Chapter five

I had been five days since Adam had been brought to the hospital and today he was going to be allowed home on the condition that Kono looks after him. He was still rather weak and sore all over but he was glad to be leaving he was sick of being stuck in the lumpy hospital bed at least Kono had been coming to see him every day. He had noticed that something was off with her, she seemed distant at times and clingy at others and sometimes she would flinch or tense up if someone touched her by surprise or generally surprised her. It wasn't like her especially since she was a cop she was trained to be steely and calm. Adam decided to just brush it off and put it down to his condition and the fact Carson had clearly hit her a few times.

"You ready to go?" Kono asked as she wheeled the wheel chair in.

"Yes but I am not using that"

"Don't argue Adam your too weak to walk far"

"No I'm not!"

"Yes you are besides you've been sat in a hospital bed for nearly a week that's hardly going to help now stop arguing and get in the chair!" Kono snapped.

Adam was taken aback by Kono's sudden mood but decided she was just showing concern. He moved slowly to the edge of the bed and slid himself into the chair.

"Let's go home" Kono said in a softer tone.

Chin, Danny and Steve sat in the break room at HQ. They had gone back to work to tie up and lose ends on the case. All three had been growing increasingly concerned about Kono. She had told them all not to talk to Adam about what happened to her, not that any of them even knew the truth. She had argued with them for hours about it but insisted Adam not know anything so he could focus on his recovery. Reluctantly the guys had agreed but none of them were happy about it.

"Have you spoken to her today?" Steve asked Chin.

"I text her this morning to see if she wanted any help getting Adam home today but she simple replied no and not to bother either of them today" Chin replied. "It's not like her at all."

"No I'm really worried about her she's becoming even more stubborn than normal" Danny observed.

"Yeah I know my cousin can be very stubborn and independent but it's the distance I don't get. Whenever I've been to the hospital and she's there she avoids conversation. She would just sit talking to Adam. Even when Adam tried to ask her about what Carson did to her she would just brush it off and say it was a few bruises." Chin explained sadly the concern for his cousin lacing his usually calm voice.

"I'm sure she's just trying to care for Adam we all know what she can be like but I guess we should just keep an eye on her" Steve reasoned.

"I guess so" Chin agreed.

"Why do you think she was so insistent on Adam not knowing that Carson had intended to rape her?" Danny asked worriedly.

"Pride" Steve suggested.

"Sounds like Kono" Chin said.

"Hmmm"

Danny wasn't convinced by Kono. He couldn't and wouldn't ever understand what it must have been like for her when Carson attacked her but he couldn't shake the feeling that she was hiding something. She never denied that Carson had hit her but when he had found her she had been so frightened and small something Danny had never seen in her before. She always remained professional and cool and that never wavered but that moment when he opened those doors he saw a scared frightened young women vulnerable in her state of dress. The bruising and lack of clothing had suggested rape, as did her behaviour the way she flinched and tensed. But then she told them it hadn't happened that they had assumed wrong and she had been to shaken up to explain. Everyone seemed to believe her but something nagged at Danny and he didn't like it. Why did Carson stop then…what made him not go all the way? Danny shook the feeling and joined Steve and Chin on their new topic of conversation.

Kono busied herself around the kitchen preparing Adam lunch. She wasn't a great cook she had always preferred to go surf whenever her mum had asked her to help cook but she could make a decent cheese and tomato toastie. As she went about the kitchen she thought how pleased she was to have Adam home. She hadn't meant to snap at him earlier and she felt awful for it but she had done it out of love. The fear that had filled her when she discovered what had happened to him because he had wanted to join the investigation to be there for her at the end, it had been overwhelming. Kono was glad to have Adam home but she was scared about how she would sleep. She hadn't told anyone but each night after the attack when she had returned home to the big house she had suffered from tormenting nightmares that attacked her with an all-consuming force. Like…he…was there all over again…so real. The feelings of his callous hands tracing her body and scratching her skin making her scream in fear and pain. Sex was never…should never be like that. Not that she would ever think of it as sex. It was an attack against her planned to hurt her in the worst possible way knowing that her Adam was nearby unaware what was happening to her. The nightmares took over her body from her toes to the ends of her hair. Sweat would swamp her body and her hair would be plastered against her damp ski his touch all over her…everywhere…everywhere it shouldn't have been touching her like only Adam should. Making her feel sick to her stomach as she endured the torture feeling the fear build, a fear she had never felt before a fear that took over her body building and building as he ruined her.

"Baby?!" Adam called as he heard a clutter of glass.

Kono was broken from her trance at the sound of Adam looking to the floor and seeing the glass she had held smashed into tiny pieces. The pop of the toaster surprised Kono making her jump and tense.

"Kono?"

"I…erm" Kono mumbled. She took a breath before continuing. "I just dropped a glass its fine don't worry" Kono called as she knelt down.

Kono picked up the larger pieces of glass before sweeping the smaller pieces up. She threw it into the bin and went back to preparing the food. She quickly grilled the cheese and added the tomato before placing the other piece of toast on top. With a shaky hand Kono sliced the toast in two and platted them. Her stomach turned with nerves as she lifted the plates and walked to the couch.

"Babe you alright you look pale?" Adam asked with concern as he accepted the food.

"Erm yeah I think I need to eat" Kono mumbled.

"This is good"

"Good"

The two ate in silence and watched some trashy TV a distance remained between the two on the couch. Adam placed his empty plate on the coffee table and turned to Kono.

"Are you sure you're okay sweetheart you've been a little on edge"

"Yeah Adam I'm fine just concerned about you"

"I'll be fine I just need to rest" Adam said with a reassuring smile. "You know I might need a little help with the shower" Adam said softly a slight blush on his cheek revealing his embarrassment.

"Of course babe"

Kono helped Adam walk to the bathroom his legs shaking with the movement. When they reached the bathroom Adam collapsed on the toilet catching his breath.

"God that was harder than I thought"

"Well you were badly hurt baby your stamina will need to be re-built and I'm sure your whole body still aches." Kono said. "I have the bag to cover your cast" Kono explained as she removed Adam shirt and put the bag over the cast to protect it from the water.

Kono looked at Adams chest the scare from the bullet still nasty. She had removed the dressing and would reapply a new one after he had showered. The wound made Kono want to cry knowing what Adam had been through.

"Babe it will heel" Adam said as he took her hands gently catching her eyes.

"I know but I feel like…I just wish it hadn't happened" Kono said softly not saying what she had wanted to say now wasn't the time to be letting any guards down. "Come on stand up" Kono instructed.

Kono helped Adam pull him sweats and boxers down until they pooled at his feet. She didn't mean to but when he was naked she couldn't help but stare. She wished it had been with desire and passion but it wasn't. It was fear and it made her feel sick. Tears pricked her eyes at the feeling she never wanted to be scared to be with Adam but right in that moment that's all she felt.

"Babe?" Adam questioned his embarrassment growing as well as concern.

"Huh?"

"You okay?"

"Yeah are you good now?" Kono asked as she backed away.

"Yeah I might…"

"Good I'll erm be outside if you need me" Kono muttered before leaving the bathroom hurriedly.

Adam frowned with concern. Something was wrong with Kono he knew it but he couldn't ask her. He wouldn't tell him she was being secretive hiding whatever it was that was bothering her. Adam sighed and stepped under the water struggling but eventually succeeding to shampoo his hair one handed. He enjoyed the heat of the water that released the tension in his shoulders but his mind was focused on Kono. What is wrong with her?

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