CHAPTER THREE

NARUTO'S POV

I really didn't want to be here, not now of all times. The morning had already started as shit, and didn't look like it was going to get better. Mom had her panties in a bunch over me getting a haircut, I had already thought about it though. Thinking about it, my hair was growing as weed hanging randomly in my face. I must just look so attractive like this huh?

Distant I could hear my name being called by some lady. "Mr Uzumaki, if you would please get to your appointment. Your pshycologist is ready for you now" she turned quick on her heels when she saw she had gotten my attention. She seemed grumpy, just like my mom this exact morning.

I got up from the too comfartable leather couch, I was sure it was made for my ass exactly. It must have been freaking expenceive. I walked slowly towards the door with the big golden sign saying 'Dr. Hatake' I knocked in a hope of not pissing off anyone else this morning. A short "come in" could be heard. I stepped in nervous about the new person that would call me even more crazier than the last one.

The office was quite nice really; he had a huge desk with a lot of documents and a bigass iMac. The walls were eggwhite, with painted decorations and the window were clothed with light brown curtains. "Take a seat as you please" thinking he was sarcastic since it only was one chair without the one he was already sitting in. I walked over and made myself as comfortable as I could get.

I looked up looking at him for the first time after I got in; he smiled at me warmly and pulled out a notebook.

"How are you settling down in a new big city?" he looked up from the notepad and waited from my answer. I felt so uncomfortable talking to a stranger. We really had to move when I just had started to get used to my last pshycologist. My words came out shaky and unsure "f-fine I guess" he looked sceptically at me and continoued scribbling. "I pressume you have remembered to take your medications regullary, everyday I mean" my eyes almost popped out of my head. I hadn't taken my 'normal pills' in a whole week, fuck. I hope he doesn't get pissed. "Y-yeah, I ha-have" he wiggled a brow" Naruto, tell the truth. You aren't taking them are you?" he looked dissapointed. "Okay" I cleared my throat before I continued speaking. "I've forgotten the last week or so I think, I haven't been acting weird I swear" I souned pathetic and pleading, I sounded like a hurt girl.

"Naruto, it's extremly important for you to take your medications. Schizofrenia can be dangerous without, have you been taking the anti-depressions atleast?" there wasn't no more lying that was for sure, apperently he could see right through me. "No, no I haven't" my sight was directed on the floor only while i spoke. He sighed, and scribbled even more down on the pad he held in his right hand. I wonder how much negative he already had written. "I'm going to call your parents and have them take care of your daily dose medication. They will make sure you take them" ouch, they are going to be pissed after the phone call, especially if dad is taking the phone.

"While we already are talking about medicaments, I will make you aware that you will be put on stronger anti-deppresions and the schizofrenia. Also the same goes for the anti-pshycosis medication, and it's getting considered if you are being put on sleeping medication too " he scribbled something on a post-it before speaking. "I'm sure it will make you more stabile" I got pissed off by the use of words he had just spoken, he really saw me as a pshyco like everyone else, including my parents and everyone at my school old. Frowing as I spat at him. "Tch, you mean normal huh?" the guilt shot through me as soon the words escaped my lips. Shock was evident on his face but only for a moment, but he only scribbled what happened down. "I-I'm s-so s-sor-ry, I didn't mean i-it like t-that" he features warmed as he looked at me. "You know, Naruto" I looked him in the eye with doubt "This is what I'm talking about, it's important that you take your medications. It will make you more stabile and you will have more controll about your thougths and speach".

I sighed knowing he was right. I had gotten that speach before, atleast three times. "Yeah, I understand" he smiled "Will you promise me that you will be good and take your pills?" I nodded, looking at the floor in shame.

The clock had runned off showing I had survived the first twenty minutes of the appointment. I had warmed quickly to Dr. Hatake. He was nice, and had good insight on my thougts and meanings. "So, about your new school, it's been a week already, have you got some new friends yet?" I smiled at that. "I'm actually not sure about that" his brow furrowed leaving him looking confused. "There is this one guy though. He is really nice, he always greet me when we meet. And he always has a smile plastered on his face. He lookes pretty hot too, he have a nice body. I've overheard rumors that he has a bitch of a girlfriend though, I want to get to know him but I don't know how" I continued blabbering not noticing how open I was being with the new pshycologist. And what thoughts I was revealing.

