"Pitter-pat, the angel on my shoulder,
Is haunting me tonight.
Tick tock, the clock is getting louder,
Ready for me to decide.

The sun is coming down on me
Could fate be so unkind? "

-Erin McCarley (Pitter-Pat)

Kido fears many things. Roller coasters, haunted houses. But her deepest fear, the one that feeds the terror in her nightmares, is the fear of being invisible. Ignored. Acknowledged by no one.

That's why when even the members Meka Dan cannot see her, it hurts her more than they realize, and it nurtures her growing nightmares.

It is also why it pains her to see the note in Kano's sharp writing, telling her to meet him at the rooftop, invisible and unseen. She does not want to yet again disappear into nothing just to play his twisted games. But eventually her curiosity won out, so she slips into her transparent form and trudges toward her destination.

The setting sun peaks through the rooftop door, as Kido quietly opens it, still wary of what was waiting for her.

She freezes. And the invisibility fades.

Kano is sitting on the edge of rail, leaning back with another grinning mask on his face. His eyes, normally pale, are scarlet red and menacing. And he shouts at her through the wind.

"You know what I discovered the other day, Kido?"

Kido cannot move. Paralyzed by sudden thoughts in her head. Flashes of Ayano spark in her mind and she wonders if this is how she died. Finally, she forces herself to speak.

"Kano, get down from there, it's dangerous." Her voice is calm, concealing the storm inside her right now.

He pays her words no heed. "Did you know that if one snake goes in, another will come out?"

Suddenly, everything snaps into place. Kano was going to encounter the Heat Haze again. And he was going to do it so Ayano could come back.

Her voice has betrayed her, but she manages one word, strangled and quivering.

"NO."

But he still continues, as if he heard nothing at all. "What do you think Tsubomi? You can get rid of the useless me who couldn't even save his sister, and finally get to see sis again. Two birds with one stone hmm?" He is still grinning as he says it, even though the fear in his crimson eyes is clear as day.

Kido is losing it. She is powerless. Kano is asking her to do the impossible.

To choose between Ayano and him.

She feels guilt. Because she wants Ayano back, more than anything else.

But the price of that will never be worth anything.

She watches Kano and waits. He will not do anything until she decides. But even fate cannot tell what he will do after.

Faster than light, Kido flashes out of sight and races in Kano's direction, and for once she is glad for this ability. He's caught by surprise, momentarily startled by her sudden disappearance, but it is enough.

Enough for her to wrestle him away from the railing, push him away from the edge and punch him square in the jaw. And finally, she slumps down beside him, heart pumping erratically and adrenaline in her veins. She looks at him.

He looks stunned. She doesn't know why.

"Why didn't you choose her?" he whispers.

Now it is Kido's turn to be shocked.

"You are not the price to pay for my selfishness, Kano. Never." She says with ferocity that surprised even her.

"I'm sorry Kido." He murmurs as he touches her cheek. When he pulls away, she touches her own cheeks, to find the telltale dampness of freshly spilt tears on her fingers. She's been crying, Kido realizes. She breathes in a few times to steady the sobs.

"One more question." He says. Kido nods, letting him ask.

"When did you learn to punch like that?" He winces, gently rubbing the purple bruise starting to show on his jaw, back to his signature grin.

Kido grumbles, but helps him on his feet and they walk back into the house as the stars appear behind them and the air chills.

She decides then, that she fears something more than being invisible.

Because now, her darkest, deepest fear is losing Kano.

Author's Notes: Another KanoKido because they are my OTP. This was inspired by a headcannon of mine and is in no way confirmed by the original source. Hope you guys enjoyed! One more thing, school has been really busy so I may not update this in a while. Hopefully, you guys wont have to wait long though. If you have any requests, feel free to PM me! Reviews are always appreciated and constructive criticism welcome!

UPDATE!: Mara164 on DeviantArt drew some beautiful fanart for this particular oneshot:
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Disclaimer: I do not own Mekakucity Actors, the song or the lyrics.