Parts of this chapter are a little M rated. I am going to change the rating to M rated for the next chapter just to give people prior notice. I find it a little hard to hold back on some of the scenes lol.

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Sorry it took so long to update but I have been busy with work and family stuff.

Chapter 6

Olivia lay in her bath surrounded by bubbles. As soon as they had got home Elliot had ran the bath for her and lit all the candles to help her relax. He had left her alone to relax whilst he busied himself in the living room telling her not to come out and that he would come to get her.

She opened her eyes and sat up and grabbed the sponge from the side of the bath. As she washed herself she looked down at her wrists. They were still bruised and cut from the handcuffs Lewis had used. She gently washed them letting the hot water run over them.

Her eyes wandered over her body and the faint scars and burns that were still visible from the first time Lewis had her.

"You okay?"

She looked over to the door way to the bathroom. Elliot was stood there leaning against the door frame; he had changed and was only wearing a pair of sweatpants.

She nodded as he walked towards her and knelt down by the side of the bath.

"I don't know how you can even look at me," she said quietly.

"Because you're beautiful," he told her swirling his hand around in the water

"But look at the state of me," she said running her fingers over her chest lightly touching the scars. "There so ugly."

"No there not," he said moving his fingers with hers over the scars. "They are a reminder that you're still alive. I would rather look at these scars than visit your graveside," he said raising himself up and kissing the largest of the scars just above her left breast. "These prove you never gave up to him. You fought him and won Liv, and I love every one of your scars for that reason."

"I guess you're just as bad," she smiled her wet fingers touching the scar on the left hand side of his chest.

""Yeah," he smiled back at her. "I guess both our bodies have a story to tell." He stood up and got the towel before taking her hand and helping her from the bath. He wrapped the towel around her and pulled her into his arms.

"I love you Liv. I don't care about the scars you have. You are gorgeous and I love every part of you, just maybe some parts more than others," he grinned lifting the towel up and grabbing her ass cheeks gently squeezing them. He felt her chuckle against his chest.

"Your amazing do you know that," she said kissing his chest.

"I know…. You have screamed it a few times the last few months," he chuckled earning himself a slap on the back.

"You can also be an Ass," she smiled.

"Yeah but I'm your ass," he said kissing the top of her head. "And you love me."

"Yeah you are," she sighed as he held her tightly in his arms. "And I do."

"Come on," he said un wrapping his arms from around her and taking her hand and leading her into the other room.

Olivia smiled as they entered the room. He had pushed the couch back and made a makeshift bed of cushions and blankets on the floor, candles places around the room were their only source of light. Next to the bed on the floor was an ice bucket and a bottle of champagne and next to that the massage oil. Music was playing quietly in the background.

"All those years as partners and I never realised how much of a romantic your are," she said as he wrapped his arms around her waist from behind.

"I wasn't, you bring out the best in me," he said as he undone the towel and removed it from her. "Lie down," he whispered in her ear, his lips gently touching her ear.

Olivia turned in his arms and reached for the waistband of his sweat pants.

"Liv this night is for you," he said taking hold of her hands and stopping her from pulling his pants down.

"I know, and when you massage me I want to feel your naked body against mine," she said pulling her hands from his and pushing his pants down.

"Do you know how hard it will be for me if we are both naked," he sighed as he stepped out of pants. "I'm gonna want to make love to you…."

"That's what I'm hoping for," she winked.

"But Liv, I wanted to spoil you, and help you relax, to make you feel good ….this wasn't about me."

"So make me feel good," she said stepping away and lying down. "Do you want me on my back of my front first," she smiled as she propped herself up on her elbows and looked up at him. Her body glowing in the candle light.

Elliot looked down at his erection. "Jesus, down boy," he said under his breath making Olivia giggle. "Erm maybe its best you lie on your stomach first and I will do your back," he mumbled.

"Okay," she smiled turning over and lying on her stomach resting her head on her hands. "I'm all yours," she said wiggling her bum at.

"Did anyone ever tell you how evil you are?" he asked her as he knelt on the floor beside her picking up the massage oil.

Olivia jumped slightly as he poured some onto her back and into his hands as he straddled the top of her thighs. She could feel his erection pushing against her ass cheeks as he leant forward and began to rub and massage her shoulders.

"That feels so good," she mumbled as he worked his fingers into her aching muscles. "So good," she sighed as he slowly made his way down her back. He slid down over her legs and pushed them apart as he settled between them and massaged her feet first before slowly making his way up each leg.

He smiled when he felt her jump slightly as his hands moved to the inside of her thighs and his fingers brushed close to her pussy. She spread her legs a little wider for him as his fingers continued to move around her folds without actually touching her. He heard her moan as she moved slightly trying to make his fingers touch her.

