Felicity woke up next to her boys who she had snuggled up on the comfy bed with. She was still feeling light headed and extremely weak and then she remembered that she hadn't eaten at all since she woke up. She shifted moving the twins slowly so she didn't wake them and got up. She checked the time and it said it was only 5 in the morning and despite not knowing the place that well she decided to go down and find some food.

Felicity walked into the kitchen and opened the huge fridge finding some sliced cucumber she took a seat and started to eat. Immediately feeling better she rubbed her temples feeling the start of a headache forming.

"You alright?" a voice said from the side making her jump, Oliver then came into view wearing tracksuits and hoddie, he had clearly gone for a walk.

"Fine just realised I haven't eaten at all … sorry" she apologised.

"Don't apologise help yourself make yourself at home" he added as he grabbed a bottle of water. "Shall I make you something to eat?"

"No thanks" Felicity said finishing off the cucumber but then hearing her stomach growl.

"Ok I'll make us some eggs"

"I'm fine" she emphasised.

"Felicity you didn't eat anything you look pale, weak and you didn't go back even though you said you will I'm making you some eggs" he clenched his teeth being authoritative with her knowing it would be the only way to get through.

"I'm going back to bed" Felicity said standing as Oliver went round to get in her way. "Oliver move" she tried to push past him but he wouldn't budge.

"Felicity I need you to understand …"

"There is nothing to understand"

"I know that I hurt you …"

"Hurt me hurt me" she laughs, "you took me away just the two of us to get away from everything you proposed to me we were engaged for three weeks lying on a beach in Hawaii and then we come back to Starling and you just" she shrugged "ended it" she whispered making sure she doesn't cry and looking down at her feet.

"Felicity I know …"

"No you don't you left me with no choice but to leave I didn't leave because I was pregnant I found out afterwards" she pushed past him but her grabbed her wrist his eyes pleading with her. "You left me with no choice but to leave, leave my family behind leaving Digg and Roy, Sara and Lyla and …" she wipes her tears. "I … left everything behind I was alone and there was a hole in my heart and if I didn't find myself pregnant I would have been a wreck I … they saved me finding out I was pregnant and giving birth to them having them filled that hole and I will be damned if I let you somehow take them away from me" she pulled out of his embrace and started to walk up the stairs.

Not making it to the top of the stairs she felt wobbly and faint again and then darkness overtook her and before she fell backwards falling down the stairs strong arms caught her.

"Where's mommy?" Dorian asked Oliver who just walked back in through the door.

"I had to take mom back to the hospital she wasn't feeling to good" Oliver said crouching down to his level.

"Can we go see her?" he asked.

"Yeah bud after breakfast we will go and visit mom ok" he promised kissing the top of his head.

Arriving at the hospital Felicity was resting attached to a drip still feeling very weak when the twins came into her room. "Mommy" they both said getting onto the bed and hugging her.

"Careful" Oliver said telling them to mind the drip injected in her arm.

"Hi babies" Felicity muttered pecking them both. "Love you" she whispered.

"Love you too" they both said resting a head at either side of her shoulder.

"I was fine you didn't need …" she starts addressing Oliver.

"Yes I did you collapsed Felicity" Oliver said feeling a mix of frustration and anger not just aimed at her but himself too.

A couple of hours later of the boys and Felicity catching up and talking about what had happened and the boys telling Felicity about Connor it was finally time for them to leave and the doctors managed to convince Felicity to stay the night so they could discharge her tomorrow. Felicity gave in as she still didn't fell a 100% and knew that she needed some time to think of what to do next with everything.

When they got home Oliver went upstairs to take a phone call and the boys went towards the kitchen. Coming to a halt the boys heard voices inside and listened to who they identified as Laurel and somebody else talking.

"I know but she can't just rock up and now want to change things" Laurel said. "She still is getting … she's getting in the way and still annoying and ridiculous as ever" Laurel said.

Phoenix huffed and looked at Dorian angry "She's being mean about mommy" he said running into the kitchen and kicking Laurel on the leg.

Laurel jumped and squeaked. "Oww" she said looking at Phoenix who looked extremely mad.

Oliver walks in at that moment "What's going on?"

"Well your son kicked me" she spat out looking at him.

