Asylum Chapter 6

*Kane*

I guess punching the wall wasn't such a good idea. Kane thought though it felt good. I'll have to remember not to do it again.

There had to be something I can do to get out of isolation. What are they saying I did?

I have to find out doing the opposite is the only chance I have of getting out of isolation and maybe out of here all together. Kane told himself

Sitting down in the corner Kane tried to figure out what things they could have him on. Violence is one thing they could have me on so I have to stay calm. Trying to light people on fire is another I'm sure Vince would have told them about that.

How do I show them I'm not really supposed to be here? Kane wondered again.

How did father get me out the last time?

I remember sitting in the facility for days just staring at the walls. I thought I'd never get out. Kane thought remembering how bad he'd felt. How scared and alone.

I can't say I feel any better about it this time. Kane thought. I'm totally alone this time.

Propping his elbows on his knees Kane put his head in his hands and just tried to relax. I must show them I can be calm. Kane decided.

It's so hard just sitting still. I need to move to think to work out. Kane thought forcing himself to just stay there.

**** Dreaming ****

Where am I? Why is it so dark? Kane wondered. I have to get out of here. He thought feeling threatened.

He began to move through the darkness.

I feel like I'm suffocating. Can't breathe. Kane thought as he walked. The darkness is choking me.

There a light he thought joyfully when he saw it. I'll just move toward the light and everything will be fine.

It's not getting any closer. Kane realized after walking for what seemed like forever. I need to get to the light.

It's still too far away. Kane thought breaking into a run. I have to reach it before it's too late.

Why isn't it getting any closer? Kane thought falling to his knees.

NO it's going away. It's getting dimmer. Kane thought realizing he couldn't get to it in time even if running did make it closer which it didn't.

**** End dream ****

*Jeff*

He's really losing it. Jeff thought looking through the window to the isolation room and seeing it's occupant lying on the floor flopping around like a fish.

"Jeff." Rick said walking up to him. "Our John doe is named Kane."

"Oh yeah. That's a weird name." Jeff said. "How did he tell you?"

"He wrote it in milk on the table at breakfast." Rick said. "Read his daily when you get a chance. Dr Whalen want's his chart left as John Doe till we can confirm his name but he said we could call him Kane."

"I will." Jeff said. But I'll call him John Doe just like his chart.

I'll check the notes when I get around to it. Jeff thought. Until then I'll just do as I please like always.

"Thanks Jeff." Rick said, turning to walk away. Then turning back and taking a peek inside the isolation room.

"He looks like he's having a nightmare." Rick commented.

"He looks like a fish out of water to me." Jeff said, turning to leave.

*Rick*

I wonder what he's dreaming about. Whatever it is it's bad. He thought before going to clock out.

*Kane*

Oh my god! Kane thought waking suddenly. What the hell was that?

Getting up Kane tried to shake the cobwebs and the remnants of the dream from his head. I need to move to do something this silence and inactivity is driving me mental. Kane thought.

Maybe some pushups or something will help relieve my tension and boredom. He thought getting on the floor to do some.

That is enough. Kane thought at about fifty. This isn't helping.

There has to be something I can do to pass the time. Kane thought. Anything

I'll try some memory exercised maybe. Kane thought closing his eyes and trying to remember details of books he'd read while living in the basement.

Damn my mind! Kane thought. I must be stupid to think that would work. When all he saw was the basement itself.

Getting up again Kane paced unconsciously. One two three four turn. He started repeating as he counted his steps while he paced.

*Jeff*

He's pacing in there like a caged lion. That can't be good. Jeff thought deciding to make a note of it in Kane's chart. That doesn't look calm at all.

I knew Rick had him wrong when he said he was mostly calm today. He put the wall punching episode in the daily but said he'd told him to stop and he had. But this is not calm.

*Kane*

What if Vince just put me here but they are holding me for a whole different reason. Maybe it wasn't supposed to go this far. Could this be a threat gone wrong? Kane wondered still pacing.

No Vince is behind this. Somehow, someway Vince is behind this. Kane decided But how do I get out of this?

What have I got to do? Maybe I can prove to the doctor that this is a setup maybe he isn't in on it. Kane thought hopefully. Maybe all I need is to see the doctor. But who is my Doctor and when will I be able to see him.

Maybe I haven't seen him because I'm still in isolation. Maybe I have to get out of this cell first then he'll see me. Kane thought still holding onto hope that this could end.

What the hell. Kane thought suddenly. I NEED ANSWERS! Turning he punched the wall.

I'm not gonna get any until they let me write. Kane realized throwing himself against the wall back first and sliding down.

*Jeff*

He sounds like he's going nuts in there. Guess he'll be there a little longer. Jeff thought adding a note to Kane's chart.

"What's going on with Fubar." Derek asked.

"Fubar?" Jeff asked.

"Yeah the John Doe in isolation." Derek said. "You know fucked up beyond all recognition."

