Chapter 2
The day finally came. It was a year after her return and I was beyond nervous. I was to be married in less than two hours. I paced in front of the tree of ages thinking too hard on this day. I'm not afraid of marriage, I was afraid of tonight when we consummate the marriage I never been intimate before. Not even with Kikyou. I never had anyone that loved me enough to be intimate with. Human females and demon females alike never gave me a time a day. Kikyou was the first woman to ever love me. We were going to marry once I was turned human but that failed miserably. Kagome what if I hurt her? What if I can't control myself and end up hurting her? My claws can rip her to shreds with ease. Kami I never thought about this stuff before, well not the outcome anyway. Of course I dreamt of having relations with another female, I am a man after all. But I never thought the possibility that I could hurt her. I'm a hundred times stronger than her physically. My claws are razor sharp and my fangs could be a problem as well. It didn't bother her much when we kissed. She even flicks her tongue at them. Thankfully I don't have poisonous claws like Sesshomaru and my father. That's right my father mated with a human. My mother survived it so I guess it'll be safe enough for Kagome. But then again he already mated before and he knew what he was doing unlike me.
"InuYasha what is wrong with you?" Miroku asked when he found me pacing nervously.
"I'm just nervous that's all." I answer.
"About what? Don't tell me you're afraid of commitment? You, who's only had two loves in his life time." He says.
"No I'm not afraid of commitment. I'm nervous about after we marry, when we must consummate the marriage." I answer.
"Don't tell me you're a virgin?"
"Yes I am. I never been intimate with anyone. Females never gave me a-time-a-day. Kikyou was the first woman who I ever wanted to be intimate with. I'm scared I'll hurt Kagome with my strength and claws."
"It will be fine. You will be in control of yourself, you love her to much to let anything hurt her. Even from yourself. Of course it will hurt her the first time, but that's all women who are virgins. She'll bleed but it's unavoidable. I hated that I hurt Sango the first time. I did the best I could to get her body ready for it. She said it stopped hurting after three times of intimacy." He explained. Leave it up to him to give advice on sex.
"How did you get her body ready?" I had to ask. I was curious.
"Well I stretched her a bit with my fingers and that helped ease some of the pain." He explained. He went into detail like I knew he would. He is still the perverted monk even after almost four years of marriage. I lost him when he said to use my fingers to stretch her out. What if my claws cut her apart? I was over thinking this. I won't hurt her. I never thought the day would come when I wished it was my human night. If I was human I wouldn't have to worry about hurting her with superhuman strength and razor sharp claws.
"Come on, it's time." He announces after awhile. I nod and follow him towards the shrine. I waited by Miroku – who was going to marry us since he is a Shinto priest- I watched as Kagome walked towards me wearing a white silken kimono that layered over three more silken cloth. Her hair was pinned up and held together with a pink and white jeweled comb. She was amazingly beautiful. My heart pounded against my chest as Miroku read out the marriage ceremony.
The feast lasted through the night and soon we found our way in our mansion and in the bedroom. I didn't know what to do. So I decided kissing would be the first step; which with much surprised me worked better than I thought. It became passionate and somehow I was hovering top of her. "Kagome if I hurt you in anyway tell me." I said looking deeply in her eyes. She nodded and I bent back to her lips. I moved from her lips and down her jaw, down her slender neck and found myself pushing her youkata off her chest revealing her breast to me. They were luscious and plump. I placed my hand around one of them and squeezed the soft mound gently. A pleasurable moan escaped her lips as I rolled the peak in between my fingers. I felt tightness in my loins at each moan she made.
I found myself bending down to kiss her breast, which caused another moan. She tasted amazing. I moved to her other breast and gave it the same treatment. She moaned even more when my leg brushed against between her thighs. I hesitantly placed my hand there and was amazed on how hot she was. She bucked against my hand and a strangled growl came forth out of my throat. I pulled away from her breast and look down into bliss filled eyes. She looked back, her cheeks flushed with excitement, her breathing was frantic and her heart was pounding. She gasps and her head rolls back when I push a finger further in her depths. It was like she was sucking my finger in and it felt amazing. "Kagome" I barely whisper as I continue to plunge further into her depths. I pull them out trying to be careful not to tear her apart with my claws.
She's so wet and hot. I slide down her body tell I'm facing her core. I can't help but inhale her luscious scent. Her scent was so inviting and I couldn't help myself but to taste her. I spread her folds apart and hesitantly lick her. I moaned at her taste. Everything about her was amazing. She froze with shock as I licked her a second time. I pull away and look up at her sheepishly. I didn't know anything about what I was doing. I'm going by instinct rather than skill. I've never done anything like this and yet I must be doing something right because she bucks her hips up towards my face. I take that as a signal I'm doing something right and continue to lick her. I dive my tongue further into her core and she nearly screams my name as she explodes into my mouth.
