Chapter 4

Something changed the week after we visited Sango and Miroku. For some reason that feeling of connection to her was becoming stronger; the feel too protect her was even stronger than the connection. I'm constantly on red alert. I get anxious when Kagome isn't by my side and I can't seem to separate myself from her. Like for instance, yesterday she left to go see Sango, alone, without me. She said something about girl time alone. She left with Sango to find some herbs to help with Keade's ailments close by, the old brad is getting weaker and sicker as she grows further into old age -she doesn't have much long now- the need to be with Kagome was terrible all, I wanted to do was be at her side. Miroku noticed it as well.

"Sit down and chill. You're going to wear a hole in the ground the way you're pacing back and forth." He said while we were outside of his home after he put his children to bed.

"I can't. Don't you ever get anxious when Sango isn't by your side?" I asked as I pace anxiously.

"A little bit but I know she'll be fine." He answered.

"I feel like I'm going crazy! I have to be by her side all the time. I know that's why she wanted alone time with Sango 'cause I'm constantly hovering over her every move. I haven't felt this way about anyone, ever. I don't know what's wrong with me." I said as I paused to sniff the air. But her scent was still far off and wasn't getting stronger so I knew she wasn't on her way back yet.

"InuYasha I think it has to do with your youkai side. Since you and she mated the connection you feel became stronger. Binding her to you, I'm not an expert on youkais, you should ask Sango. She knows more about youkai then both of us combined." Miroku said.

"I don't know what's going on with me and her? Even her scent has changed. Her scent changed a week ago and I can't figure out what it is?" I said, as I go back pacing a long hole in the ground.

"InuYasha, could she be with child?" He asked raising a brow at me.

"I don't know? It's too early to know." I answered honestly.

"How long has it been since you two mated?" he asked curiously.

"Almost two months now." I answered. Miroku raised a brow again.

"No she's not with child! It's too soon for that." I said, but I can feel it, my instincts were telling me that Miroku was right.

"So what, I got Sango with child within a month after we were married." He said proudly.

"But I'm not ready. I'm not good with kids. Frankly I can't stand them." I said with horror.

"Yes that is true. You aren't good with children, but it'll be different when it's your own child. Trust me! I was sort of scared too when I learned Sango was with child. But when the twins were born and placed in my arms that fear disappeared all together." He said.

I thought about it for a minute. It was still frightening to me. I don't know one thing about children. Me, a father? Me who has abused the crap out of Shippo and every kid that came around me. What if I can't be the father my child deserves. It would be different if my father was there to raise me and I would know what to expect. Then I thought about Miroku. He's an amazing father. He adores his children. I remember how he's always playing with the twins and teaching them things. I can do that. I told myself. I can do it if I put my mind to it.

"So you never told me how it went that night?" He said with a dirty minded smirk.

"What do you mean?" I asked even though I knew what he meant. I stopped pacing and decided to sit underneath the tree that grew next to Miroku's home.

"InuYasha you know what I meant. Did it go better than what you feared?" He answered.

"Yes and no." I answered.

"What happened?" He asked cocking his brow and tilted his head to the side a little while looking at me confused but yet amused.

"I lost control like I feared I would and…and…and…I…I…" I started to stutter.

"What did you do?" He asked with deep concern.

"I bit her." I answered ashamed.

"You bit her?" He asked hiding a smile.

"Yes I bit her. I bruised her body as well. I am glad that's all I did. I was afraid to lose control of my youkai that I would shred her to pieces with my claws, but I didn't claw her I just bit her. I don't even understand why I did it." I explain. He listened intently. He sat there for a minute in deep thought. I jumped when he burst out laughing.

"What's so funny?" I asked through clinched teeth.

"I didn't know you were into the rough sex." He laughed. I blushed a deep red. He laughed even harder when he saw the blush.

"You pervert!" I said through clinch jaw, nearly hissing.

"I'm sorry InuYasha. You're so innocent it's hard to believe you never had relations with anyone in the hundred fifty-three years of your long life, will taking out the fifty years pinned to the tree of ages."

"Shut up!" I said through clinched jaw.

"I'm sorry InuYasha." He apologized.

