Chap 35
2/1/13

JACOB'S POV

Bella ran into the hallway where I was when she heard the screaming from below. She looked torn as to what she should do, stay with her daughter, or run to her families' aide.

"Mommy!" Nessie said weakly, panicked. "What's happening down there?"

"I'm not sure sweetie." Bella replied her, and then turned to me. "Jake can you stay with her? Please?"

I smiled. "Of course Bella. Go make sure everyone is alive down there."

She grinned at me before jetting off towards the commotion. I took a breath before going into the room to see Nessie. She looked up at me as I walked in, she pulled her blankets all the way up to her neck, she must still be feeling embarrassed. She still had some bruising but she was healing quickly.

I sat at the foot of her bed silently. I was replaying the conversation I had with her father only moments ago. I didn't know where I should start.

"Jacob, I'm sorry." Nessie stated staring towards the ground.

"I'm not mad at you Ness, I was just worried about you. I'd never seen you look so….fragile." I said trying desperately not to picture her with Alec.

She laughed slightly, it didn't sound genuine. We sat there in silence for what seemed like an eternity. My heart was racing. Edward's advice kept repeating itself in my head. There were so many things that I wanted to say to her, yet nothing was coming out.

"I didn't know what I was doing last night Jacob. I was just trying to clear my head after how embarrassing I was at the store with you." She said sheepishly.

I didn't say anything. Normally I always had something to say to comfort Nessie when she needed me. I was terrified that this was a mistake. That starting…us…was going to be a mistake so soon.

"Why won't you say anything to me?" She asked me, her voice cracking. I sighed. "You are angry with me aren't you?" She said tucking her knees to her chest, feeling wounded.

"No." I said simply. Sighing again I made my way towards the door.

"Jake…" She said assuming I was leaving her. I closed her bedroom door and locked it.

I turned back to face her. I was really trying my hardest not to think of the things I saw her doing tonight. I was disgusted with myself. It tore me up to see her with him, but I also kept picturing myself doing those things to her. It was driving me crazy now. If this is what she really wanted…then I would do my best to do everything she wanted from me.

I smiled walking back toward her, amused at her curious expression. I knelt on the floor beside her bed and looked up into those gorgeous eyes of hers.

"I love you." I said to her, her jaw dropped with my sudden proclamation. "I've told you that I loved you since the day you were born Renesmee Cullen. But today I want you to know that I love you more than I could ever possible love another living being." I paused she started crying, so I wiped away her tears and moved to sit with her on the bed. "I admit you caught me off guard yesterday, and maybe I should have handled the situation better-"

Nessie interrupted me and shook her head furiously. "No Jacob, I overreacted, my behavior was childish and selfish. And I shouldn't have run off like that…I just wanted some time to myself." She finished exasperated.

I chuckled. "You don't get much alone time do you?"

She looked at me with sarcasm in her face. "You already know that I don't." She smiled.

"Well, see at least I finally got you to smile." I said ruffling her hair.

She blushed as I did so and instead of pulling away I let my hand run through her hair in a less playful way. I rested my hand against her soft warm face and traced her cheekbones with my thumb.

"Mmhmm." She hummed as I did this. It was my turn to blush. It was the strangest feeling. All these years knowing how we would end up, and the fact was making my stomach do backflips right now. It was unreal that I was touching her with such a desire I was fighting. I was lost looking at her. I could sit here for hours just to see her smile. To see her feeling content from me, that was all I needed.

"What are you thinking about?" She asked me, so quietly, so innocently. I answered her truthfully.

"How incredibly unfair it is to be so astonished by you." She turned a bright shade of red.

"I'm not that special." She muttered, placing her hand on my face before I had the chance to reply. She showed our argument the day before. Then I heard her voice clear as day. Are you still afraid? She was looking into my eyes when I opened them. I shook my head no. And then I whispered "Yes." Don't be. She continued to project her voice into my head. I just want to be with you Jacob. Always.

"I love you, and will love you forever. This Imprint thing works both ways you know." She said aloud.

"I know it does. I've heard it from plenty of the packs." I said to her. She nodded.

"I felt your heart break yesterday when you saw Alec and I." She said very ashamed.

I winced when she mentioned the situation. She cast her eyes away from me for the first time since I shut the door.

"I hope you don't think I'm a slut I just…I just." She choked on her last word. I didn't make her continue.

"Renesmee of course I don't you were only kissing someone…well granted you were topless…" I trailed off, she looked towards me about ready to cry again but I quickly corrected my mistake. "But I mean! I've been told you were badly wounded, and he stared off actually helping you."

She laughed watching my frustrations. "So you're really not angry with me Jacob?" She asked once again.

"Nessie enough." I started laughing. "I'm not an irrational monster. I understand what happened. And I understand that you are ready to make these kinds of decisions for yourself. As it turns out you're choosing me." I paused smiling at her, relishing in that thought. I continued with my head slightly less in the clouds. "And if I end up not being the right choice well-"

"You're NOT the wrong choice for me; your genes even say so!" She interjected passionately.

