A/N: So…Today is my birthday (Sept. 12th) and what better way to celebrate than with a little bit of a lemony twist!? My thanks again to all who are reading, following, reviewing, and adding my story to your favs!

This chapter also touches on some hard stuff at the beginning. If you are sensitive to sexual assault please skip Rose's story.

This is my first lemon…so yeah. LoL.

Surviving is mine, Twilight is not.

BPOV

"Stop apologizing Bella." Rose huffs into the phone. "I've told you a thousand times that you could call me anytime. Day or night."

"I know. I just feel awful. You should be sleeping. Alice will be at your door in less than two hours. I should have talked to you while you were still here. Maybe after we finished dessert I could have…"

"BELLA!" Rose yells into the phone, effectively stopping my rant. "This won't be the first black Friday shopping trip I've had with little to no sleep. Hell, last year we went straight from the table to standing in line for some dumbass video game she just had to get for Jasper."

I let out a breath. "Okay…I need your help."

An hour later Rose is sitting on the end of my bed two bags in hand. "I swear if you thank me one more time I'm going to snap!" she laughs.

"Sorry." I smile.

"Did you shower? Take care of shaving and all that jazz?" she asks as she digs through the bags. I nod and sit down next to her.

"What's all this?"I nudge the bags.

"Don't start. These are just some things I don't wear anymore." She looks up and meets my eyes. "You might have to get some of it hemmed, but the tops, dresses, and shorts should fit you well."

"Thank you Rose."

"What the fuck did I just say?!" she laughs again and I throw my hands up in surrender.

"Alright…what will make Edward drool?" She starts pulling clothes out. "We need to find the perfect 'I'm trying, but not trying to seduce my boyfriend' outfit."

"I'm scared." I admit to her as she holds up a very short dress.

"Did Edward ever tell you why we moved from Texas?" I shake my head and grab one of the tank tops off the bed.

"I was an early bloomer. By the third grade I was already coming into my 'womanly body'. I was only eight and felt like the odd man out. All the girls picked on me and the boys would make stupid jokes." She pulls her legs onto the bed and turns so she's facing me.

"Jasper got into a lot of fights that year. He spent more time in the principal's office than the classroom. He always knew when something happened with me…must be our twin connection." She laughs and wipes a tear away.

"I was very shy and lonely and our teacher, Mr. Hall," she sneers when she says his name. "Would always try to make me feel good about myself. ' Rose your paper was great!', 'Rose you're the smartest girl I've ever taught!', 'You are going to break so many hearts in high school, just keep your head up.'"

"I thought he was the greatest teacher in the world. Jasper hated him from day one. I should have listened to him. My brother is very good at reading people. Always has been." I grab her hand and feel my own tears begin to fall. I know where this is going and there's nothing I can do to stop it.

"One day after the lunch bell rang Mr. Hall asked me to stay back, said he wanted to discuss my essay. Jasper refused to leave and I had to physically push him out the door. Told him to grab me some lunch and I'd be right there."

"Mr. Hall told me to take a seat and I thought I was in trouble. He sat on the edge of my desk and I instantly felt that something wasn't right. He was sitting too close…looking at me strangely." She takes a deep breath and lets it out. "I looked down, letting my hair fall in my face, trying to figure out how to get to the lunch room…to Jasper."

"He pushed my hair back and told me I was beautiful. That all the other girls were just jealous and they would never hold a candle to me. I stood up and told him I needed to get to lunch. He walked to the door and turned the lock. To this day that sound echoes in my head." I release her hand and grab the box of tissues off my desk.

"Thanks." She wipes her nose. "I backed away as he stalked towards me. I felt my back hit the wall and I was trapped. He stopped right in front of me and started playing with the zipper on my hoodie. Asked if I knew how to lick a lollipop. I started to cry and shake. I told him not to touch me. I slapped his hands away. That just pissed him off."

"He grabbed my shoulders roughly and pulled me to him. He took a step backwards and sank into a chair, pulling me onto his lap. I remember I just kept telling him to stop. To let me go. He put his lips on my neck and started kissing."

"My shaking intensified and he mumble, 'See honey you like it. You're trembling with desire'. He put his hands on my chest and I snapped. I balled my fist up and punched him in the mouth. He jumped up and I fell to the floor."