I had stopped my rant about Kiba blushing, I had the creeping feeling that i found him rather attractive.

"Naruto, I've one question. Have you figured out your sexuality, are you aware of it? There is many teenagers that are uncertain so I'm wondering" I looked shocked at him with a obious blush staining my cheeks, the only thing that came out from my mouth were "I beg your pardon? What are you implying?" my mouth was hanging open when finished speaking.

His interest semed perk as he carried on speaking;" From the look of it I would thake it that you are gay or bisexual, doubting the latter though" I was in a complete shock, was I an open book for this man to read only? I thought I was the only one aware of my sexuality.

I closed my mouth, cleared my throat and tried to answer with out stuttering like an idiot"I-I see myself as gay." It came out stuttering and weak.

He scribbled it down, like he did with everything else I said. "I see, so are you aware of the sexuality of Mr Inuzuka" what was he implying? That if Kiba were gay or even bi he would never give me a second glance. And why was he using his last name? This was starting to become so awkward in a too quick phase. "W-what are you saying?" I was blushing bad at this point, it was getting embarrasing. He put the notepad down and crossed his arms before speaking " It seems this Kiba Inuzuka has caught your interest, so tell me what do you think about him, Naruto?" he was looking awaiting at me, curiosity presenst in his eyes. I gulped not liking where this was going.

The room had started spinning and my eyesight was flickering. My ears had started ringing and it was loud and piercering my eardrums. I could hear the pshycologist call my name, I couldn't remember his name but I tried to speek but nothing came out.

I could feel a firm grip on my wrist and my hoodie being pulled up tp my elbow, there was a stinging pain in my arm before I could feel oxygen come flooding back into my lungs. As my vision was clearing up I could see he was putting a band-aid on, on the inside of my elbow. What in the world just happend? I pulled the hoodie down quick, and I tried to speek proporly but it came out very hoarse "what did you just give me?" He breathed out and sat down in his chair.

"You were having a panickattack; you were starting to hyperventilate and shaking uncontrolled. So I gave you a sedative to make your muscles relax. And for you to calm down. How are you feeling now?"

My breaths had started to come out more properly but my heart was running a mile by the minute. I snorted

"I feel like shit" I looked up as he cleared his throat,"Well, I guess that is expected. But the selfharm on your arms we have to speak about on the next appointment. But I think it's important to speak about Mr. Inuzuka now. That is if you think you can talk about it" I was feeling extremly nervous, a lump was forming in my throat. I took a deep breath before daring to speak "W-why do you know about my s-scars? No one knows about them" the last part came out almost inaudible. He cleared his throat and I didn't dare look at him "Naruto if you remember, I just gave you an injection. And the scars on your arms looked pretty bad. Some of them should have been stiched up, but I guess you wouldn't exactly go to the emergency room for that. It will be the topic for the next appointment" I tried to swallow the lump in my troat but failed completly. And my voice came out trembeling. "I guess it would be okay to atleast tell someone about it, and I'm sure you wont tell my parents, atleast not in the begining. And I think I should talk to someone about Kiba too." He had smiling wrinkles forming around his eyes "that's right; I do have confidentiality you know. And I wont judge you, the scars, or your prefrence of gender" it was reassuring to see him smiling like that to me, and the smile helped to. How much he had confedentiality about I didn't know, but I could atleast give this a try.

