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Lenny had no idea how they had made it up the stairs without incident with both of the pushing and pulling at clothes until they were both naked and in Bobby's spare room. Before she had time to make sense of what was happening Jax had grabbed Lenny by her hips and lifted her to wrap her legs around his lithe hips and his lips left her breathless as she was laid onto her back with Jax looming over her. His blue eyes filled with lust as he took her all in, Jax didn't know if he had the words to explain his feelings towards Lenny, they were complex at best but he could show her. Trailing kisses down her jaw line he felt her hands in his hair holding him close before they slid down to his shoulders where he felt her nails scratch down further.

Lenny lifted her leg around Jaxs hip and pulled him into her where she felt his arousal pressing into her, Jax pulled back from assaulting her neck , pushing her hair from her face his caught her lips in one last kiss before asking if she was sure. Lenny moaned her approval against his lips. This damn man had her begging like a starved babe, as soon as his hands or lips weren't on her she felt lost. Her moans filled the room as Jax entered her, his grunts matching her breathless moans. He was sure he would have scratch marks down his back from her nails but Jax didn't give a damn, he wanted to be as close to Lenny as he could ,posses every inch of her being that she would allow him. He suckled at her breast as she breathed his name like a prayer, Lenny caught the boyish grin he had as she glanced down at him and all she could do was throw her head back in ecstasy as Jax continued to thrust inside of her searching for his own release. Lenny pushed Jax onto his back and straddled him, her hands planted on his chest as she rode him to his own climax. She was sure she would have bruises where his finger prints gripped her hips helping Lenny build the he needed. Jax felt his balls tighten as Lenny's name was ripped from his throat as he came hard.

As Lenny climbed off Jax she felt him pull her close so she was laid next to him, their legs tangled under the sheet Jax had pulled to cover them as Lenny let her head rest on his chest her fingers drawing random shapes there.

"I told Bobby, like I promised," she whispered afraid to look up at Jax even though Lenny knew he was looking down at her.

She felt his hand come round her shoulder, " I know, darling. It's all gonna be okay. The club are gonna look out for you now," Jax was relieved the club had voted to help Lenny, it was better that they all be on board.

"Do they all think I'm a bad person now?" Lenny didn't normally give two shits what people thought of her but for some reason she cared what the Sons thought, she cared what Jax thought.

She felt Jax chuckle and pushed her self up so she could see him questioning what he thought was funny, " You know what the Sons of Anarchy do babe ,right? What You did was self defence. So no, no one thinks you're a bad person Lenny,"

Lenny settled back down into the warmth of Jax's chest, " When do the nightmares stop, Jax? Every time I close my eyes I see him. I see Nate lying there, bleeding , as the life left him," she felt she should cry but truth be told Lenny wasn't sad any more, she had left Arizona behind her and was happy in Charming, she just wanted the memories to disappear.

Jax looked down at Lenny, he wanted nothing more than to make the nightmares go away for her but knew he couldn't promise that. Planting a kiss to her forehead he whispered "Soon,"

They lay in a comfortable silence for some time but sleep didn't come for either of them easily and Lenny had suggested they go down stairs for a while so they both dressed, Lenny in her shorts and tank top and Jax in his boxers and SAMCRO t shirt, before heading down to Bobby's living room where they had settled with the tv on after Lenny poured them a night cap.

Lenny was sat with her back against the arm rest of the couch dangling her feet in Jax's lap as he sat facing the tv, smoking a cigarette, he had switched on to some old mob film. Reaching for his drink on the side table he saw a photo of a young Lenny, picking up the photo he took it in. Laughing at how even a young age seemed like a handful, she had a pair of dungagree shorts on with her hair pulled into a high pony tail with her tongue sticking out as she dangled her arms around a much trimmer looking Bobby and Ray Sawyer, who had a Sons Cut on. Jax knew Lenny's dad was into motorcycles but never knew he was part of the Arizona SAMTAZ charter.

"You never said your old man was patched?" Jax looked over at Lenny.

"Yeah, Ray was a member," Lenny shrugged, "My Mom never really spoke about dad's involvement with the Club, thinks it's to blame for the fact she's alone. First she lost her big brother then her husband and finally her daughter,"

Jax considered what Lenny was saying, he had seen Club life tear families apart before, it wasn't unusual for the strain to ruin even the strongest of bonds but it also helped to build even stronger ones. His own family had felt the strain of club life, both as a teen and an adult. In particular, Jax thought back to the last time Tara had up and left for Chicago after being pushed away by the pressures and needs of club life. Jax knew it was tough to get on board with the Club ways but he also knew it ran deep in his blood and he had learnt from his father and mothers marriage there is no compromise with club life. There was no doubt that he had loved Tara but she forced his hand to pick between his brother's or a life with her where she got to live her dreams out as doctor and Jax turned his back on all he had ever known. Tara had made his decision for him when she packed her bags and left for Chicago without a second glance. Blood was always thicker than water.

Jax carefully placed the photo back down on the side, "You look like him," He smiled as Lenny laughed, she obviously got told that a lot.

Lenny sat and chewed her lip as she contemplated her next question, she decided to risk the shit storm it could cause. Lenny needed answers, " Why did you take Tara's side at Teller-Morrow?"

Jax turned away from the tv to look at the beautiful woman that lay next to him, he had known she would push this, a girl like Lenny didn't go down quietly. Taking a deep breath he explained how he wasn't taking sides, " I had to get Tara out of there, Lenny. You were pretty much about to go bare knuckle on the girl in an arena of people who would have paid you to finish her! I just did wanted thought was right. I dropped her off at her place and haven't heard from her since,"

Lenny narrowed her gaze to Jax contemplating what he had just said and the truth in it, she figured Jax was sincere. They had found Lenny getting down and dirty in a pub brawl those few weeks ago and she knew she could be hot headed, so maybe Jax was just doing the broad a favour.

"Well aren't you just a knight in shining armour, Teller," Lenny stood from the sofa and noticed how Jax seemed disappointed at the lack of warmth in his lap, turning away from Jax and walking a little way away from the couch before turning and holding out her hand, ' Why don't you come show me just a gentleman treats a lady,"

Jax caught every deliberate movement in Lenny's hips as she succeeded in seducing him with her tight little body, it took him seconds to have her scooped up in his arms muttering about how Lenny-Ray Sawyer was far from a lady!