A/N: Here is is, Chapter 10 guys. I'm excited to post this because i just finished another story. Whooooooooooooooooooooooo ! XD
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I went straight to my room once I got home. I have this plan in my head that I should really work on if I'm hoping to get Rachel this time. Okay, so yeah, I'm back to that. Blame Rachel, not me. She sang me a Taylor Swift song in front of the whole glee club and that makes me more in love with her, just so you know, and who doesn't love Taylor Swift? She's like one of the popular singers in the world and although she practically wrote songs about those guys she dated, she never failed to make everyone love her music and plus, she's a gorgeous girl and I have a crush on her. And that only stays between the two of us.
I dropped my bag on the floor, opened my laptop and took my iPod from the nightstand. If Rachel can do that in front of a crowd, then I can too. It's going to be hard since I'm not really used to be the center of attention but when it comes to Rachel, I will do whatever just to make her be mine. Wow, I can't believe I'm really this desperate. Well, if you love someone like I do, you can probably understand me right now.
I was scanning my list of songs from my music player when I heard a knock from my bedroom door. I look up and found Kurt staring at me. "Hey," he said.
"Hey," I said back.
"What are you doing?"
"Um, nothing." I lied. It's just that I'm still not that comfortable telling other about me and Rachel and yeah, I know he's my step-brother and all but as of now, we're really not that close. We hang out with different friends and the only time that we're together is on glee club.
"Finn," he steps inside my room. "I know we haven't been that close ever since Carole and my Dad got married, but even if we weren't have the brother-to-brother relationship like the others, I just want you to know that whatever it is that's troubling, I'm here, just like I know you're there for me whenever I need you." He smiled before turning to leave.
"Kurt," I said, stopping him from leaving. He turned around to face me again.
"Yeah?"
I hesitated for a moment. Well, he's right at what he said but it also did something to me. And now I wonder why people's words affect me so much this day? Maybe I'm just getting a little bit emotional or maybe I just need a wakeup call or something.
I sighed. Well, here goes nothing. "I'm searching for a song that I want to perform tomorrow in glee club. I may need a help on that since, you know, it's my first time doing that."
He chuckled. "Well, that's true." he steps closer and sat on the bed next to me. "Let me see that."
He grabbed my iPod and scanned through my list, like what I was doing before he came in here.
"Well, I gotta say that you choice is music is not what I expected from you. I have a few choices in here that I'm sure you would be great, but I really think you should do this one." He hands me my iPod and I took it, looking at the song that was playing.
I raised my eyebrows. "Why this one?"
"Because I think that song will really sends the message across Rachel." He winked when I stared at him, mouth agape.
"You may be smart, Finn Hudson, but you're not great at being very discreet." He patted me in the back then stood. "And I think it would be best if you have Mike and Sam to help you with it. I know you're planning to sing this as a solo but I don't think that song really resembles what happened between the two of you. You should give them the other parts and you just sang the rest until the last part."
"Okay," I nodded, listening to his advices. "Thank you, Kurt."
"Good luck tomorrow." He smiled before retreating and leaving me alone. I made a call for Sam and Mike, inviting them to my house.
A few minutes later, I heard a knock and downstairs. Kurt let them get in and they made their in my room where I was waiting for them.
"Okay, what's going on?" Sam greeted when they entered my room.
"I need your help about something."
"Okay, what is it?"
"Want to do a song with me tomorrow in glee club." That made the two grinned and nodded.
"Kurt helped me picked a song and he says it will be better if we three performed it."
"Okay, I'm not going to argue with that since Kurt never fails at his advices." Mike said.
"Okay then, let's get to practice."
The next day, I went to all of my classes feeling a bit excited and a whole lot of nervous. I don't know what to expect actually with what I'm about to do later. Sam, Mike and I had already decide who will sing a certain part and it kind of feels like everyone of us is dealing with something in our lives, romantically speaking.
So when the time for the glee club meeting arrived, the three of us sits next to each other and still talk about what we should do later. I know what I will do later, I just hope that Rachel will attend today and she'll not react on a certain way that will make me so embarrass in front of the whole glee club.
