Hey guys! How's it hanging? I haven't updated in...2 months? Maybe 3? I'm really sorry about that...I was taking AP tests and then after that was the most peaceful time of my life; no schoolwork, just watching movies and chilling; until my AP English teacher decided "Hey, let's write more essays and stuff!" I hate that woman...anyhoo! Here's the next installment of Caught in the Middle! This break time has got me thinking a lot about the future! Will there be a sequel? Will there be a sequel's sequel? Will this story even end? I can't tell you! Oh, and this summer, I'm going to Malawi Africa to build a school! I'm so excited! Enjoy!
P.S. 8/8/13: I came back from Malawi 5 days ago and it was indescribable! I wanna go back already!
P.S.S. 9/24/13: Wow…I still fail…I'M SO SORRY! I'm sorry! I have been with a lot of crap lately so I have been very busy and I was just not in the mood to put my thoughts on paper…I will try to update soon…
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9/8/13: Man…I really need to update…I fail…I'm sorry guys…
~Sebastian's P.O.V.~
I smacked her hand away from my face, utterly disgusted. "What are you doing here, you monster!?" I hissed at her, my eyes burning as they slowly turned a fluorescent pink. She laughed her charming laugh as she touched my chest. "I was here to visit someone but then I found you...and my whole night just got better..." she cooed, gazing deeply into my eyes. "Who are you here to see?" She rolled her eyes and playfully hit my chest. "Oh, calm down, would you? I'm not going to do anything...I'm actually being a good girl for once...for you, and for her..." My eyes slowly narrowed. "Her?" I thought to myself for a moment. "Do you mean—?" She laughed once more. "Surely you have noticed, right? The resemblance? You knew you had seen her face before...but you just didn't know where..." She had begun to circle me now, her olive green dress trailing slowly behind her. "Well now you know," she taunted, smirking in my face. "Where is she, by the way? I wish to speak to her..." I dug my nails deep into her arm.
"You stay away from her!"
Her eyes widened, a hint of fear and astonishment in them.
"My, my, aren't we being a bit aggressive today?" She tapped her chin playfully with her decorated nail. "Could it be that you're in L—O—"
"Demons can't fall in love...and you know this. We only stay with humans because we have something to gain from them. That's how it's always been." I reminded. Her face seemed to age in reverse. She went from being in her late 20's to her 18th year of life. "After all those years of training with Asmodeus*, I thought he would have slaughtered the ignorance out of you, but I guess no one can. You know as well as I do that all demons find a soul mate at random moments in their eternal lives."
"Demons of my stature and rank do not need soul mates..." I corrected.
"Just because you own a large proportion of Hell and can have a horde of filthy demoness whores at your nest with a snap of your fingers, Malphas**, does not mean that you will never find your soul mate," she snapped, her face aging in reverse a few months. My nails dug deeper into her soft flesh. "I do not wish for a soul mate...it only ends in tragedy."
She gazed passed me. "You do not have to worry. That girl is strong and can take care of herself." My grip loosened. "Is she a half-breed?"
"No. I wouldn't allow it. I suppressed my demonic traits in order for her to be mostly human. She doesn't really age much but you can't stop everything," she said with a pout. "Plus, demons love the taste of half-breeds. She would have been dead a long time ago...Well, probably..." My brow slowly raised. "What do you mean by 'probably'?" She hesitated slightly. "If I remember correctly, she was supposed to be born at least 200 years from now...so why is she here now?" My eyes widened. Her face and body transformed into a girl no older than 14 years old. She now wore a white cotton dress with frills at the end, decorated in a variety of flowers. In her hair was a pine green bow and on her feet were white frilly socks and black low heels.