"What?" Oliver quizzed arching his eyebrow and seeing the anger radiating off his son. Before he could say anything Dorian walked in running towards Laurel but Oliver quickly caught him lifting him off the ground. "Phoenix outside please now" he said Dorian in his grip looking at Laurel and sticking his tongue out.

"You do not hit people why did you kick Laurel you need to apologise" he stated looking at one than the other and went back to looking at the other.

"She said something mean about Mama" Phoenix said stomping his foot and folding his arms.

"Ok" he huffed "but that does not excuse you hitting someone and you will need to apologise"

"No" Phoenix said running off and upstairs.

"Dorian …" Oliver begins.

"No you don't care that she said something mean about mom" he took off too.

"Of course I care" Oliver shouted afterwards and when the boys weren't in sight he walked into the kitchen. "What the hell Laurel"

"Don't Ollie your son kicked me" she yelled.

"Well maybe if you didn't slate their mother …"

"How can you be ok with this she left taking them with her …"

"No Laurel you don't understand …"

"I understand that she took your children away didn't give you a chance to"

"You don't know the half of it Laurel so drop it and don't you dare to talk behind her back say anything about her even mention her name" he shouted and looked at Thea daring her to say anything and then slammed the door leaving the room.

Phoenix sat on the window seal looking outside angry and small droplets of tears pooled down his cheeks. Dorian sat on the bed not saying anything knowing that when his brother was angry that it was best to leave him alone unless you were Felicity. Oliver knocked on the door and entered seeing his sons down was something he hadn't been used to. "Hey" Oliver said but neither of the boys moved to acknowledge him. "Guys I know you're angry and I'm sorry but …"

"Can we go back to the hospital and see Mama" Phoenix said still looking out of the window.

"We can go tomorrow" Oliver replied.

"I want to go now"

"Phoenix your mom needs to rest and we can go tomorrow buddy"

"No I'll go on my own then" he shouted jumping down from the seal and walking out of the room but Oliver grips him round the waist sitting on the floor and holding him.

"No I want to go let me go Oliver" he shouted.

"Phoenix calm down ok I am sorry buddy …"

"No you shouted at me when Laurel did something wrong why you didn't shout at her"

Oliver exhaled "I did have a word with her and she won't be doing it again but you have …"

"I want Mama and I want to go home" he yelled pushing Oliver away as Dorian followed him.

"Stop" Oliver yelled trying to chase after them.

Oliver sat in the car with the boys he had caught up to them and got them in the car to go and see Felicity. The boys continued to ignore him and he was starting to get frustrated.

Phoenix ran into Felicity's room who was awake and was texting on her phone. She dropped it stunned to see them but happy for the company as Phoenix ran in straddling her and resting his head on her chest. Felicity wrapped her arms around him "What's going on baby" she said kissing the top of his head. Dorian jumped up on the bed and Felicity pulled him in for a hug.

"What's going on?" Felicity asked Oliver.

Oliver walked round and went in to touch Phoenix but he moved away and buried his head in Felicity's chest. "What's going on?" Felicity asked again glaring at Oliver.

"Phoenix kicked Laurel and Oliver shouted at him" Dorian answered.

Felicity cups Phoenix's face and pulls him up so she can meet his eyes "What have I told you about kicking people Nix huh?" she says.

"Not to do it" he answered.

"Why would you do that I hope you apologised it is never ok to kick someone"

"I'm sorry but she said something mean about you"

"And you know I love you and Dorian for always protecting me and standing up for me but baby you can't kick or hit what have I told you" Oliver watches astound by Felicity's discipline.

"To use my words if I don't like something" Phoenix said.

"Did you apologise"

"No"

"You're going to need to and you apologise to Oliver as well ok he doesn't deserve … you being mad at him when he was trying to teach you what was right from wrong ok" she pulled him in pecked him on the lips.

"Sorry Oliver" Phoenix said looking at him,

"It's alright buddy and I didn't mean to shout ok"

"You didn't shout you just used a loud voice" Phoenix giggled.

"All better?" Felicity asked and Phoenix nodded going back to resting the side of his head on Felicity's chest.

After a few minutes of the boys just sitting in Felicity's embrace Oliver spoke "Shall I order us some dinner I'm sure mom is sick of hospital food"

"Yeah" they twins said happily in unison.

