I'm ashamed of myself for not uploading anything for so long. I'm sorry, really. I've had the first part of this chapter written for ages, but somehow I just couldn't finish it. I forgot about it and BAM, almost a year has passed. A lot of things have happened during that time.. school, work etc. And I'm actually on an exchange right now... to Bristol! Yes, England, my dear readers. And then I thought.. what better way to broaden my vocabulary and knowledge of the English language... yes, by writing.
I wrote this extra long chapter as a peace offering to you guys. Please enjoy it and give me your thoughts on it. I haven't really checked it on grammar, so I hope it's not too bad. I was just too excited to post this. I really like the last part ;)
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Chapter 6: 'Happy birthday, Sasuke.'
That night Sasuke avoids Itachi as much as he can. Or at least, that is the feeling Itachi gets. The younger Uchiha doesn't say a word to the older one when he and Dastan get back. Sasuke's cheeks keep having a faint red color on them for the rest of the evening, turner darker when the similar dark eyes of Itachi meet Sasuke's by accident.
When they get back to the cabin Kisame is completely wasted, as is Deidara. Itachi feels a bit of a buzz, but still knows what he's doing and Sasuke has sobered up. 'Fuck man, I swear I'm gonna bang those chicks this week.' Kisame's words come from his mouth in a slur. Deidara puts an arm around the drummer. 'Yeah, then I'm going to fucking join that shit!' Kisame pushes the bassist away from him. 'Fuck no, they're mine! I'm not gonna share, man.'
Itachi and Sasuke stand still side by side, both not saying a word and keeping their eyes focused on Kisame and Deidara, not wanting their gazes to cross. 'Fuck, I'm going to bed. See ya, 'Tachi 'n Sasuke.' Kisame grabs Deidara's wrist and tugs him along to the bedroom. The blonde struggles at the grip and almost hits the furniture on the way multiple times.
The Uchiha brothers keep standing in the living room. Sasuke turns his head to the left to look at his older brother. Itachi quickly locks his eyes with Sasuke's and sighs. 'Let's go upstairs,' he quietly says and starts walking to their shared bedroom.
Both Uchihas take a seat on the edge of the bed and Sasuke is the one to start speaking. 'Look, Itachi..' but that is the only thing he says, not knowing where to begin. The older Uchiha puts a hand on Sasuke's shoulder and faces him. 'I know you saw me seeing you with that guy and I want you to know I don't mind you being gay or bisexual for that matter,' Itachi tries to reassure his younger brother.
'I'm gay, not bisexual,' Sasuke admits, his eyes casting down. 'How long have you known?' Itachi asks him as he puts an arm around his shoulder. Sasuke looks down to the hands in his lap and fumbles with the fabric of his jeans. 'I don't know.. two years maybe.'
'Okay. You know you could've told me earlier.' Sasuke sighs at the words of the Uchiha. 'I was scared, because of the reaction you might have.' 'Sasuke,' Itachi says firmly, 'I'm your brother. I will always support you no matter what. As will Kisame and Deidara. They are our friends, our band members, I think you can call them our family even. They won't mind.. and I definitely don't mind.' The raven squeezes his shoulder and gives him a genuine smile. 'Do you want to tell the others?' he asks. 'Yeah. Telling them can't be compared to telling you. You are the most important for me. So your reaction matters the most to me. It's just.. the way you found out.' A dark blush creeps across Sasuke's face. Itachi swallows nervously, the thought of the arousal he had while seeing his brother's pleasure filled expression still in the back his mind.
Sasuke buries his now tomato-red face into his hands. 'Oh God, I feel so embarrassed.' The brothers sit on the bed for a while, Itachi's arm still on his younger brother's shoulder. Sasuke gradually relaxes in Itachi's arm. 'I'll tell the others tomorrow,' the younger Uchiha says softly. 'On your birthday,' Itachi states. Sasuke looks up and gives Itachi a lopsided smile. 'Yeah, on my birthday,'
Sasuke's smile makes Itachi feel warm inside. It looks like the younger raven isn't scared anymore, but perfectly comfortable with himself being gay. The boy had known for two years, but he didn't tell Itachi earlier. That particular fact bugs Itachi a bit. Itachi and Sasuke had have had a very close relationship since they were young. They would do everything together, as their parents died when Sasuke was only 4 years old. They were suddenly orphans. The brothers were sent to an orphanage. There Itachi took care of Sasuke. They wanted to place the brothers in separate foster homes, but the brothers didn't want to be taken apart. So they stayed in the orphanage until Itachi's eighteenth birthday. After that Itachi found a place of his own and took Sasuke with him as well.
