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Tori arrives straight five pm just as I expected her to. She seems very uncomfortable when she walks into my house.
Who knows what she expected to find here probably coffins and a torture chamber.
"Hello aunty Tori", Amelie waves at her, smiling.
"Hi cutie", she grins at her, relaxing as she waves back. "I got you something."
She pulls a small wrapped gift box out of her overnight bag and hands it to Amelie. "Thank you. Can I open it, Jadey?"
"Let Tori come in first", I roll my eyes amused and lead Vega to the living room.
I lay down on the sofa again with Amelie curled up in my arms as before and turn the tv off. We have been watching Frozen as it was Amelie's favorite movie.
Vega sits down on the armchair next to the sofa and watchs Amelie as she unwraps her gift. It was a book about a princess named Amelie.
"Thank you, aunty Tori", my little one giggles, crawling over to Tori and kissing her cheek. "Will you read it to me tonight?"
"Sure", Vega grins at her. "I am glad you like it."
Amelie cuddles up to me again. I wrap my arms around her, kissing her head. "I promised Amelie to take her to McDonald's tonight. So I'd say we drive there soon. It's her bedtime at seven thirty and we have to pick her stuffed cat up from Beck's."
"Okay", Vega nods. "Sounds great to me. So do you have a plan to get Beck back?"
"Not really", I sigh, stroking Amelie's hair gently. "I mean I could try to drive him crazy but you know I am so sick of it."
"What exactly do you mean?", she raises an eyebrow, confused.
"I could do that with him what we did in the bathroom at school on friday", I explain her. "I could try to make him loose his mind so he'll take me back. The problem is that nothing would have changed than. All our relationship was about lately was doing it and that's not enough for me anymore."
"I understand", Vega nods, sighing. "You want him to want you for your personality and not just your body."
"Exactly", I say, looking at her. "I just don't know how I will manage that."
"Well you have to stop having sex with him", she states as if it is the most obvious thing in the world.
"Jadey what is sex?", Amelie asks me immediately.
"I'll explain that to you when you are a few years older", I kiss her head, gently. "Do you want to watch Frozen again?"
"Yes", she giggles distracted so I quickly turn on the tv again.
I glare at Vega, mad. "Was that really necessary? She's only three years, watch your choice of words around her."
"I am so sorry", Vega apologizes quickly. "I am just not used to little kids. I am the youngest in the whole family, I've never been used to toddlers or kids at all."
"If you really want to be my friend than you should get used to it", I tell her, quietly. "The same counts for Beck."
"So she's yours", she immediately understands the meaning behind my words. "Does she know?"
"No", I shake my head. "Just Cat, Andre, Robbie, you, Karen, Sikowitz and my parents."
She nods. "Thanks for trusting me enough to tell me your secret."
"Yeah", I roll my eyes. "Just get over it and don't tell anyone."
"I promise I won't", she smiles at me. "But back to my advice. How does it sound?"
I am very thankful that she doesn't ask me about it. She must be very curious but holds back all the questions.
"It sounds good", I shrug indifferent. "The problem is simply that Beck is too hot. I just can't keep my hands off him."
"He really is hot", she nods, blushing deeply. "I understand that you don't want to stop. If I were you, I wouldn't want to either but Jade it is only going to be temporary."
"I know", I sigh frustrated. "That's why I am going to drive to Phoenix with Amelie tomorrow. I'll take a vacation with her, we are visiting my aunt who I lived with during my pregnancy."
"Are you even allowed to stay away from school that long?", she asks me, quietly.
"I don't care", I roll my eyes. "I am thinking about dropping out of school anyway."
"What?", she shouts in shock loudly. "You are kidding, right?"
"No", I shake my head, kissing Amelie's head. "I am serious. I almost lost my baby girl yesterday. I want to spent as much time with her as I can get from now on."
"Jade it's your decision", Vega whispers to me. "But we all would miss you. It would be a waste of your talent if you dropped out."
"I don't know what to do", I sigh. "I just know that I want to be with Beck and Amelie for the rest of my life. They are my family."
