6/8/13

Renesmee's POV

As I woke I felt the sun warming my face. I rolled over to discover that Jacob no longer was by my side. I stretched and slowly made my way to my clothes, tenderly changing my bandages before getting dressed. I wasn't quite sure who exactly I wanted to see first.

"Cassie." I said to myself heading out of my room.

I definitely had to make sure that she was alright. I hadn't made it very far down the hallway before I felt my stomach growl. Maybe it was best if I got myself something to eat first. Making my way towards the kitchen I heard my Grandma Renee's voice coming from Grandpa Charlie's room. I stood hidden at my end of the hallway. There was urgency in my grandma's voice, I couldn't help myself but to stay and overhear.

"Renee I don't understand what it is exactly that you are getting at." Grandpa told her while he was shuffling through his laundry, I could hear him folding it from here.

"Charlie come on! All you need to know is that you need to talk to Sue. I'm sorry I can't really tell you anymore than that, but it's very important that you make it clear to her that you know…that you know something! And she will fill in the blanks." Grandma finished quite exasperated.

"God dammit!" Grandpa exclaimed casting aside his clothes and slamming his hands on his dresser, he made me jump. "What is it with the women in your family?!" He asked her loudly.

"Charlie, you have asked me this before." Grandma stated starting to laugh.

"And I will ask it again Renee. You and Bella both with this "need to know" bullshit! I almost missed out on some of the best things about my grandchildren, I could have been killed along with the massacre of Forks for Christ's sake, this "need to know" shit could have gotten me killed or worse, killed my son." He paused briefly to catch his composure, and grandma wasn't laughing anymore.

"This isn't high school, Renee. We are a family we don't keep secrets to protect those we love. We seek put their help and their support and their godammed love." He spat plopping upon the end of his bed.

"He's right you know." I heard someone sigh a few feet behind me. I wasn't used to being snuck up on.

"Grandma Sue! You startled me!" I exclaimed clutching my chest, my heart felt as if it was going to beat out of it. "I'm really sorry." I continued. "I didn't mean to eavesdrop I was just…I've never heard grandpa talk that way." I paused allowing grandpa's yelling to travel down the hallway demonstrating what I meant.

Grandma Sue smiled at me. "Renesmee dear I am not upset with you." She ran her hand down my face as she spoke. She looked down the hallway towards her bedroom and her husband. "Your Grandmother can certainly bring out the best in people however."

"You're angry with Grandma Renee?" I asked her sincerely.

She frowned momentarily and then shook her head. "No, not upset, I just she would have let me do this on my time. There are some things I have to discuss with your Grandpa, Nessie."

"Do you want to talk about it?" I smiled as I asked her and she smiled right back.

"Soon dear, we will discuss it soon. For now I need to speak with your grandfather." I nodded and placed my hand upon her cheek. I love you I showed her multiple images of her and grandpa laughing and smiling together. She embraced the moment and smiled.

"There will be many more of those moments I am sure." She stated sort of uncertainly and proceeded towards her bedroom.

I heard Grandma Renee "shush" Grandpa Charlie and she poked her head out of the room. "Oh!' She breathed as Grandma Sue moved her way into the room; I saw her look worriedly at Grandma Renee as she closed the door behind her. I sighed to myself as I continued to make my way towards the kitchen. I truly did hope that everything was alright between my grandparents.

It wasn't until I reached the kitchen I realized that I didn't want anything to eat, I wanted something to hunt. I made my way outside to the hunting area behind the castle. The sun draped over my skin and made me feel whole again. I inhaled deeply and my mouth watered with the possibilities of my next meal.

I could taste the elk a few yards in front of me. I snarled and made my way towards the beast, my heart was pounding from anticipation as I drew closer. I leapt leaving the leaves at my feet to flit back to the ground behind me. I had it in my sights and grazed its fur with the tips of my fingers before I was being hurled off of my course and began tumbling through the forest floor. I still hadn't healed completely and felt pressure on my injured rib, but the pain was nothing compared to what it was when I received the injury.

"What?!" Was all I was able to say as I looked around for what knocked into me?

"Great! Just great! You know I was hunting that and you completely ruined my meal!" Aria exclaimed as she turned around to face me. Her face faltered slightly, as if she felt badly about knocking me down. It quickly returned to displaying annoyance…towards me.

"I didn't hear you or smell you!" I stated defending myself. "And that was my meal."

She scoffed at me. "Well clearly your sense's aren't up to par."

"Seriously?!" I exclaimed to her standing up off the ground. I raised the t-shirt I had been wearing to show her my bandaged abdomen. "I am so sorry that I didn't know you were out here. Considering the amount of trauma my body sustained a few hours ago I hope you can forgive me."