"A-alright, I guess I can say I trust you"

I took a couple of deep breaths to try and calm myself down enough to try and speak. "I met him at the first day of school; the day had been awful since I didn't know a single soul or the school area. I had to present myself in every class, and I had all the attention on me. I even runned someone over, but I was to afraid to look at the person not in the least apologize. So, the day was turning into complete shit. When it was time for lunch I was feeling so nauseous that I went outside to find a place for a smoke. And since this school has a whole hour for lunch I had quite some time for a cig'. I camped under a tree and lit one, it was then he suddenly came over. He was asking for a lit, I thought at first he was joking since he could ask someone else, but then I guessed he was desperate for a lit. When he was done, he sat down beside me. And that wasn't the only thing that suprised me, he started talking to me and asking things making conversation I can't remember all he said though. Becasue I was staring at him out of the corner of my eye. Telling you this is really embarassing." A light blush tinted my cheeks as I shifted my glance from the window to Dr. Hatake, something was evident in his eyes if it was interest, curiosity or facination that I didn't know but when he saw me blushing he smiled reassuringly "I can promise you, I won't judge you. I want to try and help you with this, to try and give you advice". A smile tugged at the corner of my lips. A silent 'thank you' escaped me, if he heard it or not was unknown. But I hope he did. I cleared my throat "He started talking about things that I don't remember, I just remember that I couldn't calm down, so I tried to lit a cigarette but my hands were shaking so bad I couldn't mange to get the fucking lighter to work. But then he lit it with a zippo I think, I inhaled deep and managed to calm down". I needed to buy a lipbalm because my lips were starting to get chapped up, I licked my under lip before continuing "he asked why I was so shaky, he then said it was reasonible because it goes like three thousand students at the school, and I lost it and had a panickattack. When I was starting to come to it he was holding my shoulders asking if I was okay, when I had opened my eyes he was rubbing my shoulders. It really soothed me and my shoulders slumped down and it was easy to breathe again. It scared me." he frowned then coughed "what exactly did scare you with the situation? Was it the panickattack or that it was a person you didn't know?" It was so quiet in the room the silence was deffening, I coughed nervously and carried on "the thing that made me scared, was him. His calming effect on me. I've noticed through the last week, everytime I meet him. I might be nervous around him in the begining but then I eventually warm up to him. And I've never been scared if he has gotten too close. The action scares the shit out of me, how the hell can he have this effect on me? I practicly don't know him! But why do I want to?" It was silent for a couple of seconds before Hatake spoke. "you know, this is maybe me guessing. But I think you may actually have a thing for this Mr. Inuzuka. Or have I totally lost it? Nee Naruto" I swear I've never blushed this bad in my whole life; I could feel my ears turn red. The atmosfear in the room was starting to get awkward, atleast on my part. "I ac-ctually h-have thoug-ht about the sa-me" the wrinkles arouns his eyes were evident, the same went for the warm smile he had on his face. "So what do you think?" the blush wasn't going to give in soon, I could feel that much. If I didn't know better I would think it grew stronger. "I've never felt this way before, I-I don't know if I just want to get to know him and keep him as a f-friend. Or get to know him w-while l-liking h-him, a-and hoping h-he l-like me t-too."

I almost didn't dare to look at Dr. Hatake; there was a silent pause while he was pondering about something. "If you want my advise. I would say that you shouldn't think about that now. You should just focus on trying to get to know him, because I think you would like to. So try and be brave and take a single step out of your comfort zone and start with greetings, small conversations, conversation starters or even ask if you should do something. But it's only a suggestion from my side" it was a piercing atmosfear for about a minute"But you know, it's only a suggestion. You choose yourself" this really had my thougths going, if it worked it would have been great. And I could maybye understand what I was thinking about him along the way. It seemed like a good plan though. "You know what; I think I'm going to try it". The blush was only a light tint at this point. "You're already doing progress by accepting the idea, now you only have to go through with the plan. And that is half the job" I for the first time in a long time, I could feel a little proud inside. The smile that were creeping on my lips was inevintable and a giggle escaped my lips "thank you so much Dr. Hatake, you have actually helped me a bit this hour" well he actually helped me alot, but it would be to embarassing to admit. "That's good to hear, and if you feel comfertable you can call me Kakashi" I stopped for a moment, and considered it. I had actually for the first time gotten along with a pshycologist, this one could maybye fix me completely. "Okay, K-Kakashi" he smiled at that. He threw a quick glance at his watch "I'm sorry to say, but the appointment is over for today. But promise me to take your medication, and try to be brave with Kiba. And I will see you next monday" I had a smile plastered on my face as I got up from the chair "I will see you next monday Kakashi" a short goodbye could be heard as I threw him a wave and stepped out of the room.

