Disclaimer: I don't own Knb or the picture.
Skip to Monday: (A/N: Im doing a lot of skipping aren't I? Sorry~!)
Monday came, and it was a normal day. People ignored me, some tripped me and laughed at me. And I avoided Kise. Normal. Though what was not normal was what happened after school.
Sighing, I walked towards the gate. I was in the library committee and we had something to do today. The sky was already starting to set. Lost in my thoughts, I didn't notice a certain blonde until he called out my name.
"-sa-cchi! Mae-cchi!" I snapped out of my thoughts as Kise ran up to me. A fake smile immediately fell onto my place with ease as I greeted him. I had so much practice, pretending to smile around him.
"Kise-kun," I said softly.
"Do you want to walk home together?" Kise asked, stopping right in front of me.
I felt my face grow warmer as I backed up slightly. "Are you sure?" I haven't walked home with him since he dated Yuriko. He always wanted to walk her home.
"Yeah~! We haven't gone home together in a..." his voice trailed off when his eyes landed on someone. Yuriko walked up to us, a hesitant smile on her face.
"Hi Maeda-chan. Do you mind if I talk to Ryouta-kun for a second?" she asked me nervously.
Already I could feel my stomach drop. I forced myself to smile, and shook my head. "I don't-"
"Whatever you can say, you can say it to me in front of Mae-cchi too." Kise said quietly. Even though part of me was hopeful, I knew the true reason. In case she told him that they were officially over, he needed support.
"A-alright," Yuriko faltered. "Ryouta-kun, I'm so sorry for breaking up with you. I've just been so stressed recently, and I had really bad headache that day. Even though you were trying to help, I snapped at you instead and broke up with you. I've regretted that decision the moment you walked away. It was the worse mistake I'd ever made. When I saw you guys the other day at the amusement park with my brother...I was so jealous at the thought that you were on a date! I know you probably have a girlfriend already but, please forgive me! I really love you and want you back in my life!"
I could hear the sound of my heart breaking into a million tiny shards. I forced myself to smile at Kise. "I told you not to worry. She clearly loves you." Looking at Yuriko I said, "We weren't on a date. I was just trying to cheer him up. That's all. I wish you the best with your relationship. Don't let him go again, okay?"
"Mae-cchi," Kise said, looking at me. Shit, I can feel tears weltering up in my eyes.
"Take care of her, alright Kise-kun?" I couldn't take their pitying eyes and before they could say anything I ran off. The burning tears were blinding me, but I didn't care, running in the direction of my house. My heart was hurting, both physically and emotionally. My head started to pound and I grew dizzier but I ignored it, running even faster. The physical pain helped with the emotional chaos inside of me. I ran into my house, disregarding my mom's worried questions and locked myself in my room.
Falling onto my knees, I slumped against the door, holding Ki-chan against my chest, as I sobbed in my arms. Even though I said I wouldn't cry anymore, even though I said that I would give up on him, it still hurt when she confessed to him. Because I know he will accept her confession and date her again. He would go back to forgetting about me. Ignoring me. As much as I want to be happy for him, I couldn't. Why did I have to be so selfish? Why couldn't I just be happy for him, that he would get his Happily Ever After? I should be thankful that I even got to stand by his side, even if it were just for a while.
I screamed into the stuffed animal, but I couldn't do anything else but cry, like the pathetic person I am. The warm tears slid down my face. Was this what heartbreak felt like? The feeling of your heart being torn apart and salt being poured all over it. The agonizing pain of the fact that no matter what you do, it's hopeless. He will never love you painwhere you know whatever you do it's never possible for your happy ending to happen. The urge to end your miserable life because the man you love doesn't love you.
I felt a rippling pain spread through my body. Before I could stop myself, a blood curling scream escaped from my mouth. I heard my mom rushing up and banging against the door, begging me to open the door. Something crept up my throat. I clutched my throat as I coughed violently into my fist. Raw pain exploded in my throat. Was that blood that I saw on my fists? I could feel a little bit of blood dripping down from my mouth.
I want it to end. I want it to stop. My body was curled in agony. I choked on my sobs, the pain overriding all my other senses.
The last thing I remembered before blacking out was my mom screaming out my name.