A/N: I can't believe I'm updating on time now. Haha. So here comes the next chapter! Yay! :)
First of all, thanks once again for the awesome reviews. I have read all of them and smiled every time so thank you.
Second, sorry for the mistakes if you found any. I don't have the time to check this because it's late and I need to sleep because I need to wake up early for my internship.
So, for this chapter, you will meet the last character that I will add on this story. She's cute and I love her on glee. She's actually one of crushes next to Lea :)
Expect a lot of drama around the main couple and there's also a lot of sweet stuff here and there, I think. They're kinda having a date but it's not really an actual date. Anyway, I hope you all like it. :)
Disclaimer: I don't own anything. Just my mind that won't stop thinking of great ideas for a story. Enjoy reading !
I woke up feeling the greatest man alive. Okay, maybe not for everyone but for myself. I feel like I just had the best sleep of my life because I have Rachel with me on the bed. I opened my eyes slowly and smiled even when there's no reason. But the feeling quickly sank down like a Popsicle after being put in the microwave.
I woke up, by myself, with no sign of her. The bed is empty apart from me. I thought that maybe it was just a dream. That I was so tired in doing my homework last night that I'm seeing things. But then I inhaled the pillow next to mine, where she's supposed to be lying and it smelled like raspberries, the one that I smelled on her last night.
It isn't a dream then but it still sucks that she's not here. I sat up and then felt something under my pillow with my hand. I pulled it out and found a folded paper. I opened it and smiled when I realized that it was Rachel's cute handwriting.
Finn,
I had fun last night but unfortunately I can't stay. I'll see you later at school ;)
xo
Rachel
I can't help but smile after reading it. Yeah, I know it sucks that she's not next to me when I woke up but at least she's sorry about it. I bet she wanted to stay but given our circumstances, it's really hard to explain if someone catches us.
I jumped out of bed feeling all happy and excited going to school. I took a shower, which is kind of hard by the way since I'm still thinking about her and I don't really want to play with myself when I think about her. It's kind of disrespecting. Yeah, I know it's lame.
"Good morning everyone!" I greeted when I arrived to the kitchen. I sat down and ignored all their confused faces.
"Someone's in a good mood today," Kurt said, noticing my all smiley happy face. I just shrugged at him and put five pancakes on my plate and started eating.
The breakfast had gone smoothly as I try to ignore their confused faces and questions on why I am on a cheerful mood. Not that I don't want to tell them but if I just slip up even tiniest information, they won't stop until they know all the details and I am not a good liar.
Kurt and I arrived at school and immediately separated when Kurt found his popular friends and now I am all alone once again as I walk my way down to my class. It is my favorite class after all, Science, and I don't really mind being alone. And I have Sam, Mike and Quinn whenever I feel like having a company.
The teacher arrived when I reached the room and quickly started the lesson. It was another experiment and we have to partner with someone again and I get to be partner with a girl named Marley. She's not much of a talker but she's kind and the way she smiles is kind of a bit adorable for me because she has an angelic face. I think I maybe have a crush on her but that's it. She's not going to replace Rachel in my heart no matter how cute and adorable she is, especially with her eyeglasses.
"Who is that cutie pie?" Quinn asked when I exited the classroom, staring at Marley as we both went to my locker.
"Uh, that's Marley, we're partners earlier at some experiment." I said, opening my locker and putting my books.
"She's cute and looks so sweet. I like her already. You should ask her out," Quinn suggested and I just snorted and closed my locker.
"Quinn, I have Rachel, remember?" I said, whispering Rachel's name when I mentioned it to her. It's better to be safe than to have someone else heard it.
She rolled her eyes. "Oh please, you're just with her because you're sleeping together."
"We're not sleeping together, Lucy." I retorted. Well, at least not yet.
"Well, you're practically on your way there so before any of that stuff happen, stop it and go and ask Marley because I think she likes you and you can really use a girl who can be proud enough to say that you're together to everyone."
I rolled my eyes at her this time. "Rachel and I may not be publicly together but it still special and no matter how you put it, she's kind of my girlfriend now." We started walking once again.
"Wait," she stops and pulled my arm. "Don't tell me you're falling in love with her, Chris." When she noticed my reaction, which is me biting my lip and not answering her question, she slaps my arm and not playfully at all.