She smirked at me and began to walk away. It infuriated me. I believe I was finally beginning to understand why mom feels the way she does about this Aria.

"What's your excuse for not knowing I was out here then huh?" I called after her trying to get a reaction. She still kept walking. So I started jogging after her. "Is it just your bad genes?"

She stopped for maybe half a step, but continued on and chose to ignore me. I knew I could do better than that. "Oh I know what it must be. All those voices in your head right? Are you sure it's really dead people or are you just fucking crazy?!" I yelled almost at the top of my lungs. I didn't know what had come over me; I have never been so cruel to somebody before. But that sure did catch her attention. This time she stopped and turned to face me.

"He told you?" She demanded of me.

She didn't ask me how I knew. Masen must have been the only person she has told about her gift then. I wonder if dad knew yet…

"HEY! I asked you a question!" She screamed as she ran full speed getting inches from my face by the time her sentence ended.

It caught me off guard and I flinched slightly and stumbled. Within the same moment she laughed at me for showing fear, a ferocious roar echoed from behind her. I saw the massive from of Jacob trotting towards her and me. He never barred his teeth but growled lowly as he stepped in-between Aria and I. I placed my hand on his shoulder blade and showed him that it was alright that I was able to take care of myself. He snorted at me and shrugged my hand off of him. He nudged me with his head and tried ushering me back to the house.

"I'm still hungry; I came out here to hunt." I complained trying to stand my ground against his shoving.

He barked impatiently at me and nudged my thigh in an all too familiar way. I rolled my eyes and climbed on top of his back and allowed him to trot us off into another part of the woods so I could hunt in peace.

Aria called after me still fuming from our argument. "Answer me! He told you?"

I chose to ignore her just as she had done to me. If she felt the need to disrespect me I would show her the same courtesy. And just as I had done when she walked away, she decided to entice me.

"Fine run away, hide behind your slave lapdog. For a wolf I am surprised he is so tame, you must have had him neutered!" She cackled as we rode off.

"That's it!" I screamed as I launched myself backwards off of Jacob.

He started barking furiously before I ever even completed my dismount, I felt him pounding the Earth behind me as I ran after m target. Aria saw me coming, seething, and she ran full speed in my direction as well. I wasn't even sure how all of this seemed to have started but suddenly I was coming to the conclusion I was about to be in my first fight. And it was with the only girl I had ever known my brother to have sincere feelings for. Worst. Sister. Ever.

"Renesmee, STOP!" Jacob bellowed as he finally grabbed a hold of me and spun me around, his back facing Aria so that he could shield me from her.

I was furious with so many things right now. Over my life I have been embarrassed, mortified, depressed, saddened, angry, loved, ecstatic, and so many other emotions…but never have I ever been so enraged with anything. The way this girl spoke to me, the way she spoke to my mother, and my family. The utter unappreciation for being reunited with her family. The fact that my boyfriend was standing in between me and the girl I so desperately wanted to teach a lesson. The fact that he was naked and she could see my Jacob. Wait…the fact that he was naked and she could see my Jacob?

"Jacob!" I exclaimed quickly switching positions and putting him behind me, shielding him from her sight, I however had my back to him so I could face her.

"Nice ass!" She emphasized starting to laugh. "I take back what I said by the way…definitely not neutered!"

"I'll be sure to let my brother know that you feel that way about my boyfriend."Other than that I didn't have anything else to say to her.

I couldn't handle this level of anger any more. I wanted to throw up. I took off my T-shirt, leaving myself in my bra and Capri's, and thrust the wadded shirt to Jacob.

"Please." I breathed to him barely able to hold back my tears.

Aria had gotten me this distraught, I would be dammed if I was going to let her make me cry…or at least let her see it. He covered up with one hand and placed his other arm around my shoulder. He didn't say anything to Aria or I. He just led us away from her. We didn't run we walked a human pace and for whatever reason Aria did not taunt me anymore. I glanced back at her and sure enough she was now speaking with someone that I could not see. Finally I decided to answer her question.

I didn't yell I spoke just loud enough for her to hear me as Jacob and I continued through the forest. "Of course he told me Aria. I'm his best friend. I'm his sister." And then I ran. Not wanting to hear any kind of reply she had to say. I knew she wouldn't come after me this time.

Jacob followed me until he was sure that we were alone.

"Nessie, stop for a second." He asked of me. He should have known that I wouldn't listen.

"Nessie!" He said aggravated.

After everything he has put up with from me, I decided to act like a sane person for him and oblige. I stopped and he placed his hand on my shoulder. I couldn't bring myself to look at him yet; I have found myself doing this a lot lately.