He licked his lips as he noticed how wet she was becoming just from his touch.

"Jesus El, just touch me," she said to him as his hands massaged her ass cheeks and he ran a finger down between her perfect ass cheeks but stopping at her pussy.

He moved so he was hovering over her, his arms either side of her shoulders and dropped his head down so his mouth was slightly touching her ear.

"I am touching you Benson," he whispered as his now very erect cock pushed against her slick ass cheeks, slipping between them and rubbing against her wet pussy. She pushed her ass up to meet him and his cock rubbed against her clit.

"Hmmmmm that feels so good," she moaned as he gently lay his body over hers and sucked on her neck as they moved together, both their bodies becoming slick from the massage oil.

"Oh god El… I need you…."

"I know what you need baby," he breathed into her neck as he reached between them and guided himself into her as he spread her legs even further apart with his thighs as he filled her completely raising himself up slightly.

Olivia bit her lip as he entered her fully and he began to move slowly in and out of her, she pushed her ass up to meet his every thrust, "Oh baby," she moaned as she bit her lip as she felt Elliot's mouth licking and biting her softly across her shoulders as he moved gently inside her.

The only sound that could be heard was the music in the back ground and their breathing as they slowly made love.

Elliot heard Olivia sniff and her body slightly shudder.

"Liv," he said slowing his movements and resting inside her. "What's wrong?" he asked her as he realised she was crying.

"I'm okay," she sniffed.

"No you're not your crying."

"I'm just being stupid," she hiccupped. Elliot slowly withdrew from her. "No don't," she told him but it was too late as he fully withdrew. "I didn't want you to stop," she whimpered.

"Turn over," he said softly.

She sniffed again and wiped her eyes as she rolled over onto her back. She cupped his face with one hand whilst reaching between them with the other and taking hold of him and guiding him back into her.

"Why are you crying?" he asked her as they moved slowly together again.

"It's this stupid song," she told him.

Elliot listened to the music. "Against all odds, by Phil Collins makes you cry?" he smiled at her.

She gave a little nod. "When Cragen told me you weren't coming back…. This was the first song I heard in the car….. I just…. It's just, the words you know. I went home that night and listened to this damn song over and over as I got drunk and all I could think of was you and how you were never gonna come back to me. I didn't know how I was going to handle that. I got so drunk that night, I hated you so much for leaving me."

"Oh sweetheart," he said wiping the tears from her cheeks as he continued to move slowly inside her. "I was always coming back to you. It just took me a while."

"But I didn't know that…. Tonight is the first time I have heard this song since that that day. I guess it just brought back some things I would rather forget."

"I'm so sorry," he said as he pushed deep inside her. "I thought I was doing the right thing."

"You did, I know that now. You needed to sort yourself out first. But if you ever do that to me again…."

"I won't I swear to you, I'm not going anywhere. I'm never leaving you again."

He stopped moving inside her and kissed her softly biting down on her bottom lip.

"You can never promise that," she said to him as he released her lip. "We never know what might happen."

"Yes I can," he said. He lifted her up with him and she wrapped her legs around his waist as he moved so he was sitting up with her, still buried deep inside her.

"Nice move," she smiled. He smiled back at her before reaching under the cushion of the couch.

"El what are doing?"

"I was going to do this later after the massage, and before we made love, but that kind of didn't happen. But now seems the perfect time," he said as he opened the small box in his hand. Olivia gasped as she saw the white gold and diamond ring. "Olivia Benson, I love you more than I could ever say….will you marry me?" he asked her, as he looked up to her.

Olivia reached into the box without a word and took out the ring looking at it as tears fell down her cheeks.

"I would love to marry you," she said as the tears ran down her cheeks and she slipped the ring on her finger.

"Yeah," he grinned at her as she put the ring on.

"Yeah," she grinned back before he kissed her hard wrapping his arms tightly around her and holding her to him as she began to move on him and they continued to make love.

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

9 Months earlier

Olivia jumped awake and grabbed for her phone.

"Benson," she mumbled into it.

"Hey baby," said Cassidy. "Thought I would give you a quick ring before I left for work."

"Hi," she said turning onto her side, her eyes level with the photo of her and Elliot.

"Yeah, I err I hadn't heard from you since you left the other night."

Olivia sighed as she thought back to their argument. "You mean since you stormed out because I wouldn't have sex with you."

Cassidy went quite for a while.

"Yeah well it's hard you know….. it's been a while and… and I have needs…..."

"Jesus," she said quietly under her breath.

"I just, I feel like, like you don't care anymore."