"Well, I best be off," she said with a giggle, rocking back and forth on her heels and toes. "I just came to check on things here and they seem to be going great! Asmodeus promises to come and visit soon so be on the lookout! Bye-bye!" she said, smiling. She began to skip away. She halted in her steps and spun around. "Take good care of my daughter, you hear! If anything happens to her...Lilith's*** gonna get you!" She taunted, waving her entire body as her finger waved at me as if I were a naughty child. Lilith formed both her hands into pistols. "Bang-bang!" Lilith giggled to herself again before skipping off into the crowd and completely vanishing. I stared blankly at the space where she once was before I twirled on my heel and sauntered back over to Miss Louis.
She and I need to have a talk.
~End of Sebastian's P.O.V.~
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(Simultaneously occurring event during Sebastian and Lilith's talk)
I tapped my foot impatiently as I watched Sebastian flirt with that…woman. Not that I was jealous or anything, it's just that while he is trying to score, Ciel could be in serious trouble. He let him saunter away with Viscount Druitt (who's not all that bad but still bad) and it's like he doesn't even care! My eyes slowly narrowed as I watched this horrid display of affection. Just look at how she's touching him!
She's probably like: 'Sebastian darling, oh how I have waited for you for so long! I couldn't stand being another second away from you! Please take me! Take me away to your secret world of bliss!' and blah blah blah, other Fifty Shades of Grey nonsense (Gregory gave it to me cause he thought I would like it. I hated every minute of it but I couldn't put it away. I'm not proud of it…).
Even when I'm making up the dialogue, I hate her.
Sebastian's probably like: 'My darling (let's call her Susan) Susan, the things I wish to do to you this evening would most likely be illegal in all the worlds and Hell. I have missed your dearly. You are the only one my heart beats for. Take me into ever-lasting happiness.' Ugh…makes me sick to my stomach. I crossed my arms and pouted at the scene before. Look how seductively she's touching his face and how he's holding her arm and…I think I'm gonna be sick…
"If I watch this for one more second, I think I'm gonna—"
"Get over it because you claim to not like the guy?"
My head quickly whipped around to see Felix walking over to me with a grin across his lips. He was wearing a gray Tampa University hoodie (hood up) with gray sweatpants and white sneakers. He was a lot taller than I remember; I had to look up a lot more than usual.
"What the hell are you doing here?! And what the hell are you wearing!? People will notice that you look different and freak out!" Felix laughed at me handsomely. "It's alright, Lulu, no one can see me but you." I sighed in relief. "Wait…does that mean I look like a crazy person talking to herself?" Felix thought to himself for a moment. "Yes." "Oh I don't care!" I grabbed him into a tight hug. "I'm so happy to see you right now. You would not believe the week I've been having…"
"Sebastian's been hitting on you, some Chinese guy's been hitting on you, that blonde guy was hitting on you, and you're on your period." Felix answered with a smile. I eyeballed him sideways.
"Why doth thou knoweth mine life?"
Felix laughed again. "Because I'm your guardian, I'm always watching you…" My eyes grew wide in fear as I deep red blush crossed my face. "Always?"
"Yes."
"Like when I'm changing, when I'm in the shower, when I'm sleeping; always?"
"Come on, you're my sister. I know what your naked body looks like…"
"You're my little brother and I don't know what your naked body looks like…"
"…Lulu, I'm not always watching you…Calm down." Felix's face became serious. "How are things? Is he dead?"
My face squinted up in anger. "How can you say that so calmly?! You're asking me to kill a child!" Tears stung my eyes. Felix recoiled in disgust. "A child!? Lulu, Ciel Phantomhive lost the right to be a child LONG ago! He needs to die! Do you want to go through that again?" I gazed down at the polished marble floors, tears slowly rolling out of my eyes.
"Shut up!" I shouted, jabbing my finger in a random direction.
"Do you have any idea what that child has been through?! His parents are dead, Felix! He watched them burn alive! And you expect me to kill someone who's already suffered through that?!"
I paced back and forth, tears of anger streaming down my face. "At first, I thought his parents were away or something but nope!" I chuckled as more tears fell.
"That's his story! Why the hell would I kill him?!"