I go back up to her lips and capture them into a passionate kiss. She pulls off my undershirt and starts to untie my bottoms. I help her and I hover over top of her naked as the day I was born. She studies my body with her hands and eyes. I hiss when she wraps her hand around my erection and strokes her hand skillfully. I groan and moan as she strokes me. "I-I'm ready" She whispers hesitantly. I look down at her face with wide eyes. I nod "If I hurt you, stop me." I say before we continue. "InuYasha I trust you." She says as she places her hands on both sides of my face. I nod and ready myself. I slowly enter her and she gasps. Her chest arches up as I fill her. "I'm sorry." I say and push further, breaking her seal and she takes a sharp intake of breath. A few tears fall from her eyes. I kiss them away as I try to stay still as much as possible while her body adjust from my size. "It hurts!" She cried, her face cringing in response. "I'm sorry, do you want to stop?" I ask with weary. "N-no it's supposed to hurt the first time. Give me a second." She answers. I nod and keep still. I bend down to kiss her neck and nuzzle her as I wait for her to say it was alright to continue. I suddenly remembered something that hantai monk said when he was trying to give me advice. I reach down between our bodies and search for that little nub of nerves that rested above her core. I find it and roll it between my thumb and index fingers. She gasps in surprise and suddenly she is bucking her hips against mine. I take that as the sign to continue. I begin slowly grinding my hips against hers. I go down to rest on my forearms and my forehead against hers as I continue to thrust deeper into her. Her breathing becomes rapped and I feel my heart trying to pound out of my chest as I grow closer to my peek.
"Kagome, are you alright?" I ask as we buck our hips against each other. "Yes, I'm alright." She whispers and nods. I smile at her and reach down to kiss her swollen lips. I close my eyes as I lose myself in my own pleasure. She felt amazing! I lose it and I hear her gasp in pain. I instantly open my eyes and look at her in shock. "I-I am so sorry!" I apologize after I lift my mouth off her neck. I look down at her in horror. I can't believe I just did that? I bit her! "I didn't mean to bite you!" I say in pure horror. "It's okay." She says in a calm voice but I can see the surprise in her eyes and I am horrified with myself. I can't believe I lost myself like that and bit her. I look at the bite mark and see the four holes my fangs made into her skin. It was at the juncture between her neck and collarbone. I licked the blood away with my healing saliva.
We are as one when all this happens. I motion to pull away from her but she grabs my shoulders. "No I'm not down." She says with a deep blush. I stare at her still horrified on what I just did. "But I'll hurt you more." I say. "No, please?" She begs. I nod and wait till she starts again. I lose myself again and it's amazing. I feel like I'm flying and she is the only one keeping me bounded to this earth. I hear her nearly scream my name as she explodes and I follow a half second later. Releasing my essence into her womb, as I fall back to earth I rest our foreheads together as we get our breathing back to normal and my heart is nearly leaping out of my chest. "InuYasha, that was amazing! No that was more than amazing!" She says in between pants. "I know!" I say back breathless.
After I'm calmed down somewhat I pull away from her and roll to lie next to her. I brush my clawed hand along the side of her face "I love you!" I whisper as I stroke her cheek with the back of my hand. I never thought I could be so gentle with these clawed hands that have ripped thousands of demons apart. I even killed men with these hands and yet I can be so gentle and loving with these dangerous hands. "InuYasha I love you!" She whispers back her eyes heavy with fatigue. "Sleep now love I will watch over you and protect you with my life." I say as I place my palm against her fragile face. She nods as her eyes close and she nuzzles her cheek further into my hand.
You would think I would be just as exhausted but I don't tire easily and I literally can go days without sleep. I do have to admit I am afraid to close my eyes. I'm terrified this is all a dream and I'll wake up in the tree of ages alone and it was all a dream. Kagome was still in her era and I'll never see her again. So instead I watched her sleep peacefully through the night.
Kagome's so beautiful. Her dark hair shining in the moonlight, her face serene and bliss filled. She takes my breath away with her smile. I can't believe she's here, lying right next to me. My wife, my love, my everything; she was the one I've been searching for in the two hundred years of my existence. I never felt like I ever belonged anywhere till she came along. Not even with Kikyou did I ever feel this way. She loves me for me, I'll never understand how she could love someone so broken and messed up like me. She never even shied away from me when I was fully transformed. She never gave up on me and was always there when I felt so lost. She deserves someone better than me. Someone who doesn't transform into a monster, someone who has to be constantly watching every action they make so not to harm her with sharp claws, superhuman strength or razor sharp fangs. She opens her eyes an hour after the sunrise and she smiles when she meets my eyes.
"Good morning love." I say as I brush her hair off her face.
"Good morning InuYasha." She greets back.
"I was so afraid to wake up and find that it was all a dream. I'm so happy to be here with you." She says with a smile.
