Thank you for all the positive feedback on this story (well almost all positive someone apparently didn't like that they ordered Greek food instead of Chinese or pizza? And then gave me a lesson on Afghanistan.) Very strange lol.

A Warning for this chapter as the rating goes up to M slightly. I can't help myself sorry. So if you don't like the naughty stuff just skim over the shower scene lol.

As I said before the timeline may be slightly off at certain times but this is because I haven't really watched Season 15. So a lot of what happens is just what I would have liked.

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Chapter 4

Present Day

"Why didn't you wake me?" he asked her as he climbed into the shower behind her.

"You looked so cute, I didn't want to," she said stepping back into his arms.

"Don't you dare tell DiNozzo or Ziva I look cute asleep I will never hear the end of it….. turn around," he told her grabbing the shower gel and squeezing some into his hand and beginning to gently massage it into her back.

"Hmmm that feels so good," she moaned as he began to rub her shoulders.

"How about tonight I give you the full treatment," he said as his hands carried on massaging her shoulders.

"The full treatment?"

"Yeah, a full body massage, complete with oils and candles," he said as his mouth went to her neck and he kissed her softly.

"Sounds perfect," she said turning her head and capturing his lips with hers.

"What time you got to be at IAB?"

"About eleven," she said reaching for her shower gel. "My turn," she said.

"Oh no," he said grabbing it from her and handing her his gel. "I'm not going to the station for the first time in three years smelling of vanilla or coconut, or whatever flavours your using now."

"Flavour," she asked him as she squeezed the gel into her hands and rubbed it over his chest.

"Yeah flavour, they all smell good enough to eat."

She shook her head as her hands travelled slowly down his front and slid around his growing erection.

"You know we have a couple of hours to kill before we have to leave," she said sliding her hand up and down him.

"And what do you think we should do to fill in the time?" he asked as his hands slowly made their way up from her waist and over her breasts.

"Oh I don't know, maybe you could see how good I taste," she smiled at him. "Make me feel good, help me relax before I have to sit through that damn interview."

"I think I can do that," he said as he dropped to his knees in front of her.

"El… baby I didn't mean… Shit," she gasped as he lifted one of her legs over his shoulder and she felt his tongue run the full length of her, she put her hands to the wall either side to help her balance.

"Mmmmm definitely coconut," he mumbled before his mouth completely covered her and his tongue delved deep inside.

"Oh Christ," said Olivia resting one of her hands on his head as his tongue swirled around inside as he made love to her with his mouth. She dropped her head back against the tiles and pushed her hips forward moving them in a circular motion as she pushed her pussy closer to his mouth. "Feels so good," she mumbled, as his tongue continued its assault on her, lapping, sucking and nibbling at her clit. Ever since he had come back into her life he knew just what she needed to help her relax. After Lewis took her last time she couldn't let Cassidy touch her, just the thought of it made her ill. But with Elliot, he just knew what she needed and what she needed was him

She put her hands onto his shoulders for support as her legs turned to jelly and her pussy began to throb from his touch. She heard him moan as he pushed his tongue deep inside her and his hands grasped her ass cheeks holding her up. She couldn't hold off any longer as she came, her body trembling and shaking as grasped his short hair with one hand holding his face to her pussy as she convulsed violently against him.

As her body began to relax he eased her leg down from his shoulder to the floor. He ran his tongue the length of her one last time before kissing her wet folds and standing back up.

"God you taste amazing," he grinned before kissing her softly and letting her taste herself on his lips. "You want me to make some breakfast?" he asked her dropping his head to hers.

"What about you?" she asked as she felt his throbbing erection against her stomach.

"I'll be fine," he told her. "As long as you're relaxed and happy that's all I care about."

"But El….."

"No buts okay, you jump out whilst I lower the heat in here to help sort me out."

"No," she said quietly.

"Baby, me coming in here and making you come like that, its cause I wanted to. I don't expect you to have to do the same."

"Maybe not," she said turning off the water and leading him from the shower, the cold air on her hot skin making her shiver. "But I'm not having you come to my interview with Tucker when your sexually frustrated….your likely to hit him."