"Ow!" She hits me again. "Ow! Can you please stop it?" I glared at her, rubbing my arms as if they would heal the pain.
"Are you stupid, Finn?" Uh oh, there's that first name again. "You can't fall in love with someone who doesn't even want you to be in love with her." She snapped.
"Can you please don't shout?" I hissed, glancing around and noticing that some students are starting to stare at us. "I honestly tried not to, okay? But it's hard when she's getting all sweet to me."
I looked around once again and when everyone is no longer looking at us, I pulled her to one side. "Last night, Rachel spent the night in my house and she talked about herself to me. That's a big deal for me, Quinn. She's opening up to me and she's acting like I'm her girlfriend whenever she's with me. So tell me, how am I supposed to not fall in love with her when she's being like that?"
She didn't say anything for a moment but stared at me. Eventually she sighed, looking behind me for a moment before turning her eyes back to me. "Fine, do whatever you want. Just make sure that you're not going to be hurt so bad because we both know Rachel may leave you sooner or later and we don't know how you're going to deal with that." she turned me around and I saw Rachel, standing beside her locker and talking to Puck, the biggest bad boy in school. I felt Quinn steps away and left me standing there by myself, staring at the two like a stalker.
You know that feeling that when you wake up on the right side of the bed, getting excited and all about how your day would turn out and you expect it so much to be great but suddenly something happened unexpectedly that all the happiness you felt from the morning you wake started to melt down your body and starting to be replace by depression? Yeah, that's what I'm feeling right now.
I looked at her still, watching how her eyes and mouth turned when she's smiling and laughing from what Puck says. She shook her head at some point and then her eyes glanced to me and stayed for a while before going back to Puck's. She shook her head once again and I saw Puck sighed and shrugged before walking away like a defeated person.
I don't know what happened or what the hell did they talked about but all I know now is that it's really hard to see Rachel with someone, smiling and laughing. I turned my back to her and started walking to my booth. I have a free period so I have to go and earned money for glee club. Maybe that will distract me from her. But as I made myself kiss every girl who is in the line, I can't help but feeling more depress because what I am doing right now is basically what I am doing with Rachel. I'm giving a girl a sweet gesture just for their own happiness. But what Rachel and I are doing is way, worst than this. At least in this kissing booth, I don't actually have feelings for the girls that I kissed.
When my classes are all done and I have given Mr. Schue all the money that I collected because it's the end of the week, I made my way back to my truck and made my way home. I never did see Rachel after I saw her with Puck earlier. She never even texted me after that. I mean what's up with that? She can be mad when I flirted with someone but I can't? I didn't even hear any explanation from her.
My phone buzzed when I reached my room. I pulled it out of my pocket and sat down on the bed, finding out that it was from Rachel.
What you saw earlier is nothing. You know that right?
I arched my eyebrow at that. Did she sense that I'm mad that she texted me?
Yeah
Are you mad at me?
Why would I be?
I don't know. Maybe because I didn't told you sooner?
I sighed. Can I say that I'm mad? Am I even allowed to be mad for it?
It's fine Rach. I'm not mad. I don't even have any reasons to be.
She doesn't respond immediately and I stared at my phone for five minutes. When she still didn't reply, I stood up and decided to change before going back to lie on my bed. I check my phone once again and still, she doesn't have any texts. Now I'm worried. Did I say something bad? I checked my last text to her and read a few times. It doesn't look bad, right? I'm just saying what I'm really feeling. I waited for her text still and I don't know when it happened but I doze off, holding my phone tightly with my hand.
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"Finn," I heard someone say. A voice that is really familiar to me. I can identify that voice anywhere. I slowly opened my eyes and found Rachel, staring right at me and smiling softly.
"Am I dreaming?" I mumbled.
She just laughs and shook her head. "No, you're not dreaming, Finn." She caresses my hair and ran her hand to my cheek.
I sat up slowly when I realized that I'm not really dreaming. Rachel is really in my house. I furrowed my brows at confusion. How did she –
"I climbed through the window," she said, sensing my question in mind.
"Um, okay," I said slowly.
"Are your parents home? It seemed a little quiet in your house right now." she asked as she sat down next to me.
"Um, no. They're in Toledo visiting my grandparents. Kurt's not gonna be home until later." I looked at my window and saw that it's starting to get dark.
"Oh." I heard her say. I turned to her and notice that she seems a bit worried.
