So... you know how things don't go as planned right?
Well... yeah... things have suddenly become a lot more complicated... I'm suddenly one of them... er... that is to say, I'm a spirit now. The reception up here at the North Pole is great actually. A lot better than anywhere else I've been... I've been to a few places too since I became a spirit. Much as I hate to say it... I feel a lot freer now than when I was mortal. I mean, life was okay... I guess... but while I miss my boyfriend, there's a lot of things I can do now that I couldn't before. I'm not alone either. I have Jack and the other Guardians... although it's Jack who keeps me company. He doesn't just stick to winter games either. I've had a lot of fun with him, but I'd be lying if I said I don't miss my old life.
I'm not sure what sort of spirit I'm supposed to be or even sure why Manny brought me back. I remember my old life, but not as much as I wish I could. I only remember that I had a boyfriend, that I had a job and that I was pretty content with life. I remember seeing Jack for the first time and helping him... but I don't remember too much about it other than I hoped that I could become friends with him and that he was surprised I could see him... I don't even remember how old I was exactly... just that I was an adult... not that I look like the age I was; Jack's told me I look like a high school student... so I guess I look about his age... or at least around the age he was when he died.
Okay... I guess I'm not feeling much cheer today, I can't help but think about the young man I left behind. Sure being with Jack is fun and all, but ... I donno... I guess I feel bad that I left him so suddenly. I just wanted some time to myself, that was why I took the vacation to Burgess in the first place... How was I supposed to know that meeting Jack, who I've always wanted to meet, would lead to the end of my mortal existence? I mean, who can predict THAT sort of thing? Although I have to admit... Jack has been acting a little... strange lately. I mean, he's been hanging out with me a lot more than with Jamie and I know how much his first believer means to him. I'm not sure I understand what's going on there. I swear that even time I spend in North's library, no matter how long I'm there... so is Jack, which is weird because I know that he's not much for sitting still for long periods of time and that he's quite the free spirit... figuratively and literally... So then... I know we're friends... but why is he hanging around me so much?
I'm curious, but any time I've tried asking about it he's just shrugged it off and said he enjoyed my company, but seriously? Even I need some time to myself and it wasn't easy to shake him today just to... ah crap... I think he's found me again. I can hear his voice just outside the door. I guess I should find a more remote place to spend my time moping. I don't want to get him down for something he can't really fix. I miss the friends I'd begun making at my job and I'd even been working to get a job that paid better... now I have neither... Ack! I'd better go before he gets in here and sees this! I'll feel even worse if he finds this!