I waited for her to come, not tearing my eyes away from the door. I have seen everyone enter and greeted them casually when they say hi to me.
When Mr. Schue arrived, I kind of lost hope but still stare at the door hoping that a last minute entrance will happen. But Mr. Schue is already asking us if some of us will perform for today. And even if Sam and Mike raise their hands, I still didn't look away from the door. I finally tore my eyes from the door is when my two best friends pull me up from my chair and dragged me to the front and center.
I sighed, disappointed in myself and in her, but mostly to myself. I prepared a song and do my best to make it perfect for her, but she's a no show. Now, I'm about to sing in front of the glee club with no one to dedicate it to. Well, at least Mike and Sam can dedicate it to someone since Tina and Quinn are here. Oh yeah, Sam kind of have a crush on Quinn but she seems to be digging Puck right now and he thought that he can relate to the song that we are about to perform right now.
Mike and Sam grabbed their guitars while I went to the drums, feeling a bit like a deflated balloon right now. But I can't feel like this if Sam and Mike are also depending on me right now. So maybe I just have to make myself forget how Rachel not coming in is making me upset right now.
"Uh, hi." Sam says. "First of all, it's really nice to perform a song with these guys and it's really is Finn's idea so, yeah, hope you like this."
"Um," I said, feeling all of the eyes of the glee club we're on me. "We're dedicating this song to the girls that we liked and I really hope that they get what we're really trying to say."
Sam counts from one to three before the three of us started to play the intro of the song. Some of them raise their eyebrows when they realized what the song is and some just smiled and snickered.
That's when she entered the choir room. I blinked a few times just to make sure that she's really there, that I'm not having this kind of imagination in my head because I'm too depressed that she didn't come. But she's there, like, really there. She took a seat in the front row and when our gazes locked for a moment, I knew that she heard what I said earlier.
Mike is the first one to take the first verse of the song, directly turning his gaze to Tina who is a bit uncomfortable at the moment.
She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
She pushed me in the pool
At our last school reunion
She laughs at my dreams
But I dream about her laughter
Strange as it seems
She's the one I'm after
Then the three of us sang the chorus together, obviously looking at the girls who we want to know what we're right at this moment. I stared at Rachel and it made me feel better and smiled a bit when her mouth agape, surprised at the song choice and actually getting what I'm telling her right now.
'cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
Now it's Sam's turn to sing. To be honest, I don't understand why he chose to sang this part but I didn't say anything about it. And when I glance at Quinn, I found that she's a bit red when Sam was singing directly to her. Maybe they talked before but Quinn just blew her off or something.
She can't keep a secret
For more than an hour
She runs on 100 proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me
The more I adore her
What can I do?
I'd do anything for her
The chorus makes my eyes went back to Rachel, who seems to be more surprised when I turned my eyes back to her. She's waiting for my turn I know. She knows that I have my part on this and yeah, I have. But what I'm about to do later will be the one I should care about more because it's really terrifying and I really have no idea what will happen after.
Everyone looked at me when it's my turn to sing. What they didn't know is I'm singing the rest of the song from this moment, just like what we decided to do when we took parts last night. The two agreed to do it since they know what I'm going through right now and they just wished me luck and hope that it works out in the end. I really hope so too. And so I sang while the two back me up.
And when she sees it's me
On her caller ID
She won't pick up the phone
She'd rather be alone
But I can't give up just yet
Cause every word she's ever said
Is still ringin' in my head
Still ringin' in my head
I got up from the stool in the drums set and gave the drumsticks to the guy, who is actually waiting for his turn to be in the drums again, and then I walk closer to her while she stares at me in disbelief. Yeah, I can't believe that I'm doing this too. I stopped in front of her as I sang the next parts.
She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
Knows just what to say
So my whole day is ruined
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
Oh, I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for
I laid out my hand and I was relieved when she took it. I pulled her up from her seat and pull her with me in front, as I sang the words of song while Sam and Mike still backs me up and going to the girls who they dedicate the song to.