"Why are you here? Are you okay? Is something wrong?"
"No, I'm fine. I just – I just really want to see you." she said shyly, biting her lip. "And you know to explain about what happened between – "
"Rach, I said it was fine. You don't need to explain anything to me."
"Are you sure you're not mad?"
"Well, yeah. What would I be mad?" I lied, kind of. I was a bit mad earlier but I guess knowing our status right now, I can't really be mad at her.
"Because I would if the situation is in reverse. I don't want to see you flirting with someone." She explained, noticing that her voice changes when she told me she doesn't want to see me with someone else. Jealous? I don't know. I hope so.
"Why?" I asked, wanting to hear that she have feelings for me as well or something like that.
"Because I hate sharing, Finn." She glared at me. "I don't want anyone flirting or holding you at some way because I am the only one who supposed to do that to you."
I stared at her in disbelief. Does that mean that she have feelings for me? She said it like she owns me and the way that she's looking right now is like a jealous girlfriend and I'm her boyfriend. I could have smiled and kiss her or something because even that doesn't really tell me anything about her feelings towards me, I'm happy that she's being jealous. That kind of means that I'm hers and she's mine, right? Right? Please tell me that I'm right.
"Okay," I said slowly, processing in my head what she just said. "You wanna know the truth?" I stood up then turned to face her. She looked up and she seems hesitant about it but nodded.
"I was mad, Rach." I said. "Seeing you with Puck earlier made me think that maybe he's the one that you like more. That maybe you're going to realize someday that he's so much better than me about everything, like he's the one who can truly make you happy at everything and I'm just this geek who don't even know how to pleasure the girl that I like." Whoa, did I just say all that out loud?
I stared at her, wanting to know what she's thinking because we're clearly both surprised at what I just said. She looked at me, mouth agape and eyes wide. Okay, not a good sign. I tore my eyes away from hers and settle to get my chair at the study table and sat on it, facing her.
"Look, what I'm mean is – "
"No, I get it." she stops me, looking down at her lap and started to play with her fingers. Is she nervous? And even if this is so way out of topic but her dress right now makes everyone know how hot she is. I know I haven't been telling you guys how usually she dress but let's put it this way, Rachel and Santana dressed alike. I mean you could have guess that they go shopping together and but same clothes because the way they clothed are so similar that's maybe why they're considered as the hottest girls in school. They don't even need to join the Cheerios to be popular.
Okay, back to the situation, she doesn't speak for a moment, she just continued playing with her fingers as if she's thinking of something and I watched her, wanting to tell her to just forget everything and hold her until she needed to get home.
She eventually stops playing with her fingers and looks up, staring right at me.
"Puck wanted to go out with me," she started. Okay, I definitely did not see that coming but I get it. I mean, who wouldn't want to go out with her?
"Do you want to?" I asked, feeling a bit melancholic.
"No, of course not," she said quickly which made me sighed in relief. "I'm having this kind of relationship with you and I'm not the type of girl who played around with other guys."
"I'm not saying that you are but I just thought that maybe you wanted him more than me – "
"No, I don't and stop this stupid nonsense, okay?" she snapped. "I don't care what everybody thinks of you or whatever you think of yourself. I like you because you're like that and I'm not settling for less because you're far greater than what you think of yourself." She smiled a bit and I can't help but to do the same.
"I'm sorry," I said. "I just never thought that something like this would happen to me. I mean it's not really a usual scene where a guy like me gets to have this relationship to a girl like you." I chuckled and she just rolled her eyes.
"I don't want to talk about this anymore so can we please just do something else?" she said, exasperated.
"Well, what do you have in mind?"
"You always know what I want, Finn." She smirked, her voice starting to fill with lust.
I want what she wants right now but I there's this huge feeling inside me that doesn't want this to happen, at least right now. I just want to spend a day with her without us trying to rip each other's clothes off. I want to have a normal day with her where we could just talk about everything that we can talk about, or watch a movie, or eat. I want her to know that I just don't want her for her body. I want her to realize that I'm good enough to be her boyfriend if she'd let me. So I need to prove her that I deserved her even if I have to tried everything. Just to let her know how much she's worth to me.
Then a great idea pops into my head. Well, not really that great, I guess, just something I think she would like at least. I stood up from my chair and looked at her.
