Gil woke the next morning, Matt had still managed to wind up in his arms. He looked down to make sure the smaller man was still asleep. Out like a light. A small smile played on the blondes face. Gil froze as he snuggled closer letting out a pleasant hum. Only relaxing when Matt went still again. Gil just laid on the bed enjoying the feeling of warmth. He knew it was wrong, to steal these moments... but Gil had been selfish. every morning had gone this way. Matt sleeping, Gil pretending. A feeling of guilt washed over him. Matt trusted him and after all he went through... But... Just another minuet. Just let him pretend if only for a minuet. If he moved Matt would wake up anyway.

Gils mind wandered back in time. Thinking of how he had let that douche face have Matt. He shouldn't have backed off.. A sigh escaped him. Would he be in this position a little more happily if he had of pushed? If he had told Matt of his feelings earlier... Would Matt have avoided all that pain and heartache? It didn't matter. It was what it was.

Matt let out a groan and Gil quickly closed his eyes. He made sure his breathing was steady and deep, worried about getting caught. He felt Matts face turn up towards him on his chest. He wasn't pulling away yet? Maybe he had gone back to sleep... Before Gil could open his eyes to check, he felt Matt shift, but not away. A careful hand was brushing white hair away from Gils face. A whisper reached his ears, "Gil?"

Gil didn't react. Matt shifted just slightly again. he could feel Matt tremble, he was about to open his eyes to check he was okay when he felt something soft brush his lips.

the shock caused Gil eyes to fly open. Ruby eyes met violet ones in mutual shock. Then before he could utter a single word, Matts face turned bright red and he flew from the bed and out the door.

"Matt wait!" Gil sat up and brought brought a hand to his lips in disbelief. He heard the bathroom door click. shit...

Gil climbed out of bed and quickly walked down the hall. He knocked on the door. Shit what was he suppose to say to all this?

Matt leaned against the bathroom door with his head in his hands. What the hell was he doing?! Gil was his friend. You don't just kiss your friends. He gave a dark chuckle. Unless your drunk, that is. Gil never showed interest in him other then that one drunken night in college. Gil had come back from the bar rambling like a moron and tried, if you could call it that, to seduce him.

Ugh... he couldn't stay here. He wrecked the safe place he found for himself, and why?! He had woken up that morning, feeling so safe, so warm and Gil... His hero Gil looked almost... Beautiful? Everything looked soft about him. His skin, his hair, his expression. He felt drawn to touch the hair. It was like Silk... Then he saw a tiny twitch one corner of his mouth.. His mouth looked soft... Warm.. Inviting. He checked to make sure he was asleep... So stupid!

This can't have been healthy... It had been what? Three weeks? His head spun and he started to sob. Between his stupid actions and the thoughts of Al... Then a knock at the door. He couldn't face him.

"Matt open the door please." the voice was flat

Was he mad? Oh god! He must be mad... Matt was intruding in his house, causing him all kinds of trouble, costing money, even disturbing his work and sleep then he added this!

"I'm sorry" Matt sobbed, he wouldn't open the door. His voice was a bit louder "I'm sorry Gil. Don't worry... I'll go. I c-can find some where else to s-stay. I'm sorry!"

now a more Gil-ish animated voice answered. "What the fuck? Matt I don't know what the hell you're rambling on about but open the god dammed door. " He paused for a minuet then sighed still a slightly irritated tone. "Please?"

This was Gils house... He couldn't hide forever.. It was Saturday, he didn't even work today. Matt groaned as he looked over his situation. It wasn't like Gil would hit him, but he was so mortified! Time to be an adult Matthew, he scolded himself.

Standing up he let his blonde hair fall in front of his face. His eyes were glued on the floor, and his face burned. Shakily, he opened the door for Gil to come in. Half hidden behind it, he watched Gils feet as he came in the bathroom. Stepping away from the door he sighed and wrapped him arms around himself "I'm sor-"

"Save it Matt. Why do you want to leave?" Gil almost snapped. if he had looked up he would have seen hurt and confusion.

This was humiliating. "Because... I.. You've given too much already Gil. I've taken up your time, you saved my life and I've just kept being a burden... And now I've made you uncomfortable... I mean, I know It was weird okay? I don't even know why.. I just... You just.. " Matts breathing started to hitch. The sobbing was going to start again.

Gil made an irritated noise "You moron."

Matt didn't have time to flinch before he felt strong arms wrap around him. One around his waist, the other behind his shoulders. "I wish i didn't keep having to tell you Matt.. You'll never be a burden to me okay? "Matt put his hands on Gils chest and nodded quietly against him.

" You're important to me... You're my best friend and... " Gil trailed off. Shit.. What was he doing... he didn't want to scare Matt off... There would be no turning back from this, but... If he let another chance slip through his fingers he would never forgive himself.

Gil pulled back slightly. The arm around Matts shoulder moved to his face, while the one on his back stayed in place. Gils fingers caught Matts chin tiling his head up to look into the tear filled purple pools. His throat was dry from nerves. Shit what should he say! He better say it quick! Fucking think moron! This is not awesome! "You could never make me uncomfortable Matt." He ducked his head pressing his lips to Matts gently.

Matt didn't move... Oh fuck... He fucked this up. Gil was about to pull away when he felt Matt kissing him back. Shaky hands moved around the back of Gils neck and Matt pushed against his kiss. Nothing existed in that moment for Gil. Nothing except Matt. His arms wrapped up around the back Gils neck, Matts chest against his separated only by the thin Tshirt Matt wore, The warmth radiating from him, and subtle wet from tears that had been on his cheeks. Then of course his soft, slow moving lips. Gils hand moved to feel the soft red blonde locks, completely lost in the moment in time.

Gil wanted to protest when Matt pulled back slightly, their foreheads touched and he heard Matt take a slow shaky breath. Gil stood happily soaking up the moment. Matt kissed him... He prayed his wasn't dreaming. Gil opened his eyes and pulled back to look at Matts face. Matts eyes hadn't opened yet. A blush still across his cheeks.

"You have no idea" Gil kissed Matts forehead and watched the purple eyes open. "How long I've wanted to do that..."

omg fluff! sorry its a short chapter! I've been super tired.. and okay okay.. I may have gotten completely caught up in my German lessons since my last update, I tend to get into the swing and go on 5-6 hour long study sessions when I'm interested in learning something new . Anyway, I wrote this chapter while Listening to "9 Crimes" by Damien Rice on loop. It gave me that sad, sweet, desperate feeling. I hope you enjoyed the chapter! go PruCan! sorry AmeCan :(