"Thanks, but you have to understand. No one has ever wanted me the way Kagome does. Even Kikyou shied away from my claws and fangs. She wanted me to be human. I thought I wanted to be human too and live with her till our deaths. I always felt that I never belonged anywhere. I didn't belong in the human world because of my demon side and I didn't belong in the demon world because of my human side. I felt like I never belonged anywhere till I met Kagome, who loves me for me and never wanted me to change for her. She showed me that I belong in this world as the half breed I am. Even you and Sango treated me with respect and accepted me for me." I said. It's easy to talk with him now than the first time we met, he and I have grown to be like brothers. I always felt true camaraderie between us and always have each other's backs when danger calls.

"I know. You have been through a lot in your two hundred years and you've been through a hundred times more hardships then I and I understand your fears, but I have faith in you. You will be a good father and I'll help ya when you need it and I'm happy for you. You deserve to have happiness in your life." He said after a few minutes of silence.

"Yeah, thanks Miroku." I reply. If it weren't for Kagome I would've never made friends. I think to myself and a smile lightens my face.

"I'm happy your finally a man!" He laughed. I rolled my eyes at him. Leave it up to him to ruin I nice moment between brother's with a comment about me losing my virginity.

Finally Kagome and Sango walk back to us. I sigh with relief when I catch her scent as she walked closer, even though she was at least a hundred yards away and I couldn't see her through the thick trees. I could hear her and Sango making small talk as they walked. "So they're on their way back I take it?" Miroku asks with a smirk on his face. I ignore him as I focus on her scent.

They finally come into my view but not in Miroku's yet, my senses are at least ten times stronger than his human senses, so he couldn't see or hear them like I can. I stand and wait for her to come closer. She smiles at me when she catches my eyes waiting for her return. I smile back.

We say our goodbyes and me and Kagome walk back to our home slowly just enjoying the warm summer night. I sniffed the air a few times to make sure we are safe from harm. The need to protect her was stronger than before. Maybe Miroku is right. I don't know what to think or say to her, that she maybe with child? I decided to wait it out and wait for more signs of pregnancy.

"InuYasha what are you thinking?" She asks as she leans her head on my shoulder as we walk.

"Nothing" I sigh.

We stop in front of the doors of our mansion. It still feels weird to be having a mansion let alone being a lord. I should be proud of my birthright, but it still felt strange to have that kind of respect. The villagers even bow their heads when I pass by. I should get used to it. When Sesshomaru claims the thrown and leaves me the home of our father, who once was lord of that palace, I will have hundreds of servants at my beckon call. My mother and I lived in a palace but the servants didn't respect me as the prince that I was. My mother was a princess and her father sent us to live in what once was her mother's home. We had servants and shrine priests and shrine maidens who were to teach me, but they never did. So mother taught me to read, write and told me about my father and half brother. I guess I'm fortunate to have been born to a princess and a powerful demon. Every other half breeds I ever met came from women who were daughters of farmers rather than daughters of nobles, and lords.

I gotta give my father some credit he did have a taste for noble women. His first wife is the princess of all the inu youkais and my mother came from a very powerful human lord. My grandfather must've really loved my mother to allow her to keep her status as princess and me as a prince, even though he disagreed of my mother marrying my father and barring a half demon son. Although when mother was killed my grandfather refused to take me in and raise me so I've been on my own since I was still a young child.

"InuYasha what are you thinking of that has you so deep in thought?" Kagome asks with annoyance.

"I was thinking of my mother and how fortunate that she raised me like a young prince rather than a worthless half breed. Besides you she was the only one who accepted me for me. She taught me how to read and write and many other things. I was also thinking that I'm fortunate that I was born from a noble princess and a very powerful demon, which makes me better than any other half breeds we've ever met. Unlike them I'm a demon lord and human prince, which means if we have any children they too will be heirs to land and become lords or princesses. On top of that they may have great spiritual powers because you are the most powerful priestess in all of Japan." I answer with a smile. She looks at me for a minute, then smiles.

"I never thought about that. And I forgot that you are a prince and lord of this region and of the western land where your father once ruled." She said with a smile.

"So what does that make me?" She asked.

"Well you are married to me, who is a lord and a prince so that makes you a lady and a princess." I said as I wrap my arms around her and pull her close to me and kiss her.

"I like the sound of that, princess Kagome." She said with a smile after we pull away from my kiss.