Just the girl
I'm lookin' for
She's just the girl
I'm lookin' for
Just the girl
I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for
I leaned down and crashes my lips to her, making everyone cheer and clap. Lucky for me, she reciprocated my kiss and when the two of us broke apart, she smiled up to me and I can't help but do the same.
"Okay, I guess that's a great performance and still connected to the assignment. Great job guys!" Mr Schue said, standing up and going in front.
I looked at Mike and Sam and they looked like they're quite busy right now. I looked back at Rachel and she got this questioning gaze at me but I just held her hand and pulled her with me as I sat down on the front row, making her sit next to me.
"Finn, I – "
"Not now," I smiled at her, cutting her. "Later we'll talk I promise."
"Okay," she mumbled and then kissed my cheek. I squeezed her hand before turning back to Mr. Schue who started to discuss about something again.
What to expect when you're expecting? No, I'm not talking about a book about having a baby right now. I expect a different thing actually and it's about me and Rachel. So I am glad that things ended up great after my plan but it's still not over. We have a lot to talk about still and I don't know what will happen after this. Are we going to be a couple or not? Are we just going to stay like we were before this whole mess happened?
And so, after the club meeting ended, I lead her into an empty classroom and let her seat in one of the tables, while I stand in front of her, holding her hands as I looked at her.
"What?" she asked when I just stared at her.
"Nothing," I shook my head, chuckling. "I still can't believe that we're like this right now. I still can't believe that I just kissed you earlier in front of the glee club."
She smiled and cups my face. "I can't believe any of this either. I thought you were over me, that you're with Marley now."
"Marley and I are just friends," I said bluntly. "She knows that I have feelings for you the whole time."
"But you – "
"I kind of did that on purpose," I smiled apologetically. "I was mad at you because you kept on giving me different signals. You wanted me and then suddenly you said that we can't be together and then you sang that song me and said that you want me. I just – I got mad, I guess and I thought that if I make you believe that I have found someone else, you will get hurt too, like the way that I felt."
"Oh." She looks down on her lap. "You really hated me that much, huh?"
"No," I tilted her head up to look at me. "I don't hate you. I just don't like what you did. But it's done now. I'm sorry if I did that and what I did earlier was kind of my apology for it. The kiss at the end was a different thing though."
"Yeah," she smiled shyly. "I liked that part."
"Me, too."
Her smile fell. "But I'm scared, Finn, about this. I don't want to lose you. I can't take it."
My brows furrowed. "What are you talking about? I'm here, Rach. You're not gonna lose me, ever." I bent down to level my eyes on her.
"I love my mother, so much," she said all of a sudden. "She was the most important person in my life and she died." She bent her head down, looking at her lap again. "I was seven and no one else wants to have me. That's why I've been on a foster home."
"Rach, you – "
"That's when my two dads found me and legally adopted me. They're so kind to me when I first move to their house, treating me like their own. I love them, just like I love my mom. And one day, my dad Leroy just received a phone call telling that my dad Hiram just got into an accident and he died. It broke my heart so much, like it did with my mom. I was thankful that my dad was there for me because I don't think I can manage it alone. And then I met Luke years after that. He was kind too and thoughtful, always treating me like a princess. And I loved him too, so much that I didn't think that he will also leave me."
I moved to sit next to her, while I put my arms on her waist, thinking that it would at least comfort her. Her eyes are a bit misty now and I don't want to see her cry about her past again. But I still let her tell me everything, hoping that it will make her feel better after it.
"We had sex and everything was perfect. He was perfect. But when I woke up, he's gone and I'm alone in my bed. When I went to school the next day, his friends said that he transferred and that he doesn't left any messages for me.
"It made me think that maybe there is something wrong with me. That maybe I've been cursed when I was born so whenever I loved someone, they will just leave me. And that's what made me change myself for the better. That's why I've been trying to make everyone think that I'm this girl. A bad girl. A girl who don't love anyone but herself. And if I made them believe that, then maybe I think I can believe it too.
