Okey, here goes.. sorry for the late update... this is a short one.. mostly Red's POV. chapter 4 coming soon.. soo sit back and enjoy..
Huge thanks to my beta Alysha.. review are welcome :D

Chapter 3

I've found a reason for me,
to change who I used to be,
a reason to start over new,
and the reason is you,

The sound of the wave hitting the rocks is the first sound to register in his mind. He tries to open his eyes but the sunlight streaming down from the binding curtains near him was blinding so he closes his eyes and tries to compose himself. He re-opens them slowly a few seconds later and he finally catches a glimpse of his scenery. He's lying on a soft bed in the middle of a large bedroom decorated exquisitely. The curtains swaying softly as the breeze enters from the open door. He leans up against the headboard and tries to remember how he got here but nothing pops into his mind. The last thing he remembers is a man in a black hood pointing a gun to Lizzie, and he saving her by shielding her with his body. So, Am I dead? Red thinks to himself. He shut his eyes and listens for any movements, but nothing. Only silence accompanies him in this large room. Is this heaven? He chuckles at the thought , he doesn't belong in heaven. He's a monster, a ruthless criminal that everyone would love to have killed . His Lizzie also thinks him a monster. Until his dying breath they were arguing. Red slides off the bed with a sigh, stepping towards the sliding door and to the balcony.

He remained true to his promise to Sam, he would protect her. Perhaps she was relieved that he had left her life. This time for good. She will live her life free of his problems. Sometimes, he doesn't think he deserves to live this path. The path that created 'Red Reddington' was born and buried 'Raymond' for good. His life changed after that night. The task was simple, catch the criminal in the house and leave. But his superior forget to tell him, correction, they didn't tell him needed to die on that mission as well. The betrayal hit him hard, and that's when 'the concierge of crime'emerged. He sold government secrets for vengeance. The betrayal of his own organization set the monster in him free, and that's where his path crossed with Lizzie.

Lost in thought, a familiar scent wafts its way to him, calming him. His eyes close of their own accord as someone wraps their arms around his waist. The warmth penetrates his back, soothing him as he leans back into the figure behind him. He's dead isn't he? But it felt so real. The kisses, caresses, each and every sensation was so real that it hurt. He lets the hand wander to his chest, feeling the rapid beat of his heart. He bowed his head and let the tears flow.

"Hey, Red don't cry. Please don't cry. I don't know what to do if you cry." He turns towards the person, eyes still closed as he doesn't have the courage to open them. 'I'm dead, I'm dead,' he repeats over and over in his mind. As her warm hand touches his cheek, he slowly opens his eyes and before him stands the love of his life.

"Lizzie?"

She watches his chest rise and fall with his steady breathing. The monitor next to him beeps constantly, a pleasant reminder that he is still with her in this world as she has never left his side the past few days. She needs to be here, because he needs her. Just the thought of losing him makes her sick , even though their relationship is still in the wind, she cannot bear to lose him. She needs him, badly. And she cannot forgive herself because she is the reason he is in this hospital. She hovers her hand to his face, soothing him, comforting him with her gesture as he does to her. Inches away, she retreats her hand back to hanging at her side. She felt sorry for him. The guilt haunting her every night as the scene plays in her mind over and over again.

"Lizzie!" He screams as he envelopes her, shielding her from the attacker with his body. The bullet piercing his tailored shirt near his heart. She couldn't see the attacker as she was numbed, stunned. She didn't know what to do as she felt Red's body slump against her.

"Red! Hold on. Don't die. Don't you dare die on me!" The tears streaming heavily as she roamed his body. The blood patches grew more and his breathing shallower. She's in a panic and thank god, Dembe arrives.

Her mind goes back to the Red in front of her. Once again he saved her from death . He is her angel, her shinning knight. He is the one who started this whole debacle when he came knocking into her life a year ago, but he still came to her, to save her. She took his hand and entwined their hands together .Dembe is on look out for the person responsible so he orders two bodyguards from their organization to stand post at the hospital. He always has someone looking out for him. Always there for him when he needed. Dembe is more than a bodyguard, he is family. A brother. Her eyelids (get heavier and within minutes she is dozing in the chair next to him.

okey,,,i know it short,damn! haha but im a beginner so dont kill me yet..

review are welcome :D