Felix got closer to me. "Need I remind you what he did to you? He treated you like a slave. He treated you like you were an ant beneath his boot!" Felix laughed.
"And Sebastian? He claimed that he loved you Lulu! That he wanted to be with you! He told you everything you wanted to hear, and then what?! He tried to kill you, Lulu! That's what!"
"Shut the fuck up! You don't think I know that?!" I shouted at him. Thankfully the guests were too busy dancing with one another. "I remember it every night before I go to sleep! I can feel his cold fingers wrapped around my throat taking the life out of me! All I could hear was the cracking of my bones in my neck!" I was sobbing at this point now, tears streaming out of my cloudy hazel eyes. Felix's face became sad as he watched me slowly lower myself to the floor, holding myself in comfort. My golden dress covered the floor like a sparkling ocean.
"He killed my best friend! I loved Lucy more than anything! And he just…ended her!" I shouted through sobs.
"But when I see his smiling face and hear his voice…I get so confused…Because then I see his dark glare and his devilish smirk as he's choking the very life out of me…He's going to do the same thing to Ciel! I don't want that to happen to him!"
"Lulu, he has to die!"
"THEN WHY DON'T YOU GET A FUCKING KNIFE AND PLUNG IT INTO HIS HEART YOUR DAMN SELF!? How is killing a child who has already lost so much gonna compensate for Lucy's life?! It doesn't work like that Felix! You are not gonna be the one with blood dripping from your hands! Ciel has too much to live for! He has a beautiful fiancée that loves him to death! He has his aunts and uncles that love him, his home, his servants, and—"
Felix's eyes narrowed.
"I can't…I just can't…" I sobbed into my hand. Felix glared down at me in pure hatred.
"Oh…I see," his voice was deep and booming as if he were a God. "You are too attached to this world. It's not Ciel that you are worried about losing…it's him, isn't it?"
I flinched and slowly raised my head to look in his eyes. His eyes were so cold that they washed a wave of fear over me.
"You're in love with that demonic scum who causes nothing but misery everywhere he treads. You are so in love that you have been blinded from your goal…"
"My goal? My goal?! When in the fuck did I decide on this space time continuum 'heal the world' shit? And love who? That man is incapable of love or any affection! He only knows hunger...Nothing else!"
Felix smirked. "Is that so? Then doing what needs to be done shouldn't be so hard now should it?
My fists clenched. "…Please just go…"
"What?"
"Please leave…"
"But—"
I punched him hard across the face and glared at him through my tears. "Go!" Felix stared at me, holding his swelling cheek and wiping the blood that ran from the corner of his mouth, for quite some time before vanishing into a breeze of Forget-Me-Not pedals. I covered my mouth and sobbed silently to myself.
Am I in love? Or am I just a fool?
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~Sebastian's P.O.V.~
I quickly weaved through the crowd, my eyes searching for Miss Louis. Lilith being her mother proves to be a problem not only for myself but for the young master as well. If she gets her hands on him…there's no telling what that demoness whore is capable of. I froze in my stride as an idea dawned upon me. Miss Louis's odd appearance, her mannerisms, her speech pattern…Lilith said she was not supposed to be born yet and acted as if she was surprised to see her here. Maybe, just maybe…That monster! She must have sent Miss Louis here in order to get her hands on either myself or the young master! Does she intend to once again make my life a living Hell?! My pace hastened as I nearly dashed to find Miss Louis's location. Whatever time Miss Louis is from must be where Lilith plucked her from and dropped her here. I noticed a golden hat amongst the crowd only to find that the hat that was adorned with gold belong to an elder woman. Once I slowed my pace and calmly walked past her, she giggled and gossiped over my appearance to the elder noblewomen around her. Women of this world are foolish creatures.
