A/N: Hello again guys ! It's about time I'm on schedule haha.

First of all, I'd like to thank everyone for reading this fic and leaving good reviews on it. And I know some of you didn't like the rant that I gave about glee on the last chapter and I get that. I just want to clear things out that I am a 100% Finchel shipper. I mean why would I write on them if I don't really like the couple. I love them just as much as I love my life. I mean they're the reason why I started watching glee. And even if Cory left and gone to the place where he belong, I will still continue watching it because of Lea. She's the most amazing actress and person that I've ever met. I've been wanting Sam and Rachel to be together in glee is just because I really do want Rachel to have a happy ending and when Movin' Out aired last year, I thought Chord have a good chemistry with Lea. Sam is a gorgeous guy and yes I admit he had been with a lot of girls since he appeared in season 2 but he's a great guy. He doesn't cheat and he always make sure that his girlfriend is happy no matter what her girl ask. And if Lea didn't want Rachel and Sam to be together then why did she agreed on that scene to be filmed. She's close to Ryan so I think she could have said anything and maybe she did after that since there's no more sweet interactions between Rachel and Sam in glee anymore. And yes, Mercedes is back and we all know that Samcedes will be back. I'm just stating my opinion guys because Rachel is the lead star of the show and I just want her to have someone before the show ends and at first I really wanted Puck for her but now that there's Quick once again, and I don't think Jesse will be back again since he's busy with his new show, I think they should try Sam and Rachel but take it slowly.

Okay, I'm done talking. To those people who didn't like what I said and left, goodbye then. I hope you will still watch glee. And for those people who agreed with me then, I'm happy. :)

Now about this chapter: Finchel sort of smut. I don't think I will write a lot of smut in this story because I think it's very not my kind of thing at all.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything. Keep watching glee ! :)

"Nice ride." She smiled at me as she spotted my truck on the parking lot. Well it's the only vehicle left beside hers which is a red Navigator by the way. She waited for me to open my truck and hopped in immediately when I open the front seat door for her.

"Um, where are we going?" I said before inserting the key to the ignition.

"I'll give you instructions along the way. Just start the car." She said giddily and I can't help but chuckle. She's really cute and adorable right now. If only I can kiss her right now. I know I can because we already did that but you know, I still don't know if I can do those things to her anytime.

We were soon driving in the outskirts of town. It's my first time leaving Lima without my parents so it's a bit scary for me. But I think Rachel knows the ways in this place so I think I don't have to be nervous about getting lost, and besides, it's not really that big of a place to get lost in the way.

The drive is met with a comfortable silence. It's actually my first time being close with a girl without being too paranoid or getting worried so much that she would find me weird and stay away from me from now on. It feels nice to have someone like her close to me and not thinking of so many things. It felt right, like we're supposed to be this way. If we are a couple, I would be holding her hand while I drive and she'll be squeezing mine at some point and then kiss me on my cheek. But that's the thing, though. I don't even know what we are right now.

She finally instructed me to pull over and we stopped at some abandoned building. It's not really that far from Lima. I mean I can still the place where I grew up not far from here so I think we're still going to get home.

She took her seatbelt off before climbing out of my truck. I did the same and followed her as she steps closer to the building. The abandoned place is quite big. It's like an old company building where white-collar employees worked. The walls are still looked like they've been just painted a few days ago so I guess the place is not really that old. The only thing that made it so empty are the broken windows, some papers covering the floor and the rusted gates that screams like it is a haunted house or something. It isn't that spooky but I think if I would be driving around and my car broke near to this place, I would rather sleep in the car than stay in this building.

"What is this place?" I finally asked her when she steps inside the building. We passed a huge lobby that has some kind of creepy presence to me still, then a lot of rooms after that. She hasn't said a word though. She's like she's concentrating too much on something but I know she heard what I just asked her.

We eventually stop on the last door from our right. The door creaked when she opens it and inside I found a table near the frosted glass window, a L-shaped couch on the far left side of the room, a bookshelf with only few books occupying it on the other side and finally, an old dirty carpet that covers the entire floor. The only thing that confuses me about the room though is that it doesn't look dirty aside from the carpet. I didn't find any cobwebs or dust on any of the furniture and it doesn't even smell foul. In fact, it smells like lavender and vanilla.

She walks inside the room and stops in the middle. She then turned around to face me and smiles.