"But then I saw you that night, looking at me like I'm someone special. I tried to stay away really but I know that if I didn't do something, I will regret it my whole life. So I persuaded you, telling you everything that's on my mind because that way, I will know what you're feeling too." She smiled at me and squeezed my hand that she's holding.
"I tried so hard not to have feelings for you, Finn. And I thought that doing all those stuff with you will not going to do anything for me but it did." She sighed and then looked at me right in the eye. "The truth is I love you, Finn. I love you the first time you said that you love me. But I'm just – I'm just afraid. I'm afraid that if I do say it back, you will leave me too and I don't want that to happen. But I do love you, Finn. I really do. Please believe that." she holds my hands with hers, tilting her body to me and all I can do is stared at her in surprised. She loves me. She really loves me.
I did manage to speak though because I don't want her to be scared. "I'm not going anywhere, Rachel, I promise. I'm here to love you until you get tired of me. But I'm still gonna love you even then."
She laughs but shook her head. "I'm not going to get tired of you. You're stuck with me, Finn."
"Well, I'm not gonna argue with that." We both laugh and I pulled her face to crash her lips with mine because she looks so cute and adorable and I just can't help but to kiss her.
"So, this is it?" I asked when we pull apart. "You're my girlfriend?"
She bit her lip, grinning but then nods. "Of course."
I don't think I smiled this wide before my whole life. And even if my cheek hurts because of it, I don't care. I just can't stop being happy this much.
"There's just this one problem though, Finn." She said, making my smile faltered.
"What is it?"
"We have to tell my dad." She bit her lip.
I think she's scared just like I am. Have you met his dad? I told you about him when he first teach us in History, but you have no idea how scary he is just by looking at him. Holy crap. I didn't even think about that. I'm going to meet his dad and I don't think if I'm still going to live after that.
"Don't worry about it for a while." she said, holding my hand and squeezing it. "Let's just go somewhere and enjoy our first day of being girlfriend and boyfriend, okay?"
I smiled. "I still can't believe you're my girlfriend now. I don't think I'm ever going to get used calling you that."
"Well, believe it, Finn Hudson. And I'm glad that I can call you my boyfriend now. That way, no other girls are going to lurk around whenever you're in the hallway."
"Girls? What girls?"
She rolled her eyes. "Trust me, Finn. They're out there. Now come on and hold my hand. I need to show them you're mine." She pulled me out of the classroom and led us out of the school where everyone is staring at us. She's right about the girls though, because I think some girls just glared at her or something but back down eventually when she stared at them. God, my girlfriend is so hot and brave. I don't think there's any guy out there that is luckier than me. She's mine and I'm hers and she makes sure everyone knows it.
So, maybe not everyone ends up being lucky like me. I don't think all the nerdy guys have girlfriends like I do but all I can say is that patience can really lead you somewhere. Me, I didn't even thought that someone like Rachel will like me. But I think anything is possible in life. I don't mean that everyone should do just like what I did to get Rachel. I just think that maybe if you really value someone in your life, you gotta make sure that they know it. Also, make a lot of effort in doing that. So even if they don't like you or rejected you, at least you give it a try. Maybe there's a girl out there that is meant to meet you in a different way and is destined to be with you. Look at me, I just met the girl of my dreams and we ended up being like this. And it may be hard for us to get there but look at us, isn't this amazing? Yeah, it is. Of course it's amazing.
A/N: The End! Yay ! don't worry, there is an epilogue after. I guess I'll post it next week or something. But I'll make it quick I promise.
To those people who is still waiting for If Were Meant To Be Together, I'm going to be on hiatus on posting it. School is starting next week and my schedule is going to be so hectic. I'm a senior and about to graduate so I'm a bit pressured right now. So I may have to complete a few chapters before posting it so I don't make you guys wait so long just to have to read the next chapters. I'm sorry but I hope you guys understand.
Okay, thanks a lot again for reading. I hope everyone will leave a review. :)