Thank you for all the kind words about the first chapter it made my day.

This chapter is going to have the first of many flashbacks. Hope you all continue to enjoy.

Chapter 2

"You ready to tell me what happened yet?" he asked her.

"Not yet… but I will I promise, just let me relax and enjoy having you home."

"Liv… we really need to talk about it."

She turned around in his arms to face him. "I will but right now I need you to kiss me…. all I need is you El, you're the only one I have ever needed," she said as her lips met his.

He kissed her lips softly wrapping his arms around her as the hot water lapped over their bodies.

"I missed you so much," she told him as she broke away from him. "I'm so glad you got home."

"There was no way I wasn't coming home not after last time; I should have been there then for you. I can't help but think if I had never left none of this would have happened."

"Baby it would have happened no matter what, we have talked about this over and over. What happened last time and this time is no bodies fault but William Lewis's."

"I know but…." She put her finger to his lips.

"Stop talking and take me to bed. I want to make love and fall asleep in your arms. I promise you I will tell you everything. But right now you are all I need," she smiled at him.

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10 Months earlier.

"Detective Benson."

Olivia turned around at the sound of her name. A young man in a suit came down the steps towards her.

"Can I help you?" she asked him.

He reached inside his jacket and took out his badge and held it up to her.

"Special Agent DiNozzo," he smiled at her.

"FBI?!

"NCIS," he told her still smiling. Despite the pain she was in she couldn't help but smile back at him.

"What can I do for you Special Agent DiNozzo?"

"I have been asked to come and pick you up; my boss needs to speak to you."

"Your Boss….. I don't see why anyone from NCIS would need to speak to me. What's it about?"

"I'm not allowed to say. I have my orders to take you to our office here in New York."

"Well until you tell me why, you can go to hell," she said starting to walk away.

She heard running footsteps behind her as he caught her up.

"I'm sorry but I really need you to come with me, I have been told it's very important. My Boss told me I couldn't take no for an answer. He said and I quote "If she refuses to come with you arrest her"

"You can't arrest me for refusing to come with you," she laughed. "So you can tell your Boss to go and screw himself," she said as she carried on walking.

"God he was so right about you," she heard him sigh from just behind her. "He said I would spend more time looking at your ass as you walked away more than anything else….."

Olivia stopped but didn't turn around.

"….. Mind you it is a cute ass, so I can't say I mind. I can follow you all day if I get to look at."

Olivia spun around "Who was right about me?"

"Sorry can't say, of course if you come with me my Boss will explain everything to you."

"Christ you must think I'm stupid. "

"I would never think that…. I do however think that you're going to come with me cause your dying inside to know what is going on," he said wiggling his eyebrows.

Olivia looked at him. He gave a cheeky smile.

"Come on… it won't take long. Plus if I don't take you back with me its gonna mean a lot of pain for me…. from my boss," he said rubbing the back of his head.

Olivia sighed and looked at her watch. "Fine but it needs to be quick, I have somewhere to be," she told him as curiosity got the better of her.

"Great," he grinned. "And just for the record," he said leaning into her as he led her towards his car. "I know you don't have anywhere to be. You have just left you Shrink and you're not cleared to be back at work just yet, and you don't need to be back at the hospital to be checked out till Friday."

"How the hell…"

"Special Agent DiNozzo, Detective Benson…. I know everything," he said holding the door open as she got in.

He pulled away from the sidewalk into the traffic.

DiNozzo looked over to her. "I promise you, it's nothing bad," he said to her.

"Whatever, let's just get it over with so I can get home."

DiNozzo nodded. "I almost didn't recognise you; you have cut your hair."

She turned her head and glared at him.

"How did….."

"Saw you on the TV. You have been big news since that trouble with that Lewis guy….. You really kicked his ass though. I mean I heard you were tough but…you really showed him."

"Yeah," she said turning her head back to the window and sitting in silence. DiNozzo sensed she was upset and regretted bringing anything up.

"From what I heard he deserved what he got, in fact he deserved a lot more than what you gave him."

"I should have killed him," she said quietly. "I should have used my gun and put a bullet in his head."

DiNozzo gave her a final look before concentrating on the road ahead in silence.

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Olivia followed him into the building and into the elevator up to the twentieth floor. He got out the elevator and led her to a room with few chairs and a table.

"Can I get you anything to drink?" he asked her.

She shook her head "No thanks," she mumbled. "How long do I have to wait for…?"

