CHAPTER NINE: LEUKEMIA AND NEW BABIES
NARUTO'S POV
"So, I heard you slept over at Kiba's place." How in the world could people sound so calm when saying these things? I took a deep breath, and decided to just tell him everything that happened this weekend, Kakashi always helped me with these things. "Yeah, I did. But, it wasn't like that; we didn't have s-sex or anything." As usual Kakashi was writing everything down, he looked up at me with a cocked brow. "So, what did happen this weekend?" The memories of the morning came flooding back to mind, but I guess I should tell him from the beginning. Or, tell him what I remembered from Halloween. I blushed a bit while talking, "Well, it started out by Kiba inviting me to a party on Thursday, and silly me agreed. So, at Friday he came, and picked me up." I just stopped talking after that; I didn't exactly want to tell him about the party. But, I guess he was very interested. "What did your parents say about the party?" A nervous laughter escaped my throat. "Kiba told my mom, that we were going to the movies." I couldn't stop the nervous laughter, and it sounded like I was neurotic.
"Naruto, just calm down. It's okay. Naruto, you need to calm down." I was holding my hands in front of my eyes, covering them, while shaking uncontrollably, trying to breathe properly. I found out I was crying when my hoodie started to get wet on the sleeves. Kakashi was patting my back telling me to breathe, to take deep breaths. I managed to not hyperventilate, and managed to talk without choking, but I was still shaky. "I-I think, I-I can talk, now." Kakashi gave me a last pat on the shoulder before he went, and sat down behind his desk. "What made you so upset? What were you thinking about?" I wiped the tears away from my cheeks, and sniffed before talking. "I started to think about Kiba, and the weekend. And everything that happened." He wrote what I said down, and gave me a concerned look. "Did Kiba, do something? Did he get drunk, did he do something when he was drunk?" I only managed to choke out a "no"; I cleared my throat, after hearing that it had gotten hoarse. "Did someone molest you?" My eyes went wide, and tears started to stream down my face again. "I hope not, I was so drunk. I can't remember anything that happened. What if I slept with someone?! What if someone saw my scars?! Oh god, Ki-" My voice died in my throat as I started to sob out of control. "Naruto, do you want some sedatives to calm your nerves?" I only nodded my head; I was starting to get sick of the crying.
The sedatives had started to work, and I already started to feel better. "Do you feel like talking, now?" I cleared my throat, ready to tell him what I could remember.
"I remember, we got to a party, and there were so many people there. Most of the girls only wore underwear, and the rest of the guys went without a shirt, Kiba too." I blushed about the last thing, but continued to speak. "I remember, I lost Kiba in the crowd, and ended up doing shots with people. I got drunk, and that's the last thing I remember from the party." I looked up seeing that Kakashi just put the notepad down, looking me in the eye. "What happened after that?" I thought about how I ended up at Kiba's place, but my mind was empty. "I can't remember how I ended up at Kiba's, but I remember that we watched TV, I think. Then he told me to get some sleep, and got me blankets, and pillows. I remember I fell asleep; I was all worn out after the party. The next thing that happened was that I woke up from a nightmare. I can't remember what it was about, but I was in a cold sweat, and my breathing was uneven. I tried to sleep again, but pictures of a big, red, fox played over, and over in my head. I couldn't sleep, I almost started to yell or cry. But, I muffled the sound with my hands.
I gave up after a while, and took the pillow with me to go, and search for Kiba's room. I pushed the door open, and called out his name. He answered me almost immediately, I felt better by just hearing his voice"
I took a deep breath and licked my lips, preparing to tell the rest.
"He got out of bed, and walked over to me. He told me he was going to take the couch, and I could get the bed. I didn't know what I was doing when I grabbed his wrist, but he stopped, and looked at me. I told him I didn't want to sleep alone. He said something about me being uncomfortable, and then I realized I was bothering him. I think I said sorry as I made my way out. He took a hold of me, lifted me up by my waist, telling me not to leave. After that, I followed him into the bedroom. He told the dog to get off the bed; I didn't even process the matter that he had a dog. But, I got into the bed lying beside of him. I felt the tears come, as images of the fox came through my head, so I asked if I could sleep next to him. Apparently, it was okay, because he lifted the comforter, motioning for me to come closer. So, I ended up sleeping on his chest with his arms around me. It was nice, and I felt safe. I laid there while Kiba asked me if I wanted to talk about it, and that if it was something I could tell him. I didn't want to, I don't want to burden Kiba. Then, I fell asleep after a while." I breathed out heavily, and took a sip of the water in front of me. I licked my lips before continuing again.