"I tried to scream but he put his hand over my mouth. Told me I'd 'better shut my fucking face' if I knew what was good for me. His other hand went for my pants and he started to unbutton them. I bit his hand and he slapped me. Hard. So hard I saw stars. He had started to pull my pants down when the door was kicked open."

"Jasper was standing there and his eyes took the scene in. He crossed the floor in two strides and tackled Mr. Hall. He got on top of him and started punching him over and over. I had never seen my brother like that before. The rage just poured off of him, you could feel it thick in the air."

"The noise must have alerted someone because the next thing I knew Jasper was being pulled off of Mr. Hall and the nurse was wrapping a blanket around me. Time seemed to stand still and yet it flew by. You know what I mean?" I nod and grab her hand again.

"The cops came. The paramedics were called. Mr. Hall was taken to the emergency room. Jasper had managed to knock out a few teeth, break his nose, and a few of his ribs, which caused some internal bleeding."

"When my parents showed up my mom pulled me into a hug and cried with me. My dad was furious. He threw his name and military title around, talked about lawsuits, about how they better be lucky Jasper had already put him in the hospital." She laughs. "My dad was beaming when he talked about the number Jasper did on him."

"He took us out of school that day. He demanded our files and said his lawyers would be in touch soon. When we got home he pulled me into his arms and cried. I had never seen my dad so much as shed a tear and there he was sobbing into my hair. He kept apologizing over and over. Telling me we would have justice."

"A few months later Jasper and I were lying in my bed, watching a movie when my parents came into the room. They told me everything would be up to me. They asked what I wanted to do. I told them I wanted to leave Texas. I didn't have friends or school. I hardly left my room. I was always depressed."

"The place I once called home now felt like a prison. I wanted a fresh start somewhere new. My dad went to work the next day and requested a transfer. Within the month we were on our way to Forks."

"Going to school that first day I wouldn't let go of Jasper's hand. At lunch Alice, Edward, and Emmett came up and introduced themselves. Emmett's size made me move closer Jasper but when I looked over he was smiling at him. I felt myself relax and from that day on we all became inseparable."

"When Emmett asked me to the eight grade dance I was ecstatic and nervous. He gave me my first kiss that night." She smiles and dries her tears. "When we moved beyond kissing I was scared as hell. I was worried I wouldn't be enough for him. Wouldn't please him. That I would get a flashback and ruin everything."

"Emmett already knew everything that had happened. He was so gentle, so patient. He always asked if I was sure, if I was okay. He would tell me over and over that we didn't have to do anything yet. I fell more in love with him."

"I know how you're feeling Bella, because I felt it too. But believe me when I say Edward will treat you right. I knew it from the moment he lost his cool at the mall when you were attacked." She squeezes my hand and smiles at me. "He loves you and would never hurt you intentionally. If he ever does, let me know and I'll kick his ass!" She laughs and just like that she's back to the Rose I know and love.

"Alright enough with the heavy shit. Alice will be here in twenty and we still need to pick something out." She stands up and grabs a pair of white shorts and a dark pink tank top. "Here try this on. The tank has a built in bra so that will be one less thing to worry about." She winks.

I know how lucky I am to never have been put in a situation quite as extreme as hers. My mom blocked as much as she could. I throw my arm around her. "I love you Rose."

"Love you too." She hugs me back. "Now go. I want to see how hot you look before I leave."

"Bella dear, why are you up so early? Having trouble sleeping?" Esme asks stepping into the kitchen. "OH! Rose! You scared me. I thought we were picking you up."

"Figured it was easier to meet everyone here." She says handing her a cup of coffee.

"The Holy Grail." Esme laughs and takes a long drink.

"Alice just sent a text saying she'll be here in five." Rose puts her cell back in her purse and grabs her coat.

Esme frowns. "She is going to get an earful about texting and driving."

I grab a travel mug and pour her a coffee to go. "You are a godsend Bella!" she takes the mug and puts her empty cup in the sink as Alice honks her horn.

"Doesn't that girl know the kids are sleeping?" Carlisle walks into the kitchen and drops his bag on the counter heading for the coffee. "Make that my kid." He laughs. "You change your mind about shopping with them?"

I shake my head and he laughs harder. "Smart girl. Alright, I'm off. I should be home for dinner but if you or Edward need anything before that just give me a call." He grabs his bag and gives Esme a kiss before he heads out the door.