Before she could finish the door to the room reopened and a man a few years older than herself came in.

"Detective Benson," he said holding out his hand. "I'm Agent Gibbs, Leroy Gibbs."

"What no Special in the title?" she asked looking at DiNozzo.

Gibbs shook his head and smiled "Take a seat," he said to her.

"Why am I here?" she asked him as she sat down.

Gibbs looked over at DiNozzo "Go and check if SATNAV is ready," he told him. "And make sure the room is cleared."

DiNozzo nodded and left the room.

"SATNAV?" she asked.

"Our communication centre," he smiled. "How have you been after your ordeal?"

"Is that what this is about? Is it something to do with Lewis?"

"Sort of…. It will all become clear in a short while, I promise you."

"I just don't understand what NCIS could need me for; I haven't any connection with the Navy or anything."

Gibbs smiled at her. "Trust me you have more of a connection than you realise."

The door opened and DiNozzo stuck his head in. "All set Boss," he said smiling.

Gibbs nodded and stood up "Detective Benson if you would like to follow me."

"Please it's Olivia," she smiled at him. He nodded and led her from the room. As they walked down the corridor a young Gothic woman jumped up and down.

"Oh my god is that….."

Gibbs stared at her "Not now Abby."

"Oh okay," she said with a huge smile on her face and gave Olivia a little wave. Olivia couldn't help but smile and give a small wave back.

"Who is that? And why is she excited to see me."

"She is our analyst. She managed to talk me into letting her come with us so she could do some shopping. Apparently Washington doesn't have enough stores," he laughed. "And Abby is excited all of the time, it's not just you."

They entered a darkened room with a very large screen and a load of computers, but no people.

Gibbs turned to face Olivia. "All I am going to ask you is that you hear him out and listen to him…"

"Who?"

"He won't have long, maybe five minutes after that we will lose the link."

Olivia looked at him all confused.

"I don't understand…."

"You will," he smiled. "I will be outside," he said walking away pressing a button on the computer key pad as he did.

The large screen in front of Olivia began to flicker. She kept her eyes fixed to it as the screen settled. Her heart started racing and she felt her legs go weak at the large face that appeared before her. She reached out and rested her hand on the back of the chair next to her.

"Hey Liv," he nervously smiled at her. Olivia just stared unable to say anything at first. "Liv can you hear me?" he asked her as he reached forward and fiddled with something in front of him.

"Yeah," she said quietly as she swallowing hard. "I can hear you," she felt the tears running down her face as she looked at her former partner who she hadn't seen for 2 years. The person she wanted the most when she was taken. "I just… I ….." she sniffed and wiped her nose on her sleeve.

"I know this is a bit of a shock, seeing me like this. Trust me it's not the way I pictured coming back into your life after all this time."

Olivia just nodded still in shock.

"I just had to see for myself that you're okay," he said as a tear ran down his cheek. He didn't even bother to wipe it away. "When Gibbs told me what had happened…. what he saw on the news. You got to know I tried everything to get home, I just can't….. I'm so sorry."

Olivia sniffed again her eyes never leaving the large screen.

"Where are you?" she asked him.

"Afghanistan."

"You …. You re-joined the marines."

Elliot shook his head "No Liv, I joined NCIS, I will leave Gibbs to tell you the story on how that came about. I'm out here on a job."

She nodded "I …. I missed you so much. You just left me….. how could you just leave me after 12 years? No explanation no nothing. You even left it to Cragen to tell me," she snapped at him. "Ignoring my calls, my emails and text messages."

"I know and trust me I'm so sorry for that but my head was all over the place I didn't know what I was doing, you will never know how sorry I am that I ignored your calls," he dropped his head and took a deep breath. "Liv I don't want to argue with you now about what I did and didn't do. We can wait till I come home and see you in person for that."

"What makes you think I will want to see you when you get home?"

"Because I know you Liv and if anything you will want to punch me," he grinned.

Olivia couldn't help but chuckle. "I guess you do know me."

"After 12 years together, you bet your ass I do…Liv I don't have long left. I need you to tell me you're okay and you're getting help, don't keep it all bottled up inside like you did with Seal view."

"I'm not," she told him. "I'm already seeing a shrink, and all my injuries are healing slowly."

"That's good… is Cassidy looking after you."

"How did you know about him?"

