Chapter eight

Kono woke to the wonderful feeling of Adam stroking his finger along her cheek caressing it softly. His beautiful bright eyes looking down upon her filled with all the love in the world. She looked though her lashes with sleepy eyes squinting to adjust to the sunlight pouring through the window. She noted how tired he looked as though he had been awake all night. Wait?

"Have you been awake all night?" She asked softly her voice husky from sleep.

"Maybe" Adam mumbled before placing a gentle kiss on her forehead.

"Because of me?" Kono asked in embarrassment.

"Shall we go get some breakfast" Adam said lovingly as he sat up and grabbed her hand.

"Babe…"

"Sshh" Adam said as he placed a finger over her lips. "We will talk after breakfast"

Kono nodded her head and followed Adam out to the kitchen her hand firmly in his smiling as he squeezed every so often.

After finishing breakfast the two sat on the couch waiting for the other to speak. Both had loads to say but both were also nervous and scared.

"Please don't cry or apologise yet but I need to be honest" Adam began making Kono very nervous. "I'm upset that you didn't tell me that you were…raped" Adam said in a soft calm voice his eyes never leaving Kono's.

"Adam…"

"Let me finish…I'm upset that you would allow yourself to suffer in silence and not let me or the guys help you and I'm upset that you didn't feel you could…trust me or lean on me" Adam explained with sadness. "It's not like you received a few scrapes Kono you were sexually assaulted." Adam stated not meaning to sound so blunt. "Please Kono tell me why you kept this to yourself" He begged his hands finding hers.

Kono's stomach fluttered uneasily unsure where to begin or what to say that didn't make her sound…selfish or …she didn't even know.

"I'm sorry" She said annoyed that that was all she could come up with.

"Kono I can't imagine what you're feeling or what you went through and yes I wish you had come to me but equally I don't know what you're thinking or how you've felt so I don't blame you."

"I was scared you would think I was ruined and dirty and used because that's how I felt" Kono sobbed as she tried hard not to cast her mind back.

"Oh baby I would never think that" Adam reassured as he kissed Kono's hands. "Why would that even cross your mind?"

"He kept telling me he would ruin me and that you wouldn't want me…I guess I believe it"

"Well stop believing it Kono because that isn't the case and never will it be" Adam said sternly but lovingly as he made sure Kono looked into his eyes.

"Okay" Kono mumbled.

It was unconvincing but it was something and that's all Adam could hope for. He still had more to ask her he needed to know what the bastard did to his beautiful fiancée and why she was so stubborn.

"Baby…I wish you had told me so I could look after you…I'm sorry I ever let you go undercover I wish I could have stopped him hurting you?" Adam asked softly and nervously as he cradled Kono's cheek.

Adam wiped he tear that rolled down her cheek her eyes scared and frightened.

"I'm sorry I kept it from you…I thought I could forget about it but I couldn't and Adam I don't blame you…this is not your fault I love you and I know you will look after me" Kono cried.

"Of course I will darling…baby when you helped me get ready for a shower last week and I was erm naked…"

"I panicked I just got scared and then I felt sick and upset because I don't want to be scared of you…I don't want to be frightened when someone touches me but I especially don't want to be scared to be with you but I am and I hate it. I'm scared of so much in case it takes me back there to what he did…that's what the nightmares are about" Kono sobbed softly

"Sweetheart…"

"He touched me everywhere…only you can touch me in those places but he did and he hurt me…he made me feel ugly and used Adam…"

"Darling let me show you how beautiful you are…let me look after you sweetheart please" Adam pleaded.

Kono nodded her head and crawled into Adams arms snuggling into him as close as possible. She was tense and it made her cry harder. Adam tilted her chin and kissed her nose stroking her arms and keeping his gaze upon hers until she felt more comfortable to look away and bury her face in his neck.

"Tell me what he did to you baby" Adam asked desperately.

Kono tensed again until Adam started stroking again. Kissing her cheeks and wiping her tears. His actions calmed her but she still couldn't shake her tension.

"He dragged me into the room…and took off my clothes. I tried to fight him but the drugs made me weak." Kono began choking on a sob. "He dragged his nails down my chest and pinched my skin…I couldn't stop it…it hurt Adam…" Kono explained before breaking down.

"I'm sorry baby you don't have to tell me anymore…I've got you I promise" Adam whispered softly into her ear smiling as she relaxed as though telling him lifted something inside her.

Kono walked to the cupboard and grabbed some pyjamas full length ones to cover her body. She paused and looked at them in her hands feeling Adam's eyes upon her from where he sat on the bed. She didn't want to cover herself anymore…not in front of Adam. It scared her though…she hadn't told Adam but when she went surfing the day before she had worn a wet suit to hide her body. Adam was her fiancé though she didn't want to let some arsehole ruin what she had with Adam.

"Can I wear one of your shirts tonight?" Kono asked softly.

Adam smiled as he watched Kono. Her eyes fluttering in a cute manner as she waited for him to answer.

"Of course sweetheart"

"I have to shower before bed" Kono muttered as she padded towards the bathroom stopping in the doorway and turning to Adam.

"erm…will you shower…with me?" Kono asked timidly determined not to push Adam away anymore.

"You sure?" Adam asked watching her eyes for confirmation.

"I want to try" Kono said softly admitting that she was scared but wanted to at least try.

"We can try" Adam smiled making sure she knew they would do everything together.

Adam joined Kono in the bathroom brushing her hair out of her eyes and placing a kiss very softly to her lips. He watched lovingly and appreciatively as Kono stripped to her underwear her legs shaking slightly with nerves. Adam could see the marks left over from Carson's assault but he tried his best not to stare. He slipped of his t-shirt and jeans and stood in front of Kono both of them in their underwear. He wanted Kono to have the opportunity to say no to going any further if she needed to. Kono felt that flutter in her stomach once again but pushed through it. Kono slowly removed her bra and panties her legs crossing instinctively which broke Adam's heart.

"Shall I take my boxers of now?" Adam asked wanting to make sure Kono was absolutely sure.

Kono didn't respond verbally instead she just nodded her head. Once Adam was naked he reached and turned the shower on as steam filled the bathroom. He knew Kono was scared and from the tears in her eyes he knew she wanted to cry but he wanted her to know how beautiful and amazing she was and not let Carson ruin them. Adam stepped under the heat of the water and reached out for Kono. She placed her small hand in his large one and let him pull her under the water.

"Let me show you how beautiful you are baby" Adam asked as he gazed lovingly into her eyes.

"Okay"

Adam knelt down in the shower and placed his hand round one of Kono's calves as he placed a kiss at her shin before trailing kisses up her legs moving his hands to hold hers in reassurance as he reached her most intimate area. He kissed her inner thighs over each bruise that was still left from Carson's fingers making sure Kono knew she was his and no one else's. He moved up and placed a brief delicate kiss above her womanhood before trailing kisses up and around her stomach. He traced his own fingers over the marks left by the scratches then kissed her breasts, her collar bone her neck and finally her lips.

Kono's body started tense when Adam began his kisses but his movements and actions were slow and delicate and taken with care. Her body finally relaxed as his kisses covered her, making her feel like she was his. Adam stood and told her how beautiful and sexy she was. He enjoyed being able to touch her and make her feel special and protected but he didn't get aroused. He didn't want to it was too much for her. She just needed to know that he loved her more than anything.

"I love you sweetheart"

"I love you to Adam"