Sorry for the delay in the update been really busy at work and I got a bit of writers block.

Hope it's worth the wait for you all.

Chapter 8

Present Day

"Hey Liv, Baby," he said shaking her arm gently to wake her up.

"Hmmm, we home?" she asked rubbing her eyes.

"Yeah were home," he smiled. He climbed out the car and grabbed their bags from the back as she climbed out the car. "You want to order some Chinese or something?"

"Yeah sounds good," she said wrapping her arms around him from behind. "But give us an hour or so first, I want to relax in the bath with my fiancé first."

"I think I can manage that," he said turning in her arms and dropping the bags as he wrapped his arms around her. "Maybe we could have a glass of wine as we relax, it's not like we have to be up early or be anywhere tomorrow," he said kissing her lips softly. "We can spend the whole day in bed, making up for lost time."

"Now that sounds like a plan," she said pulling his head down and kissing him deeply. Elliot turned them as they kissed so she was up against the trunk of the car and lifted her up sitting her on the car, their lips never parting.

"I can't believe I actually waited so long to feel your lips on mine," he said as they finally parted.

"I know how stupid we're we?" she smiled. "Of course it was your entire fault," she said smiling as she kissed him again.

"And how do you figure that one out?" he asked pushing himself up against her between her legs.

"Well," she said wrapping her legs around his waist. "You were married for a lot of that time."

"Yeah and when I wasn't you decided to hook up with ….."

Olivia put her fingers to his lips. "We both fucked up," she told him. "But we got here in the end."

"Yeah we did," he said dropping his head to her neck and sucking softly on her pulse as he ran his hands up her thighs squeezing gently.

"God that feels good," she sighed as he sucked her skin into his mouth. She used her legs that were wrapped around him and pulled him closer to her feeling his erection through his jeans. "I think we should get in before we get arrested," she said as she felt her panties getting wet and her pussy beginning to throb as he pushed against her.

"Mmmmm," he mumbled. "You could be right," he said pulling away from her a big smile on his face.

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Elliot and Olivia sat across from each other in the large bath their legs tangled in the middle and they drank their wine.

"This is nice," said Olivia only her head showing out from the bubbles.

"Yeah it is," he said quietly.

"What's wrong?" she asked him. She had noticed a change in his mood after she received a call from Fin saying Lewis's death was going to a hearing, to find out if Olivia was guilty of killing of him because of what the evidence showed, or if he had killed himself as Olivia had told them and which was the truth

"Nothing."

"Don't lie to me Stabler," she said rubbing her foot up and down his leg. "Spill it."

Elliot drank the rest of his wine from his glass and put it down.

"I just keep thinking about what might happen."

Olivia looked at him and sat up slightly.

"What do you mean?"

"This thing with Lewis, how they want you to admit you killed him."

"I didn't."

"I know Baby. It's just I'm worried that…that they might… the evidence, how it looks…. And I, I can't lose you again. I can't believe I am going to say this but, maybe Tucker is right. Just say what they want to hear."

Olivia dropped her head and looked down at the bubbles.

"You want me to lie and say I shot him in self-defence."

"I just don't think I could handle it if you…" he looked up at her not finishing the sentence.

"You think I might go to prison?" she said finishing it for him.

"It's just nothing is in your favour. You went on TV and admitted you lied in court the first time round about what happened….."

"I had no choice he would have killed the girl."

"I know it's just with that and along with the evidence they collected, I'm scared Liv."

"Lewis knew what he was doing. He planned it from the start. He knew he was going to die one way or the other, he wasn't going to be taken alive and he wanted me blamed for it. He wants me to admit I killed him even though I didn't, one last victory he will have over me."

Olivia's eyes never left Elliot as she talked.

"Just like he wanted me to admit he raped me when he didn't. He told everyone he had, and people actually believed him. I won't admit to doing something I didn't do. I won't let him win."

"Even if it means going to prison?" he asked her, unable to stop the tear rolling down his cheek.

"I won't let him win El, no matter what. I can't."

They both sat in silence.

"Okay, we do it your way," he said quietly.