"And the most confusing thing was, that when I woke up, I had forgotten about Kiba, since he wasn't in the bed. So I made my way to the shower, and when I got in, Kiba was there." I had started blushing again, but I hadn't started stuttering yet. "And then, we started to kiss, and make out. I don't even know how it happened! I just went along with it, since it felt right. And then, Kiba gave me, a blowjob! I couldn't even get my head around the situation. After that, I got out of the shower, getting dressed in Kiba's clothes, and went to get some coffee. And then, I called mom, and I ended up in his lap again. And the whole day went by with us, just watching movies like that. And around eleven, he drove me home, and that was the whole day." I sounded frantic by now. My voice came out crying and broken. My heart tightened painfully in my chest, and it felt like I was out of air. "Kiba saw my scars, he must have! I can't believe how I could've let this happened. And the whole thing about sleeping together, and the blowjob, Kiba is definitely just playing me. Kiba likes girls! I'm just some entertainment until he finds another girlfriend. What am I going to do when that happens? I'm going to get so heartbroken, I think I love him for god's sake!" I was sobbing while shaking uncontrollably, and my mouth was gasping for air. I could feel my head spinning, and the screeching noise wouldn't stop. I lost the feeling of being in the present room, and it felt like I wasn't connected with the world anymore. "What am I going to do when it happens?" I started to choke, tears flooding everything out. I could feel my contacts starting to dry up, and beginning to itch. My hands were clutching my jeans, almost tearing them. I could feel the adrenaline pumping, when I cried out a last time before passing out. "What the fuck should I do?"
KIBA'S POV
I walked up to the door, and rang the doorbell, and the door was opened. I was met with a creepy stare; man Naruto's dad was scary all the time. "Naruto isn't home right now. Come back later or something." He just mumbled, but as he was about to close the door, a voice could be heard from the inside of the house. "Oh, Kiba, you're here! I've been waiting for you!" Kushina came, half-running down the stairs, and noticed Minato's confuse look. "Naruto is staying with Kiba this weekend, while we are going away!" Minato just gave me that creepy stare of his, before he walked away, and mumbled something about him not getting to decide anything anymore, and that he didn't want his son with someone he didn't know he could trust.
Kushina just dragged me inside with that big smile of hers. "You told me it was an emergency?" I looked at her with a cocked brow. Apparently, Naruto wasn't even here, so why did I have to? Suddenly she looked innocently at me. "I called you here, so, I could ask for a favor. Jiraiya is busy when Minato and I are at the business conference this weekend. And since, we are going away, Naruto can't be alone home. So, I was wondering if you could watch Naruto for us." She smiled brightly at me, and every thing jammed in my system. Naruto, was going to live with me? OH GOD, YES! It would be perfect. Absolutely perfect! "Y-Yes!" I cleared my throat, blushing. "I mean. Yes." I tried to sound calm, and collected, but I was bubbling over with joy inside. "Perfect, then we have to tell Naru-chan about the plan" He didn't even know about it? Poor guy. "He doesn't know that you're going away? Haven't you told him?" She scratched her neck nervously, smiling at me. "Maybe, we will tell him when he gets home." I felt bad for him, they didn't tell him these things before the last minute. "Oh, okay, where is he anyway?" Kushina was back to her usual laughing, bubbly self. "He's at the psychologist, he's home in, 20 minutes, or so" I furrowed my brows at her wondering, "The psychologist?" She looked confused for a second, but it soon disappeared. "Oh, so, he hasn't told you he's seeing one. He'll tell you sooner or later, anyway. And, about that, the reason I made you come. I shall teach you about his medications, someone needs to make sure he takes them. Okay?" I smiled, unsure at her, but kept my mood up. "That's okay, just show me how, and it will be okay." She asked me to wait in the living room; I did as she wanted as she went to get the medications. What did he even take pills for? And it had something to do about the psychologist. It was all very confusing. I didn't understand anything. It was like a puzzle with hundreds of pieces missing.
There were several different bottles, and I tried to follow her every word, it was hard, but I think I managed. "And, these are his 'happy' pills; make sure he doesn't take too many. It's dangerous if he takes too many! That goes for all the pills" I gave her a smile, these pills was starting to scare me more and more, by the second. "I think I got it all, and I'll read the description before I give it to him." She was just about to say something when the door cut her off. "Oh, my baby boy is home!" she was beaming by just knowing he was home. "NARU-CHAN, WE'RE IN THE LIVING ROOM HONEY!" She yelled louder than necessary, since the house wasn't that big, it was big, but not that big. I could feel butterflies in my stomach, already nervous about meeting him. I hadn't seen him, or talked to him since Saturday. I saw him coming, walking in to the living room reading something on his phone, he wasn't paying attention at all. I didn't bother with his mother being here, so I called out for him. "Hey sexy."