"What the hell you talking about?" she snapped sitting up in the bed. "You think because I don't want to put out for you only a few weeks after I was assaulted and tortured that I don't care about you?"

"Christ Liv when you put it like that, you make me sound like a….."

"Like a what Cassidy?" she asked him getting more and more annoyed and pissed at him. "Like the grade A Prick that you are being."

"Look…."

"You worked Special Victims; you know what it's like when someone has been attacked. I need time. I don't need you putting pressure on me to fuck you because you have needs. I have needs to. I need a boyfriend that understands. I need someone that is there for me, someone to hold me and tell me it will be alright. What I don't need is someone who storms off in a little tantrum because I won't lie on the bed with my legs spread for him," she yelled down the phone, tears streaming down her face. Before he could speak again she ended the call and turned off her phone. She lay back down and hugged the pillow next to her and inhaled the faint smell of Elliot that was still there.

"God I need you so much," she said looking up at the photo of him. "I really need you," she sobbed closing her eyes.

An hour later she had showered and was sitting having a cup of coffee. She had been in Washington a few days now and had met everyone Elliot now worked with. She had spent a lot of time with Abby in her lab listening as she talked about cases Elliot had worked on. Gibbs had also told her how Elliot had sorted himself out, stopped his excessive drinking and finally got some help. He started seeing a shrink and got himself back into shape. It was a few months later that an opening came up in NCIS and Gibbs talked Elliot into applying. It was also around this time he finally saw his kids again. He had been in touch on the phone but wanted to wait until he was in a good place to see them.

Olivia's phone rang and she looked down at the caller ID. Seeing it was Brian she ignored it and took her cup to the sink and rinsed it out. She turned and looked to her phone which had finally stopped ringing. She knew she needed to go home and sort it out with Brian. As much as she felt at home here in Elliot's apartment, it wasn't her home. Her home was in New York, at the Special Victims with Brian. Not in Washington with Elliot's new work colleagues and friends, people she hardly knew.

She picked up her phone and typed in a message.

I will be home tonight we will talk then, Liv.

She sent it to Brian before turning off her phone, grabbing her coat and bag and heading out to the NCIS building.

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

"I can't believe you're going back so early," said Abby pulling her into a hug.

"I need to," she said hugging her back. "I couldn't stay here forever."

"I'm going to miss you," she said pulling a sad face.

"I'm going to miss you as well," she told her. "All of you," she said looking around the office. "You have all been so good to me."

"Yeah well, it was either that or get my ass kicked by Stabler when he returned," said DiNozzo. Ziva punched him in the arm. "Ow, what was that for?" he asked her grabbing his arm.

"For saying you were only nice to her cause of Elliot," she said glaring at him.

"I was only joking," he told her. "You didn't need to punch me." Ziva glared at him again before turning to Olivia.

"I will miss you," she told her. "At least when Elliot speaks of you now, I will know why he smiles so much."

"When's your flight?" asked McGee.

"I'm driving," she told them. "It's only a 5 hour drive."

"You sure you will be okay?" asked DiNozzo.

Olivia smiled at him "Careful DiNozzo it almost sounds like you care."

Tony stood up from his chair and hugged her "You know I do," he told her as she hugged him back.

"You need a lift to the Rental place?" asked McGee.

"No it's getting dropped off here," she smiled at him.

"You off somewhere Benson?" asked Gibbs coming down the stairs.

"Yeah, I decided it was time I should go back and start sorting out my mess of a life."

"You know you can stay as long as you want."

"I know, but I can't hide away here forever."

Gibbs nodded and smiled at her. "Well before you do you might want to stop by SATNAV on your way out," he told her looking up the stairs from where he had just come.

"SATNAV, why?" she asked.

Gibbs just smiled at her. "I think someone wants to talk to you again."

Olivia looked at him a little confused until it finally sunk in and a smile appeared on her face.

"Elliot?"

Gibbs nodded.

"How? He said it could be weeks before he was able link up again."

"I have my ways," he told her. He started to walk away. "You coming?" he asked her. Olivia looked at Abby who had a big grin on her face.

"Give him my love," she told Olivia.

"I will," she told her as she followed Gibbs up the stairs. She followed him into the secure room.

"You can leave," he told the young woman at the computer.

"Yes Sir," she said standing up and leaving the darkened room quickly.

Olivia looked at the large screen in front of her. It was still blank. Gibbs picked up a phone and pressed a number. "It's a go," he said before turning back to her.

"I will leave you alone to talk to him," he smiled at her before turning and walking to the door. Olivia turned to face the large screen. She wiped her hands on her jeans; she couldn't believe how nervous she was to talk to him again and how excited.