Olivia moved forward in the bath and moved so she was sat on his thighs and her legs were wrapped around him and her arms around his neck.

"Thank you," she said kissing him softly. "Hopefully when they hear everyone's statements I won't have anything to worry about."

"Did Fin say when you have to give your evidence?"

"I'm not."

"What do you mean you're not? You have to Liv; you have to tell them your account of what happened."

"I didn't do anything wrong, I'm not going to sit in court and try and defend myself. They have my original statement to read out, nothing will change from that."

Elliot was about to say something when she reached between them and took hold of him massaging his semi hard cock.

"Once the verdict from the hearing comes out then I will decide what to do."

"We will decide," said Elliot as he felt himself harden under her touch and his hands gripped her ass cheeks. "We are in this together Liv, no matter what you're not alone, there is no I anymore."

"Okay, we will decide," she said as she raised herself slightly and guided him into her and she slowly lowered herself until he was buried fully inside her. "Until then I want to spend my time off with you and the kids. I don't want to think about him," she said as she rocked her body and Elliot pushed up into her. "I have let him ruin my life and my happiness for too long, it ends now. William Lewis is no longer going to control me, no matter what the outcome."

Elliot looked up at her and smiled "Okay," he said. "I guess I got my baddass Benson back," he said to her as he felt her inner muscles squeeze him tightly.

"No, not really the baddass, I just want my life back, and I can now I have you again. I finally have something to fight for, and I have you back beside me."

"Liv, I …." He said and then stopped as she slid up his cock before lowering herself back down gripping him hard.

"El in case you hadn't realised I want you to make love to me, enough of the talking," she said rocking against him. "The name William Lewis is banned from now on when we are naked."

"Okay," he smiled as he held her hips and began to lift and lower her up and down his shaft as his mouth went to her nipple and he sucked it gently into his mouth. "Do you remember the first bath we took together?" he asked her as they slowly made love.

"Of course I do, you were so gentle and sweet."

"It's just a shame that you were still with Assidy."

"El… do me a favour and shut up," she said crashing her mouth against his.

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9 months earlier

Elliot rolled over and reached out his hand falling on the empty space beside him. He stared up at the ceiling and smiled to himself. He had woken during the night with Olivia in his arms and hers wrapped around him as she slept. He had never felt as content and happy as he had right then. He had been hoping to wake up in the same position so he could hold her a little longer. He thought about all the times in the past when he had wanted to hold her and never had the balls to just do it.

He quickly sat up and rubbed his eyes before climbing out of bed and dashing to the bathroom desperately needing to pee. Without even thinking he pushed the door open and rushed straight in.

"Elliot!" yelled Olivia from the large bath quickly looking for a large towel as she used her arms to cover her breasts.

"Shit….fuck…sorry," he said not knowing where to look and quickly turning around. "I didn't think, I mean I thought you were…. Sorry I'm just desperate for a pee," he tried to explain.

"Well, just hurry up," she told him.

"You want me to pee when you're in the bath?"

"Well unless you have a better idea or you can make it to the other toilet," she said watching him dancing awkwardly as he tried to stop himself.

"Just… don't look," he told her turning to face the toilet.

"In case you hadn't noticed El. I'm the one sat in the bath naked. It should be me telling you that. And anyway it's not the first time you have peed when I have been in the bathroom with you," she said thinking of the times at the station when they would be so caught up in a conversation she would follow him to the men's room and just keep talking

Elliot quickly relieved himself, flushed and went to the sink to wash his hands keeping his back to Olivia at all times. As he washed his hands he couldn't help but look in the mirror. Olivia had her back to him as she sat in the bath. He looked at her reflection his eyes falling onto her back and he felt his anger rising inside and also felt sick, as the water flowed over his hands.

Olivia turned her head and caught him looking at her, their eyes meeting in the mirror. He didn't even try to look away and pretend he hadn't seen.

"There not as bad as they were," she said quietly.

Elliot swallowed hard and turned off the tap. He grabbed a towel and dried his hands before turning around to face her. They were both silent as he walked over to the bath and sat on the edge of the tub just behind her.

