Chapter 17:
"Walk Away"
"I'm Blaine."
Those words made Kurt's heart stop. His head was spinning and he felt like he was going to hit the floor. Instead, his jaw did. He stared open mouthed at Blaine for a few moments. Blaine couldn't cope with the way Kurt was staring at him right now. "Kurt?"
Kurt's mouth quickly closed again and a strange mumbling noise spilled out of his mouth. Yep, he was speechless alright.
"Kurt? I'm sorr-" but Blaine couldn't finish his sentence because Kurt had lunged forward, grabbing the sides of Blaine's face and connecting their lips in a fierce kiss. He wasn't thinking. He was letting his instincts take over.
Blaine wasn't really thinking either. He was just feeling. Feeling Kurt. Feeling the large amount of love and adoration... and obsession. He grabbed hold of Kurt's small waist and pulled him closer. His left hand trailed upwards, slowly caressing Kurt's back. The other hand was being a bit more adventurous and going lower and lower, just resting about his butt. 'Oh god, that ass...' Blaine couldn't help the pervy thoughts that were charging through his mind at this moment.
They were getting impossibly closer with every movement of their lips, feeling the sparks igniting in their hearts and stomachs.
That was until Kurt's eyes snapped open. He realised he was kissing Mr Anders. And then the scenario went to hell. He pushed back out of Blaine's grasp and away from his lips. "Oh god." Without another word, he turns on his heels and charges out of the room, his face flushed.
Blaine was left standing confused, strangely happy and quite turned on. He screwed up. Big time. And with that thought, he slumped down on one of the chairs and let his head drop down onto the table.
Sebastian was sitting in the library on his phone. He was texting a few other boys he knew who he could set up a few... 'Nighttime activities' with. That's when Kurt's text came through. 'Where are you?'. Sebastian rolled his eyes and tapped out a response, indicating where he was in the library. A few moments later, a crying Kurt came through the door and into a now standing Sebastian's arms. The lighter-haired man's face remained blank as he held the crying brunette in his arms.
"Oh, sweetie, what's wrong?" The green-eyed boy asked, his voice also blank. Emotion was obviously not present.
"Just the fact that apparently Mr Anders is... Just... And you aren't... I kissed him and he.. It felt so..." Kurt's words were broken up by dramatic sobs.
Truth is, Sebastian stopped listening as soon as Mr Anders's name was mentioned. He was now scared shitless. "That's lovely..."
Kurt pulled back and looked hurt. "That's lovely?! Are you kidding me?!"
For what felt like the billionth time that day, Kurt turned and walked quickly away in anger.
Kurt felt confused and hurt. He couldn't deny what he felt when Mr Anders and him kissed. It felt perfect and right. When he kisses Blaine, it feels strange and kind of wrong. Well the latter surely didn't care. He just told him that he kissed another man and he doesn't even care. Kurt was going to sort this out and get to the bottom of this. Starting tomorrow. He was going to go back and talk to Mr Anders. But first, he was going to talk to Sam. He needed someone to talk to who wouldn't hold this over him forever but understand and give some advice. Hopefully. As he dialled Sam's number on his phone, he tried to form what this conversation would be like in his head to make sure he wouldn't be wasting their time.
"Kurt, hey, what's up?" Sam's voice came ringing through.
"Hey Sam. Um. I was wondering if I could talk to you about something."
"Of course man, shoot."
The glasz-eyed boy was about to spill the whole story, but he held himself back. Instead, he opted for the question he really wanted answered. "Well... When you met Mercedes. How did you know she was... The one?"
"My name was written on her wrists for one..."
"I mean, when you kissed or touched... Did you know?"
There was a slight pause on the other end and Kurt could almost feel the smile on Sam's face radiate through the phone.
"Yes. It's hard to explain but you just... know. It's like nothing else matters or exists but you and them. You feel whole."
A smile graced Kurt's face. "Thanks Sam."
"You're welcome man. I have to go though, practice calls."
"Bye."
And with that, they both hung up.
Kurt was positive.
He felt that way with Mr Anders.
He needed to talk to him.