When I get my hands on that woman, I swear I am going to—
…Her body was shaking slightly, her right arm hugging her waist and her other stretched near her face. Was she…crying? My face saddened as I walked closer to her, watching her body convulse as she ran her delicate hand through a lock of her hair. I hesitated at first before resting my hand tenderly on her shoulder. "Miss Louis?" Her small frame twitched before she quickly wiped off her face and began nibbling on her nails, her back still facing me. "W-What do you want?" she asked, wiping away a few stray tears quickly. I crept closer to her. "Are you alright?" I asked, rubbing her back tenderly.
What in the world is wrong with me? Why do I care?
"I-I'm fine…just leave me alone please…" she begged, gnawing on her finger. She sniffled a few times before she kept wiping away tears every few moments. I gazed over her before leaning over her shoulder, hoping to look at her face. "Please tell me what's bothering you…"
The anger I held before was completely gone. I could only focus on her and her tears.
She whipped her head around and pushed me away. "Just leave me alone! I'M! FINE!" She began to stomp away from me.
And I quickly pulled her back, holding her close to me, shocking even myself.
What the hell is wrong with me?
Her body tensed at first but then she eased into the hold, her hands slowly wrapping around me. Soon she burst into tears, her body convulsing against mine as all her feelings poured out against my suit.
"Ijustcan'tdothisanymore, .Ijustcan' ,Sebastian!Idon'tknowwhatI'mdoing!" she mumbled as she burrowed her face into my chest. I sighed and looked off into the distance, my face showing exhaustion and slight confusion.
"I don't know either…"
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~Ciel's P.O.V.~
"HAAH! HAAH! Se-Sebastian…" Ciel's tiny knuckle against slowly curled into a fist against the wall he was positioned upon, his body convulsing in pain. "HAH!"
"Now, please place your hands on the wall, and…"
Ciel's breathing rapids. "HAAH!" Sweat begins to leak from his pores.
"…Relax your muscles a bit further." Sebastian cooed soothingly.
"I can't—! Take it anymore!" You could begin to hear something tighten. Ciel's nails dug into his palm. "HAH! …N-No! I-It hurts—!" Sebastian rubbed Ciel's back in comfort as he remained behind him.
"Do bear with it a little longer, sir. You will find your body becoming accustomed to it soon."
Ciel's lowered his head as more sweat leaked from his pores and a faint blush began to form from the sensation.
"Ah! C-C-Coming—Ah-aah…" Ciel threw his head back. "AH!"
"THEY'RE COMING OUT! MY GUTS ARE ON THE VERGE…OF COMING OUT OF MY BODY, I SAY!"
Sebastian tugged on the strings of the corset tigher, rolling his eyes at his young master. "No lady has ever died from a corset alone…"
"GAAH!"
My eyes popped upon, a sigh of relief escaping my lips (only to be restricted by the corset). "A dream, huh…" I said to myself, shaking the very thought of those horrible…horrible lessons that I had to endure by the hand of Madam Red and that damn butler. I tried to move my arms in order to escape the discomfort I was feeling in my body.
"!"
I couldn't move my arms or my wrists from the binds that apparently held me. I blinked my eyes only to realize that I was shrouded in darkness.
It's dark…No, a blindfold? I've been restrained somehow…I thought to myself, clicking my teeth in annoyance.
As if the corset wasn't bondage enough, now I've been bound further, eh…? I thought, rolling my eyes. I pictured Madam Red and Lau during those lessons, yelling nonsense about the manor. I was fed up. I remember Madam Red shouting something along the lines of: You have no wasp waist! It is a must for any woman worth her salt! I remember Lau chuckling and responding: Well, the Earl is a boy, after all—? Ha! Ha! Ha! I rolled my eyes once more. Just because it's not their problem… I whipped my head to and fro.
Anyway, where am I? I asked myself as I continued to turn around. I soon heard a low hum…The sound of people conversing? I wondered as I heard a clanging of metal.
"Quiet please, everyone…Next, I present to you the featured item for which everyone has been waiting for." I flinched as I recognized the voice. It was the Viscount of Druitt's voice! My mind suddenly recollected something.