"Jesus Liv," he said as he looked at the healing cuts and burns on her back. "What the hell did he do to you?" he asked her as he raised his hand and gently ran his fingers over the cuts.

She shivered under his touch.

"It was a game to him," she said her voice just above a whisper. "He would look for different things to hurt me with. He said he was looking for his favourite and he would use that one to finally kill me."

Elliot's fingers made his way slowly over each and every burn and cut.

"My doctor said a lot of them will just fade away with time as they heal, but… but others won't. They will fade but not completely disappear."

Elliot's vision started to blur as the tears built in his eyes.

Olivia bit down on her bottom lip and she slowly turned around in the bath. Elliot lifted his head and locked his eyes on hers as she faced him, her knees pulled up and her arms covering her breasts.

"He smiled and laughed the full time he was burning or cutting me, he got so much enjoyment out of it."

Elliot lifted his hand and dropped his eyes as he ran his fingers over a burn that looked like a key just above her arms that were still over her breasts.

"It hurt so much," she said her voice trembling and tears running down her cheeks. "But I tried so hard to not to cry in front of him, I really did, even when he put salt on and in the wounds," she sniffed. "And then he got my weapon."

Elliot didn't speak as she took a deep a breath his eyes were now focused on her face.

"He, he saw the miniature badge you sent me. I Erm, I stuck it the hand grip," she said giving him a little smile. Elliot smiled back at her. "I always felt like you were with me then," she told him. "It made me feel safe, whenever I drew it out my holster, like you had my back."

Elliot just gave a small nod.

"Any way he saw it and somehow knew the number on it wasn't mine. He asked who's it was and I wouldn't tell him," she took a deep shaky breath and wiped her eyes. "He said it must be someone I care about otherwise I wouldn't carry it around with me. He … he said maybe I should carry it for ever."

"Oh Jesus," said Elliot as Olivia moved her arm down that was covering her left breast. There just above her left nipple was a burn mark that resembled the small badge; he could even make out his old number. Elliot touched the burn lightly as Olivia broke down and cried hard. She pulled her knees up further to her chest as she sobbed. Her body shaking.

Without even thinking Elliot stood up and climbed in the bath behind her still fully clothed. He slipped his legs down the side of her and wrapped his arms around her and held her tight as she cried.

"Ssshh its okay," he whispered. "I got you Baby, I got you," he told her. "I'm here now….. I'm here for you."

Olivia turned in his arms and rested her head on his chest wrapping her arms around his waist. She felt Elliot kiss the top of her head as she held her. She didn't care she was naked, and in the bath as she lay in his arms. She needed this, needed him.

She sniffed and wiped her nose on his t-shirt before lifting her head to look up at him.

"You okay?" he asked her.

She nodded as she reached up and touched the side of his face.

"I saw your face," she told him. "In my head, you were there telling me to be brave and to not give up."

"I should have been there."

"You were always there El, you were always in here," she said tapping the side of her head.

Elliot ran his fingers lightly over her face his eyes never leaving her face.

"I guess this is what they meant when they said we were to close as partners," he smiled.

"I guess," she said dropping her head back into the crook of his neck. Elliot kissed the top of her head as they just lay there.

"Liv," he said after a while when he heard her breathing change. "We should get out before you fall asleep on me."

"Okay," she said sleepily. She sat forward and Elliot climbed out dripping water all over the floor. He grabbed a towel and held it open for her. She stood up in the water and didn't make a move for the towel as she stood in front of him naked. Elliot couldn't help but look at her, his eyes roaming over her body and every cut and burn.

"I haven't let Brian see me fully naked," she said quietly. "I know it would disgust him, I mean it disgusts me."

He stepped forward towards her. "Olivia Benson you are beautiful, inside and out. There is nothing disgusting about you. And if Brian thinks that then he is a bigger idiot than I already thought he was."

"But look at me."

"I am looking, trust me I'm looking," he smiled. "And you are as gorgeous as ever, you always have and always will be. So what if you are left with a few scars. All that proves is your alive and you beat him." Elliot lifted the towel and wrapped it around her, as she looked at him.