Elliot smirked at her. "I know a lot of things Liv. I may not have been in touch with you for two years, but that doesn't mean I don't know what is going on in your life. Is he looking after you?"

Olivia shrugged. "He fusses. He wants me to talk to him but I'm not ready. Every time we are alone he asks me to tell him what I'm thinking, what Lewis done to me. I just wish he would leave me alone, I wish everyone would."

"They care about you Liv."

"I know I just wish I could have some time alone, it's like there is always someone there, and they won't leave me alone."

Elliot started to chuckle.

"What's so funny?"

"Your pissed at me for leaving you alone for two years, and pissed at everyone else cause they won't leave you alone."

"Yeah well your different….. I needed you El," she told him looking slightly embarrassed at the confession. "When Lewis had me I needed you. Your face was the one I seen. It was you I wanted and you weren't there," she said crying again. "I kept dreaming you would come and find me, that you would take me home…. And you never came."

"I am so sorry; you got to know if I was at home I would have been out looking for you. I wouldn't have stopped until if found you. As soon as I get home from here, I will be there for you I promise."

"I need you now El."

"I wish I could Liv, I really do."

"How long before you get home?" she sniffed.

"I don't know, I really don't. But Gibbs will let you know as soon as I am on my way."

She nodded her head. "Okay."

"I'm gonna lose the link soon," he told her.

"I don't want you to go," she said to him stepping towards the screen.

"I know sweetheart but I have a job to do here, then I can come home to you. I need you to be strong for me. Don't let him beat you Liv. Your stronger than that."

Olivia nodded.

"Liv… I know you probably don't want to talk about it. And you're probably sick of all the questions but I need to know one thing. I need to know that… I need…..did he….did Lewis…." He stuttered not knowing how to ask her.

"No he didn't," she told him. "He didn't rape me. He kept threatening to but he couldn't get it up." She saw Elliot take a long deep breath at the news. "I didn't fight him back, that was his thing the women fighting him, I didn't do that."

Elliot nodded.

"Thank you for telling me," he said. Relief washing over him that Lewis hadn't don't the one thing she was scared of the most. "I'm going to say bye now, Gibbs is going to look out for you until I get back okay."

"Okay," she said quietly.

"He is also going to fill you in on how I started working here. If you need anything just ask him or one of the others on the team, they know all about you."

Olivia just nodded not looking at the screen and Elliot's face.

"Liv, look up," he told her. "I need to see your face before I go, you have to know I never stopped caring for you. I know you might find that hard to believe after what has happened but it's true. I thought about you every day since I left. Just like you when I need someone it's your face I see. Stay strong for me okay."

Olivia looked up and smiled at him through the tears.

"Okay."

She saw Elliot's hand reach forward and touch the screen.

"Okay… and Olivia I …"

Olivia jumped as the screen went black and Elliot disappeared. She dropped back into the chair behind and put her head in her hands as she cried. Her body shaking as she sobbed harder than she ever had. Seeing his face made her realize just how much she missed and needed him.

She felt a hand on her shoulder and Gibbs dropped down in front of her.

"You okay?" he asked her.

"I just…. I miss him so much."

"And he misses you just as much, trust me," he said handing her a tissue. She blew her nose and wiped her eyes.

"God I must look a mess," she said to him.

"I've seen worse," he told her standing up and holding his hand out. She took it and he helped her stand up.

"Thanks."

"Why don't you go freshen up and we will head out and grab a bite to eat and a coffee. Stabler asked me to explain everything to you and answer any questions you might have."

"Thank you…. why are you doing this for him?"

"He is part of this team, we look out for each other…. And I owe him," he smiled at her before heading to the door and holding it open.

"You owe him?" she asked cocking her eyebrow.

"That's a story for another day," he told her.

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Present Day.

Elliot wrapped the towel around her careful of all the bruises.

"Not as bad as last time," she said to him as his eyes wandered over her body.

"I never saw them last time, remember," he said dipping his head and placing small soft kisses on the bruises he could see. "What do fancy to eat?"

"How about Greek?"

"Ooookay. As long as you don't make me eat those Green leafy things with rice," he said scrunching up his face.

"Vine leaves," she smiled.

"Yeah them…..yuk," he said shaking his body and making Olivia laugh. "Why don't I go and order while you climb into bed."

Olivia nodded "Don't be long," she told him.

Elliot ordered the food and grabbed a bottle of wine and took it with him into the bedroom. Olivia was lying on the bed naked staring at the ceiling.

