"Are you feeling better?" Naveen asked sitting down on the bed and stroking his mate's hair.

"Not really, can you stay a while?" Naveen smiled.

"As long as you like precious, we have all the time in the world." Naveen leaned back against their headboard allowing Alois to rest in his arms.

"You are shaking, are you cold?"

"No."

"Then what is it that bothers you so?" Tears were visible in Alois' eyes.

"I've felt like this before, I'm scared."

"You felt this before?" Naveen held him close.

"Yes, I don't think I can do this."

"Do what?" Naveen was becoming more concerned.

"It's been a few weeks since that night. That's about how long it took when-" Alois couldn't say it.

"Precious one, are you telling me that you could possibly-would you like me to contact cousin Ciel's healer?"

"I'm afraid of what he's going to say."

"I understand. I think It's important to have you looked at. You're slightly warmer than usual, if your stomach hurts and you vomited-'

"I'm sorry."

"For what Alois, you have nothing to apologize for."

"For being so afraid."

"Everyone is afraid sometimes, even natural demons like cousin Sebastian and myself. We all have fears. The trick is not to let it take control. Cousin Sebastian's greatest fear is the loss of cousin Ciel and his children-"

"He already went through losing him though didn't he, and they're still together, why be afraid?'

"Because he knows what It's like to hold cousin Ciel in his arms and for him to be lifeless, to know that the one you love is gone, and there is nothing that can be done- my greatest fear is to lose you or Victor. Do you want me to call for the healer, I will stay here with you?"

"I suppose we should. You promise you'll stay?"

"Always." Alois nodded

"I will return shortly, lie here and rest." Naveen kissed his mate's forehead before leaning him back on the,pillows and leaving to call the healer.

It hadn't taken long for the healer to arrive, Alois became increasingly nervous as the healer's footsteps approached the room. Fresh tears fell despite his effort to calm down.

"Alois, he's here, It's going to be alright." Naveen said sitting down on his side of the bed.

"Good afternoon Alois, I hear you aren't feeling well and there's quite a lot of anxiety as well." The blonde boy nodded.

"Try to take it easy, I'm just going to have a look now. Naveen tells me that you're having pains in your abdomen and vomiting as well as a small fever. I'm just going to have a look."

"It's going to be alright Alois." Naveen soothed, taking Alois' hand. The healer gently laid a hand on Alois' stomach and applied pressure.

"Does this hurt at all?"

"A little.' The pain increased toward the middle of his stomach.

"Alois, I know this is very difficult for you, but there is no doubt, please try to be calm, so far everything seems to be okay. I can tell you that the cause of your illness is that you are pregnant." Alois wanted to be happy but his fear was stronger than his joy. Naveen couldn't hide his own happiness.

"You're sure?" Alois asked feeling as if his world had shattered around him.

"Yes, there is no doubt,there is a child inside you, before you get anymore worked up, you are not in the same condition as I recall. You are stronger, you may experience some weakness after vomiting as well as having pains and discomfort. Can you describe your pains?"

"I-It's like-"

"Is it pain or does it feel similar to your arms and legs when you use them too much?"

"It's pain, not-"

"Good. Listen to me carefully, I know it feels similar but it isn't the same. Your little one is right where it needs to be. You have to not only be strong physically right now but emotionally as well. Your anxiety will only add to your pain and illness." He turned his attention to Naveen, who was trying to calm his mate.

"He's going to need you, you are not only his mate, but the father of his child, it is your responsibility to protect both of them, and ensure their health to the best of your ability. Keep him as calm as you can. As I told your cousin with their first child, he will need more feedings, he will probably be very tired at times It's a good idea to have him rest ar least an hour each day."

"He will." Naveen's happiness quickly disappeared when he noticed Alois was becoming more upset.

"Precious, are you alright?"

"No." Alois said shortly.

"If you don't want to have this baby, I won't make you."

"It's not that. I'm scared, if I lose it, I don't know that I can live with that. Not a second time."

"There is never a guarentee Alois, but at this time, the baby is fine, I will caution you that the pain worsens as time goes on. Giving birth is not at all easy."

"Beautiful one, I cannot watch you suffer this way, the healer is here, if it bothers you that much, we could-" Naveen already loved the baby and he knew this would be difficult.

"I would encourage you to make your own choice, I will love you always, no matter what you decide. If you don't keep it, and when you're up to it, we could look into adoption."

"If I don't keep it, we'll both be heartbroken. It's not that I don't want our baby, I'm afraid to."