"Liv, I have spent almost 6 weeks in the desert with only men. If I don't cover you up I am going to embarrass myself big time…. Even more than I already am," he said blushing as he glanced down at his erection that was pushing against his wet sweats.

Olivia's eyes followed his and she looked down. "Oh right….sorry," she said as her eyes locked on the bulge pushing at the front of his sweats, not leaving much to her imagination.

"No Liv, I'm sorry. I should be able to control myself. You need comfort and I get turned on."

"El I have been thinking, I am ugly and no one will want me or want to even look at me since everything happened not with all these cuts and burns….."

"Any man would be crazy not to want you," he whispered as he bit on his bottom lip.

"Thank you," she said back to him quietly. They both stood looking at the floor.

"Come on, let's get dry and I will make us something to eat," he smiled at her breaking the awkwardness and silence. "You take the bedroom and I will get changed out of these here," he said pulling at his wet clothes.

Olivia nodded and turned to the door walking towards it. She stopped and looked back at him. "I'm glad Gibbs came to get me," she told him. "And talked me into coming here with him."

Elliot just smiled at her as she walked out the bathroom.

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Elliot looked over to Olivia as they walked side by side through the park. She had been very quiet ever since the bathroom that morning. Often lost in her own thoughts. Elliot had wanted to ask her what was wrong but he didn't want to push her too much.

"You want to sit for a bit?" he asked her as they walked towards a park bench.

"Yeah sure," she said giving a small smile.

They sat down and looked over the lake in front of them.

"I need to go back to New York," she said to him.

Elliot just nodded. He knew she would have to go back at some point he had just hoped he would have a little time with her first.

"I need to try and work things out with Cassidy."

Elliot turned his head to look at her but still never spoke.

"Before everything happened things were good between us, you know," she said glancing at him. "I need to find out if that is still there. I care for him."

"Do you love him?" he asked her.

"El?"

"It's a simple question Liv, do you love him?"

"I don't know. But he was there for me for me for a long time and I owe it to him and to us to make this work."

They sat in silence for a while again.

"So when are you going back?"

"Today. I will book a car when we get back to your place."

"You don't need to," he told her. "I will drive you."

"You don't have to do that El."

"I know but I want to. At least I get to spend a little more time with," he said holding back the tears.

"Okay," she nodded staring back over the lake.

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Elliot reached over and gave her shoulder a slight shake. She had fallen asleep a while ago as they drove to New York. Elliot had spent the remainder of the drive looking at the road and Olivia. He knew she had to work things out with Cassidy and see how things were between them. He had been there for her when he wasn't. He couldn't expect her to leave everything just because he had come back into her life. He knew he had to give her time, no matter how hard it was for him.

"Liv," he said again. "You're almost home," he told her as she opened her eyes. She looked around and stretched.

"Sorry I can't believe I fell asleep again," she apologised.

"It's okay," he smiled at her. "So, what you going to tell Brian?"

She shrugged. "Nothing unless he really asks. He thinks I was visiting a friend I will just keep it at that. I don't think he would be very understanding if he knew I had spent the night with you."

"Nothing happened Liv."

"I don't really think Brian would see it that way. Do you think Kathy would see it that way if you two were still married?"

"I guess not," he chuckled. "Are you going to tell anyone you have seen have me?"

Olivia looked over at him. "Not yet," she said. "I want to keep it just me and you for now. I don't want a load of questions about what happened. I don't want everyone telling me to be careful and not let you get close again which is what would happen. Our friendship, this bond we have, is between you and me. I won't let anyone else spoil that. I need you in my life El and no one is going to tell me different or try and spoil that."

Elliot reached over and took hold of her hand. "Okay," he said as he pulled the car up outside her and Brian's apartment and turned off the engine.

"You sure you're going to be okay?"

She shrugged her shoulders. "Honestly, I don't know. But I have to give it a go."

"You know I will be here for you whenever you need me. And if I'm not here there is always Gibbs or any of the team. They have formed quite a soft spot for you," he smiled.