"Wait here, okay?" I said to her and then turn to leave.
"Where are you going?" she asked before I even walked out the door. I turned and smiled at her before turning once again to go to my destination, which is just in Kurt's room.
I opened his room, surprised that he didn't locked it, and then went to search for his stack of DVDs. I know Kurt has a lot of them and I know that he has a lot of those romantic movies that you would grow a vagina if you watch all the way through. Puck's words, not mine.
When I found them in one of Kurt's cabinets, I took them all out and tried to find movies that seem to look good just by looking at their cases and when I grew frustrated on how to choose from all of them, I took them quickly and went back to my room.
"What's all this?" Rachel asked when I put all of Kurt's DVDs on the bed, right next to her.
"Well, I thought that we should just watch a movie and stay in," I smiled. "We can make popcorn and fries and I let you choose what movie you want and since Kurt has a lot of romantic movies and I don't know what's to choose from them, I figured I should take them all and let you pick what you want to watch."
She didn't spoke for a moment, staring at the DVDs that is scattered on my bed. She looked at me and she seems amused so that's a great sign that she's not mad or something.
"Well, Mr. Hudson, I'm not actually a fan of romantic movies because they seem too predictable to me." She shrugs.
"Oh." So I guess my plan a bit sucks. I don't know she doesn't like those kinds of movies, just so you know.
"Let me see your DVDs." She stood up then goes through the pile of DVDs next to the TV and the player.
"Hmm, Avatar, Iron Man, Transformers, Star Wars, Hunger Games, Inception, you're really into Sci-Fi movies, aren't you?" she said, not tearing her eyes from the DVDs.
"Um, yeah. I love science so I kind of dig them all." I said shyly.
"I can see that," she mumbled then continues on looking through the pile. "Ooh, you have horror movies as well." She said, her voice getting a bit excited. Huh, so she likes scary movies, then. I got to put that on my About Rachel Berry list. Just kidding, don't have any of that. Maybe I should make one. Yeah, maybe later.
She finally picks one out of the pile and it's a horror movie. "I like this one." She held it out to me.
"Freddy vs. Jason?"
"Yeah, that's one of my favorites." She smiled then arranges all Kurt's DVDs and put them on the floor.
I just shrugged and popped in the movie. I still need to prepare for the popcorn and fries though so I faced her. "Are you okay if leave alone for a while? I'm gonna make some popcorn and fries and bring drinks too."
"Yeah, of course. Take your time." She smiled then face the TV, getting excited already for the movie. She's not scared at all. That's kind of unusual for a girl actually. But I just shrug it off and went downstairs to do my task.
I came back a few moments later with the popcorn, fries and two can of Coke and put them all on the nightstand. I gave the Coke to her and she just took it and thanked me, not tearing her eyes from the TV. I just smiled and joined her on the bed, offering her the popcorn and the fries.
Two scary movies later, we are almost out of popcorn and our can of sodas are already empty. I didn't hear any scream from her at all. Not even a shrill or a flinch. She just watched the movie all the way through like it was like Animal Planet. I did flinch a bit on the Freddy vs. Jason movie to be honest because even though it's not my first time watching the movie, Freddy always scare the crap out of me. I watched one of the movies of A Nightmare on Elm Street before and it was scary. The whole bed scene with young Johnny Depp on his bed is a scary one. I'm not even sure if I slept at all after that.
The next horror movie that we watched was Scream which is actually one of my favorites. The whole Ghostface killer thing and solving whose the real killer just excites me everytime.
"Well, that was fun." I stood up, taking out the cd out of the player. "What do you wanna watch next? Should we try Kurt's DVDs? I think there are great ones in there.
"Okay," she shrugged. I went to sit down on the pile, scanning all the titles.
"How about The Notebook?" I asked.
She just made a face that is considered already as a no.
"Twilight?"
"Eew."
"The Vow?"
"No way."
"500 days of Summer?"
"Not even a love story, but still no."
"Titanic?"
"Not my scene."
"Oh, Kurt also have Broadway stuff. Evita, Wicked, Funny Girl – "
"Wait, what?" she grabbed the one that has a woman who has the same nose as hers on the cover.
"You know that movie?" I stood up, staring at her as she scanned the whole cover of the DVD.