Item? What is he talking about…?
"Won't you please feast your eyes upon this!"
Suddenly the darkness was shot with light as he most likely removed a blanket that was covering my location. The crowd clearly before me gasped and murmured amongst themselves with their perverse ideals of what to do with me. The Viscount snapped his fingers in order to reign in their attention.
"Derive your enjoyment from appreciating her as you would a fine work of art…or keep and treasure her as you would a pet. She would prove a glittering jewel for any ritual as well…would you not agree?" he said in a sickly cooing voice, possibly smirking perversely at the thought of driving a knife through my body.
Just like that day.
"Or…" he began, reining them in once more. "According to demand, you may wish to sell her off in pieces."
My head jerked in shock. "Wh—!?" I began to utter out before the Viscount broadcasted over me.
"A prize of the caliber is a very rare one indeed. Her eyes are two different colors but that only adds to her beauty and value." I narrowed my eyes beneath the blindfold. An underground auction, eh!? "Now allow me to show you."
This man…so he's been selling off the organ of the murdered prostitutes here…
"The bidding will start at a thousand ginnies!" the Viscount shouted as him or some other individual undid my blindfold. His perverse partners shouted out prices.
"2000!"
"3000!"
I slowly opened my eyes, the contract seal glowing brightly. Shouts continued to erupt around the room as the price for my being continued to rise. The Viscount could only chuckle. "Come now, does no one wish to place a higher bid?"
"Sebastian, come get me now."
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~Sebastian's P.O.V.~
My ears perked up slightly as I heard the young master's command to retrieve him echo. Miss Louis had slowly begun to calm down and seize her crying. She was simply holding onto me now for support, slowing her breathing and such. I continued to rub her back and hair to help her calm herself. But I was conflicted. I needed to go assist the young master before he gets himself into yet another hostage situation but I did not wish to leave Miss Louis alone in her current state. Why should I care if she's crying?
"Miss Louis? The young master requires my assistance. Are you able enough to be left alone her for a few moments?" I asked her, releasing my hold only slightly. She gazed up at me with her reddened hazel eyes, a single tear rolling out of her right eye. I quickly wiped it off with my thumb.
"No, no, no! It's fine! I actually believe a little violence will do me some good…" she said, wiping her face off and slapping both of her cheeks softly twice.
My brow slowly rose.
"Are you sure?"
She nodded her head frantically, biting her lip. "Mm-hmm!" She smiled brightly. "I really need to punch someone…hard…in the face…or the nuts…or both…" she threatened, walking off. I chuckled to myself before following after the golden ray.
How amusing.
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~Ciel's P.O.V.~
The candle in the far corner of the room flickered before completely being snuffed. The other ones that dispelled any darkness were snuffed in small intervals. The guests frantically searched around the room.
"!?"
"What is going on!?" The Viscount shouted.
CRACK! GYAH!
THOK! SNAP! GUAH!
POW! KICK! POW! GYAHAHA!
"Do you want me to kick you in the nuts again!?"
The candles reawakened. I saw Sebastian shaking his head from side to side. "My, my." He clapped his hands together to signify a job completed. Louis gazed down at the Viscount, shaking her head disapprovingly.
"Shame…he was not all that bad of a person…"
Sebastian chuckled at her comment before returning back to me. "You really posses no other talents besides getting captured, young master. How sad…" Sebastian said smugly. "Do you think you are too careless because you trust I will come when you call?" Sebastian unconsciously offered his hand to Louis as he ventured to ascend the stairs. Louis, hesitant at first, took it and walked along side him. I smirked inwardly but kept a straight face to address Sebastian further.
They are blind fools.
"So long as I carry the covenant, you will come for me whether I call you or not." I retorted. Sebastian gripped the bars of my prison, looking down at me for a moment. I glared back, the covenant piercing his eyes. Sebastian smirked devilishly with a single chuckle. "…Of course," he answered, cranking open the bars.