'Thanks for making me feel better,' Itachi suddenly hears the softly spoken words and snaps out of his thoughts. 'That's my job, Sasuke. I'm your brother.' The two brothers share a moment where they both smile widely at each other. They decide to go to bed, as it is quite late already. The brothers get under the covers and wish each other goodnight.
'Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you!' Sasuke hears an annoying voice singing the lines very out of tune. He grimaces and opens his eyes. Deidara is sitting on the edge of the bed he and Itachi are sharing with a big smile. Itachi and Kisame are standing next to the blonde. 'Sasuke! Happy eighteenth birthday. You're legal now.' Deidara gives the younger Uchiha a wink when he says this. Sasuke smiles at the words. 'You can pick up hot girls now, hehe!' The smile on his face fades. 'Uhm, actually.. There's something I need to tell you guys.' Sasuke looks Itachi in the eyes. Itachi notices that Sasuke is feeling uncomfortable with outing himself to the rest of the band. 'What's up, yeah?' Deidara scoots a little bit closer to the younger Raven.
'I'm gay,' he blurts out.
Deidara's and Kisame's eyes simultaneously widen in shock. They definitely did not expect this to be coming from the Uchiha's mouth this morning. Itachi on the other hand keeps his face calm and gives his little brother a reassuring nod. 'Well, shit,' the drummer says, the shock still evident on his face. Deidara's face goes from shock to understanding. 'Oh, Sasuke!' The blonde throws himself upon Sasuke and hugs him tightly. 'That's so cute!' Sasuke is surprised by the reaction. 'I.. uhm.. what?' He looks around the room, a confused look on his face. The bassist gives Sasuke a smirk. 'I have the perfect birthday present for you in my mind right now! Besides the other one I'm going to give you, of course. That's also a pretty awesome present.' 'Deidara, what the fuck are you thinkin'? The boy is outing himself to us and you're already plotting something.' Kisame says. Deidara's smirk just grows larger and he shakes his head as he lets go of Sasuke.
'So Sasuke, we all bought you a present. Let's start with mine.' The blonde hands over a big present, wrapped quite clumsily Sasuke can see. 'Open it, open it!' The raven tears open the present, not too eagerly. Inside there's a box full of different types of beer. 'A selection of the best European beers' is written in a big font on the box. 'So, I thought since you are legal now and stuff, that you should develop a good taste of alcohol.' The raven smiles at him. 'Thanks.'
Kisame hands over a package as well. Inside there's a new microphone. 'I thought I'd buy you a new one, since the other one's dying. According to the guy in the shop it's the best of the best. Hope ya like it, kid!' 'Thanks, it's awesome. I really needed a new one.'
Last but not least, it's Itachi's turn to give his gift to Sasuke. Itachi brings out a small wrapped box. He slowly hands it over to his brother. Sasuke carefully takes it from him and removes the wrappings. It a plain dark blue box. And when the raven opens it slowly, his eyes lit up. 'Oh, wow.' Inside there's a silver necklace with a pendant in the shape of the Uchiha crest. 'It's beautiful,' the raven says softly. Itachi smiles at the softly spoken words. 'I'm glad you like it, Sasuke. Here, put it on.' Sasuke turns around and Itachi helps him to close the necklace around his neck. The older Uchiha puts both his hands on the other's shoulder for a few seconds when the necklace is put around the neck of Sasuke. Sasuke slowly turns around to face his brother, but looks down at the necklace around his neck before he gives the older raven a somewhat of a sad smile. The Uchiha crest reminds him of their parents. It reminds them both that they miss them immensely. Itachi's hands linger for a few seconds on his brother's shoulders before he slowly removes them.
The rest of the day goes by very quickly. They have breakfast together at the cabin and after that they decide to go into the city. There they go to the movie theatre to see a horror movie. Not one of Sasuke's favorites, since he doesn't like horror movies at all. He's more of a comedy kind of guy, but Kisame insists on going to the horror movie even though it's Sasukes's birthday and was supposed to choose a movie. During the movie, Sasuke sits close to his brother, not really enjoying the image of cut-off heads in front of him. Itachi just mocks him for the fact that he is scared by some fake blood. The raven next to him gives his brother a glare, but stays close anyway.
After they movie they go to an Italian restaurant to have dinner. Sasuke orders his favorite: Pasta with tomato sauce and basil. The other band members get a different kind of pasta. Sasuke is particularly fond of tomatoes and will try to eat anything with tomatoes if they eat out. Itachi feels like he has eaten enough tomatoes for a lifetime by the way Sasuke always wants to eat something with tomatoes at home as well, and therefore the brothers made an agreement to only eat it once a week.