I ignored her, for now, and continued what I had planned to say in my head. "Well that's going to have to be something both of us have to deal with. This should be something we are both prepared for. I was skeptical because of your age of years on this planet. But you, and a lot of other people, feel that I should be treating you like an adult. So I will. As long as you truly believe you are ready for a relationship. That you're sure you don't want to…to enjoy certain freedoms in life a bit longer. After all there are a lot you haven't experienced."

"I want to experience them all with you!" Nessie exclaimed, looking endearingly towards me, moving to kneel on the bed beside me, so she could be face to face with me. "Every romance novel I've ever read, every love poem I have ever read…they are always searching for love. Like it's the greatest treasure the world has to offer. How lucky am I that you've been waiting for me since before I was even thought of." She finished smiling adoringly at me.

I smiled and laughed. "You think you're the lucky one? You must not have hung around me long enough." I said jokingly.

"I think that you are the most wonderful person I know." She said barely whispering. "I love you." She said shrugging her shoulders. "That's all I really know." She ended.

I gazed upon her perfect face, her lips quivering from fear, or excitement. I held onto her perfectly curly hair and pulled her face towards mine. Quickly she covered her lips with her mouth and I ended up kissing her hand. This was still surprisingly intoxicating, but I was confused.

"I thought this is what you wanted?" I asked her dazed.

"It is, it really is Jacob. I just…last night…"

"I told you Nessie, I don't care about that." I pulled her hair away from her face with one hand, still holding her with the other.

"No I know, I just…I haven't even brushed my teeth since…and…well I'd like to shower and I just don't…" I put my hand over her mouth midsentence. She huffed at me.

"Okay, okay quit rambling. I understand what you're saying. This isn't the right time." I finished for her, completely understanding.

She smiled and nodded her head. "Thank you." She sighed relived.

"Is this the time where I should storm off into the woods and get beaten up by a tree?" I asked her jokingly trying to raise her spirits.

Nessie rolled her eyes at me and smirked. "Hey, if I hadn't had my sense's taken away from me; I woulda kicked that tree's ass." She finished laughing hysterically at herself, she stopped abruptly clutching her healing rib.

I rushed over to her and laid her back down on her pillows. "Easy Ness, save the stand up for when you can stand up again." I grinned covering her with the blanket.

I sat back down beside her and noticed her looking at me expectantly. "What?" I asked her.

"Well…aren't you my boyfriend now?" She said bluntly. Totally her mother's daughter.

I laughed nervously. "Well, I was planning to actually ask you when we were on a date or something like that, but if that's too long for you-"

"It is." She cut me off outstretching her hand to me. "Will you lay here with me? We can do that right?" She asked me genuinely.

I nodded and turned her to lie on her side. I positioned myself behind her propping myself up slightly with one arm. I left some space between us and started rubbing her hair, hoping she would fall asleep and get some rest.

"Jacob." She asked me sounding sleepy.

"Yeah Nessie?" I asked her softly.

"Can you please rub the bruising around the rib. Not too rough! It ache's and has been ever since Alec stopped using his gift." I leaned down and kissed her forehead. She smiled.

"Sure Ness." I moved my hand to her abdomen and barely lifted her shirt on that side to rub her blue and green skin. Everything was peaceful and quite as I tried to get my girl to sleep. My Girl. I thought smiling to myself. Was I really allowed to have my love now? Suddenly Renesmee shivered, covering the both of us with the blanket, absorbing my body heat. She curled up closer to me.

We were what I would consider spooning now. Her back was pressed firmly to my abdomen…her…her ass resting against my barely concealable erection. I shifted myself trying to hide it.

"Is this alright?" She said to me nervously.

"It's fine." I said a little higher pitched than I intended. She giggled but remained in her position. I continued to slightly graze her bruise and she was starting to drift off to sleep, feeling more comfortable. She inhaled deeply and I anticipated a snore, my Nessie was known for snoring I had to admit. But instead she let out the softest moan that sent shivers up my spine. She continued to make a noise of appreciation every so often as I kept stroking her skin.

I've never known the definition of will power until now. I don't intend for her and I to act on act on any temptation any time soon. That I knew for certain she wasn't ready for. But God did I feel ready right now. I had to stop her from making those sounds, it tempted me too much to see what else would make her moan. I removed my hand from her and instead wrapped it around her waist.

"Why don't you get some rest, sleep through the healing process?" I offered her, hoping she would unknowingly spare me from myself.

She nodded and yawned at the mention of sleep. "Will you stay her with me?" She asked.

"Well it's not like you can be left alone." I replied.

She chuckled. "Well, I don't hate being alone with you." She answered sarcastically.

I readjusted lying down completely beside her. She rolled over and pushed me onto my back. She was pretty strong for someone in recovery. She lay down in the crook of my arm resting her head on my shoulder. I turned my head and kissed the top of her head, inhaling her scent. She covered us over in the blankets and rested her hand upon my upper chest.

I closed my eyes and watched the various scenes she played for me. Things she wanted to do with me when she woke up. Places she wanted to travel to. As she feel more and more into sleep her thoughts became somewhat more scrambled, and we were placed in unrealistic situations. I found myself soon drifting off to sleep, being the happiest I had been in…my entire life. Her touch was magical in more way than one, and seeing her dream as she lay her upon me was wonderful. I could feel her love flowing through me and suddenly…absolutely everything I had been through was worth it for this one moment.

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