As soon as the words were hanging in the air; he dropped his phone, and backed up three steps quickly. He collided with the wall, looking rather shocked. "K-K-Kib-b-ba, why are you in my home?! Why are you talking to my mom?! You guys are plotting something aren't you?!" He was pointing a trembling, but accusing finger at us. "Mom, you're not leaving dad for Kiba, are you?!" He sounded frantic, and his knees where shaking. He quickly got a sight of the bottles in our hands, and looked scared shitless now. "ARE YOU, AND DAD LEAVING ME ALONE HERE?! ARE YOU TEACHING KIBA ABOUT MY PILLS, SO HE WOULD KNOW IF SOMETHING HAPPENS?! ARE YOU LEAVING ME IN THE BIG CITY?! AND! YOU NEVER GOT ME THAT TURTLE; YOU NEED TO BUY ME A TURTLE BEFORE YOU LEAVE!" He collapsed on the floor shaking uncontrollably; Kushina was waving her hands in protest, trying to explain the situation. But, she never got the chance, Naruto was screaming too loud, "DID YOU GUYS GET LEUKEMIA?! ARE YOU GOING TO DIE?! MOM, ARE YOU PREGNANT?! YOU ARE HAVING ANOTHER KID, AND YOU ARE KICKING ME OUT, AREN'T YOU?! I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU! NO, YOU ARE LEAVING ME, BECAUSE YOU'RE EMBARRESSED ABOUT HAVING A SON THAT IS MENTALLY ILL! YOU'RE KICKING ME OUT, SINCE IT WAS TO TIERSOME TO TAKE CARE OF ME, I'M JUST BEING A BOTHER TO YOU, HUH? THAT'S IT RIGHT! HUH, RIGHT?!" His face was pale, and he was out of breath. He was still pointing the trembling finger at us rocking back, and forth. He tried to speak again, but his voice was hoarse from yelling, and he looked like he was going to pass out. I walked towards him, sitting down, and pulling him in a tight embrace, trying to calm him down. I was rubbing his back in circles, muttering sweet nothings in his ear, still feeling how rigid his breathing was. He looked up at me with tears already forming in his terrified eyes. He managed to choke out, "Can someone tell me what's happening here? I-I don't understand what's going on." Tears were streaming down his face, and he looked so scared. What in the world caused him this outburst? It's true that he sometimes freaks out, but this was truly out of character. I wiped the tears away kissing his forehead, taking a deep breath, trying to stop worrying about him. "Baby, you need to calm down. Kushina was just showing me how to give you your pills, since you're living with me this weekend. They're going away on a conference." Tears were still flooding, and he was still muttering nonsense. "Kiba, you got it all backwards! They're leaving me, I'm just an embarrassment as a son." He was practically sobbing at this point.
Kushina stood beside us now, also trying to calm Naruto down. "Sweetie, I'm not going anywhere. It's just a business trip. And, I thought it would be okay for you to sleep at Kiba's place. Are you two having a fight?" Naruto only shook his head vigorously, being frantic. " NO, NO, no, no, no. Everything is perfectly fine! I'm just afraid that you guys will leave me." And, with that said, he started to cry and shake again. I pulled him to me again, doing the same thing as the first time. I picked him up, having him clutch onto me while still sobbing. I sat down on the couch with him on my lap, head on my chest holding onto my t-shirt as a lifeline. He was still crying, choking out something about, not being a lonely child anymore, and dying as a virgin. I held the back of his head, and stroked his back with my other hand. "Shhh, it's okay. Stop crying. Please stop crying, baby. It's okay. Shhh." Kushina came towards us, with a concerned look. "I'm going to call Kakashi, maybe he will know what's wrong." She put a phone to hear ear, and walked to the kitchen.
"Shhh. Don't talk. Just focus on breathing properly." I could only hear him sobbing now, but his breathing was still rigid. What caused this? He was being hysterical yelling nonsense, and he was crying uncontrollably. I had never seen him like this. I tried to whisper comforting things in his ear, being unsure. I had never been in this kind of situation before. He was still suffocating under the downpour of tears; I tilted his head, making him look at me. His face was flushed red, and I could see how teary his eyes were. "You need to breathe, take deep breaths. Do like me." I demonstrated taking deep breaths, motioning for him to do the same. He managed to calm down, and he wasn't crying anymore. I wiped the tears away from his face, and kissed his forehead. "Oh, look at you." I didn't manage to say anything else; I hated to see him like this. I pulled his head into my chest, and laid down on the couch. I pulled the nearest blanket over us, trying to warm him up; his hands were freezing. "K-Kiba, w-what are you-" I cut him off; he wasn't in the condition to speak, or do anything now. "Shhh, sleep. Just sleep, okay? And, if you get a nightmare; I will be right here." He didn't argue, and laid his head on my chest, his hands lying at my sides. I traced my arms around him having them resting at his lower back. I slipped my hands inside of his hoodie, to rub his back. He was so cold; it felt like I was touching someone with hypothermia. But, I could feel him warm up under my touch.