They finish their meal and Deidara suddenly stands up from his chair. 'Okay, now it's time for my secret surprise.' The blonde grins stupidly in the direction of Sasuke. 'I wanted to take you to a strip club, but because of your little confession this morning I thought of something else!' Sasuke raises an eyebrow at the man's words. Itachi joins his younger brother in the gesture. 'And that might be?' Itachi asks the blonde, not trusting him for one bit at all. The grin on Deidara's face only grows larger. 'A gay bar!'
The bandmembers enter the gay bar. Deidara has an evil grin on his face. Kisame is just being his normal self. Sasuke is nervous as hell, as this is his first time ever going to a gay bar. But who might be ever more nervous than the singer, is his brother Itachi. After seeing Sasuke and that guy, he can't get the image out of his head. He's afraid that something like that will happen tonight as well. The raven tries not to show his nervousness as they pass the security guy, who even gives the older raven a wink.
They hear the music becoming louder and louder as they pass the wardrobe section. Deidara is up in the front, leading the band to a mess of hot, sweating bodies.
The club has a large dance floor in the middle of the room. Bars on the left and right side. Men are dancing, slowly grinding onto each other in sync with the beat. People are sitting at the bars, having a chat with a few drinks. Even though that seems almost impossible with the hard music being played.
The men take a seat at one of the bars. Deidara winks at the bartender. "Can we have four shots of the best alcohol you have?" He points at Sasuke. "It's his birthday." The bartender smiles at the young raven and makes the shots for group. "Here you go, boy. Fireworks specially for you," The bartender gives Sasuke his drink and grabs a lighter to put it on fire. "Drink it with the straw quickly," he informs. Deidara raises his glass. "To Sasuke!" And the rest of the band follow him.
Itachi is feeling a bit uncomfortable in the bar. He's never been to a gay bar before, let alone with his own brother. Somehow it just feels strange being here and knowing these men are probably drooling all over his younger brother. And hell, Sasuke is probably drooling over them as well. He quickly covers his head with a hand, as he feels a short sharp sting, but as soon as it is on his head, he quickly puts it down. 'Damn,' he mutters quietly. Sasuke looks up and locks his eyes with Itachi's as soon as he hears the inaudible words of his brother. The other bandmembers don't seem to notice anything.
A set of onyx eyes meets another and stay still for a few more seconds. Itachi then tries to reassure the vocalist with a small upward motion of the corners of his mouth. Said vocalist gives a quick nod of his head, showing he understands that he should not question Itachi about it. It was Sasuke's night after all and Itachi didn't want to spoil it for him.
Deidara's hand on Sasuke's shoulder stops the little moment between the two brothers. 'Okay, let's get us another drink, huh? Barman, four beers please!' The night continues like this, the band members sitting at the bar, drinking and laughing at Deidara's jokes. Sasuke's is really feeling the alcohol. He lost count at his fouth beer of the evening and his vision is starting to get a little bit blurry. He's not really used to alcohol, unlike the rest of the band.
He stands up from his chair and faces the dancefloor. The other band members notice the movement from the younger Uchiha and Deidara, who is sitting next to him, quirks an eyebrow. 'What are you doing?' Sasuke turns around, with a huge smile on his face. 'What do you think? I'm going to dance of course!' Apparently the amount of alcohol gave the younger Uchiha a bit more confidence and he disappears in the crowd of dancing men. 'Hey, wait up!' Deidara runs to catch up with him and leaves Kisame and Itachi behind.
Kisame slowly turns to the older raven and smirks at him. 'Do you think we should join, 'Tachi?' The Uchiha closes his eyes and sigh. 'Hn.' The big man chuckles at the reaction. 'Thought so, dancing in a gay bar as a straight man is fucking dangerous.' They both turn around in their chairs to face the dancefloor, happy with just looking (and for Itachi keeping an eye on Sasuke) at the two other band members.
'So, what do you really think of all this?' the drummer asks. 'Think of what?' 'You know what I mean, Sasuke coming out and all.' Itachi sighs at the words of the drummer. 'I don't know what to think, to be honest, Kisame.' Kisame nod his head. 'I can understand that. I felt a bit sudden.' 'I understand what you're saying. I mean, I didn't even had any idea that Sasuke was gay.' The corners of the Uchiha's mouth turn up a bit. 'But I'm glad he told me.' Kisame nods for the second time and both of the men decide it is the end of the conversation and turn their attention back to the crowd in front of them.