"What do you think?" she holds out her hands, gesturing the place. "I've been going in here ever since my dad transferred their office to Lima. It's our own building and I stole the keys from my dad. He's an attorney and this was his office. I always go here when I want to be alone and to think. It's not that I'm an emo or anything. I just really felt like this room could be like my own secret place, away from the world outside of these four walls. I did a little cleaning a few days ago since I kinda had a feeling that I might show this place to someone. So now I think this our own secret place from now on." She smiled.

"Well, it's nice place." I said as I look around. "I just don't know why you chose me to share this secret place."

"Well," she steps closer to me. "I figured we're going to need a place where we can do whatever we want." She whispered the last three words when she stops in front of me, only inches apart.

I looked down to her and I saw her eyes darken. She bit her lip before encircling her arms around my neck and pulled me down for a kiss, just what I've wanted to do ever since I saw her steps inside the History class earlier. I don't know if it just me or the kiss is different from last night. It's full of need and want. It isn't rush. It was slow and full of emotions and maybe I am just putting things inside my head. Whatever it is though, I'm not complaining. Kissing her is like the only I want to do right after I wake up every morning. Hell, I'll even trade doing science projects just for this.

We pull away from each other when the need for air comes greedily. I look at her and found something in her eyes. It isn't lust, like the one I saw on her eyes on that party. I don't know what it is though. But it's the first time I saw that from her.

"Wow," she breathes. "Why does it feel like every time I kiss you, it feels more amazing than the last one?" she smiled.

"I can say the same to you," I smiled shyly. It is true though. How many did I mention that I really like, well, love, her kisses? I think you got the point already.

"Have you ever been intimate with someone? I mean foreplay and stuff?" she asked bluntly as she made her way to the couch and sat down. I stared at her for a moment. I really should get used to on how she spoke. She's a confident and bold and it's not really what I like about girls before but I don't know, I'm kind of digging it.

"I haven't been kissed by a girl before you so I think you already know the answer to that." I moved to sit next to her but giving a bit of distance between us. She turned her head to me and arched her eyebrow.

"So I guess just jerking off?"

I flushed but nodded. "Why are you asking?" I said, giving her a glance but decided to give my attention to my shoes. They're a bit dirty but they still look like presentable.

"Just curious," she shrugs. "And also because I want you to learn them all with me."

I turned my head back to her with shocked. "I mean if you wanted to." She added.

I blinked a few times and I think my mouth is a bit agape. Did she mean that? I think she's just joking.

"So," she inches closer to me and put her hand on my lap. "Should with start with a hand job?" she whispered, her eyes already darkening.

I looked down at her hand that is now travelling its way to my inner thigh and almost to my groin. I don't know whether I should stop her from what she's doing or wait for her hand to reach its destination. I mean it's really freaking hot and just like I said before, it's my first time a girl would be doing this to me. And hell, I am already hard.

She finally reaches her desired destination and we both gasped. No one ever touches me there before, as in no one. Ever. Her being the first one to do it is like one of the memorable thing that I will remember every time I look at my junk. Crazy but it's true.

"You're much bigger than I thought." She whispered in my ear. She started massaging my junk, squeezing every now and then. I can't help but close my eyes because it feels freaking awesome. No wonder guys wanted their girls to do nasty things to them. Now I really get the point. My head leaned back on the backrest and all of a sudden I felt her other hand unbuckling my belt.

I raised my head and looked at her and she just winks at me before turning her head back as she do her task. I lick my lips at the anticipation that is building up on both of us. Will she do it? Will she do the thing that girls do to their boyfriends' junks?

I felt scared for a second because I'm not really prepared from all of this. I didn't prepare my manhood for this. I should have listened to Sam when he talks about manscaping before to me and Mike. Well I didn't because I didn't think that I was going to be in this situation like, ever.

He opened my fly and immediately pulled down my pants and my boxer briefs, that is actually too embarrassing since it has Power Rangers' characters on it, and finally kneeled in front of me.

She grabs my penis with her one hand and stared up at me, smirking. "I think this has now become one of my favorite parts of you, Finn Hudson." She said before finally opening her mouth and putting my penis inside. Holy FUCK!