She climbed onto the bed and lay on her back spreading her legs. "I want you El," she said as he climbed on the bed between her legs. "You make me feel alive, you make me feel safe. As you once told me, we are Partners for Life. What kind of partner would I be if I just left you all frustrated?"

Elliot hovered over her as she spoke his cock pushing up against her pussy.

"I want you inside me Baby," she said as he eased his way into her slowly spreading her as he sunk deeply inside her his eyes staying on her face. "God I love you so much," she said as he began to move inside her, thrusting slowly and deeply.

He dropped his head into the crook of her neck and sucked on her pulse point as she wrapped her arms and legs around him pulling him closely to her, and biting down on his shoulder.

"I'm never leaving you again," he mumbled into her neck. "I'm asking Gibbs to take me off the over sea assignments, I can't do it anymore," he said as he thrust into her, before circling his hips. "I can't be away from you."

"Oh god Baby," she gasped as he began to circle his hips grinding himself deeper into her. "Can you do that?"

"If I can't I will leave," he said raising his head from her neck and dropping his head to hers.

"No, you can't," she said sucking his bottom lip into her mouth.

"I can and I will… You…. and me," he grunted. "That's what's important…. Shit!" he gasped when he felt the blood rushing through his body.

"That's it baby… come on, come for me….come inside me" she sighed into his mouth her eyes meeting his, as he gave one last thrust and released inside her coating her inner walls with his hot seed. She felt him fill her as his hand went to her clit and his thumb massaged the small bundle of nerves sending her over the edge as she came again, digging her nails into his back.

Elliot dropped his head gasping for breath as he lay on top of her their bodies coated in sweat. "I've nearly lost you twice now Liv in less than a year and each time I couldn't do anything to help, I can't go through that again. I couldn't take it." He lifted his head up to look at her. "I once told you a long time ago that you and the job were the only things I had left anymore…. Well now it's only you and my kids, I can live without the job but I can't live without you."

"But El…."

"No buts Liv, I thought about this most the night. I will go and talk to Gibbs see what he can do."

She knew she should talk him out of it but she couldn't do it. She had tried to be strong and independent; she had always proved she could do her job as good as the men she served with, but now. She wanted and needed him close to her. She wanted him to look after her and take care of her and for once in her life she didn't care how weak that made her look in other people's eyes.

"Okay," she smiled.

"Okay," he said dropping his head back against her neck as they held each tight.

9 month ago

"Hey where you been?" asked Brian as Olivia came in to the apartment.

"Just out walking…. Thinking."

"How did it go at the shrinks?" he asked her as he poured them a drink.

"Good….. Real good."

Brian just nodded as he walked past her and handed her a drink before sitting down and putting the TV on.

"Erm…. When I was out walking I decided that I need….. Well I could do with a few days away."

"Yeah," he said turning around. "Where we going? Somewhere hot by a beach would be nice."

"Not we…. Just me," she said taking a sip of her wine. She couldn't believe after everything that had happened at the beach house he actually thought a beach holiday would be a good idea.

"Right," he said turning back to the TV.

"Don't be pissed off," she said sitting down on the chair facing him. "I just think I need some time away from the city, time to think, time alone without everyone asking if I'm okay every five minutes."

Brian sighed "Fine if that's what you need, then go."

Olivia stood up and went into their bedroom and pulled a small case out and began to pack.

"So where you going?" asked Brian stood in the doorway with his arms crossed.

"To an old friend's," she said. "She lives in Washington," she told him only partly lying to him.

"You never mentioned a friend in D.C before."

"Yeah she's an old college friend she saw the news and got in touch asked me to go and stay."

Brian nodded and walked over to her as she bent over the bed and folded her clothes into the bag. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her back to him, kissing her neck.

Olivia jumped at his touch then froze unable to move or do anything as he sucked on the side of her neck.

"How about a little going away present," he smirked moving his hands up to her breasts and squeezing them. Olivia flinched and pulled away from him.

"Not now huh, I'm tired and just want to pack and have something to eat."

"Yeah, whatever," said Brian storming out of the bedroom.

