Hey guys,

Sooooo…. holidays are here but I am going on a surprise (as in I just found out) trip with my family and well… no laptops allowed :(

I will be back around the 19th April (American Time) and I will resume this story AND my new Ahk/OC story which is an AU student Teacher story because they are my favs!

So in advance,

Have a great Easter and instead of chocolate I give you two chapter (including this one) and a new fanfic so enjoy! and eat lots of choclateeeeeeeeeeeeee! #alreadyhyper

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Chapter 16: A clean slate

"Why though?" I asked everyone around, confused as hell.

"Jessie… you have experience some traumatic things in life… You didn't want to remember them!" Larry said, pacing up and down the floor.

"Wait… you never told me about anything traumatic that has happened in your life!" Ahk said looking shocked at Larry's comment. "Apart from your father and uncle dying and your mother went a little crazy!"

There was silence. Ahk turned to me.

"That's all it was, right?"

I sighed.

"Dad, we can talk later… I need to tell Ahk the truth…"

"Ok, just don't do anything stupid Ahk." Ahk nodded, his jaws slightly clenched.

We walked out and I made a reach for his hand but he didn't grasp it. I sighed.

He turned to face me when I blurted out:

"Why are you being like this?"

"Why Jessie? Why shouldn't I? You weren't even treating me decently when Kamunrah announced I was too be married four times!" I sighed yet again.

"Look, this is different. I was worried about the state of us!"

"I am worried about the state of your mental wellbeing!" He put his hands on my shoulders and stared into my eyes with his own.

"I just want to know that whatever is going on behind these eyes aren't going to eat away at you leaving you incomplete or unhealthy in any way because I love this Jessie in front of me! I love your spirit and to see it go is to see my spirit go away. I would break the tablet if it meant you would be whole again!"

I looked back into Ahk's eyes, absorbing the words like a sponge but the moment he said the words "whole again" I broke eye contact, face the other way so my back was to him and folded my arms.

"Whole again? Whole Again!" I repeated over and over, the phrase losing all meaning.

"I was not WHOLE when you met me, I haven't been WHOLE for five years and I am definitely not WHOLE right now!" I said, emphasising the word.

"Then tell me!" He threw his arms up in exasperation.

"Why haven't you been whole? What has happened that I do not know of! What has affected you so badly you shout at everyone you love but bully yourself at every waking opportunity! Tell me Jessie because it has been on my mind since the Smithsonian and now that I know you want to get rid of memories! Huh, you must have had some life if you wanted something like this to happen and-"

"SHE HIT ME ALRIGHT!" Silence. I breathed in again, turned around and calmly said:

"She used to hit me because of the hallucination. She thought she would see dad but instead there was nothing. She wanted me to say hello to my father and I said no. Sometimes she would leave me alone and complain to the empty space but most of the times she would grab my hair-" I took a chunk of my hair.

"Pull me towards her." I slowly walked to my right, demonstrating a less painful and slower version of events.

"And she would kick me to the ground." I fell on my knees.

"And she would whisper in my ear to say hello to my father. I would say hello to him."

Ahk was silent.

"Did she know what was happening?" I shook my head.

"In the morning it would be sane old mummy. She would send me to school and I would come back. She would date but only if the treated me properly. She wasn't terrible but you know, people these days have become so sensitive to treatment like this they create stories to make it seem worse. She has been some asylum for a bit. She sends me one message notes sometimes on my birthday. Last year was Ingénue which means naïve-"

"young woman." Ahk finished. I smiled slightly and so did he. He pulled in to a hug and I heard his muffled voice say:

"That's all you need to do Jessie… I will always be here for you until the tablet runs out of power… I will be here…"

He pulled apart and kissed me. I love this kisses because you expect them but they are so surprising when they happen. The beauty of our kisses is not the motion of the scent or even the taste but its the images it triggers. Now, I can see an open field with Ahk and he is absorbing the moonlight. He is dressed in his usual attire and his hand is outstretched. The warmth mixed with the beauty of the night sky seems too pull me into a world of wonder.

The image is gone as we break apart but the last traces of the kiss make me vision it again when I close my eyes.

Thank you god for this beautiful moment.