"Lilly. Miguel. Come here." Santana pulled her twins off to the side, away from the crowd. "There are going to be a lot of people in there, okay? You guys need to be holding either my hand or Rachel's hand at all times unless we're in our seats. You are not allowed to run off and you are not allowed to go anywhere without me or Rachel. If you have to go to the bathroom, let us know. Do you understand?" The twins nodded. "Okay, we're going to wait for Rachel and then we'll go in."
"I'm here." Miguel's face lit up as he saw his new friend. "Hi guys!"
"Hi Rachel." Lilly said, leaning into Santana shyly. Rachel smiled and hugged both children.
"Can we go in now?" Miguel asked, grabbing Rachel's hand. Santana chuckled as she stood up and grabbed Lilly's hand.
"Yes, buddy, we're going in. Remember the rules."
Rachel couldn't help but laugh as she saw the amazement on Lilly and Miguel's faces. The moment they'd walked into the stadium, the twins had been speechless, silently observing everything.
"It's huge, Rachel." Miguel whispered, clinging to her as they found their seats. The boy continued to look around as he sat down next to his sister.
"I know it is." Rachel said, chuckling as she sat down next to him. Santana looked over from her spot on the other side of Lilly.
"What do you think, Miguel?" He smiled at his mom, causing her to grin as she kissed Lilly's head. "Lil?"
"It's so cool." Santana smiled and looked up as Rachel pulled out her phone.
"I want a picture of the three of you at the twins' first Yankees game!" Rachel said, smiling as Miguel got out of his seat and hopped in Santana's lap. Once Rachel was satisfied with the picture, Santana grabbed the device.
"I want one of you three." Rachel chuckled as the twins rushed over to her and took the picture.
"Do you want one of the four of you?" Santana looked up and smiled at the man in the row in front of them.
"Sure. Thank you." she said, handing him Rachel's phone and helping Lilly back in her seat before smiling at the camera. "Thank you so much."
"No problem."
"Get one of Mommy and Rachel." Miguel said. The women looked at each other.
"Do you want one?" Santana asked. Rachel smiled and nodded, causing Santana to sit in Miguel's seat and smile. "Thank you again."
"Of course. You two have a beautiful family." Rachel chuckled nervously as she accepted her phone.
"We're not... I'm just a friend. But thank you." Santana looked down for a moment before moving back to her seat.
"Did you guys have fun?" Santana asked as the game ended. The twins were clutching their souvenirs, nodding frantically. "Good, I'm glad."
"Can we come back?" Santana bit her lip for a moment.
"We'll see. Come on, let's get going." Miguel immediately latched onto Rachel as Lilly grabbed her mom's hand and the group began to leave the stadium.
"Can I pay for a cab? They seem pretty tired and the subway is going to be crowded." Rachel said, looking at Santana. The waitress bit her lip, but nodded.
"Sure. Thank you."
"Do you want to hang out for a little bit?" Rachel smiled and nodded, sitting on the couch. "I could make some coffee. I don't really have any alcohol, I stopped drinking when I got pregnant and I haven't since."
"Coffee would be great, thank you." Santana nodded and moved to the kitchen. "Um... Could we talk about something? I've been wanting to say this since we started hanging out again."
"Yeah, sure. What's up?" Rachel took a deep breath.
"It's about the night you left." Santana raised an eyebrow. "We've never talked about it."
"Okay." Rachel bit her lip. "What about it?"
"I had feelings for you, Santana. I know I went around it the wrong way, but... My feelings were genuine. I just want to make sure you knew that."
"I knew and you didn't go about it the wrong way. I liked the kiss. I liked it a lot, actually." Rachel frowned in confusion.
"Wait, what? I'm just... I'm confused. What?" Santana took a deep breath.
"I had feelings for you too." Rachel gasped. "I didn't know how to deal with them, so I left."
"You should have talked to me."
"I'd never had feelings for a girl before, Rachel. I was terrified! By the time I wasn't... I was pregnant and then I was married. I didn't even want to marry Matt, his parents wanted us to."
"Did you want to be with me?" Santana nodded.
"I was in love with you. I still am." she whispered. Rachel bit her lip, looking down. "I know I should have told you, but I didn't think you'd want me once I was pregnant."
"You didn't know because you didn't say anything. You don't know what I would have done, San." Santana closed her eyes. "For the last five years, I've been blaming myself. All I could think was if I hadn't kissed her, she wouldn't have left. I wouldn't have lost my best friend. That's a terrible feeling."
"Rachel-"
"I've been in pain for years. I've been in love with someone who I believed wasn't in love with me and would never reciprocate my feelings. At least you knew I had feelings for you." Santana closed her eyes.
"I'm sorry, okay? But would you really have wanted to date a pregnant girl?"
"I don't know! I do know that it would have been different because it was you!" Rachel yelled. Santana looked toward the twins' room. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to yell."
"It's okay." Rachel took a deep breath.
"I'm going to go."
"Rachel..." Santana whispered. The brunette sighed.
"I need to go, Santana. I need some time to think." Santana bit her lip.
"Will I see you tomorrow?" she asked. Rachel looked down and shook her head.
"I'm going out of town for a few days for a business trip." Santana's heart fell.
"Oh. Okay. Have fun." Rachel nodded and walked out of the apartment.
A/N: So sorry for the wait! I meant to leave you guys hanging for a few days after that cliffhanger in the last chapter, but not this long! School work has piled up faster than I'd anticipated, so the updates aren't going to be quite as fast but I will finish this story, I promise!