For Paommt

Keeping a Secret

"I just don't know what to do?" It comes out as a question, she hasn't meant it too but that is just the way things work. Letty has always been the strong one, the older one, the one person she can trust to tell her what to do.

"I don't know either girl, but look it's not like you even know for sure yet." Letty's smile is gentle as she hugs her friend close and tries to reassure her. "One skipped period means nothing. You need to know for sure you are… pregnant before we think of doing anything."

Mia tries to jerk away because this isn't want she wants to hear. She doesn't want Letty to be all reasonable and mature and to talk sense, she wants Letty to just tell her what to do. She needs someone to take this decision out of her hands and do all the thinking for her so she won't have to.

"How can you say that!?" The Italian girl demands jumping to her feet, and is rather annoyed that Letty had lets her go so easily. She could have at least tried to keep a grip on her, to force her to sit back down and in doing so give Mia some reason to lash out.

But she doesn't, instead she just stays where she is her head tilted slightly and her face half hidden in shadows. Not giving Mia the chance to lash out so instead she screams, "You have no idea what I'm going through!" and turns on her heel as if planning to run off into the dark.

"Mia." If Letty had shouted she would have just kept on going but the weary sigh makes her pause and turn back just for a moment. Mia meant it to be one quick glance over her shoulder, but there is such a candied look in those dark, dark eyes that she finds herself returning to the steps with out thinking.

"When?" It is all she can think of to say, because she had thought that she had known everything about the girl sitting next to her. This dark haired, dark eyes creature who was as close to her as any blood sister could ever have been.

"A few years ago." Letty's smile is pained and also slightly wistful and instinctively Mia reaches out and grips her hand tightly, intertwining their fingers. "We just weren't ready. Who we are, the way we live… but I still dream about it sometimes, the baby I never had."

"Does Dom know?" Her voice is tentative as if she is unsure whether of not she wants to know the answer. And she isn't sure. Part of her dreads the idea of Letty having gone though such a thing alone, while another childish part resents that she might have been left out of such a huge event in the lives of the two people she loves most.

"I drove her to the clinic." Mia jumps at the sound of his voice, instantly feeling ashamed of her selfish thoughts, but Letty just nods as if she'd known all along that he was standing behind them. She probably had. The connection the two of them share is something Mia doubts she will ever fully understand.

"Oh, I see." It's all she can say because Dom is looking down at Letty and she's turned her face up to meet his eyes and they're sharing an unreadable look. It's a simple action but it conveys so much feeling, so much pain.

Suddenly Mia feels petty and small, here she is wailing and carrying on and not thinking about anyone but herself. She's snapped and cried and made Letty bring up memories that have to hurt and then yelled at her for the advice she gives. And it's good advice so she'll take a test tomorrow, find out if she really is pregnant and not over react until she has something to react about.

For now though she just slips away leaving Dom and Letty to their silent communication. They don't need her just now.

When Dom comes down to breakfast the next morning he's quieter than normal, just says that Letty's sleeping in and then settles down to eat. When Vince opens his mouth and starts to ask why Letty's staying in bed, Mia bangs hard into the back of his chair and gives him a look the promises hell unless he shuts up. Leon just holds is hands up in surrender and Jesse is too cowed to look anywhere but at his plate.

Mia's test comes back negative.

(A/N) I'm guessing that some of you might hate this but, well once the idea came to me it wouldn't leave me alone. Congratulations to everyone who named the two songs in the last drabble, you're all amazing.

Lamanth xx