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I pulled up my pants and closed my fly and buckled my belt. She's on the table rummaging something from the drawer. I don't know what to say after what just happened. Okay, so she gave me a blowjob and it's not just any blowjob. The first blowjob that I've experience in my existence. Sam always brag about this kind of stuff to me and Mike but I didn't realized that it is really amazing just like how he described it. It is more than amazing for me because it isn't just a random girl.

I feel a bit shy when I looked at her and found that she's already looking at me. I don't know if I should thank her or reciprocate. I don't really know how to pleasure a girl. I can't go look through the Internet because Kurt is always using my computer as well. I don't want him finding some porn sites in my history.

"Are you okay?" she asked as she continues to rummage through the drawers.

"Yeah," I croaked then cleared my throat. "Um, what are you looking for? Maybe I can help?"

"I'm looking for the birth control pills that I put in here. I think I'm going to need it." she said as she opens another drawer.

I looked at her in disbelief. Not that I'm really surprised that she knew those kind of things because with all the things that she said and we had done, I think it should have been a clue all along. But what worries me is that her finding those pills for a reason. Are we going to do it soon? It's too soon, right?

She looks up when I didn't say anything back and then laughs.

"I'm kidding, Finn," she said. "I don't think I'm going to use any of that anyways. They said it's harmful."

I sighed in relief. I don't think I'm ready for that kind of intercourse with her. It's just very complicated for me. They said sex is great but it's amazing when you're doing it with someone special. Rachel to me is special because she's the first girl who sees me like I'm someone special but I don't think I feel special for her though. I mean, we only just met last night. I think girls took a lot longer time to trust a person completely.

"What? You think I slept with every guy I met?" she asked.

"What? No! I never looked at you that way when I first met you." I explained.

"It's okay if you did though. It's what everybody thinks so I'm really that affected anymore." She shrugs.

"Don't you get hurt by that?" I asked, worried.

She looks like a tough person when you look at her. The kind of girl who doesn't take any crap from anyone. But some girls are just acting like they are really that strong and gets vulnerable and emotional when they are all alone. That's what I'm seeing from her right now. I think she's the type of girl who acts like she's confident and all, but deep inside, she's just any kind of girl out there. I wonder what happened to her.

"No, I'm kinda used to it." She said, going back to rummaging the drawers once again. "I did experience the sex before though."

"Let me guess, you're boyfriend?" I asked, my voice sounding like it has venom on it. Is it bad that I feel jealous a little bit right now? Damn, I sounds like a wuss.

"Ex-boyfriend." She corrected. "It was a long time ago. When I thought all the things were meant to have a happy ending and all that shit." She chuckled.

"Can I ask what happened?" I sat down once again at the couch, trying not to sound being nosy or anything. I'm just curious about her that's all.

"He just left, saying we're incompatible." She frowned. "I've kinda expecting it though. I mean nothing lasts forever, right?"

"It can if you find someone who is worth of forever," I shrugged. Does that even make any sense? I don't know. It just came out of my mouth.

She stares at me like she's surprised or something but then looks down and smiled.

"Found it!" she exclaimed. "Here!"

She throws something to me and I caught it with my hand. I opened my hand and found a silver key.

"What's this for?" I asked, curious.

"It's the key to this room. You can always come here whenever you feel like you want to be alone and get out of the world for an hour or so." She shrugs.

I smiled a bit. "Thanks." I put the key along with my keys to the house and to my truck.

"And you know whenever you need some sexy times, you can always text me and we'll meet here." She said, going towards me and sitting on my lap. My eyebrows rose up but I didn't say anything. The gesture is very rare that I even find it sweet. It's like we're together as a couple. But I know it's just some hopeless thinking though. I think.

"Do you like what we did earlier?" she asked all of a sudden. She put her arm around my shoulder and the other one draws circles in my shirt.

"Yeah, of course." I admitted shyly. "I haven't done that with anyone before, and I know you know that."

"Do you wanna do it again?" she asked, her voice becoming soft and sexy.

I gasped when her hand went down to my crotch and did what she did to me earlier. I closed my eyes and almost kissed her but I stop myself. Okay, here we go again.

After our intimate shenanigans for the third time, we laid on the couch her back against my chest and my arms encircling her torso. She's playing with the hairs in my arms while I staring at her neck, wondering what she's thinking. I'm also kind wondering what we are right now. But before I encouraged myself to ask her about it, she sat up.

"We should probably go." She said, standing up and facing me.