The "covenant" is a "mark" a devil imprints upon the one who enters into its agreement—its prey—so as not to lose sight of it. The more obvious the location of this "mark," the greater the power of the covenant. However…Nevermore shall there be any hope of escape from the devil's grasp.
Sebastian lowered himself to one knee. "I shall accompany you wherever you may go…until the very end." He assisted me out of the cage. "Though this body may perish, I shall never leave your side. I shall escort you to the farthest reaches of Hell." Sebastian raised his finger causing the ropes around my arms and wrists to rip apart.
"I do not speak falsely…as humans do."
Louis helped me up off the cold floor and hugged me close to her. "I was so worried about you!" she exclaimed. A slight blush came to my face as I held her arm (reluctant at first). It was nice to be daunted over—I mean only every once in a while. I could hear Sebastian laugh hysterically in his fist. I brushed Miss Louis off my person.
"Don't you ever lie to me. Not ever!" I commanded.
Sebastian's head bowed as he placed his hand over his heart. "Yes, my lord." My attention turned to Miss Louis. "And neither will you." She flinched at first, a slight sweat beginning to form on her forehead. "Never…young master."
I noticed that Sebastian was glaring at her from the corner of his eye.
"Miss Louis has contacted the yard…so they will be arriving at any moment," he said, turning his attention back to me.
I will have to look into that look later…
"Then let's not dawdle. The chaps at the yard will be none too pleased to find us here…"
"Yes, especially with that appearance of yours…" Sebastian chuckled. "My lady."
I flinched. I coughed away my transgressions. Miss Louis chuckled a little as she rubbed her arms swiftly from the cold. Sebastian took off his coat and placed it over her shoulders.
"Anyway! With this, the case of Jack the Ripper is closed! But it was over all too soon…" Sebastian smiled sweetly. I heard the clacking of shoes in the distance. "In any case," I continued. "It would appear that the yard has arrived." Suddenly I was being swept off my feet. "Fuah?!" I looked around and noticed that Sebastian had lifted both me and Miss Louis into his arms. He was holding her more securely than I.
What is going on between those two?
Sebastian took off his glasses and Miss Louis fixed his hair for him. "Let us be off," he said, swiftly jumping out of the window and dashing off into the night. I gazed over and Sebastian and Miss Louis' face glistened in the night. Like a wedding photo.
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(A/N: I am skipping a large portion of the manga chapter to get to the good stuff that you all want.)
Jack the Ripper Appears Once More! The Victim is Annie Chapman. A Prostitute is Sacrificed Again!
Ciel slammed down the newspaper in total anger. I read the large titles in shock. So if the Viscount (who was probably the biggest pervert that fit every criteria) wasn't the sick fuck who is killing hookers…who is?
"HOW COULD THIS BE!?" Ciel shouted slamming his fists down. "THE VISCOUNT DIDN'T GO ANYWHERE LAST NIGHT!"
Lau smirked, his eyes closed (per usual). How the hell does he see? "If it becomes seemingly impossible for our lone suspect to have committed the murder…then it does beg the question of a possible copycat…No, or even of there having been multiple culprits from the very start." I rubbed my forehead in frustration along with Ciel.
"In other words, we were off the mark in suspecting the Viscount?" Madam Red chimed in. Ciel plopped himself down into his desk chair, running his small hand through his hair. "We're back to square one…"
"We need to find this person before this gets out of hand…" I said, nervously. I don't like the idea of not knowing who the hell Jack the Ripper is. Ciel sighed again, combing through his hair some more before gesturing his hand to Sebastian. "I'll narrow down the suspects again. Sebastian, the list," he called for. Sebastian bowed deeply. "Yes, sir." Ciel gestured with his index finger for Sebastian to come closer. One thing I hate about this place is all this incognito-sneaky shit between Ciel and Sebastian.
Sebastian walked over and gave Ciel his ear.