"I like them as well," she smiled. "I felt so relaxed when I was around them."

Elliot reached into his pocket and pulled something out handing it to Olivia.

"Here," he said releasing a key into her hand. Olivia looked down at it. "If you ever want to get away, you have somewhere to go, even if I'm away working," he told her.

"Thank you," she said fixing the key to her keys.

"I would say do you want me to walk you up, but that might not be the best idea in case Assidy is in."

"I guess not, and you need to stop calling him that," she smiled.

"I can't help it, it's what I have called him since I first met him," he told her.

She smiled and nodded as she sat playing with the keys on her lap.

"Liv, if you're not ready to be here I can drive you straight back to Washington or we could just go for a coffee."

"No I need to do this; I need to know how I feel. I will be fine," she smiled at him. Elliot reached over and pulled her to him hugging her tight.

"I love you….. You know that right," he whispered into her hair.

"I know and I love you to," she said back to him. "I have for so long."

They pulled back and Elliot cupped her face and wiped the tears from her eyes.

"You need to go," he said closing his eyes. "Because if you don't…. I might not be able to help myself for much longer and kiss you," he whispered opening his eyes and looking at her again.

Olivia just nodded and reached back opening the car door and sliding out from his touch. She opened the back door of the SUV and pulled out her bag slamming the door shut and leaning back against it. She let out a long breath as she tried to steady herself. The way he had looked at her, touched her and the way he had spoken to her. She walked around the front of the car to his open window. He was sat looking straight ahead.

"I will call you," she told him and saw him nod. She didn't move away from the side of the car. She put her bag down and reached into the open window and cupped his face turning it to her.

"Liv, its best that you just go," he said to her keeping his eyes closed. He knew if he looked at her again he would break and she didn't need that. He knew she was doing the right thing. She had to sort things out with Brian. He had no right to come back into her life and expect her to just fall into his arms.

"I can't," she told him.

Elliot opened his eyes and looked at her.

"I can't go, till I know what it's like to kiss you," she said quietly.

Elliot swallowed hard as he looked at her.

"Kiss me El."

Elliot reached down and opened his door. Olivia stepped back as he pushed the door open and he climbed out standing in front of her. He never spoke as he reached out and cupped her face and pulled her to him, his lips centimetres from hers. She could feel his breath on her lips. Her eyes dropped down and she saw his tongue lick his lips before he dropped his forehead to hers.

"This could really complicate things," he said to her.

"How can things get even more complicated?" she asked him. "I'm supposed to going upstairs to sort things out with my boyfriend and all I can think about is what is would be like to kiss you."

"Liv if I kiss you I'm going to want to do it again. I don't think I will be able to just kiss you once and forget about it."

"Please El just kiss me," she said again. "Kis…" before she could finish he pushed his lips softly to hers stopping her from talking, they both parted their lips slightly as they gently explored each other's lips. Their tongues touching lightly as Elliot's hand wound into her hair and he pulled her to him kissing her a little harder. They finally stopped the need for air becoming too much.

"I have wondered what that would be like for 15 years," she smiled at him her heart still racing, her lips still tingling, and she felt light headed as she looked at his lips wanting him to kiss her again.

"Me to," he said breathlessly. "Me to."

Elliot dropped his hand from her face and stepped back letting out a shaky breath.

"You should go in," he told her.

"But El…"

Elliot shook his head. "Please Liv, just go," he said opening the car door and climbing in. Olivia picked up her bag and turned away from the car. "Blink your lights when you get in," he told her finally turning his head and looking at her and smiling.

"I will," she smiled as she climbed the steps and entered the apartment block.

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Cassidy stood at the apartment window looking down into the street. He saw a black SUV pull up and stop outside. He raised his beer to his mouth taking a drink. He had got the message from Olivia earlier today to say she was coming home; he had been looking out for her. He was supposed to be going out for drinks but he thought it would be best he was here when she got home and tried to make some sort of effort.

He watched as the passenger door finally opened on the SUV and he saw Olivia climb out and open the back door taking her bag out. She leant against the car before walking around and talking to the driver. She put her bag down and reached into the car with one hand.