"I'm sorry that I have apparently been replaced with a psychopath." I said with somewhat of a chuckle. He didn't laugh.

"Everyone loses their cool sometimes Ness. This is the first time I have ever seen you act…well…less than perfect, human if you will." He ended kissing the top of my head.

I playfully scoffed towards him. "Is it just because you imprinted on me that you are always finding a justification for my actions?"

He laughed this time. "Renesmee, I am not trying to give unreasonable justification to the things you do. Do you want me to call you crazy? Tell you that we are through because if you can't be the perfect girl I know all the time the deal is off?"

I cracked a smile. "No Jake I don't I-" My breathe caught in my chest. Of course he still held my tiny shirt in front of him as not to expose himself, but oh my. My eyes rolled over Jacob's body like I was committing a sheet of music to memory. And as if my life hadn't been emotional enough over these past few days, I began to experience a whole set of emotions I had no idea what to categorize them as. This couldn't be love.

I have felt love for Jacob…always. This was an extension. Driven by love…yet…warmer. I felt my body heating up just from looking at him. Every ray of light lighting him up, every shadow shrouding parts of him from me…I wanted to see him all.

"Nessie what's the matter?" I faintly heard him ask me. His voice sending Goosebumps up and down my arms. He moved closer, still covering himself. It finally dawned on him what had me in such a trance. He could feel it, my heart pounding, and my body radiating heat. "I think…I think I should go change into my spare." He stated gesturing to his leg tie pouch.

I couldn't help myself, but I actually snarled at him, quite menacingly at the notion he take this sight away from me. I laughed very nervously after that, clasping my hand over my mouth.

"I'm sorry! I didn't mean to do that!" I blushed furiously as he came closer to me, abandoning his notion of getting dressed for now.

He smirked, quite sexily I may add. I had never paid attention to quite how beautiful he was until this moment. "What's the matter Nessie?" He asked me teasingly although I am sure he already knew the answer. He laughed when I held my breath as he approached.

"Why are you doing that do I stink?" he chuckled again.

I shook my head no still not wanting to breathe.

"Then what?" He asked sincerely. "Renesmee, tell me." He breathed as he placed his hand on my waist bringing me close to him.

I couldn't take it any longer and I breathed him in. I shouldn't have. He was still laughing at the look on my face when I inhaled. But as soon as I did I bared my fangs and it took him by surprise.

"Ness-" He began but I cut him off by throwing my head into his neck. I didn't bite him but god did I want to. I inhaled that intoxicating scent again and kissed the side of his neck passionately. The noise he made. That I made him make it sent me into frenzy. I tried to pull myself away from him but he still had his free hand holding onto me. I have never seen him look at me the way he was now. Like he was hunting me. I felt a knot form deep inside my stomach, it ached…but in a good way.

"Jake I need to get away from you." I stated clenching my eyes I couldn't believe I was even saying this.

"Why?" He demanded forcefully.

I shook my head; I just wanted to get away before I hurt him. I was suddenly so ashamed. How could we ever be together if all I wanted right now was to bite him, to feed? He never smelt like a meal to me until this moment. God I wish I could go back.

"Please, tell me." He begged me, he was breathing heavily.

"Jake…I'm so ashamed." I said exhaling finally needing a breath. I inhaled again and growled in my throat licking my lips as I did so. I think he got the message.

He released me but he didn't back away from me. "You want to feed from me?" He asked me still looking like he was hunting, yet somehow confused. I nodded.

"I'm so sorry, we can't be together Jacob, I have to get away from you before I hurt you!" I sobbed turning on spot.

He grabbed me again with his free hand and pulled me close to embrace me. He stared into my eyes as if he was trying to see through me.

"Jake, let me go." I sighed calming myself slightly. He shook his head. "It's alright, do it." He said, his voice shaking.

"No, absolutely not." I said with every ounce of effort I had, imagining him writhing on the ground in pain.

"Nessie you aren't venomous. You won't hurt me." He stated calmly. Almost as if he wanted it as much as I did. His heart started beating faster as he saw my contemplating it.

"How are you not disgusted by me right now? I am disgusted with myself. I want to eat my boyfriend!" I proclaimed hanging my head.

He smirked. "Yeah well, I wanna eat my girlfriend but I am not sure you're ready for that yet." I didn't understand what he meant; eating me would be cannibalism…

"We'll talk about that later." He said quickly when confusion spread across my face. "But no I am not disgusted. It's what you want and I want to give it to you Ness. I want to give you whatever you want."

I looked at him and smiled. "I love you." I smiled at him, I was so grateful he could still look at me. I still wasn't going to bite him though, no matter how delicious he smelled. I didn't want to hurt him.