"Penny for them," he said climbing on the bed next to her and lying on his side facing her. He ran his fingers over her body lightly touching all the bruises. He saw the bruises around her hips and took a shaky breath as his fingers brushed over them.

"Liv," he said his voice just above a whisper. "You know I got to ask you."

She bit her lip and turned her head to look at him. "He was going to," she told him. "He undone my belt and pulled my trousers so far down, before he undone his own zip."

Elliot felt his body begin to shake. Olivia leant forward and kissed his lips.

"He didn't rape me…. he couldn't get it up because I just stood there. I didn't move and I didn't fight him. He pushed himself against me but that was all. He got angry and stopped trying."

Elliot felt the tears falling down his face.

"I just kept praying he wouldn't try on Amelia, she would have screamed and fought him."

"That's the little girl Lewis took?" he said his voice so quiet.

Olivia nodded forgetting Elliot didn't know the full story as he had been out the country.

"Did he hurt her?" he asked wiping at his tears.

"Not physically. He cuffed her dragged her around a lot. Shouted and screamed at her….but at least he didn't rape her."

"That's good."

"Yeah….. Doesn't mean she isn't scarred for life though. He has totally fucked up her life. And it's my entire fault," she said tears escaping from her eyes this time.

"No baby," he said moving closer to her. "It's His fault. He done this to you and her, not you," he said cupping her face and turning her to him fully. "He broke out of prison and he took her. If it wasn't for you he would have killed her as well so none of this is your fault and you can stop thinking that right now."

"No El, you don't get it. If I had just killed him the first time round, he would never have taken her….. I should have killed him, but I was too weak to," she sobbed.

Elliot pulled her to him and held her tightly in his arms as she cried, her head buried into his chest and he could feel the wetness of her tears.

"Don't you dare wipe your nose on me," he whispered into her hair. He felt her hiccup as she half cried half laughed before lifting up her head.

Elliot cupped her face again "You are anything but weak," he said kissing her softly his tongue slipping into her mouth and gently brushing it against hers. She moaned into his mouth as he wiped away her tears with his thumbs, before sliding his hand from her face down over her neck, gently brushing the side of her breast before he lay it on her hip bone and pulled her to him.

"Make love to me," she whispered. "Help me forget if only for a while."

Without saying anything he pushed her onto her back and rolled onto her slipping between her legs as he pulled the towel away from his waist throwing it on the floor. He pushed her legs further apart as he settled between them.

"No foreplay," she told him. "I just need to feel you inside me; I need to be as close as I can to you."

Elliot nodded and reached down taking hold of himself as he lined himself up and gently eased into her.

"I love you so much," he told her as he moved inside her.

She cupped the back of his neck and kept her eyes on his.

"I love you to," she said playing with his short hair as he moved in and out her.

"Liv I think it's time we told everyone."

"Me to, I hate them not knowing and I hate that they think me and Brian are still together, and that…Oh god!" she gasped as he moved his hand between them gently rubbing her. "And I hate how they think he is the perfect boyfriend and just working away….. It's been 3 months now since we…."

"I know," he panted. "Trust me…. god you feel so good. Trust me I won't forget that night in a hurry."

"It was pretty amazing."

"Yes it was," he grunted as he moved deeply and slowly into her as she pushed up to meet his every thrust. "Just let go Baby, let go and forget everything. I've got you now."

No sooner had he finished talking than he felt her shudder around him as she gripped his body tight and cried out his name as she bit down on his shoulder, sending Elliot over the edge as he came as well.

They lay holding each other tight gasping for breath as Elliot sucked softly on her skin. They both jumped at the knock on the door.

"Time to eat," he smiled down at her. "And then we need to decide how we are going to tell everyone about us," he said pulling out of her slowly and grabbing a pair of sweats pulling them on.

"El," she said as he got to the door making him stop. "Before we talk about telling the guys, I need to tell you everything what happened."

Elliot nodded "Okay, if you're sure you're ready?"

"I am, but I need to tell you because I don't want to go to my IAB interview alone, like I said earlier. I want you to come with me. I need you to be there with me."

Elliot was about to reply when there was another knock on the door louder this time.

"I better get that," he smiled at her before turning away and heading to the door, as the banging continued.

He took the chain off the door and pulled it open "Alright I'm here," he snapped glaring at the person on the other side.

"Elliot?"

"Captain."