From this height Cassidy couldn't see into the car. He frowned and then moved forward leaning on the window as the driver's door opened.

"What the fuck," he said to himself as he saw Elliot climb from the car. He saw him raise his hand to her face and pull her head to him, they didn't move at first as though they were talking and then he kissed her. He felt anger building up inside him as he watched the two of them kissing.

"So much for the fucking Uni friend," he said as he watched them pull apart and Elliot climbed back in the car. Olivia turned and smiled at him as he said something before walking into the block.

Cassidy quickly walked to the kitchen and threw his beer bottle in the trash and headed for the bedroom. He quickly stripped down to his boxers and stood by the window looking down at Elliot's car. It was still parked there. He wanted to confront her, he wanted answers. But he also knew if he pushed her tonight for answers she would just leave, and there was no way he was losing her to Elliot fucking Stabler. Even if he didn't really want her, he wouldn't just hand her over.

He heard the door open to the apartment and her coming in and dropping her bag down. He turned towards the door and saw the light come on under the door then flick off and back on again and off. He looked back out the window and saw Elliot flash his lights before pulling away from the side walk.

He quickly climbed into bed and lay on his side just as Olivia opened the door to the bedroom. He kept his eyes closed pretending to be asleep. Olivia stood in the open doorway for a while before turning around and walking out closing the door behind her.

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Present Day

She threw the TV control down next to her and sighed looking at the clock. Elliot had left to go and see Gibbs just over four hours ago and she was bored waiting for him. They had been back in Washington for two days now and spent most of that time in bed and naked.

She heard the key in the door and spun around on the couch as it opened. "About time," she said as it opened. "I was getting bored without you….Richie!" she said jumping up.

"Guess you weren't expecting me," he laughed.

"Not for another day or so," she said walking over to him.

"Yeah, you don't mind do you? I mean I know you guys probably want some time to yourselves. But I had to ….. I mean I just wanted to see for myself you were okay," he said blushing slightly and looking down at the floor. "Dad told me you were but, I saw the news and everything, and…."

"I'm good," she told him reaching out and holding his hand.

"I would have come sooner, I tried everything to get away and get back to New York, to get to you but I couldn't." he looked up at her with tears in his eyes. "I wanted to be there for you cause Dad couldn't."

Olivia stepped forward and pulled him into her arms. She felt his arms wrap around her waist as he held onto her and she felt his body shaking.

"I was so scared watching everything on the news. Knowing he had you again," he sniffed. "Knowing what he done last time to you."

"Ssshh it's okay," she told him. "It's all over now, he is dead," she said as she held him. She looked up as she saw the door opening behind them and Elliot walked in. He stood silently watching Olivia holding his son as he cried.

"Everything okay," he mouthed.

She nodded slightly and held up her hand Elliot backed up out the door closing it slightly behind him and stood in the corridor leaning against the wall giving them time to talk as he listened.

"Why did you go to him Liv?" he asked pulling back wiping away his tears. "Why put yourself in danger like that?" Olivia could hear his sadness turning into anger as he spoke. "You knew what he was capable of and yet you went to him, he could have killed you."

"I didn't have a choice," she said to him trying to reach for his hand as he stepped back from her and away from her touch. She could see he was hurt and upset and just like his dad he was showing it by getting angry.

"Yes you did and you chose to put yourself in danger….again. You didn't think about anyone else or how it would affect us."

"Richie…."

"You never thought about Dad or us, how do you think we would feel if something happened to you?"

"I had to go to him, he had the little girl, and he threatened to kill her."

"And what if he had killed you Liv!" he yelled. "Rumour has it he made you play Russian roulette."

Olivia's eyes widened. What had happened in that factory had never been released fully to the Press, especially that part.

"Is it true?" he asked her looking her in the eye. "Did you put a gun to your head and pull the trigger."

"Where did you hear that?" she asked him.

"It's all over the internet; it seems there is a leak in your department. The NYPD is trying to say it never happened. But I want to know… did you put a gun to your head and pull the trigger!" he yelled.