"Hey I like that name for him." Jeff said laughing.

Wonder how he'll like the name. Jeff thought smiling to himself as he wrote the note in the chart about fubar.

He may want to be called Kane but that's not what I planned on calling him. Jeff said to himself. Fubar is an even better name than John Doe.

No one but me on this shift knows he wants to be called Kane. Jeff realized. It's not even in the notes. He thought after checking. Wonder why Rick didn't put it in.

Well one thing for sure Fubar probably needs the men's room by now. I don't want him pissing on the floor cause then we've got to clean it up. Jeff thought not even wanting to deal with it.

"Hey Derek. Can you take Fubar to the men's" Jeff called out to his coworker.

"Sure in just a bit." Derek called back. "Gotta deal with Marty he lost his playing cards again."

Marty and those damn playing cards. He won't let them out of his sight but manages to lose them once a day at least. Jeff thought with aggravation.

*Kane*

I have to look calm even if I'm not. Kane thought. Somehow I have to deal with all this pent up energy without pacing or hitting the walls. How the hell do I do that?

Suddenly the door opened.

"fubar men's" Kane heard.

Fubar I know that term. JR uses it to describe something that is really fucked up. How did father explain it? Kane wondered even as he got up and headed for the door.

Fubar I know I've heard that before. What the hell does it mean? Is he calling me that because of the scars?

That's it. Kane thought suddenly remembering. Fucked up beyond all recognition.

I can't believe he called me that. Is it the scars or does he know about the setup and thinks it's fubar. No he called me Fubar. Kane thought.

I should smash his face in. Kane thought becoming very angry.

"What the hell are you doing?" the orderly asked when he found himself pressed against the wall.

I am not Fubar. Kane thought drawing back his fist.

What is that? Kane wondered when he heard a loud alarm go off. He pressed an alarm! Kane realized seeing the man's hand on a red button.

Without thinking Kane punched the wall beside his head shattering several wall tiles.

Damn it! Kane thought, as he saw men running toward him. I screwed up again.

*Jeff/Kane*

"That's it I've had it with you!" the asshole orderly shouted. "Take him down."

Kane was completely swarmed in seconds. Within a minute maybe two he was pinned on the ground.

Damn that hurt. Kane thought when his head connected with the door jam on the way down.

"Don't worry about hurting him just get him still so I can get this into him." The asshole said.

Shit it feels like they are tearing my arm off. Kane thought as someone bent his arm backward and up almost to his neck. Turn me loose Kane thought trying to at least get his arm down a little to lessen the pain.

"Be still fubar or I swear to god I'll kick your ass before you go back to your padded cell." Asshole said.

"Keep him still." The asshole said again.

"We're trying Jeff." One of the guys said. "But he's strong."

So asshole has a name at last. Kane thought. I think I like asshole better.

Shit they're drugging me again. Kane thought when he felt the needle pierce his thigh.

"We'll wait a few minutes then get him up. I don't want to have to carry this heavy son of a bitch." Jeff said.

My mother was not a bitch. Kane thought growing angry again and beginning to struggle.

"Hold him damn it." Jeff said.

God they're breaking my arm. Kane thought feeling as if he could feel his arm cracking.

"Ok get him up." Jeff said as he saw Kane starting to go limp. "But keep a good hold on him. We may need to take him down again."

I may fall down before you can take me down Kane thought feeling the room beginning to spin.

Kane saw the door to his cell being opened then he was on the ground.

So tired. Kane thought trying to move the sore arm.

*Jeff/Derek*

"What happened?" Jeff asked.

"I don't know one minute he's taking a leak the next thing I know he's got my back against the wall. It's a good thing I could reach the alarm. He was going to punch me I swear it then he punched the wall beside my head when he heard the alarm." Derek said.

"I think he even damaged the wall." Derek continues. "If he'd actually hit me I think I'd be wearing a helmet and eating through a straw for the rest of my life."

"Show me." Jeff said, walking toward the men's.

"Right here." Derek said pointing to the shattered tiles.

"You're right that could have been your skull." Jeff said.

"Guys come here a minute." Jeff called out to the orderlies.

"No one deals with him alone anymore. He's a two on one." Jeff said once they were assembled. "He nearly took off Derek's head just now."

"Really." Derek said. "You should see the damage he did to the wall beside my head."

"Ok so fubar is a two on one. EVERY TIME!" Jeff said, emphasizing the last words.

*Kane*

Oh my head. Kane thought waking up. I've got to stop pissing them off and making them drug me.

No matter what they do I have to stop going off on them. Kane told himself. But that will be easier said than done.

Ow shit that hurts. Kane thought as he tried to lever up on his left arm. I think they might have actually hurt the arm.

Oh they got me there too. He thought feeling the welt on his head where he'd hit the door jam.

I can't even tell day from night in this place. How long was I out? Is it morning? Kane wondered as he finished getting up.