She stood patiently looking at the screen waiting for him to appear. After a few minutes nothing had appeared. She heard the door open behind her where Gibbs had left through.

"I think something has gone wrong," she said her eyes fixed to the screen.

"Yeah that sometimes happens," said the voice behind her.

Olivia stood frozen to the spot as she heard the voice. He body beginning to tremble. She bit her bottom lip as she slowly turned around fighting to hold the tears back. Her eyes focused on the floor. Once turned she slowly lifted her head and opened her eyes.

"Hi," he smiled nervously walking towards her.

"Hey," she replied as she watched him walk up to her.

They both stood staring at each neither talking. Olivia swallowed hard and lifted her hand up to his face and gently cupped it.

"Your back," she said quietly as her fingers brushed his cheek.

"Yeah," said Elliot. "Gibbs pulled a few strings."

Olivia nodded before bringing her hand back and slapping him hard across the face. Elliot's head snapped to the side with force of the slap.

"You Bastard," she sobbed before falling towards him and wrapping her arms around his neck. Elliot's arms went around her holding her tightly to him as they both cried.

"I should have come back sooner," he said to her.

She shook her head. "I should never have given up on you."

"You didn't give up on me Liv, I gave up on myself."

"I stopped calling and texting. I should have come to see you. But I was so pissed at you for leaving, I just gave up trying."

"I should have been there for you. If I had come back sooner, and got in touch with you….. Lewis would never….."

"Don't," she told him. "Nobody could have prevented what happened."

Elliot pulled back from her and lifted his hand wiping away her tears. "I would have made you blink your lights," he told her. "I would have checked on you," he said is voice cracking.

"You're here now that's all I care about," she said falling into his body as he held her tight. "I missed you so much."

"I missed you to," he whispered into her hair. "Every single day we were apart."

They stood in the darkened room just holding each other until they both finally stopped crying. Elliot pulled back slightly wiping his eyes, as Olivia done the same.

"Did the guys downstairs know you were here?" she asked him.

He shook his head. "No, only Gibbs and Director Vance." He told her.

"How did Gibbs manage to bring you home?"

"What Gibbs says goes," he smiled at her. "I didn't ask. All I cared about was getting home so I could see myself you were okay."

"When do you have to go back?"

"I don't know," he told her dropping his hands to hers and taking hold of them. "Gibbs said you were heading back to New York tonight," he said his voice cracking a little. "I know I don't have any right to ask you, and that you probably want to get home to Cassidy. But I was hoping you would stay a little longer. Ya know, so we could talk."

Olivia smiled up at him. "Wild Horses couldn't drag me away from here. I'm not going anywhere," she said wrapping her arms back around his waist and dropping her head to his chest.

"That's good to hear," he said holding her tight.

Elliot kissed the top of her head as they held each other; it was then that the realisation that they were holding each other came over Olivia. In all the years they were partners they had held each other twice, but never like this, they couldn't be any closer, and she didn't want it to end.

The door opened behind them and Gibbs came in.

"Sorry guys, but we need SATNAV back," he smiled at them.

"Sure Boss," said Elliot pulling away from Olivia.

"I guess everything is okay?" he asked them. "I mean I didn't hear any shouting or gunshots," he smiled.

"She got me with a good slap," said Elliot putting his hand to his face and rubbing where she hit him.

"You're lucky it wasn't a punch," she told him.

"Yeah I am," he said taking hold of her hand. Olivia didn't even try to stop him or pull away as he led her out of the office behind Gibbs.

"ELLIOT!" screamed Abby running towards them as they came down the stairs and flinging her arms around him.

"Hey Abby," he said hugging her.

"I'm so glad your home," she told him.

"Yeah me to," he smiled as she let go of him. "Where's Tony and Ziva?" he asked them.

"We just got a call," said Gibbs. "They have headed out to the scene; once McGee is done we are following them out."

"All done, Boss," he said hanging up the phone.

"All right lets go then," he said grabbing his coat.

"You need me to come?" asked Elliot.

Gibbs smiled at him. "You go home Stabler," he told him as McGee threw Elliot a set of keys, which he caught.

"She is downstairs waiting for you," he smiled at Elliot. "And I cancelled your rental," he told Olivia as him and Gibbs left.

"Well I best go to," said Abby hugging them both. "Glad you're staying now Olivia," she grinned as she bounced out the office leaving them both alone.

"You sure about staying?" he asked Olivia as he looked down at their joined hands.

"I'm sure," she told him squeezing his hand. "I just can't believe you are here," she said as he led her to the elevator.