Elliot listened to his son yelling at Olivia, he pushed off the wall and walked to the door getting ready to go in if he was needed. He could understand Richie being upset but he wouldn't let him push and upset Olivia.

"Well!"

"Richie… I … You need to calm down."

Richie walked up to her and stood right in front of her. "Did you put a gun to your head and pull the trigger?" he asked her again his voice just above a whisper.

Olivia looked at him with tears in her eyes.

"Richie please, you don't need to know what happened."

"Yes I do. I need to know how close we came to losing you. I need to know how close we were to losing dad again. Because if something had happened to you, it would have torn him apart. It would have torn all of us apart….. Did you put a gun to your head and pull the trigger."

"Yes," she whispered. "I put the gun to my head and pulled the trigger."

Richie stepped back and leant against the wall, taking deep breaths.

"And all I could think about each time was how I might never see your Dad or you kids again. But I knew I didn't have a choice. If I hadn't pulled the trigger he would have. He would have killed the little girl and then me. I done what I had to do to save that girl, I couldn't let her die."

"Even if that meant we lost you…. Jesus you and Dad are so fucking selfish," he said glaring at her.

Elliot snapped his head to face the door as he heard his son speak.

"You both put yourselves in danger. Dad going off on oversea jobs, you going after a guy you know wants to kill you. Do either of you ever think about what it does to us kids?"

Elliot pushed the door open and stood in the doorway, not speaking.

"The girls all come to me when they are scared and worried and I have to be strong for them. I have Lizzy calling me in tears every time Dad goes away in case he doesn't come back. Every time I hear on the news of a cop involved shooting I panic until I know you're okay. It's bad enough that you and Dad do a dangerous job without you putting yourself in even more danger," Richie stood in front of Olivia as he spoke he hadn't realised his Elliot was behind him. "I know for years you thought it was just you, that you had nobody who would miss you but you were wrong. All us kids love you Liv your part of our family and we always cared for you, even if we didn't always show it. When dad walked away from you and the job 3 years ago it hurt us just as much, we missed you being there. You saved Mom and Eli in that crash, you saved dad I don't know how many times. You were there for Kat and me when we got into trouble. You have always been there and we have always needed you. You have been part of our lives since I was little. I can't remember a time you weren't there."

Olivia stood rooted to the spot as he let it all out, the tears running down her face.

"How could you go after Lewis knowing what he wanted to do? Did you even think about how we would feel if something was to happen to you, how it would affect us…..? You can't keep doing this to us, we don't want to lose you Liv," he stepped forward and took hold of her hands. "We are your family and you and Dad need to stop putting yourselves in danger all the time."

"I'm so sorry," she said to him reaching up and wiping his tears away. "I promise you from now on I will be more careful," she said pulling him into a hug.

"That's what Dad used to always say when he was a cop, but he still went out there and put himself in danger. I thought when he left the force things would get better, but look what he does now. He was shot in the chest less than 5 months ago and he is back out in Afghan already."

"But I won't be going back there," said Elliot from behind him.

Richie sniffed and turned around to face his dad.

"How long you been stood there?" he asked wiping his eyes.

"Long enough," said Elliot walking over to his son and pulling him into a hug. "I'm so sorry," he told him hugging him tight.

Richie nodded and pulled back slightly from him. "We all just want the two of you safe you don't need to prove anything anymore. You have done your part, all those people you helped and saved and looked after. Its time you for you both to step back and let someone else do it now."

"I know," said Elliot. "That's why I went to Gibbs this morning. I'm no longer on oversea assignments."

"You're not," smiled Olivia.

"Nope," he said shaking his head. "In fact Gibbs is looking into me going to Quantico as an Instructor, so I won't even be in the field anymore."

Olivia flung her arms around his neck and held him tight. Elliot looked at Richie who was stood with a huge smile on his face.

"That sounds great Dad," he grinned. "That just leaves you now Liv."

Olivia turned in Elliot's arms and rested back against his chest as he wrapped his arms around her waist and his chin on her shoulder.