KIBA'S POV

I awakened with a jolt "If you're gonna sleep brat don't fall asleep under one of the cars you are screwing on" a groan escaped my lips as I made the wheels on the board I was lying on roll me out. The person that was looking down at me was none other than the boss. He was really tall, taller than me. He had long white hair tied in a loose ponytail, he was wearing a shirt that said 'Jiraiya's mechanics' I got up and wiped my hands on the already worn out jeans I was wearing. "I'm sorry dude. It's just been a long day, scracth that. It's been a long year". A yawn escaped my lips and the grin on my face was evident. His eye brows were wiggled and forming wrinkles on his forhead "you know what, I can't have you sleeping at work. Get your ass home and get some sleep, and be well rested tomorrow". I scaratched the back of my neck nervously knowing he was right, it had been a long week with little sleep. "I hope you know, your sure are the best boss ever" he clapsed my back with a cheeky smile "get out of here and go home" I threw him a wave "thanks gramps!"

"OI, YOU BRAT I'M NOT THAT OLD. AND BE THANKFUL, I LET YOU GO EARLY HOME" I could only laugh at that "dude, I know you are over 50!" I could hear him muttering curses under his breath, so I decided to make a run for it before he was going to start throwing tools and tiers again. The last time that happened, I had a bruise for atleast a month.

The car trip home was a drag; it was raining and becoming really dark. The numbers 09:30 PM glowed on my dashboard indicating it was starting to get late, but I had to get the day's last task done. I picked up the phone and dialed Ino's number; I could feel the nervousity bubbling inside.

She took the phone and greeted me with a short "hello". I manned up and tried to sound polite "hello right back at ya'. I'm done at work know so I'm heading home right know, could you come over? I will make it short" she said something like 'okay hon' and hung up. I hoped the cartrip home would be long, not sure how long twenty minutes could feel.

I arrived home first, and let the drenched dog in. I got in and left the door unlocked for Ino. The place was a mess; I shouldn't be allowed to have visitors. I was starting to belive it was dangerous for your health to live here, but Shika never complained. Atleast as I knew.

I gathered all the dishes on the livingroom table and put them in the sink; I threw all the laundry in the hamper and plopped down on the sofa thinking mission accomplished. I lit a cigarette not bothering to change clothes.

There was a short knock and I could here someone entering. A quick "Hey you" came from me hoping she was in a good mood, so this could be as violencefree as possible. When she got into the livingroom she had a happy facade on, but when she saw how it was looking like inside she frowned looking annoyed "you know, this is why I practicly never come over. So, what was the emergency? I've to be home by eleven and this better not be another bootycall" I smiled weekly "I'll be quick, promise" she came and sat beside me crossing her legs, I took a deep breath. Here goes for nothing.

I practicly blurted it out, regretting the way it sounded "I think we should breakup Ino" she looked shocked, but it soon turned into rage. "What the hell are you saying? Atleast tell me why you asshole!" it came out screeching and I cringed. I told myself to stay calm and not let anything go out on her "I'm tired about the arguing, fighting and complaining. I'm tired of all of this, and we have lost the spark. We're not what we used to be-" she slapped me before I could finish, like bitchslapped me. I gritted my teeth telling myself not to hit her. Looking back at her I could tell she was fuming. "YOU'RE TIRED? I will gladly tell you that this is your fault, if you could just clean this dump up and get rid of your dog and ecpesially that annoying bestfriend of yours. Why can't you just do what I tell you to do?" the last came out week and she looked hurt, but still angry. "This is what I'm talking about, you complain about Shika who is my bestfriend since ever. And you tell me to get rid of Akamaru? You know my dad gave him to me for god sake, he means the world to me!" I had started yelling and getting mad. "And you know I don't have the time to always clean up around here, do you know how much I work to afford this place? Do you know how much I work for keeping Akamaru? Do you?" I was almost out of breath as I stopped shouting; I noticed I had held her by the sweather while I was yelling at her. I couldn't get the look off fright of my retina. I shifted my glance away from her and tried to speak as calm as possible "get your things, the get the hell out of here" it came out growling through clenched teeth. She got up and did what I said.