She nods, quietly. "I understand that but you don't have to drop out of school for it. You can be famous and with them."
"But not the same way", I shake my head, sadly. "I am probably never going to make it in hollywood anyway so it doesn't matter. I can go to a normal highschool and get a steady well-paid job afterwards. I can be a mother for Amelie and my future kids and maybe I'll even get married to Beck. I mean sure it's not exactly what I wanted from life but I think being with my daughter is worth it."
"You are so different since the break-up", Vega tells me, surprised. "I think maybe it's not that bad after all."
"What is that supposed to mean?", I call offended.
I sound just like Cat to be honest but right now I don't really care.
"I mean that the break-up changed Beck and you", she explains me, gently. "You are much nicer and Beck he's changed too. Maybe you two need a break to find out who you are. It was always just Beck and Jade or Jade and Beck, it was never just Jade and just Beck."
"We should go to Beck's now", I sigh, getting up with Amelie in my arms. "So we can leave for dinner and get Amelie in bed on time."
"Okay", Vega mutters, following me upstairs.
I get Amelie dressed in the same outfit as mine.
A black jeans with a dark red shirt and a really cute black leather jacket. I even cliped the same purple extensions in her hair earlier that week. She really looks a lot like me apart from her hair.
Tori just chuckles when Amelie takes her hand and pulls her downstairs. "Hurry up, auntie Tori we are going to Beck."
"We are just picking Princess up", I roll my eyes as I follow them and help her in the car.
"I really missed Princess today", she explains Tori. "Princess is my cat from Cat and I called her Princess because Cat painted a diadem on it's head."
"Really that's amazing", Vega marvels grinning as we drive to Beck's.
When we arrive at the RV, Robbie is there too.
He is pacing around and looks very pale.
"Jade did you know about it?", he calls as soon as he sees me. "About our parents."
I immediately know what he's talking about, so I just sigh. "Actually I found out yesterday when I called my dad."
"Why did you not tell me?", he snaps at me, angry.
"Sorry that I was too focussed on worrying about my daughter to care", I shout at him, furious. "I actually don't care about who my father fucks."
"Stop talking like that in front of Amelie", Beck hisses at me who was holding our baby girl in his arms.
Tori had quickly covered Amelie's ears when I started yelling back at Robbie.
"I am sorry", I sigh, kissing my little ones cheek. "Robbie is just so ignorant. I almost lost you and Amelie and all he cares about is that my dad is now dating his mum."
Beck looks between Robbie and me surprised. "Since when are they together?"
"I don't know I just found out because Mrs Shapiro answered my dad's phone", I shrug at him.
Robbie runs a hand through his face, looking disgusted. "Jade is going to be my stepsister!"
"Just because they are sleeping with each other doesn't mean they are going to get married", I roll my eyes at him.
Robbie just glares at me. "We need to break them up."
"Forget it", I shake my head. "My dad and I may not exactly get along but he did a lot for me so if your mum makes him happy than I am not going to ruin it for him."
"Jade come on", Robbie whines, grabbing my shoulder with his healthy hand. "I am begging you. Please help me break them up."
"No", I protest mad. "No way. If he's happy than I am glad for him."j
"Who are you and what did you do to Jade West?", Robbie shouts in my face, shaking me.
"I almost lost the two people I love the most on this world", I sigh. "I am going to change my life. Now get your hands off of me."
He pulls away from me, grabbing my hand. "Fine. I am going to persude you. Let's go."
"What the hell are you talking about?", I look at him, confused as I try to pull my hand out of his grip.
"I am going to buy you as much coffee as you can drink", he explains me, trying to pull me out of the RV. "I know you love coffee more than your dad."
"You don't get it, Robbie", I groan. "It's not about love. This is my way of showing him that I appreciate what he did for me. The least I can do is let him get happy."
"Please", he whines. "I really don't want my mum to move in with your dad. You would just make my life even more miserable."
"So this is all about me?", I start to laugh, finally managing to push his hands off me.
