This sucks...
Elsa's been walking on eggshells all day in an attempt to not spark Anna's wrath again. After the conversation they had earlier that day, last thing she wants is to annoy her sister anymore. Anna was making it clear that she had no intention of caving, a stubborn streak that would get the better of her from time to time. Every time she would enter the same as Anna, her sister would acknowledge her with a sideways glance, and stares at her for a moment, as if waiting for something, before leaving the room to go do something else.
This really sucks...
She attempts to give her sister some space by starting to clean her room up from the breakdown she had there the night before. After a few hours of cleaning, she picks herself up, wipes some sweat off her forehead, and sighs. Her room, while not completely clean, definitely looks more presentable, and has regained some functionality. The time to meet Kristoff is quickly approaching, but she doesn't want to leave off with Anna the way they did. She sits on her bed, still somewhat damp from the frost, and contemplates what she would even say to Anna. Should she continue weaving this web of lies she started? Maybe get a bit more into details about how Kristoff works at her job?
Or tell her the friggin truth?
This thought makes Elsa let out a snort of laughter. She practices how that conversation would go out loud, "Kristoff is not my boyfriend. He just carried me home after I threw some ice bolts at a man who was attacking him. By the way, I can control ice and snow! What? Oh, why was he being attacked? That's because he's my informant of big scores. I also forgot to tell you about that, we have survived this long off money I've stolen from others."
This really fucking sucks...
She walks down the hall, and descends the small flight of stairs. "Anna?", she calls out.
Anna walks out from the kitchen, a wafting of good smells following her. "What?", she says bluntly, still clearly upset.
Anna always bakes when she's upset, it's pretty cute actua-
Elsa stops her thoughts from getting away from her. "I, uh, I wanted to talk to you before I went to work." Elsa shifts her weight from foot to foot, trying not to look nervous.
"Okay?, each of Anna's answers are short and sharp, cutting Elsa with each utterance.
With a sigh, the older sister swallows her pride and looks at her feet, "I'm sorry, Anna".
Taken aback by the sudden sincerity, Anna was left speechless for a moment. "F-for what Elsa?", her face instantly softening.
Without looking up, Elsa continues, "After everything that went on last night, it was unfair of me to just up and disappear. You are the one person who, through everything that's happened, has always been right at my side. We were always struggling against our own loneliness, and I never saw you in the same fight as me." The guilt starting to overwhelm her, Elsa contemplates coming clean completely. Her voice cracks a bit as she fights back the tears welling in her eyes, "you are the one person who I feel like I can actually be human around. This city took something from me a long time ago, and you're the only one who has ever tried to give it ba-", Anna interrupts Elsa's heart breaking by wrapping her arms around her.
"It's okay", she comforts her sister, "we all have those moments where we need to get away." One arm around Elsa's back and another around her shoulders, letting her hand weave its way into her blond hair. "I know it's hard, I've tried to find a job to take some of the pressure off of you. You work so hard, and this city is so bad. There are days you barely have time to come home and eat, let alone have a social life. I'm glad you are meeting people and making friends, and maybe finding someone to... love."
She hesitated... Why did she hesitate... She smells so good... Please never let me go... Being this close to her feels so right... I love you Anna... Please, please, please, never let me go...
Elsa's mind races from one thought to the next. She is doing everything she can to control her emotions, fearing a repeat of last night. "But... But I already have...", Anna's hand gently leads Elsa's head into the crook of her neck. Elsa wraps her hands around Anna's waist and pulls her in as close as she can.
Anna hushes her sister, "I already told you, we all have those times where we need to get away. There's nothing else you need to say, just remember you can always talk to me about what ever is bothering you." The circles shes rubbing into Elsa's back are now having a bit more than a calming effect.
Elsa bites her lip, nuzzles her head into Anna's neck, and whispers into her neck, "I love you, Anna".
"I love you too, Els", Anna smiles, continuing to rub circles in between her shoulder blades. "I'm sorry, too."
"You don't have anything to be sorry about", Elsa whines, her hands grabbing fistfuls of Anna's shirt.
Anna lets out a breathy sigh, "I do, I've always had everything I needed. Whenever I needed money for books or for tuition or for anything, you would make sure everything was taken care of. You would go out to that awful bar and work your fingers to the bone to make sure the money was there when I needed it. You think I didn't see it in your eyes? Everyday you came home leaving a little more of yourself out there. This city is dying, and I'm watching you die with it. I watch the news between classes, things are getting worse and worse each day. And every day, you go out, you take the bus, and you walk through all of it, to go to a terrible job where terrible people drink away their terrible problems." Anna ever so slightly digs her nails into Elsa's back, making her sister's mind race again.
Oh my god those nails... I thought I was going to get off later on those circles she was rubbing.
Elsa pushes her face further into Anna's neck to hide her blush, her stomach flutters, and she feels the heat starting to grow between her legs. "Anna", her voice shakes almost moaning.
Anna just pulls her in tighter, "Tell you what, tonight after work, I will make us a nice dinner and dessert, and we can keep talking, okay?"
Elsa just nods into her sister's neck, her voice escaping her in the moment. Enjoying every second spent in her sisters arms, the moment she ignored till now comes. Anna pulls away slightly, looking her sister in her eyes, "you better get going or you'll be late." Every nerve ending in Elsa's body burns with a need to lean in to her sister. She looks right into her eyes and can see something looking back at her.
Anna is blushing... Why is she blushing... why do I want to kiss her so bad... Why do I feel like she wants me to...
Her mind still racing, Anna pulls away before she has a chance to respond, "and, uh, I need to run to the store. To get uh, things for dinner."
She turns around and quickly walks back into the kitchen. Elsa stands there for just a moment, wishing for the warmth that was just pushed against her to come back. Yearning for her sister's touch to return. She closes her eyes, bites her lip again, and forces her legs to move.
God damn it... Why is it whenever I'm this turned on, I have somewhere I have to be.
Elsa turns around, picks up her hoodie, and runs out the door.