When I heard she was finising up, I rose from the couch and followed her to the door so I could lock it after her. Right when I thought she was going to exit through the door, she turned around and punched my jaw with what I guess was all her might. It did sting but wasn't near to tip me over. "I will be the best thing you have ever had. And for the record, you really sucked in bed" I figured she tried to hit below the belt, and it worked. I pushed her out of the door and locked it before I changed my mind and killed her.

I got out of the shower nude, not even bothering to put on something. I threw on a boxer and plopped down on the couch with a towel around my neck. I picked up the phone and searched for the numeber I was looking for, as I waited hearing that dull beeping noise. I lit another lucky hoping for it to calm me down. I heard he picked up mumling something groggily. "Dude, I hope you know you are calling me at 2 AM. And it is school tomorrow, so why aren't you sleeping?" It was silent for a second before I dared to speak. "She hit me" it came out hoarse and through clenched teeth. I could hear his concern "please tell me you didn't hit her, tell me you didn't hit anyone" I was glad Shika always answered the phone when I called, even if he was sleeping. "I hit the wall. And by the way, we need to fix the hole in the wall" he laughed nervously trying to get my mood up "so I take it the breakup didn't go so well?" I snorted, his sense of humor had always been weird. "I guess you can say that. But what the hell, atleast I did it. It will be hell going to school tomorrow though" he sounded sleepy, but answered "I'm always here you know, now we are both single. Like in the old days" I laughed at that "yeah".

He had started to mumble something groggily "and while I remember, your mother have been calling me non stop the last five hours. So in the end I picked up the phone". There was a silent pause before he continued "she told me that you can come home now and that she sat some cash in your bankaccount" there was another silent pause, since I wasn't answearing him. "You know, you should atleast let her have your number. Or let her know where you live. I think she means it this time Kiba. She seemed upset" there wasn't another silent pause; instead you could hear the sound of a wall being punched. I picked the phone up and put it to my ear "we really need to get something done with that wall, ya'know. Anyway, don't mention that old hag in my presence. I've told you before, I never want to talk to her again" He coughed nervously "Kiba it's been two years, I think she misses you" it was silent; no one said anything for a minute. I guessed Shika gave up on the subject when he sighed. "Anyway, is there something else on your mind? A certain blondie, that haven't punched you yet I mean" I could hear him laughing of his own joke "you will never be funny, you know that?" I was glad he couldn't see me, only Shika mentioning Naruto made me smile like a madman. "And you're an ass, we all know this. It's been a week at school and you don't even dare to talk to him. I know you better than your dog missy, I know you like that little blue eyed dwarf" he was absolutly right, I liked the guy. I didn't even know him, but just him saying a simple 'hi' or seeing him have a cute look on his face made me smile like crazy. I was positive he was starting to think I was one. "I want to punch you but I can't, since we're on the phone and such" he laughed at that "I take that as yes of you liking this Naruto" I grunted annoyed, he knew me too well. "Fuck you" I tried to seem scary but it only came out dull. "No thank you bro. Anyway we have to do something with this certain dwarf you have the hotts for. I may even set you up, when I get to bored of you turning stalker on him" My mouth was agape "you wouldn't dare Nara" his voice turned serious "oh, just try me Inuzuka".

A/N: I hope this chapter wasn't boring or just plain crap, but I feel it was important. I'll gladly recive some constructive criticism, I need help to get better. I hope next chapter will be more interesting, I'm thinking of posting it tonight.

I hope you guys like it, thank you so much for reading!

~ kebab-chan