Sasuke and his newly gained alcohol induced confidence apparently work out really well for him. He is dancing with his hands up in the air, gaining a lot of stares of the other men around him. The younger raven has his eyes closed and his mouth is smiling as his hips sway in sync with the music. He soon gets the attention of a fairly good looking man, Itachi estimates him to be around thirty years old, with blonde hair. The man gets behind his little brother and put both of his hands on the side of his hips as he pushes himself against the raven. Sasuke doesn't seem to think anything of it at all and just continues swaying his hips. The man behind him starts to follow the same rhythm as the raven and pushes his groin a bit closer to the raven's backside. A small smile plants on Sasuke's face as he pushes his ass into the man's groin.
Itachi's eyes are wide open now, his hands tightly grabbing the top of his thighs as he is looking at the display in front of him. He can't believe what he's seeing, and he is not happy with any of it at all. 'Are you seeing this?' Kisame chuckles at the hard tone the Uchiha is using. 'Let the kid have some fun, Itachi. It's not like the guy is raping him or something. Relax.'
The dancing, no grinding, continues and gets a significant increase in temperature as the hands on his hips slowly go up and then back down again. Sasuke's head slowly falls back to the man's shoulder and he crooks his neck a bit to look at the unidentified person behind him. As soon as his eyes fall on the man he smirks. Yes, definitely approved. The blonde gives back a smirk and his hands slowly glide to the Uchiha's ass, maintaining keeping the eye contact. And the man gives the raven a small squeeze in his backside.
And Itachi is up from his chair, striding towards his little brother. No, he cannot watch this going on. This is too much for him. Being ok with his brother's sexuality is one thing, but seeing this happen in front of his eyes is another. The man was groping him, for fucks sake.
And Itachi is just.. So. Fucking. Jealous.
It came as a shock, really. He was just sitting there, watching his brother dance. Though he would probably never admit he secretly likes watching his brother dance and swaying his hips to the beat. Then that man came, his hands on his brother. And then something just snapped inside of him.
Itachi is the one that should be dancing with him. Itachi is the one that should put his hands on the younger one's hip. Itachi is the one that should put his groin against that damn fine ass. Itachi is the one that should be touching his brother in THAT way.
And as he is standing in front of his brother, ignoring the confused look on the younger raven's face, with his hands on his shoulders, looking straight into those beautiful onyx eyes, he is utterly confused. Devastated. These thoughts.. should not exist. They are forbidden. Disgusting. But he can't put them away. All he wants is his brother to himself. He instantly puts his arms around Sasuke's shoulders and hugs him, because, oh, he just wants to feel that body against him.
'Itachi?' a confused whisper comes from the vocalist, his vocals almost seeming not to be available at the moment.
Itachi pulls back and looks into the slightly hooded eyes of his younger brother. The man behind them was long gone, he didn't want to interfere with what seemed to be the raven's boyfriend. 'Itachi?' the raven says again as he didn't get any response at the first time saying Itachi's name. The raven's confused look turns into a smiling one. 'Do you want to dance with me?' he asks and this time it is Itachi's turn to looked confused. 'I.. uh.' It is just so unlike him to stumble on his words, but he feels excitement, bravery and maybe the alcohol in his blood is speaking as he answers 'Yes, I would love to.'
It starts out all shy, Itachi slowly swaying his hips on the beat. The younger Uchiha a little bit more confident because had been on the dancefloor for a while. The brothers are not touching in anyway, keeping a few centimeters between them. But to Itachi it just feels like he is flush against Sasuke. Heat is radiating from that body opposite to him, and he is liking every minute of it. A heavy bass R&B song comes on and the dancing turns slightly more sensual as Itachi gained some confidence. He keeps his eyes fixated on the face of his brother as he watches the raven dancing with his eyes closed, fully enjoying the music.
It is Sasuke that takes the first step. He closes the space between his brother and him and their chests are touching lightly. The sudden move surprises Itachi, but the smaller Uchiha gives him a reassuring smile that Itachi returns. Two small hands are put on the guitarist's shoulders. They continue dancing like that till the song ends. And as another song starts, the vocalist turns his body around so that his back is facing Itachi's front. The younger Uchiha seems to get lost in the music, while the older one's senses are sharpened by the move. They are not touching, but that ass is so close to his groin it is killing him. And when he feels the organ in his pants twitching slightly he knows it is time to stop this madness. The guitarist hastily recoils backwards, bumping into the crowd, and halts all of his movements. The younger version of himself notices the change and turns around, a frown on plastered on his face.
'Itachi?' No answer. 'Itachi?' Still no answer. 'Itachi?!' And the older brother shakes his head and comes out of his deep thoughts. 'Yes?' 'What's wrong, Itachi?' Sasuke ask, now concerned about his brother's lack of reaction. 'I think it's time to go home, Sasuke.'