I could hear light snores, proving he was asleep; I nuzzled my nose in his hair, actually enjoying this time. Since now, he was sleeping peacefully, and relaxing under my grip. "Kiba?" I turned my head slightly, seeing Kushina stand beside the couch. "Oh, I see you calmed him down, good job. I just got of the phone with Kakashi" I smiled innocently at her, glad that I was allowed to be this intimate with her son. I spoke in a low tone at her, not wanting to wake Naruto up. "What did he say?" She came closer sitting on the edge of the coffee table, speaking in a low tone. "Kakashi told me he had a breakdown earlier today, and he cried his eyes out. And, he ended up passing out. He told me Naruto is having a bad day. And he most likely had a break down now." This didn't sound good; he had a break down this morning, and, passed out? I could feel my chest tighten, and a lump forming. I didn't want him to feel this way; I wanted him to be happy. I wanted to yell out, but I fought it back. "He is, okay, right?" I could feel my face frown up.
I felt guilt shoot through me, as I heard a whimper; I quickly loosened my grip on Naruto, and started to stroke his back, hoping he wouldn't wake up. I had unconsciously pressed him painfully against me. I kissed his forehead and temple as I stroked his back, his hoodie creeping up. I was glad the blanket was over us; it looked more innocent then. I looked at Kushina as she spoke. "Kiba, he's fine. You need to stop worrying, he has had these before, and he's always fine afterwards." Or that was what she thought. I was positive he wasn't fine, calm maybe, but not fine. I just gave her a smile, not wanting to have this conversation anymore. "Okay, I'll try, and I should go, so I'm just going to carry him upstairs now." I held his head carefully with my right hand as I got up in a sitting position in the couch. I did my best, and put the blanket around him; I took a good hold of him, and got out of the couch. His head was lying on my shoulder, breathing hot air on my neck. I had a good hold of his ass, and the other on his back. I climbed the stairs carefully, trying not to drop him, or wake him.
I opened his bedroom door with my elbow, and pushed it open. I didn't turn the light on, since I remembered where his bed was. I put him carefully down, making sure he didn't wake up. I tugged his jeans off, almost tearing his boxers of too. But, I had to keep myself in check; I couldn't take advantage of him while he was sleeping and vulnerable. I laid him under the comforter, pulling it up to his chin. proceeding with tucking him in. I brushed his bangs away, and kissed his forehead, and with that, I took my leave.
NARUTO'S POV
I woke with a startle, sitting up straight in the bed breathing heavy. The comforter laid down on the floor; I reached over, and pulled it into the bed burying myself in it. The memories of the day consumed my thoughts, and made a frown on my face. I had passed out at Kakashi's, and when I woke up I had to go home since the appointment was over. And when I got home, I found Kiba with my mom, reading the pill bottles?! What the fuck was that about, they said I was going to live with him? It was something like that, so I was being abounded by my parents? Nothing of it made sense; I guess I would figure it out later. Then I remembered the break down, I had been yelling a lot of things, and ended up crying in Kiba's arms. And, I fell asleep on him on the couch, which was actually very comforting. Breathing in his scent, feeling his warmth, and just being held until I fell asleep.
I didn't feel happy about the day, I felt awful. I had been a bother for everyone. I had bothered Kakashi with staying overtime, and collapsed on Kiba later. Most likely not even wanting me to sleep on him, what if I drooled? I have tendencies to snore. Oh god, it would be awkward if I woke up while he was still here.
I glanced over at the clock on the bedside table, seeing it was already 05:11 A.M. I sighed, knowing I wouldn't get anymore sleep tonight. I wanted to sleep with Kiba; it was always so warm. Kiba only slept in boxers, but he was still so warm, and I did love how his strong arms held me securely. I shook my head, trying to get rid of my thoughts. I shouldn't think like this, I couldn't fall for him. I would get heartbroken when he broke it off. I should just cut it off, along with my feelings. And, if I just ignored Kiba long enough, like a week or so, he would forget about me. I would just disappear from his mind, and he would get a girlfriend again. It would work out fine, I wouldn't get hurt and he would be happy. I would be lonelier with out him, but it would be for the best.
A/N: So, here is chapter nine. I hope it didn't turn out as weird as it did for me, I feel it is a weird chapter.
I did find it hilarious to write Naruto's break down, everything he said just made me laugh.
I felt the chapter had to have break down's, since Naruto is a person that doesn't understand Kiba's affection. Don't hate me, because I did put some fluffy moments in the chapter. I hope you liked it, and thank you for reading.
And if you guess what happens in the next chapter you get a cookie! Heheheheh~
Leave a review! Tell me what you think, or what I should improve on.
~kebab-chan