat up as I finished, but I was still extremely happy just the same. The next song appeared and I tossed the microphone over to Yukino again.

"Young And Beautiful" (Lana Del Rey)

I've seen the world
Done it all
Had my cake now
Diamonds, brilliant
And Bel Air now
Hot summer nights, mid July
When you and I were forever wild
The crazy days, city lights
The way you'd play with me like a child

I've seen the world, lit it up
As my stage now
Channeling angels in the new age now
Hot summer days, rock 'n' roll
The way you play for me at your show
And all the ways I got to know
Your pretty face and electric soul

Dear lord, when I get to heaven
Please let me bring my man
When he comes tell me that you'll let him in
Father tell me if you can
Oh that grace, oh that body
Oh that face makes me wanna party
He's my sun, he makes me shine like diamonds

Will you still love me
When I'm no longer young and beautiful?
Will you still love me
When I got nothing but my aching soul?
I know you will, I know you will
I know that you will
Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?
Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?
Will you still love me when I'm not young and beautiful?

"This next one we should both sing!" Yukino took the spare microphone and came to stand beside me.

"Sure, this is more fun than I thought it would be." I was enjoying myself, laughing and singing, even if I sounded like a dying cat.

"What Doesn't Kill You" (Kelly Clarkson)

You know the bed feels warmer
Sleeping here alone
You know I dream in color
And do the things I want

You think you got the best of me
Think you've had the last laugh
Bet you think that everything good is gone
Think you left me broken down
Think that I'd come running back
Baby, you don't know me, 'cause you're dead wrong

[chorus]
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over 'cause you're gone

[bridge]
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself, and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

You heard that I was starting over with someone new
They told you I was moving on, over you
You didn't think that I'd come back
I'd come back swinging
You tried to break me, but you see

[repeat chorus]

[repeat bridge]

Thanks to you I got a new thing started
Thanks to you I'm not the broken-hearted
Thanks to you I'm finally thinking 'bout me
You know in the end the day you left is just my beginning
In the end

[repeat chorus]

[repeat bridge x2]

I'm not alone

"One more, just one more!" I put in the codes to the song.

"The Grey" (Icon for Hire)

I am standing on the edge of returning or just running away
I am letting myself look the other way
And the hardest part in all of this is I don't think I know my way back home
Is it worth the journey or do I let my heart settle here

How cold have I become
I didn't want to
Lose you by what I'd done
Caught in the grey

I don't wanna look you in the eyes, you might call my away
I don't wanna give you the chance to make me stay
And the hardest part in all of this is
I know my way back, I don't want to go
And let you see all that has become of me

I should've know, I should've known
I didn't have a chance

How cold have I become
I didn't want to
Lose you by what I'd done
Caught in the grey
It burns for a moment but
But then it numbs you
Takes you and leaves you just
Caught in the grey

In your deepest pain
In your weakest hour
In you darkest night
You are lovely

How cold have I become
I didn't want to
Lose you by what I'd done
Caught in the grey
It burns for a moment but
But then it numbs you
Takes you and leaves you just
Caught in the grey

In your deepest pain
In your weakest hour
In you darkest night
You are lovely

I am standing on the edge of returning or just running away

I had sung with real feeling that time, letting it all out in three minutes worth of belting out my heart.

"I think I'm done, I can barely move." I turned my head to see Yukino was munching away at our snacks.

"Good you'll sleep well tonight." She leaned over and grabbed another cookie.

"Are you ready to head back or you want one more song?" She took the microphone one more time punching in the code to the last song of the night.

"I Knew You Were Trouble" (Taylor Swift)

Once upon a time a few mistakes ago
I was in your sights, you got me alone
You found me, you found me, you found me
I guess you didn't care, and I guess I liked that
And when I fell hard you took a step back
Without me, without me, without me

And he's long gone when he's next to me
And I realize the blame is on me

'Cause I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
'Til you put me down, oh
I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

No apologies. He'll never see you cry,
Pretends he doesn't know that he's the reason why.
You're drowning, you're drowning, you're drowning.
Now I heard you moved on from whispers on the street
A new notch in your belt is all I'll ever be
And now I see, now I see, now I see

He was long gone when he met me
And I realize the joke is on me, yeah!

I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
'Til you put me down, oh
I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

And the saddest fear comes creeping in
That you never loved me or her, or anyone, or anything, yeah

I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
'Til you put me down, oh
I knew you were trouble when you walked in (you were right there, you were right there)
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble
Oh, oh, trouble, trouble, trouble

I knew you were trouble when you walked in
Trouble, trouble, trouble
I knew you were trouble when you walked in
Trouble, trouble, trouble

"Right, I'm satisfied now." Yukino nodded as she replaced the microphone and turned to me.

"Finally." Rouge mumbled, shifting on his couch.

"It would have gone by faster if you joined us." I stuck my tongue out at him before helping clear the rest of the food.

"Time to head to our room!" Yukino was practically glowing as she pranced to the door.

"Room, as in only one of them?" My mouth hung open.

"Is that a problem?" Rouge was already out the door.

"Uh... no, not at all."

This is going to be a long night.