"Kind of", Robbie whimpers utterly scared as he looks up at me. "You are very intimitating specially when Amelie is around."
"It's your own fault!", I glare at him. "Your stupid puppet was the reason she had nightmares for days. If your mum and you really move in with us than I am going to shred Rex into pieces."
"See", he calls horrified. "That's why we need to break them up."
"I would use the week that I am on vacation to say goodbye to your puppet", I roll my eyes as I walk towards Beck. "Come on Amelie, say bye to Beck."
"Cutie pie would you mind playing with Robbie and Tori for a while?", Beck asks her, gently. "I need to talk to Jade for a second."
"Okay, Beck", she kisses his cheek, giggling.
He than puts her down and walks towards me, grabbing my wrist and dragging me outside. "When were you going to tell me that you are taking Amelie for a vacation?"
"Actually I was going to just let you figure it out", I shrug at him, not looking into his eyes at all. "But now that you know. I am leaving tomorrow with Amelie, we are going to visit my aunt in Phoenix."
Beck just nods, sighing. "Will you call me during your vacation? You know to let me now that Amelie and you are fine."
"If you insist on it", I roll my eyes as I open the doors of the RV again. "We really need to get going now though. Vega and I are taking Amelie to McDonald's and it is almost bed time already."
He follows me inside again. "Okay." He kisses Amelie's cheek and forehead before wishing her a great vacation. Beck attempts to kiss me too but I pull away quickly.
Vega and I leave after saying goodbye and drive to McDonald's. Amelie is very excited about the small plastic toy she gets addictional to her dinner. Vega and I eat nothing as we are going to order sushi later.
When we arrive back home, Tori and I take Amelie to bed. We read the new book Tori bought her to my tired princess until she falls asleep.
Later that evening when we lie down in my bed, Tori speaks up again.
"Are we like friends now?", she breaks the silent. "I mean you trusted me with your biggest secret as I suppose."
I think about it for a while. I still don't like Tori very much for getting all the leads in the school's plays but now that I know she really has no interest in steeling Beck from me I guess I could accept her friendship.
"I guess so", I eventually reply. "You are good to my daughter, she likes you."
"She is really an amazing child", Vega compliments me. Eventhough I can't see her in the dark, I am pretty sure she's smiling. "You seem to be a great mum or sister as you prefer it."
"It's not like I prefer being her sister", I mutter, playing with my fingers. "I just think it's for the best. I may be a great sister but I just couldn't be a mum."
"There is not much of a difference, is it?", she asks me, clueless.
"It is", I say sharply. "I don't have much time for Amelie. I love my baby girl to death don't get me wrong but I was just not ready to give up my future for her. I had so many plans that were very important to me and getting pregnant so young wasn't one. You know Tori, I may seem heartless and all but I could have never killed this little human being growing inside of me. So Beck and I decided it is the best to say she's my little sister, this way we could keep her and try to live our dreams. What I am trying to explain you is simply that she's not going to hate her sister for only spending time with her every once in a while but she would her mother. You forget that she's my daughter, the little one is a lot like me and I hate my mother for not being there for me."
"I think I understand", Tori mutters into the silence. "My mum sucks too. She only ever fixes dinner for herself and only does her own laundry. She never does anything for Trina or me and my dad is always away. Sure you can't compare that but I understand that you are scared Amelie will think you and Beck suck as parents. Trina is not a perfect sister either but I never blame her for it as I do my parents."
"I would have never thought that you are the one who understands me", I admit, quietly. "I guess I underdestimated you."
"Thank you I suppose", she yawns. "You know, Jade you can trust me. If you ever need help with Amelie or so, than I'll do my best to help you."
"That's really nice of you", I tell her. "I appreciate it."
Soon after that Tori starts to snore lightly. I record it with my phone as you never know when you could need something embarassing like that before going to sleep too.
In the middle of the night, Amelie walks in and wakes me up. She had a nightmare so I allow her to sleep with Tori and me. I help her get comfortable between us and than pull her close to me.