Sunday 5th November 11:32
Still in a bit of a daze over yesterday. Sad, I know, considering nothing even remotely romantic happened. But I am. Oh, and there was the thing that just happened too. Should probably tell you about that. So I was sitting in the library, minding my own business doing some charms homework when I noticed Remus and James walking over to my table. Now, I never expected yesterday to happen and suddenly we're all really good buds, so this was a bit of a surprise.
"Hey Anna," James had said, ever the cheery person he is and he sat down with me. Remus also sat (cue swoons). "So, about yesterday. Really sorry about that." He actually sounded sincere, evidently he has had more acting practice than me. Though he did wink at me when Remus wasn't looking.
"No problems James," I had said in return. I tried to sound a little upset. Not sure if that came through.
"Great, well, while I'm here, might as well join you for some school stuff or something. Will you join us, Moony?" Clearly James was not stopping at the 'date', not entirely sure why he's helping me so much. "So what are you working on, Anna?" He gave me a look. I think it meant 'play along', though I wasn't entirely sure what I was supposed to be playing along with.
"Um, charms." Charms really screams 'take me on the desk', doesn't it? James kicked me under the desk after I said this, which was rude but I think I got what he wanted me to do. "But I'm really struggling, do you think you could help?"
"Oh crap, you know, I would help but I just remembered that I'm supposed to be meeting Lily for Head stuff. Remus, you're good at charms, you can give Anna a hand? I'll see you later." And then James left. So for the second day in a row, I was alone with Remus Lupin. You'd think I would get better at handling it, but you would be wrong.
I'd tell you all of the thrilling conversation that followed, but it wasn't very thrilling. Remus told me some stuff about charms, I had very little input. It was actually quite useful, to be honest, and I think my essay turned out significantly better than it would've done without him. See, this is why I need him around permanently. For the sake of my education. No ulterior motives. So, now I'm still in the library. And Remus is still here. And, I know, you're all thinking 'what on earth are you doing writing in here and not wooing him?' An excellent question. Well, he's doing his ancient runes homework, and he looks cute when he's concentrating so I don't want to disturb him. You know, I've never been close enough to him for long enough to notice his eyes before (I know, this is ridiculously cliché and it pains me that I'm about the write this down) but his eyes are gorgeous. I mean, they kind of look tired at the moment, but they're still so pretty. I could stare at them forever, but he'd probably notice and get creeped out. Oh crap, he looked up at me when I was staring. I hope he's far enough away that he can't read what I'm writing.
He asked me what I was writing. I told him it was a secret. A terrible move, because now of course he's even more curious than he was before. He doesn't seem to be trying to sneak a peek though. How thoughtful of him.
Oh god, he asked me to come to lunch with him. Wish me luck.
Sunday 5th November 13:14
So that was actually kind of fun. It started off just the two of us walking down to the Great Hall mostly in silence. But clearly silence is not something Remus is used to, so he tried to start conversation.
"So…" (I never said he was a good conversationalist) (But he's still better than me)
"So…" Imitation is obviously the best tactic here. It made him chuckle, so yeah.
"I'm sorry about James." He said.
"What for?"
"He keeps leading you on, and I'm not sure what he's trying to achieve in doing so," he explained.
"Oh, don't worry about it. I'm fine," I said awkwardly. I feel kind of bad that we keep deceiving him like this. It went silent for a while again and then we arrived at the Great Hall. And I got to sit at the Gryffindor table, which was a weird experience. It's a lot louder, not sure why. I think it was mostly Sirius. I sat quietly and observed for most of it, trying to gather some more information about Remus. And also trying not to eat as embarrassingly as I usually do.
But then it happened.
"Um, Anna?" Remus said, sounding kind of awkward but also kind of adorable. And so I looked up from my sandwich. "There's the quidditch on Wednesday and, well, neither of our teams are playing so I wondered if you wanted to sit and watch together?" I couldn't believe it! I, Anna Carmen, have a date Remus Lupin. A real date. I was expecting to have to do a bit more work. You know, the kind of thing that happens in romance novels. We'd slowly become friends and at some point realise our undying love for each other and share a passionate kiss under the light of the full moon. But alas, this is the real world. And in the real world teenagers just ask each other out on dates. Simple, but effective.
So now I'm sat in my favourite armchair in the common room, panicking because holy shit I have a date with Remus Lupin! Just last week, the idea of that happening was a simple fantasy and now it is real and I have no idea what I'm supposed to do. I don't even like quidditch. I wouldn't normally have gone to a game if Hufflepuff weren't playing. And even then I only go because Benjy is on the team. I'm going to need some advice.
Sunday 5th November 13:45
Benjy's advice was terrible. "Shove your tongue down his throat." Unlikely.
Monday 6th November 10:27
Remus waved at me at breakfast. Not sure what this means.
Monday 6th November 14:39
Remus is sat next to me in charms. Kathryn Fairly is not impressed by him stealing her seat. Can't write much in case he sees. Not sure what this means.
Monday 6th November 17:56
Remus joined Benjy and I for dinner. It was nice. I managed to carry a reasonably normal conversation with him. We had a laugh. He's still unfairly handsome. And a really great person. Yet he seems to like being around me. Not sure what this means.
Tuesday 7th November 08:26
At breakfast. Received a note that read "you look nice today – R". Not sure what this means.
Tuesday 7th November 18:49
I've decided to plan ahead. I'm going to figure out what I want to wear on my date tomorrow now. I need something cute yet practical. I am going to be stood outside in about 5 degrees for a good hour or so. I guess I could wear a skirt if I wore my woollen tights underneath. That could look cute. And I have a few nice jumpers. Why are dates so stressful? I mean, once you're on them you kind of get into it. I imagine. Never been on a real date before. (I don't count Saturday as a real date because I feel both participants need to be aware that it's a date for it to be a date). Oh god, I'm probably going to do something stupid. Ugh.