"Trust me when I say I was just as surprised when I got the message to tell me I was flying home. I don't think I have ever moved so fast to get on that plane," he smiled at her as they got in the elevator. "And believe when I tell you Liv, if I had known what was going on with Lewis I would have got back sooner, I would have been there for you."

"I know you would El," she said leaning into him. "But in a way you were."

"What do you mean?"

"You were in here," she said tapping the side of her head. "But we will talk about that later," she said as the elevator stopped and the doors opened. "We have a lot we need to talk about."

Elliot led her out and stopped dead in his tracks. "There's my baby," he grinned. Olivia looked to where he was looking.

"That's yours," she laughed.

"Oh yeah," he smiled stepping towards the black and chrome Harley Davison and handing Olivia a helmet. She took it from him shaking her head.

"What the hell happened to my partner?" she asked him as she pulled on the helmet.

"I started having fun and living my life," he told her. "And that is what you are going to start and do. Life is to short Liv and anything can happen, you need to start living," he said climbing on the back and turning the key, roaring her into life. "You coming," he yelled over the noise.

Olivia nodded and climbed on behind him, wrapping her arms around his waist.

"Hold on," he yelled as the bike roared out of the garage as Olivia held him tight.

Present Day

"El."

"Yeah baby."

"Why tonight….. why now?" she asked him looking at the ring on her finger.

Elliot took a drink of his champagne and wrapped his arms around her and dropped his chin to her shoulder. They were sat on the floor naked after making love, twice. Elliot was sat with his back against the couch whilst Olivia sat between his legs resting her back against his chest as they drank champagne.

"You mean, did I ask you because of what happened with Lewis?"

"Yes…. No. I mean….. you didn't just ask me just because of what happened and because I said you couldn't promise not to leave again did you?"

Elliot chuckled against her shoulder and kissed her skin softly.

"Honey, I bought that ring the last time I was home," he told her. "I was going to ask you then, but I got rushed away on an assignment. I had it all planned, I was gonna take you out for a romantic meal and everything, it was all booked up. The ring has been hidden in your apartment the full time."

"It has?" she asked turning her head slightly to look at him.

"Yeah it has, I was worried sick you were going to find it. But I guess hiding it at the back of the cupboard with all the pots and pans was a good idea, it's not like you ever use them for cooking."

He grunted when she elbowed him in the ribs.

"Liv I asked you to marry me because I love you, as simple as that. I love you and want to spend the rest of my life with you. It has nothing to do with Lewis, my work, the kids or your work. I want to marry you because I want everyone to know you are off limits and your mine."

Olivia groaned when his fingers began playing with her nipples.

"Your my life Liv, you mean everything to me, you always have and you always will. From the moment you walked into the precinct and announced you were my new partner I knew there was something special between us. It just took me 15 years to finally admit that. Your everything to me Liv."

"Oh god El," she groaned as his hand slipped down over her stomach and two fingers slipped between her hot wet folds and began to stroke her gently.

"Don't ever doubt my love for you Benson," he said as he sucked on her neck and his fingers slid into her wet opening.

"Oh god baby," she moaned as he moved his fingers gently inside her.

"Why did you say yes?" he asked her.

"That's easy," she said as she moved against his hand. "I said yes because you made all my dreams come true. All I ever wanted was to be yours, but something or someone was always in the way. I have loved you for so long Elliot Stabler and I can't wait to be yours and to let everyone know I'm yours."

Elliot removed his fingers and took hold of her hips and lifted her up. She reached down and took hold of his cock and guided it into her as he lowered her down onto himself and he pushed up inside her.

"I have always been yours El, and I always will, and I never want to be apart from you again….. that's why…. that's why I am handing in my papers," she told him as she moved her hips in a circular motion her inner walls gripping him hard. "I can't keep putting myself at risk."

"Are you sure," he gasped as he took hold of her breasts and gently massaged them and squeezing her nipples.

"Oh shit," she moaned as he sucked on her neck. "Your all I need, as long as we are together….. god that feels so good," she said as she moved up and down his shaft. "I'm only happy when we are together, I don't need anything or anyone else baby…. Only you," she said her body shuddering as she came. She felt Elliot thrust once more before his hot seed filled her as he released into her over and over.

She relaxed back against his chest "I love you Elliot Stabler," she smiled.

"Partners for life," he said kissing her shoulder.

"Always," she said turning her head and kissing him softly on the lips.

Not too sure when I will be able to update this or my other story as I am going away for two weeks on Saturday with the kids I volunteer with for our annual camp, and I have been told there is little or no WIFI.

However I will be writing when I have some spare time and will upload it all when I return.

Keep the reviews coming, they make me smile.