"Um, yeah. I heard this one before." She glances at me then went back to stare at the DVD. I kind of think right now that she likes that movie by the way she's staring at it like it was precious gem or something.
"Come on, let's watch it." I suggested.
"Really?" she asked. "I mean, are you sure? Do you know this movie as well?"
"Well, no. But I haven't seen it and it looks like it's a great movie since I heard before on the news or somewhere." I shrug.
She hesitated for a moment before handing the movie. I took the CD out of the case and pop it in the player before joining her to bed.
I watched her most of the time as the movie progresses. I even heard her hums whenever the lead, who is actually Barbra Streisand, sang a song. Then I realized that she didn't like the movie. She loved that movie and I think she watched it a lot of times on her own. Not going to lie, but I'm actually shocked that she watched this kind of movies. I mean you just look at her and she just doesn't seem the Broadway type of girl. I don't even know if she could sing but I bet she could because she hums like an angel.
The movie eventually ended and I stared at her as she still looks at the screen as the credits rolled.
"Well, it's a great movie." I said, breaking the silence.
"Yeah, it is." I heard her say.
"Do you want to watch another one? I heard from Kurt that Wicked is also good. I always heard him singing Defying Gravity and he always killed the high note." I chuckled, remembering when Kurt always sings that on the shower. He sang it too much; I even remember some of the lyrics.
"No, I – I think I'm done watching movies right now." she mumbled then faces me.
"Okay," I said, turning off the player and the TV. "What do you want to do?"
"This," she pulled me from my shirt and crashes her lips on mine.
As you all know, Rachel and I kiss so many times before but right now, I feel that there was something more to it, like she's telling me something just by kissing me and I only can just figure that out, I wouldn't be this confused as I am right now.
I always find out something new to her every time we see each other. The more I found out more about her, the deeper I fall in love with her. And I'm scared to tell her about this because I know she won't like it. But things changed now. We're not the same Finn and Rachel when we first met. We actually understand each other now and accept one another. Maybe this time, she can accept me and my love for her. All I want to do right now is kiss her and tell her that I love her. That if she could just give me a chance to prove that to her, then maybe she can learn to love me too. Because I know that she has feelings for me somehow. I just don't know why she keeps on ignoring it.
The kiss lasted longer than I thought until Rachel straddled me and grind against me, peppering me with kisses. She kissed my lips, cheeks, my ears, and then nibbled on my jaw until she reached my neck. I love it every time she kisses my neck.
"I like you, Finn. I really, really like you" she whispered in my ear and it made me closed my eyes.
"Do you like me, Finn?" she breathed. She still kisses me on my neck, probably wanting to leave a mark there.
"Finn, answer me."
I don't know actually what made me do it or I think I just got caught up in the moment but I pulled her lips away from my neck and crashes it into mine before tearing my lips again from hers and look at her right in the eye.
"I love you, Rachel." That's it, I said it.
Something happened to her all of a sudden and I don't know what it is or why it happened. She just pulled herself from my lap and stood, her back facing me. Okay, so I think this is not a good time after all. Who said that I'm smart because I would like to confront that person and punch him in the face right now.
A/N: So, cliffhanger, eh? XD I think you already what will happen but still, I want to know your ideas about it. Maybe I'll find your idea better than mine that I would use that and write it on this fic :)
For those amazing readers who read my other story (You Chose To Let Me Love You), I already decided what I'm going to do with it. I don't know if everyone will like it but I hope you will still read it. I actually have a title for it but I won't tell anyone yet since I'm still not finish with all the plotting and stuff. But I might if you ask nicely :)
Anyway, thanks for reading and I hope you enjoyed it. I had fun writing this chapter because of the whole Finn being innocent and all :) I hope you like Marley and don't worry about her and Puck, I won't let them anywhere near the couple. For now, maybe :)
I might include some Klaine soon but it depends if you want it too.
ABOUT Glee:
I'm so proud for Rachel at her opening night and I was a bit emotional when they showed Finn during Who Are You Now. I don't like the whole Sue kissing other guy but her being in New York is funny just like the scene where Santana climbed out of the cab. Hilarious. Yay for Wemma and welcome to Daniel Finn Schuester. :)
There are rumors that Lea and Naya are fighting in real life and I don't know if it's true or not. They also said that Naya may get fired after season 5. I hope none of this are true. I love Pezberry. And if they are really fighting, I hope they made up soon.