He grabbed my chin and held my head with the hand he had placed on my back. "Do it." He encouraged me exposing his neck to me. I could hear his vein pulsating just inches from me.

I shook my head halfheartedly and turned my gaze away from him. He smirked once again.

"Let me give you some incentive then." He ended with a laugh right before his lips made contact with mine and I could now taste him as well as smell him. I moaned. There was no other word for the melody of relief I made when I wrapped my tongue around his.

"Jacob." I panted. "I- I-"

"It's ok Ness." He cooed in between kissing. "I trust you."

That was all it took, I gave into every other fit of emotion I had been having recently, and this was the only one I sincerely wanted. I watched his expression out of the corner of my eye. I tilted my head back and bared my fangs fully.

"Beautiful." He breathed staring at me in wonder.

I had never felt so…sexy? Sexy was the word. I had never felt so sexy in my life, and I loved it. I loved that Jacob was doing it to me. Gently, I licked a spot on his neck, and sank my teeth an inch or two into him. He gasped initially, I paused briefly and he placed my hand upon his face so he could tell me that he was alright. I began showing him how much I cared, how much I loved him and how fucking good he tasted. I let him share my hunger. He may be the only wolf to understand the blissful satisfaction a vampire gets from quenching their thirst.

I had never taken any drugs, or drank any alcohol. But I could only describe how I felt now as high. His blood was a drug and the room was literally spinning. Before I knew it I jumped onto him forcing him finally drop my shirt and hold me with both hands. The only reason I stopped feeding is because I felt something pushing against me between my legs. I pulled back from his neck, licking my lips as I passed by. He stared at me as if it was his turn to take a bite. I looked down at my own chest, which had long been pressed against his and leaned away from him.

"Why are you moving away from me?" He panted.

"I noticed something." I told him.

"What?" He pants as if this was the most important thing I have ever shared with him.

"You're a gentleman." I whispered in his ear.

He didn't respond, just continued to look confused.

I continued with a giggle. "I have been topless for about 20 minutes now, and not once have you dropped your gaze to examine me. Not once have you stopped looking at my face." I beamed.

"It's a beautiful face." He whispered hanging onto my every word.

I kissed him passionately for the compliment, and I moved my hands off of him and behind my back.

"Don't stop touching me. I love being inside your mind." He groaned.

But I thought he may like this even better. I pulled my curls over my chest so that way I was still covered, but I removed my bra and tossed it to the floor. I giggled when his jaw dropped.

"I figured I would give you incentive to look. I want you to see me. All of me. And I only want to show you."

Masen's POV

"No really Aunt Alice." I exclaimed while pacing pass my window. "I love her. I love her so much!"

I knew of all the people in my family, Alice would be on my side with this. After all she was the first one to help me to get Aria to stay here after all.

"Masen you have only known the girl a few days. Shouldn't you take some time to think about this?" She asked me endearingly, watching me pace.

My face fell and she quickly tried to recover. "I am not telling you that you don't feel this way I promise. But maybe you should take some time to get to know her better. To find out everything you can about her." She ended smiling at me.

I reciprocated; she did know how to make me feel better.

"Now do you have any ideas how you can get your mother to like her?" She added with a smirk.

I laughed at the thought of mom forcing herself to get to know her. I shook my head and scowled. "I wish I did."

"Well, what about Renesmee? Do you think she could convince Bella?" Aunt Alice asked me.

I felt like an idiot.

"Of course!" I exclaimed running over to my Aunt and lifting her off the ground in a hug. She squealed as I spun her and kissed her cheeks. "I was just talking to Ness about Aria, she'll love her!" Aunt Alice was still laughing when I let her go and she replied.

"Well that is of course if she has any time for anything else besides Jacob. Your father gave him his permission to court Renesmee tonight." Aunt Alice gushed.

I was just as bad as the women in my family. I was such a gossip.

"He did!?" I exclaimed.

She nodded and smirked her "I have known this is how it would turn out all along" smile. I couldn't believe that this was all finally happening for her. That everyone was alright with it, that they thought we were grown enough for it. It gave me hope for Aria and I. I shook the thought from my head.

"Trust me I know my sister. She'll definitely have the time to help me win over mom. Ness has been waiting for to be with Jake forever, she has known him forever. She won't be in a rush to change everything so quickly. Those things take time." I ended, picturing how happy I am going to be when I can actually call Aria mine.

"Time huh?" Aunt Alice stated bringing me back from my imagination.

I nodded grinning.

"Kinda like the time I am suggesting you take to get to know Aria?" She grinned ear to ear.

I couldn't believe I walked into that one. Having no clever quip I agreed to take some more time and be a little more reasonable. I smiled my father's crooked smile. "Touché Aunt Alice, touché.