Olivia took a deep breath and followed him "Where are you going?" she asked him as he grabbed his coat and put it on.

"Out for a drink, it doesn't look like I'm needed here."

"Hey, I'm sorry alright, I just….. I can't….. Not just yet."

"Well let me know when you're ready," he huffed before storming out the apartment.

"Shit," she cursed running her hand through her hair, before turning back to the bedroom to finish packing her few clothes.

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

"Morning Detective Benson," grinned DiNozzo jumping out the car and running around to open the door for her and take her bags from her.

"Morning to you Special Agent DiNozzo," she smiled back as he threw her bags in the trunk and she climbed into the car.

DiNozzo climbed in and handed her a coffee.

"Thank you," she said taking it from her.

"Yeah Stabler has said you could be a right grouch in the morning…."

Olivia looked at him raising her eyebrow.

"Or was it grumpy Bitch…. I don't know one of them, anyway I thought it best to bring a coffee."

Olivia sat in silence as they drove drinking her coffee. "So do you work with Elliot much?"

"Every now and then, he does a lot of the jobs working away, but I have worked with him a few times," he said glancing over at her. "Can I ask you something about him? I mean it might just be me or the fact he has hard couple of years, but he always seems a bit…"

Olivia smiled "Yeah he is always a moody bastard at work," she said cutting him off. "But don't worry you get used to it."

"Yeah don't know about that. Abby loves him and he is always joking with her, even Ziva. I just seem to annoy him…. I mean I don't get how."

"I can't think," laughed Olivia as the car pulled up to a gate to a small run way, and she saw a small jet waiting for them.

DiNozzo parked the car and turned off the engine. "Let's go," he said jumping out and running to the trunk to grab her bags.

"Do you want me to take them?" she asked him as he grabbed his own bag as well.

"No, no I'm fine Detective Benson."

"Okay, can we stop with the Detective part now its Olivia," she said to him.

"Okay Olivia, and you can call me Special Agent DiNozzo," he said walking away from her.

"What the hell," she said under her breath as she followed him. He stopped and looked over his Shoulder.

"Or Tony," he smiled. "Whichever you prefer?"

Olivia shook her head and followed him to the plane and up the stairs.

As soon as she set foot inside she was charged at by the girl Gibbs had called Abby the day before. Abby flung her arms around her and hugged her tight. Olivia couldn't do anything but just stand there and be crushed.

"I'm so glad you're alright, when we realised it was you…. Elliot's Olivia, it was just so awful. I feel like I know you already and if anything had happened to you," she said as she hugged her.

"Abby…." Said Gibbs from behind.

Abby let go of Olivia and spun around "Don't tell me not to hug her, she needs a hug after what has happened. Elliot would want me to hug her," she told him, standing with her hands on her hips, Gibbs raised his hands up.

"Okay…. I was just going to tell you to take your seat, we are about to take off."

"Oh right," she said grabbing Olivia's hand and pulling her to a seat. Olivia looked at Gibbs who just shook his head and shrugged his shoulders before sitting down opposite her and Abby.

"So," said Olivia once they were in the air. "We have an hour to kill, why don't you tell me some more about what happened with Elliot," she said to Gibbs.

17 months earlier

Elliot opened his eyes and groaned, he felt like shit, his head was pounding and he felt sick. He went to move when suddenly the urge to vomit came over him. He quickly reached down and grabbed the bucket next to him as what was left inside him came up.

"You're awake," said Gibbs coming in and sitting in the chair opposite him.

"You're still here," he said wiping his mouth.

"Catch," said Gibbs throwing Elliot a bottle of water. Elliot took the water and unscrewed the top taking a drink. He watched as Gibbs un wrapped a burger and began to eat. "Want some?" he asked Elliot holding the burger to him.

Elliot shook his head and tried to ignore the queasy feeling in his stomach.

"Why are you still here?" he asked him.

"I told you last night."

"Yeah and I told you, you could go to hell, I'm not going to Washington with you," he said taking another drink. "I don't your need your help….. it's good to see you and everything but I just need to be left alone. Dickie should never have called you."