"I know what you mean. I didn't sleep at all I was scared to close my eyes and wake up alone." I say.
"It's okay InuYasha I'm right here and I'm not going anywhere." She says with love in her eyes and her smile fades to seriousness. She reaches out her hand and places her palm on the side of my face and I nuzzle it with closed eyes.
"I love you and I couldn't be happier then I am at this moment." I say when I open my eyes. Kagome gives me her breathtakingly beautiful smile.
"How did I end up with you?" I ask with seriousness as I search her soft brown eyes.
"InuYasha you deserve to be happy and loved." She says rolling her eyes.
"I've done nothing in this world to deserve what you have given me." I say. I know we belong together but it still blows my mind away that I'm with her and she with me.
"InuYasha you have to stop that. You have to stop putting yourself down like that. You an amazing creature, you're beautiful, loyal, stubborn, caring, brave, and you belong to me." She says as she sits up. I gasp in horror.
"What" She asks when she heard me
"You're covered in bruises." I say as I look at her forearms, her chest, and I move my eyes down to her hips. I didn't realize I was holding her so tightly.
"Kagome I'm sorry." I apologize. She looks down and sees the bruises.
"Huh I didn't feel it at the time." She exclaims. I stare at her neck from where I bit her. It wasn't very prominent like it was the first time I bit her. My saliva healed it to a scar.
"I still can't believe I bit you." I say with deep horror.
"Yeah that was a surprise to me too." She says as she puts her hand around the bite mark.
"I guess a didn't have complete control over my youkai like I thought I would. Next time I will be more careful." I say. She sighs and scoots to the edge of the bed.
"Where you going?" I ask.
"To get cleaned up." She answers as she stands up.
"Whoa" She exclaims as she falls back to the bed. I instantly sit up and rush out of the bed to rush to her side.
"What's wrong?" I ask with worry. Kagome looks up at me.
"My legs feel like rubber." She answers. I have no idea what she means of course.
"I mean they feel like limp noodles." She rephrases when she realized I had no idea what she meant by "Rubber". I look at her with worry.
"I'm okay, don't worry." She assures me as she stands up slowly and wobbly.
Did I do that to her? I watch her walk further towards the water basin and dressing screen. A scent hits my nose that I didn't notice before. It was the scent of blood, her blood. I follow the scent and see it on the silken sheets. There was a large amount of blood on the bed. Stupid baka look what you did to her! I yell at myself. I made her bleed way more then she was supposed to. I hear her wince as she continues to clean herself up. I go over to my pants and put them on. Kagome walks back in from behind the screen wearing a youkata.
"Tell me the truth how badly did I hurt you?" I ask after she kisses me.
"InuYasha, I'm okay. I promise." She says assuring me she was fine except for her bruised arms, bite mark, and vaginal tearing.
"Kagome I caused you a great deal of pain. You bled a lot! You have bruises all over your body and I bit you. How is that fine?" I say with deep disgust.
She sighs and wraps her arms around me and I hold her close to me. I rest my cheek against the top of her head. I wanted to stay locked this way forever. Then suddenly I felt like someone punched a hole in my gut -which I know exactly how that feels- when I realized I will outlive her. I may look fifteen but I'm over two hundred years old. I age slower than her. I will outlive her and then what will I do. My father was lucky to die before seeing my mother die, but me –I may not live as long as my father and Sesshomaru live, but I'm not immortal but yet I still will live for hundreds maybe thousands of years. There's not exactly a timeline for half breeds but I'm sure it's not as long as full demons. Kagome is human and will age faster then I and she will die. She already looks older than me in the three years she was gone she aged. There has to be some way I can prolong her life. It's not fair to give me this and then be taken away so suddenly.
"InuYasha what are you thinking?" She asks as we stand in the room just embracing each other.
"I realized that I will outlive you and I'm afraid to lose you." I say.
"Hmm that is a worrisome problem." She says with sarcasm.
"Kagome I'm serious. I maybe two hundred and three years old but look at me, I look like I'm fifteen. You already look older than me." I nearly shout. She pulls away from me and looks at me.
"I've always been more mature than you." She laughs.
"Kagome be serious, what will I do when you die from old age?" I ask with deep panic in my voice.
"InuYasha, it'll be alright. I'm not dying anytime soon and we have a life time together. It'll all work out in the end." She says. I nod and let her words sink in.
"I guess I'm just a pessimist. I'm sorry." I say.
"It's okay. I understand you're scared to be alone but I don't think that will happen." She says looking up into my eyes.
"We'll just enjoy each other's company till the day comes." She says calmly.
"Yeah" I say as I hold her closer to me. It seems our bond has grown stronger since last night. It's like my whole being is now linked with hers. Maybe because she is a very strong spiritual priestess she will live as long as I do. That's just wishful thinking.