I rolled my eyes. Sebastian nodded.
Fuck all of them.
(A Few Hours Later…)
Lightning and thunder battled outside as heavy rains poured over everything. A few minutes before it became heavier, I ran outside with Mey-Rin to bring in all the laundry that was hanging outside. I got a little bit wet so I decided to take a hot bath. When I entered in, hair drenched and smelling like I-don't-even-know, and Sebastian was waiting for me to escort me around. We walked in silence to the bathroom for a while before I spoke.
"So…why are you walking me to the bathroom?"
"The young master believed that since we no longer know the identity of the criminal, it would not be safe for any of our female employees to be alone. Mey-Rin will be watched by Bard and Finny, and I shall watch you…" I nodded.
"Do you know who the killer is?" I asked.
Sebastian smirked. "I have an…idea."
I narrowed my eyes at him. "You bastard, that just means that you know…" Sebastian laughed. I opened the bathroom door and walked in before coming back out.
"You…can wait out here…" I closed the door. Sebastian rolled his eyes before sitting down on the carpeted floors. I ran the hot water and filled up the tub near the brim. Tying my hair up into a messy bun and taking off my maid uniform, I lowered myself into the boiling water. The severe cramps have subsided (for now, ugh, being a girl sucks) and I stopped leaking blood like a faucet. I rested my head against the brim and thought. Why Felix? Why him? Why is he caring all this weight on his shoulders only to place it all on me? I just can't do this! I don't know why everyone expects so many things from me when I just want a simple life! I can't kill a child that has so much that he needs to live for! I just don't know what everyone wants…I can't satisfy everyone…
"…Hey Sebastian…" I called to the door.
"…Hmm?" answered the door.
"You don't mind if I sing…do you?"
"Do as you wish…"
"…Thanks…"
[Numb by Linkin Park]
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Sebastian closed his eyes and listened to my voice as I sang the song like a lullaby.
Can't you see that you're smothering me,
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take.
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.
And I know
I may end up failing too.
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware.
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
(I'm tired of being what you want me to be)
"…Why that song, Miss Louis?" Sebastian asked.
"…I feel like a doll, that's why…"
"A doll?"
"…Nothing. I'm gonna get out."
(Time acceleration activated…Am I rushing this?)
I was wearing my pink lace nightgown with its matching silk robe now. Sebastian and I were checking the rooms, making sure everything was alright. We finally arrived in my room. I plopped down on my bed and scratched my half-dry hair. Sebastian gazed out at the rain for a little while before shutting the window and curtains. I yawned obnoxiously and threw my torso down on the bed, scratching my knee. I watched Sebastian as he strolled around the room, checking corners.
"…It must be lonely for you here." Sebastian perked up and turned around to look at me. "I beg your pardon?" he asked. "I said 'It must be lonely for you here.'" His eyebrow rose really high. "What do you mean?" I sat back up and stretched to crack my back. "Well…You are not allowed to be your true self around here. In front of the 3 Stooges, you have to be the intelligent one and in front of Ciel, you have to be a good little…church boy." Sebastian chuckled. "A church boy?"
"Hey, it's the first thing that popped into my thinking muscle. Don't judge me, asshole." He laughed again.
"I feel like you're all by yourself here…" Sebastian adjusted the curtains. "And how do you suggest we fix that?" he asked, smirking, lighting the candelabra in my room. I patted a spot on the bed next to me so he can sit. "I'll be your bestest best friend!" I said with a dorky smile. "Pardon?" Sebastian asked, sitting down carefully. "I'll be the person in this house that you can be yourself with. But first! We have to tell each other everything!" Sebastian gazed at me funny. "Alright." I looked him over. "Better yet, we should fix you first."
"Fix me?"
"Yaaaasssss~ honey!"
"What?"