Gibbs never said a word he just sat and stared at Elliot as Elliot stared back at him. He took a bite of his burger and looked at his watch.

"You have 30 minutes to get a shower and pack some clothes," he told Elliot as he stood up and began to walk away.

Elliot jumped up and grabbed hold of Gibb's arm.

"I told you last night I'm not fucking going with you," he snarled. "I don't need to go to Washington D.C to figure things out, I can do it right here and I sure as hell don't need a fucking baby sitter."

Gibbs shrugged his shoulders. "Okay," he said taking another bite of the burger.

"What that's it…. just Okay," said Elliot not quite sure why Gibbs was backing down all of a sudden when last night he basically ordered him to Washington. They had argued about it for over an hour. Pissed off and angry Elliot had downed half a bottle of whisky as Gibbs just watched him without saying a word. He had then passed out on the couch.

"I can't force you to come with me Stabler and let me help you. So stay here," he said reaching into a bag down by the chair he had been sitting on. He pulled out a bottle of unopened Vodka and threw it to Elliot. "Stay here and drink that," he told him. He then threw Elliot the gun he had been holding when Gibbs had arrived last night. "It's still got that one round in it," he told him.

Elliot just looked at him. "I wasn't…. I wasn't….I would never…"

"Yes you would. It might not have happened last night but it will if you stay here," said Gibbs taking another bite, before turning his back on Elliot and walking to the door. "I will wait for another call from your Son," he said without turning around.

"Dickie won't be calling you again," said Elliot.

"Yes he will," said Gibbs turning around. "He will call to tell me you were found with a hole in your head surrounded by empty bottles, maybe he will even find you. Or one of your daughters visiting with your younger son. But either way if you stay here and carry on like you are I will be getting another call."

Elliot just stood staring at Gibb's, he could feel his anger rising at his words.

"Suicide is a sin," said Elliot gripping the bottle and gun in his hands.

"Yes it is," he said before turning back and opening the door, slamming it behind him.

Elliot stood staring at the door the rage inside him building. He looked around the room at the photos of his kids and the one of him and Olivia.

"FUCK!" he yelled as he launched the bottle of vodka against the wall the bottle exploding. He dropped to his knees and buried his head in his hands as he cried.

Fifteen minutes later Gibbs finished his cup of coffee and threw the empty cup into a bag along with the burger wrapper and put the key in the ignition.

"You got everything you need?" he asked Elliot as he slammed the passenger door shut.

"Yeah," he said quietly, turning his head towards Gibbs. "Why didn't you leave?"

"Call it a hunch," said Gibbs.

"You really think you can help me?" he asked him his eyes red from crying.

"Only one way to find out," smiled Gibbs putting his hand on Elliot's shoulder.

Elliot nodded and looked out the window as Gibbs pulled away from the side walk.

Present day

They both sat looking up at the door to the station.

"You okay?" she asked him.

He turned to her and smiled taking hold of her hand.

"It should be me asking you that," he said as he raised her hand to his mouth and kissed it softly.

She shrugged her shoulders.

"It's your first time back her since Jenna, it's bound to hit you hard."

"I'll be okay," he looked at his watch. "Come on we best go or your gonna be late."

They climbed out the car and walked to the front. Elliot took hold of Olivia's hand as they walked up the steps into the building. Elliot looked around as they walked through the station. He recognised a few people some smiled most just stared at him.

"Feel like I have two heads or something," he said leaning in to whisper in her ear.

"It could have something to do with the fact you have been missing for three years, then just turn up walking through the station holding my hand, people are gonna be a little confused."

"Yeah I guess," he said as they stopped outside IAB's office. He turned her so they were facing each other. "You gonna be okay?" he asked her putting one hand on her waist and the other brushing her hair behind her ear.

"I guess knowing you're gonna be right out here waiting for me helps."

"Yeah well I'm not going anywhere," he smiled at her. He leant in and kissed her lips softly his fingers running through her hair.

"Sgt Benson," said a familiar voice from behind Elliot's back.

Elliot pulled back and cupped her face "I love you," he whispered to her.

"I love you to," she smiled at him.

