Characters aren't mine, they belong to Janet Tomaro, Warner Brothers, Tess Garritsen, TNT, and other important people associated with the show.

What will Maura do? Will she follow her heart or choose to make Amanda happy? Thank you all for your reviews. So, I completely forgot I used the name Amanda in my first chapter. Sorry, but I'm going to change Maura's current girlfriends name Amanda to Emily. Again, sorry for the name change. Okay, get ready for the unexpected. ;)

Maura's POV

I feel my heart beating so fast. It feels like its going to explode. Well, scientifically it can't explode from a panic attack. It does feel like it could though. I can hear it beating loudly every second I wait to reply. I feel weak and sweaty. I can feel the sweat dripping down my forehead to my check then rolling off my skin. It's getting harder to breathe. I'm trying to control it, but I feel like the control is being taken from me. I must've broken out in hives because her eyes broke eye contact with mine and were now staring at my chest.

"Babe, are y-you okay?"

I feel numb, I feel stuck and as if I can't move or reply in anyway. I want to, but I'm completely unaware of how to move. I stare at her with a blank face and then lose all consciousness.

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I awake with my head on her lap and and something cold laying on my forehead. I think its a washcloth. Still trying to grain consciousness back I open my eyes slowly.

"Hey, you're awake."

"Almost. What happened?"

"I asked you to marry me and then you passed out."

"Oh. I'm sorry."

"It's okay. Try to relax. I don't want you to get too worked up again."

She took the wash cloth off and put it to the side and the reached down to get something.

"Here. You should drink this. It might cool you down more."

I sat up and took the water bottle from her.

"Thank you."

"Mmmhmm."

There was silence between us while I was drinking water thinking about what I was going to say to her.

"How are you feeling?"

"I feel better now. Thank you."

"Good."

I took a few more sips of water before putting the cap back on.

"Not to rush you or anything, but do you even want to marry me?"

"Emily, I love you, very much, but-"

"Oh, I knew there was going to be a but. What's the but?" She crossed her arms.

"The but is that I'm not in love with you. I'm so sorry, Emily."

Her arms dropped and her jaw clenched. She looked away in attempt to keep from crying.

"I'm so sorry."

"It's Jane, isn't it? You're in love with Jane, right?"

"Why would you think that?"

"You talk about her often. I've never heard you talk about anything more than you talk about her. I try to just pretend that you love her as a friend and nothing more, but you do love her as more than a friend. Your eyes light up when you talk about her and you smile when you tell me about a memory you have together. I try to change the subject whenever she comes up, but that doesn't do any good. I thought that we could get passed her, but apparently we can't. You're in love with her, Maura."

"Ye-yes I am."

"Then why did you stay with me? Why put me through this pain?"
Tears rolled down her face and she didn't try to hold it in any longer.

"I want to be with you, but I'm in love with Jane. I never thought that my feelings for her would be this strong, but they are I'm sorry. I'm sorry I've hurt you, I'm sorry I've put you through this. I shouldn't have and I messed up."

"Just go."

"Emily, I'm-"

"Just fucking go! Leave!"

"I'm sorry."

"I'll have your stuff in boxes Wednesday morning. If you don't get them by Thursday night they'll be in the garbage. Now, give me your key."

"Okay."
I scurried over to my purse and then pulled out the silver key.
"Here." I placed the key in her open hand.

"I really loved you, Maura. I wanted you in my life, too bad I didn't know this before we got into this relationship. Shame on me."

"I'm sor-"

"Shut up! Just get the fuck out of my house!"

I was shaking and my eyes started to water. I grabbed my purse and walked out of the house without looking back. I quickly unlocked my car and opened the door stepping into it. I sat there for a moment taking in the event that just occurred. She's furious and I really messed up this time. I need to fix things. And if I would've stayed with her I wouldn't have been happy. I started my car and backed out of the driveway. Tears fell from my eyes and I pushed them away. I wish I could fix it with Emily, but I don't know how. I hurt and mislead her. When she started to cry I wanted to wrap my arms around her as a friend would, but that wouldn't have made things any better. I hate to see her cry. I still love her and seeing her cry and upset was heartbreaking. I hope she'll be okay. I really do. Now I need to fix things with Jane. I need to get to Jane, I need to tell her that I want to be with her and only her. I'm going to make this up to her. It's only 8:30 and it'll take me 20 minutes to get there. I've been driving for about 10. She may still be up. I don't want to wait. Usually I would, but this is importamt. I need to tell her how much I love her now. I need to tell her before I'm too late. She needs to know how much I do ca-

Third person POV

Maura's words were cut off by a car that decided to go through a red light while Maura was going through the intersection. It crashed into the left side of Maura's car at about 45 miles per hour. Now she's unconscious once again tonight.

So, Emily and Maura are over. And Maura was in a car accident, with unknown injuries at the moment. Caught up? Lol. Please review, loves. Trust me, you won't want to miss this next chapter. What happens when Emily and Jane are both called to the hospital?