The four of them sat in Felicity's room eating pizza and talking happily, Felicity couldn't help but smile at the stories Oliver and the boys shared and the obvious jokes and hidden meanings behind things that they shared. She didn't mind feeling left out and for the first time since waking and finding Oliver looking at her dead in the face all her anger had been pushed aside and she enjoyed watching the three interacting. Felicity practically enjoyed seeing a happy face plastered on Oliver's face, she knew all his smiles and this was definitely a real one and she loved seeing it. Felicity hated that she didn't give the boys a chance to get to know Oliver from the beginning that she took that away from them.

The boys had shortly fallen asleep and Oliver looked at Felicity. "Please hear me out" he said.

"Oliver don't just take the home please"

"Felicity with Laurel …"

"No I don't want to hear it nor do I want you to explain, you don't need to explain anything to me"

"I'm going to talk anyway" Oliver shrugged pulling his chair closer to her. "I was a mess when you left and it was my fault I knew but I was a mess".

"9 months ago I got so drunk and I started doing that a lot but this time I got drunk with Laurel after all this time she had never taken a life and 9 months ago she did" Oliver stopped at watched as Felicity turned her face away from him and started to play with Dorian's hair. "So we slept together" he said. "And then we got drunk a few more times within the space of 2 months and we kept …"

"Felicity we had sex we just kept on … it was just for comfort with us we weren't a couple" Felicity snorted. "One day she found the ring and she put it on claiming that we were getting married and she told everyone I couldn't really say no and that didn't want to, I never proposed nor did I ever have any intentions to propose" he inched closer.

"Even to this day Felicity all me and Laurel are even if neither of us want to admit is two people who come together when we need comfort" he explained.

"Why her" she turned and faced him hating herself the moment the words left her mouth.

"Felicity she was just there and …"

"It kind of happened didn't mean anything" she repeated the words he had said to her after Isabel. "Why wouldn't you say anything my ring Oliver … I mean I know it isn't my ring but my ring" she said again.

"I know but I can never explain to you why … why it let her take it and put it on and why … Felicity I never stopped thinking about you not once, you haunt me in my nightmares, you're in my dreams, you're with me in the foundry you Felicity Meghan Smoak are engraved in me and I can't and will never stop thinking about you" Oliver got up and kissed her on the forehead and she let him as he quietly swept up both of the boys in his arms and left.

Once Oliver got the boys to bed he walked into his room dumfounded when he spotted Laurel. She had never been in his room since they started their thing whatever it was. Even when they were dating in the past he never had girls not even Laurel in his room the only person he had in his room was Felicity and he was not about to change that.

"Laurel?"

"Hi Ollie, I was at the hospital wanting to apologise to the boys and Felicity" she said turning to face him, "Heard what you said"

"Laurel" he looked down at his feet all he kept doing was messing up.

"No Ollie its fine I … I know when we started whatever this is it wasn't real we don't go out and do couple things it's just convenient for both of us"

"Ollie I kind of used you in a way … after killing that man I … I wanted to feel like the old Laurel and not this dark person I've become and that's why I allowed myself to go there with you. I went there to feel like old Laurel again even though I knew your heart belonged to her even though she wasn't here. Don't think I haven't noticed that what you said about dreams were true, you dream of her you wake up screaming her name sometimes" she meets his eyes.

"Ollie when I found the ring I knew it couldn't possibly be for me just not that kind of relationship but I was so desperate to feel normal to feel like the Laurel who wanted to get married have a family so I put it on and kind of forced it on you" she took the ring of and gave it to him.

"I don't think she will want this back but when the time is right get her a new one"

"Laurel"

"Ollie we both needed each other for different reasons and I always knew your heart belonged to her you never even before looked at me the way you do her and with the boys you're a proper family go get her Oliver have your happily ever after with her" she smiled kissing his cheek.

"Laurel I am sorry all I have ever done is hurt you"

"No … yes you did in the past but you didn't do this to me Oliver I love you I always will and I'm thankful in a way for Felicity coming back into your life made me realise what I was doing but made me realise what I want"

"I will find happiness Oliver with someone else and get the house the husband and kids that I wanted when I was Laurel for Black Canary" she smiled at left.

Oliver didn't know how to feel after everything that happened but with things with Laurel now over once and for all he was more than focused on putting all his time and attention to his family. He would never push Felicity but he would fight for her and his boys, his family. He wants his happily ever after.

Here it is hopefully done with some justice. Hopefully you can understand the reasoning behind even though I don't condone it. Happy reading, thank you all for the reviews.