"Well, me and your Dad have talked quite a bit since what happened and I have decided to hand in my notice," she saw the smile reappear on his face as she spoke. "I'm going to look for a job working with the victims, helping them get through the court cases and just being there for them if the need someone."

Richie flung his arms around both of them and hugged them "Thank you," he said holing them tight.

"Erm…. Guys, a little space please," said Olivia her voice muffled as they squashed her between them.

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Olivia looked over to Richie who was asleep on the chair and snoring softly.

"You know he acts and looks so much like you," she said to Elliot lifting her head of his chest and looking up at him. "He has grown up so much over the last few years."

"I guess he had to, he had to look after everyone when I wasn't in a fit state to. I just never realised how hard it was on everyone doing the jobs we do."

"Me either. The hurt and anger I saw on his face today, I never want to put him or the other kids through that again. They should be enjoying life, not worrying about us two."

"Yeah," he said running his fingers through her hair. "And we need to start enjoying life as well. Start making up on all those years we missed out on," he said before kissing her lips softly.

"Sounds good to me," she said as she moved on top of him and continued kissing him, moaning into his mouth.

Richie opened his eyes and saw them kissing making him smile.

"And that's my cue to go to bed," he said standing up as Olivia stopped kissing Elliot and turned to face him.

"Sorry," she said blushing a little at being caught.

"Don't be," he grinned as he walked past them. "See you both in the morning," he yawned.

"Night son."

"Night Honey."

Richie stopped walking as he was about to leave the living room. "Can I ask you guys to do one more thing for me?"

"Sure," said Elliot turning his neck to look at him.

"I left my headphones down in the car, could the two of you keep the volume down. It's like sharing a room on campus with two horny teenagers when you two get going."

"Jesus," said Olivia dropping her head to Elliot's chest and going bright red as Richie left the room chuckling to himself. She felt Elliot laughing under her.

"It's not funny El, we are never having sex again if the kids are here," she said putting her hands on his chest and pushing herself up.

Elliot put his hands on her hips to stop her.

"Yes we are," he told her. "You're just gonna have to learn how to be quiet," he grinned.

"Oh really and what makes you think it's only me Richie was on about?"

"I've heard you remember," he said as he sat up and lifted her t-shirt and dropped his head taking her nipple into his mouth and sucking the hard little bud into his mouth swirling his tongue around it.

"Hmmm baby," she moaned.

"Ssshh Liv," he whispered. "No noise remember," he said as he slipped his hand into her sweats and panties, his fingers slipping through wet folds easily to her centre and he pushed two fingers into her.

"Fuck," she whispered. "We shouldn't be…... not here, bedroom now," she ordered him as she began to ride his fingers.

"I though you said no more sex if the kids were here," he chuckled as his thumb swiped over her clit.

"Aaah," she gasped at his touch.

"Quietly baby," he whispered as he pushed a third finger into her. "Nice and quiet," he said as she ground herself onto his hand taking him as deep as she could. She knew they should stop and move to the bedroom, but she was so close, she just prayed that Richie wouldn't come back out for anything.

"That's is baby, come for me," he said quietly. "You're so wet, so hot," he whispered into her. "Come around my fingers, you know you want to."

Olivia dropped her head to his shoulder and bit him hard as she came. Elliot resisted the urge to cry out as she sunk her teeth into him, as her juices flooded over his hand. She lifted her head and looked at him grinning.

"You're a bastard you know that right," she said as he removed his hand licked his fingers clean of her juices.

"Yeah I know," he said as her mouth crashed against his.

"Seriously guys, take it to your room," said Richie going into the kitchen. "I'm gonna need therapy at this rate, there are just some things a kid should not see," he said grabbing a bottle of water and heading back to his room.

Olivia bit her bottom lip and smirked. "That was a little too close," she told him. "Now let's do as he said and take this to the bedroom, I need to practice a bit more at being quiet for when the rest of the kids get here."

Next up the rest of the kids arrive and they head off on vacation. And we find out what happens with Cassidy.

Hope everyone is still enjoying it, and don't worry the NCIS will still be featured in the story just not as much.

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