"If you would like to come in we can get this over and done with," said Tucker.

Elliot nodded at Olivia and finally turned around to face Tucker. Tuckers mouth dropped open as he stood and stared at Elliot.

"Stabler!" he said as he watched Elliot put his arm around Olivia's waist.

"Tucker," said Elliot as both men stared at each other.

"Your back."

"So it would seem," said Elliot leaving loose of Olivia as she stepped towards the office.

"Don't go anywhere," she said to him.

"I will wait right here," he told her still staring at Tucker as she disappeared into the office as Tucker turned and followed her in. Elliot took a deep breath and sat down in the chair next to him. He dropped his head back and closed his eyes.

He sat forward and rested his elbows on his knees. He looked up at the clock Olivia had been in the office for almost an hour. He sighed and rubbed his eyes before dropping his forward and looking at the floor. A few moments later the door flung open and Olivia stormed out.

"Sgt Benson," said Tucker following her out. "Think about what I am saying."

Elliot stood up and went to Olivia.

"What's the matter, what's happened?" he asked her seeing her eyes were red from crying and she was still upset. "What the fuck did you say to her," he snapped at Tucker.

"Back off Stabler, this has nothing to do with you."

"Like hell it hasn't. Look at the state of her," he said wrapping his arms around her. "It's okay Baby, its okay," he said softly to her.

"They….. they want me to say I killed him," she said holding back the tears. "They want me to lie and say I pulled the trigger."

Elliot glared at Tucker "What the hell you trying to pull?"

"I'm trying to help her."

"How by getting her to admit she did something she didn't."

"Look all the evidence points towards Sgt Benson pulling that trigger."

"I don't care what the evidence says she didn't pull that fucking trigger, why the hell would you want her to admit that."

Cause if she says now that she pulled the trigger in self-defence, that she had no choice and that she did it to save the girl and herself, then that will be the end of it."

"But I didn't pull the trigger. I didn't shoot him he shot himself."

"Sgt Benson, I'm trying to help you here. They are going to try and say you went to Lewis with the intention of killing him. After your declaration on TV that you lied in court last time, they are never going to believe he pulled the trigger himself," said Tucker.

"I don't care," said Olivia walking towards Tucker and standing in front of him. "I didn't kill that bastard and there is no way I'm going to say I did."

"Fine," said Tucker turning away and going back into his office and slamming the door.

"Olivia, what's he on about….what declaration on TV?"

"It's nothing," she said going to walk past him.

"Hey stop," he said taking hold of her arm and turning her to face him. "Talk to me, what the hell happened?"

Olivia sighed and looked down to the floor. Elliot put his fingers under her chin and lifted her head. "What happened?"

Olivia took a deep breath. "Lewis said if I didn't publicly come clean and tell everyone I lied in court about what happened at the beach house he was going to kill the girl."

"Jesus," said Elliot. "So you done what he asked."

"Yeah, I didn't have a choice, but now it's out there that I lied under oath. And cause of that if it goes to court and they find me guilty of shooting him I could lose everything my job, my pension and I could end up in prison," she said as the tears flowed down her face.

Without a word Elliot pulled her to him and held her tight.

"That's never going too happened," he whispered into her hair. "You're not going anywhere cause of that bastard." His un wrapped his arms from her and cupped her face. "We will find a way to fight this," he said dropping his head to hers.

"I won't say I pulled that trigger, that's what he wants, what he wanted. I won't give in to him."

"I know Sweetheart, I know," he said kissing her softly before pulling her back into his arms.

"Olivia," said a voice from behind them.

Elliot let go of her and she stepped around him. "Hey Nick, Amanda" she said wiping her eyes as Elliot turned around.

Nick and Amanda both stared at Elliot as he put his arm around Olivia.

"I Erm, I don't think you guys have met," she said with a small smile. "This is…."

"Elliot Stabler," said Fin from behind them.

Elliot and Olivia both looked past Nick and Amanda to Fin.

"As in your ex-partner Stabler," said Nick. "The one who left without a word, and wouldn't answer your calls for three years."

"That exact one," said Fin glaring at Elliot.