For Tonyahuqt03
Insanity
She thinks she must be crazy, it's the only explanation she can come up with that even vaguely fits. She must be out of her mind because she knows she is in love with a man who is in love with a ghost. It's not her name he calls out in his sleep, and when he takes her hand it's not her that he is reaching for. She knows all this, but still she stays with him, because she loves him and hopes that one say he might grow to love her too.
But he won't because she dosen't belong with him, she belongs in a nice padded cell because she must be insane.
He said until he met her he'd never known anyone who understood just what he had lost, just how much his love had meant. She'd lost her husband, the great love of her life. She had seen him shot down right outside their home and held him tightly as his blood flowed between her fingers to paint the street. She had thought she had understood, but she had been so wrong.
And it hurt, it hurt so much to know that no matter what she would never been good enough. Could never be what or who he really needed. Yet still she stayed, even through it felt like she was being ripped to shreds. He didn't mean to hurt her, but he couldn't seem to help it. He'd turn to her in the morning and for a moment she would see the love in his eyes before recognition kicked in and he saw her instead of a long gone corpse.
Mia had tried to warn her, but she hadn't paid attention. She had ignored it as the bratty comments of a little sister who couldn't stand to see her brother moving on with someone else. It had been a stupid assumption, by that point she had known Mia, known her as the sort of person who wanted to be friends with everyone. But she hadn't wanted to hear that getting involved with him was not only a bad idea, but a potentially harmful one.
It was harmful, but she'd had to learn that the hard way and by the time she had, she was too involved to walk away. Perhaps she was a masochist, maybe that was why she was trying so hard to build a future with a man who only wanted to relive the past.
She and her husband had been a partnership, a team and a damn good one, so she had thought she knew what he had lost. That because she understood how his world had fallen that she could put it, put him, back together. She'd been so wrong and she hadn't understood a thing.
Mia had said it, snapped it out in a fit of temper because everything was broken and couldn't be fixed. There had been tears on his sister's skin and her heart had been in her dark eyes as she'd sobbed out a truth that the blonde had never wanted to face, 'there is no Dom without Letty'. It was like a gun without bullets, it looked like everything was fine but it was never going to work.
But still she stayed with him, trying to fix him and be something she never could be. She'd lost her mind but somehow that was easier to deal with than the possibility of losing him. But the reality was she had never had him to start with. In some indefinable way that she couldn't quite put into words she knew that he too had died on that night when his love was taken from him.
She must be insane she reasons, it's the only thing that makes any sense.
(A/N) Frankly I couldn't think of anything else to do with this prompt, but having said that there's something I like about it. I think we all know it's hard to compete with the Ex but when that Ex is a ghost and there for untouchable, things become a whole new kind of crazy. Or maybe I'm the really crazy one…?
Lamanth xx