"Nothing. Ignore me. Around friends, you have to be comfy and cozy! So…" I bit my lip and analyzed Sebastian's I-have-a-4 meter-pole-in-my-ass outfit. "Lose the jacket." I said, slipping it off him. "Loosen the tie." I jimmied his tie down a little and unbuttoned 2 buttons to make him look more…chill. "Oh, and those gloves!" I reached out for them only for Sebastian to curl up his fingers. I glared at him and pouted.
"Really?!"
"Miss Louis—you must understand that—"
"Gimme your hands!"
"Miss Louis—"
"Gimme!"
"Miss—"
"GimmieGimmieGimmieGimmieGimmieGimmieGIMMIE!"
Sebastian rolled his eyes and gestured his hands, clearly pissed off. HAHAHA! I OWN YOU BIZNITCH! I slipped off his gloves and threw them clear across the room. My eyes landed on the mark on his right hand. I held his hand in mine and ran my fingers along it, turning it in my hands. Sebastian fidgeted a little. His nails were black and glossy.
"You have soft hands…" Sebastian's eyes widened slightly.
"The mark doesn't bother you?" I rubbed my thumbs on his palm. "No…well, I kinda already knew about it so of course it wouldn't bother me but—unlike the other people in this house, I know some stuff. I'm able to put two-and-two together very well. I do a lot of reading when I should be working and stuff like that…Ciel has a lot of useful books in his library…"
Sebastian eyed me. "So you know…what I am?"
"Yeah!—well, sorta—well not really—I know you but like…I don't know you know you, you know what I mean? Like, I know what you are but nothing else…I guess that's where we should start, right buddy?" I asked with a sweet grin (and letting go of his hand because I was just playing with his fingers like some 3 year old).
"Alright then…" Sebastian rested back on his palms that he put on the bed.
I grabbed some pillows and placed them in front of me, laying on my stomach and resting my arms and head on the pillows. "So what's your name?"
"Sebastian Michaelis."
"Your real name you dumb motherfucker."
"I can hear you, I hope you know. That was very rude."
"Your name, please." I hissed.
"Malphas."
"How old are you?"
"Even I have forgotten that…"
"Give me an estimate…"
Sebastian thought for a moment, looking up at the ceiling. He was really cute when he made that—hey, hey, hey! Brain! Stop the shit!
"I believe around…10,000 or more."
I nodded for a while. "Wow, you're old." Sebastian and I both laughed. A wide smile spread across my face. "That's the first time I ever heard a genuine laugh from you." Sebastian paused before chuckling again.
"So anything else you wish to know?"
Tada! It's been 6 months but I've finally done-did-do-dad did it! I was dealing with AP work and traveling but I did it! Hope it's good and hope I get lots of positive reviews from you guys (because I care about your words). Before I forget:
*Asmodeus is the demon of lust and is therefore responsible for twisting people's sexual desires. He is also depicted as the demon of wrath.
** Malphas is a mighty Great President (a Prince to some authors) of Hell, having forty legions of demons under his command. He builds houses, high towers and strongholds, throws down the buildings of the enemies, can destroy the enemies' desires or thoughts (and/or make them known to the conjurer) and all what they have done, gives good familiars, and can bring quickly artificers together from all places of the world. Malphas accepts willingly and kindly any sacrifice offered to him, but then he will deceive the conjurer. He is depicted as a crow that after a while or under request changes shape into a man, and speaks with a hoarse voice. He also rises from the vanity of mankind, his corruption plagues those he touches and he render the conjurer mentally insane in forms of madness, dementia, hallucinations, mighty illusions, these are just a few of the tricks Malphas has up his sleeve.
***Lilith is a Hebrew name for a figure in Jewish mythology, developed earliest in the Babylonian Talmud, who is generally thought to be in part derived from a class of female demonsLīlīṯu in Mesopotamian texts of Assyria and Babylonia. A female demon of the night who supposedly flies around searching for newborn children either to kidnap or strangle them. Also, she sleeps with men to seduce them into propagating demon sons.
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