"That is something you and I can work on. We can see if cousin Ciel has any advice, would you like me to ask him to visit?"

"I don't know what I want."

"It's alright Alois, I will be right here for you." Naveen promised wiping away the tears from his mate's eyes.

"Take the rest of today, and the next few days to rest in bed. You're at the very beginning and resting helps both of you. It gives the baby a good chance." The healer said, Alois nodded.

"If you have any concerns or questions, feel free to contact me, other than that, I think that's all for now, I'll let myself out."

"Thank you." Naveen said.

"One more thing before I go, Naveen, I also told your cousin Sebastian that those demons who want to be a father, should act on whatever their heart tells them to do for the mother, it often means a great deal to them and is most often the best thing. It does not happen with every father, but it will show you what kind of parent you will become. Mothers are sometimes prone to depression, that is when you will be needed most." He said before leaving.

"Alois, I am so sorry. I should never have- you know I love you don't you?"

"Yes." Alois leaned into Naveen, laying his head on his chest. Naveen placed his arms around Alois carefully.

"Try to get some rest, I'll stay right here. I love you."

"I love you too." Alois said, he was beginning to feel tired. He closed his eyes and allowed Naveen to run his fingers through his hair as he drifted off to sleep.

Alois was sobbing alone in the dark, empty space, he wanted to be happy, but his fear was far too strong, he was sure that if this baby died, he wouldn't last long into the same day.

"Wh-why do you cry?" A tiny voice sniffled startling Alois.

"Who are you?" He called.

"I do not know."

"Is that why you're crying?' Alois asked.

"N-no. I am crying because you are crying, it makes me sad." The tiny voice confessed.

"Don't cry, I'll be okay."

"Why are you so unhappy?"

"Because I'm afraid."

"Of what?"

"Well, I'm- I'm going to have a baby."

"You are afraid of the baby?"

"No. I'm afraid that it won't happen."

"Oh, I am afraid too."

"What are you afraid if little one?"

"the monsters." Alois wiped his eyes with his sleeve.

"What monsters?"

"The ones that say scary things. They are not there right now because they come when I am alone and I am very tiny, I do not like them."

"You poor thing, where are your parents?"

"I do not think they want me."

"Why do you think that?"

"Because you are so sad, and something poked at me and I do not know about anything. I do not want to be alone." This reminded Alois of his life as a human. How he had begged for Claude never to leave him and Luca.

"D-do you think we could help each other?" The little voice pleaded.

"How?" Alois sniffed.

"The ones who put me here said the one that comes when I call is my mommy, you came to me. Do you want me?"

"Yes."

"That is good, since you want to be my mommy, and I want to be your baby, I promise I will stay with you, and I will try very hard not to make you sad anymore. I will be a good baby."

"It's not that you aren't, I just don't want to lose you. I want you to be my baby and come live with me, meet your daddy and your uncle and if you do that, I won't be sad."

"Then I promise to be your baby, and I will not leave you, will you please come back and see me so the monsters will not be mean to me?"

"Of course I will. I already love you." Alois said.

"What does that mean?" The tiny voice asked.

"It means that I want to take care of you and hug you, there are so many things."

"Then we would both be so happy!" It cried.

"Yes."

"This is good, I am so happy to have a mommy, will I see you soon?"

"Anytime you want." Alois replied, he found that it wasn't painful to think about anymore, now that his infant had promised not to leave.

"You are going to go away now, but do not for get me mommy!"

"Not ever." Alois vowed. Alois opened his eyes feeling much better, and Naveen was still holding him. Sparkling emerald eyes gazed into his cyan ones.

"Did you have a nice dream precious?"

"Yes, Naveen, it happened."

"What did?"

"We linked."

"That's wonderful Alois, our baby wants to know you, to bond, I'm so happy that you were finally able to. How did it go?"

"Our baby has such a tiny little voice, it promised not to leave, I think everything will be okay." Naveen smiled, moving Alois so that he was lying with his head on the pillows before leaning over him and kissing him.

"Are you alright then precious?" He said resting his forehead against his mate's.

"I think so."

"Good, then rest, would you like for me to ask miss. Hannah over?"

"Yes. I want to call Ciel too."

"Of course. I cannot tell you how happy you have made me. We are to be parents, what a wonderful mother you will be. Such an amazing gift you are giving me." Naveen said excitedly. He kissed Alois once more. After he had gone, Alois rested his hands on his belly.

"Please keep your promise little one, daddy and I want you very much."