I added a new warning to the description! I wasn't fully sure how to end this story when I started, but it's finally all played out in my head. theres at least one more chapter after this! enjoy loves!
The walk up the drive may as well have been a death march. Matts stomach was in knots. What on earth could he say to fix any of this. he closed the door behind them and took a breath.
"I didn't mean to worry you today. I just wanted to set him straight..."
"I get that Matt"... Gil eyes were full of hurt and anger "But you could have taken me. You could have been safe! It was so reckless!" He closed his eyes and breathed. "you could have at least told me, before running off and leaving the damn note. " He turned around trying to keep his breathing steady. "We could have just talked about things..." the pain showed through his voice.
"Gil.. I'm sorry.. I just... I don't..." Matt scrambled for words. Gil was in the kitchen with his back to the blonde.
He watched as Gil heaved a sigh "It's fine Matt. I get it. You got caught up in the awesome me this morning and made a mistake. No hard feelings." Gils hands shaking said there were hard feelings.
his voice was barely louder then a whisper. "I don't think this morning was a mistake..."
Gil was silent, but the shaking had stopped.
"I just... I got freaked out. My feelings for you are kinda new to me... I shouldn't have ran off."
He watched the albinos shoulders relax slightly
"It's just, you're... No.. Not you.. Me... I'm-"
a chuckle "fuck. It's not you, it's me? Really Matt?"
Matts face burned. "Are you going to shut up and let me get through this?!" he snapped. Gil turned with a small 'sorry-but-you-kinda-know-I'm-an-ass' smile.
Matts head dropped, his gaze fixed on his shoes "I'm damaged Gil. I've got so much baggage it's a miracle I can stand. You shouldn't have to have someone who's going to cry constantly, or wake up screaming, or flinches at stupid shit. You deserve someone who's not going to be a headache." tears welled in his eyes, " You're going to figure that out. You'll be okay for a while, but soon it's all going to catch up and you'll realize I'm not what you thought I was. I don't want to lose you all together Gil... "
Matt couldn't look up. He heard a heavy sigh. Matt guessed he made sense. His heart ached a bit...
"So, let me get this straight." he heard Gils foot steps slowly approaching "You think, I deserve better then you, because some asshole treated you like shit and that's somehow made you less worthy?"
A hand brought his chin up. Matt looked into warm crimson eyes. "I think" Gil kissed the tears off of one cheek. "That is the most" he moved to do the same to the other "stupid thing you have ever said" Gils lips brushed gently over Matts.
"we don't have to rush anything Mattie. We'll take it as slow as you want. If you want to move back into the spare room, you can. I'll take you on dates, I'll bring you flowers, We'll wait to sleep together for as long as you need."
Red eyes looked into his seriously for a moment. "Let me ask this. Forgetting all the stupid 'I'm not good enough' Bullshit. Do you want to be with me? I'm not asking if you love me, or if you know you want to be with me forever. But right now, do you want to be with me?"
Matt thought for a second and his throat swelled. He smiled weakly and nodded.
"Well then birdie," warm arms wrapped around him " I don't see a problem."
Matt frowned slightly "Birdie?"
Gil chuckled "Like it? "
Matt pulled back to look up at him without leaving his arms completely"I don't get it"
Gil was blushing slightly but his smile never faded. A hand went to the back of his head and he chuckled. "Matt I've wanted you since I met you. I don't say this to freak you out, really I know this is new for you and I totally respect it, but," he brought his eyebrows together in uncertainty " I fell in love with you back in college. Then you met Al.." he trailed off and shrugged "Francis told me when it happened, 'If you love something let it go, If it comes back to you, It's yours.' It made me think of birds, which are awesome, so I decided if I ever did get you, I was going to call you my Birdie. I mean, you're quiet, when you run or skate you look like you're flying, and your hair is golden, just like my little chicks, totally awesome right?" he gave Matt a wink.
Matt chuckled while his blush crept into his hair and his heart fluttered."You're so weird Gil."
Gil grinned. "Weirdly awesome".
Matt smiled and pulled him closer their lips joining effortlessly. Gils arms slid back around his waist, and his arms reached up to wrap around the back of Gils neck.
It was a peaceful moment full of bliss. Bliss that was quickly shattered when the front door was swung open.
"I fucking knew it! I knew you left for him! You've been screwing my Mattie this whole time weren't you?! I was right wasn't I?! "
Gil slowly turned towards the furious Al who had just come crashing into his house. His hands were raised and he stood in front of Matt. The barrel of a pistol staring at him.
"You got this all wrong Albert"
"My fucking name if Alfred, Jack face! Shut the fuck up before I shoot you!"
"Al please... " Matt squeaked "Please put it down, just lets talk about this..."
Als face softened a bit when he looked at the fear in Matts face. He hesitated with the gun but kept it pointed
"Please baby you gotta come back! I Miss you so much! I'm gonna go get help this time, everything is going to be better okay? I'm never going to hurt you again, you just gotta listen to me please!"
Matt shifted around in front of Gil ignoring the pleading and fear in the ruby eyes. and took a slow step towards Al "Baby... Can you put down the gun please? We can talk then okay? Y-your scaring me..."
Al looked like he was about to back down "No! If i put it down he's just going to come after me and you'll never listen! God Mattie you never listen! You just need to come home now. We can work past all this. I'll go to rehab and you can stop talking to this jerk off!" a look of hatred entered his eyes as he retrained the gun on the albino.
Matt tried again "Al, look, I'm listening okay? I'm right here and I'm listening. " he put his hands up trying to get Al to concentrate on him.
"No! No, none of this is right! Why is this so wrong?!"
"Al please.. Please calm down, your scaring me..."
"All i ever do is scare you! How did I start scaring you! You stopped looking at me like you use to... Oh god... How did I let this happen... And then he swoops in! I should have kicked his ass back then, when i found out he wanted you in the first place! But I scared you away.. I scared my little Mattie away." tears flowed from the beautiful sky blue eyes.
"Al please!"
Al pointed the gun. Gils eyes widened and he grabbed Matts hand pulling him back behind him.
"No please Al!" Matt cried reaching out
"Alfred! don't!" Gil pleaded eyes full of panic.
"I'm sorry.." Al sobbed. closing his eyes as he pulled the trigger
Bang.