I sat up and looked at her and nodded. There's something different about her tone this time though. It's like the happiness that I found in it earlier are now lost and replaced with sadness and coldness.

I stood up and followed her out of the room and out of the building. She opened the front seat door and climbed inside. I did the same and immediately start the car, looking one last time at the abandoned building before finally hitting the road.

We arrived at the school after a few minutes. The whole drive was a bit awkward for me. It's like there's something unresolved tension between us that I can't just find out what. I want to ask her about everything. I want to talk to her and ask her on a date, but I don't know what's stopping me. Maybe the fact that it's my first time asking a girl out and afraid of rejection. Yeah, that's what it is.

I stopped the engine of my truck and we were left with an uncomfortable silence. I glanced at her a few times but she never did glance back. I don't know what's going on with her head and what I should say to cut the silence. Is it really this hard to understand a girl on this kind of situations? No wonder Sam don't like dating.

"I really like you, Finn," she muttered, playing with the hem of her skirt. She looks up and turned to me. "And I know this is a very selfish thing to ask but I'm going to ask you anyway."

She took a deep breath before looking to me square in the eye. "I would really appreciate it if you can keep this thing between us a secret. I just really don't want anyone ruining this for us. I just want this, whatever this is, to be private and keep this to ourselves."

I don't really know if any of what she said registered in my head. Because all of what happened to us since last night came running back in my head. The bedroom at Santana's house, the secret texting, the meeting on the hallway when no one else is around, and finally, the abandoned building. It really does make sense now. She never wanted any of this to be known by others. She never wanted me to be known as her boyfriend or something. I'm her secret and it's up to me whether I'm going to make it stay that way.

"I hope you understand, Finn." She said, her eyes looking all guilty and sad. Maybe I should just make her get out of my truck and leave. I'm stupid, I know. I thought that this thing is going to be great. I thought she will be proud to have me as her boyfriend when we start dating. All of it was a just a secret fling though. She doesn't want the things that I want.

I looked at her and all I can think is that I want to be with her but why she doesn't want it too. But I like her and maybe this is going to be the biggest mistake and probably the stupidest thing that I will do but the hell with all of it.

"Of course," I finally said. "I'm okay with that." I smiled but I don't think it was really that convincing.

"Really?" she asked incredulously. Her eyes changes immediately and it becomes all happy and rainbows in a split second. "Thank you, Finn!" she takes her seatbelt off and crashes her lips into mine. The kiss almost made its way to a full blown make out until Rachel honked the horn on the steering wheel. We seemed to realize that we are on the school ground that we immediately fixes ourselves. Rachel going back to the seat next to me while I fix myself and my hard on. I guess I'll have to take care of this in the shower later.

"Thank you again, Finn. I promise you won't regret this." She said smiling softly to me.

I am already regretting it. "It's fine." I smiled, mimicking hers.

"Okay, I gotta go. See you tomorrow." She gave me a kiss on the cheek before finally climbing out of my truck. I waited for her to get inside her car and leave before I started my engine again and left the school parking lot.

I drove my way home distracted, thinking of all the things that will happen to Rachel and I. I don't know if I could last going on through the days knowing that we're secretly a thing but really can't show it everywhere except on private places when we are all alone. It sucks but I like her so bad that I would take it whatever she wants me too. I guess I'm just this desperate to have someone in my life.

I quickly went to my room, ignoring everyone when they greeted me downstairs. They seemed to get that I want to be alone so nobody went to check up on me. I lie on my bed and stare once again at my lovely and very interesting ceiling. Just staring at it makes me think about everything that is happening on my life right now. I don't know if I can keep this to anyone, especially Mike and Sam. Well, maybe only Sam since I know he would scream it all to the world unlike Mike. If only I have someone to tell it too and knowing that they would understand me.

If only my best friend was here and not on some other school. I closed my eyes for a few minutes before standing up and do my homework for the day.

A/N: So how was it? Share your thoughts to me. Thank You ! :D

About Finn's best friend: I don't know who it could be though because Finn is very different in here. He's like an introvert here so I don't know which Glee character should I put to be his best friend. Any suggestions?

See you on the next chapter ! Thanks for reading !

About glee: (no hate)

I really loved the New New York episode. It's very different from what I'm used to but it still amazing. I like how they made their way on NYC and being adults. Next episode is going to be sad though and the songs are great although I didn't most of the songs.