"Please remind Edward about the decorations for me." She hugs me and follows Rose out the door. "I have my phone if you need me." She says as the door closes.

The house is quiet as I make my way back to my room. My stomach full of butterflies as I change into the tank and shorts. I felt a bit uncomfortable showing Rose. It's more like a second skin than an outfit, it's so tight. She assured me I was 'fucking hot' in an 'oh this old thing? I just threw it on' kind of way…whatever that means.

I give myself a once over in the mirror and head for Edwards room before I lose my courage. I slip in, close the door behind me, and take a moment to admire Edward while he's asleep.

Everything about him is so handsome. From the way his hair falls across his forehead to the way his chest slowly rises and falls with every breath he takes. I still can't believe this man loves me.

"Edward." I say softly. He begins to stir but doesn't wake, so I try again.

"Edward." He rolls over and turns on his lamp. He sits up and his eyes find me.

"Bella…" He trails off as his eyes roam my body. I hold my breath, waiting for him to continue. "You're breathtaking."

And with those two simple words my nerves are almost nonexistent. 'Thank you Rose!' I give her a mental high five.

I climb onto the end of his bed and crawl towards him. "How did you sleep?" I ask as I stop right in front of him, sitting back on my heels.

"Fuck Bella. You…you can't wear that, crawl up my bed like you did, and then ask me a question like that." He runs a hand through his hair. "My mind is not on my sleeping habits at the moment."

"Where is your mind Edward?" I bite my lip and look up through my lashes.

He squirms around and looks up at the ceiling, like he's thinking about what he wants to say. I take advantage of his distracted state and straddle his lap.

"God Bella." His hands grasp my hips; eyes searching mine. He must find what he's looking for because he moves suddenly and I'm lying beneath him. His body hovering above mine, his lips capture mine and then move down to my neck.

It's not enough this time. "Edward." I moan as his tongue licks across my collarbone. "Touch me…Please." I beg him.

He pulls back. "Are you sure?" I nod and wiggle beneath him. He moves from above me and lies down on his side. He scoots closer to me and pulls my leg onto his hip. He leans forward and brings his lips back to my neck.

His hand runs up and down my leg. Each trip he brings his hand higher and higher. "Bella." He whispers against my skin; turning so I'm laying on my back again.

"Please Edward."I can feel wetness between my legs. My body craving friction.

"I want you Bella." He looks up and meets my eyes again as his fingers trace the waistband of my shorts.

"Is this okay?" he asks as he begins to pull them down slowly.

"Yes…Please baby." I pant as he pulls them completely off.

His hand makes its way back up my leg. He nudges my thighs apart with his knee. "You're beautiful Bella."

His fingers dip under my panties and slide into my folds. My hips jerk and I moan loudly as his fingers move to my clit.

"You're so wet Bella." He groans and slips a finger into me. "So fucking tight."

"Ugh…Edward." I beg as he moves his finger in and out. "More…Please."

Suddenly he withdraws his finger and sits up. I whimper at the sudden loss. "I need to see you baby. I need to taste you." He pulls my panties down and I feel his eyes on me. I feel my face heat up and my knees close.

"Don't." He grabs my legs and pulls them open again. "Do you have any idea how sexy you are? What you do to me?" He asks.

I shake my head. He moves so he is covering my body and I can feel his weight on top of me. He thrusts his hips against mine and I can feel everything.

"You make me so hard baby." He thrusts again and I call out his name.

He moves slowly down my body until his head is between my legs. "Can I taste you Bella?"

I nod, unable to speak. He presses his tongue flat against me and takes a long lick. My hips buck and he holds them down. "Easy baby…I'm just getting started."His tongue circles my clit and he puts one of his fingers back inside of me.

"Fuck…Edward." I bite my lip as he curls his finger, hitting a spot that makes my legs shake.

"That's it baby. Let go. Give it to me." He says before he sucks my clit into his mouth. I feel a tightening sensation.

"Edward…Edward…Edward…" I mumble over and over as I get closer. When I feel him bite down gently on my clit, my body explodes.

When I come down from the high I feel him remove his finger and kiss his way up my body. "Are you okay?" he asks, his face above mine.

"More than okay." I pull him down and kiss him, not caring that I can taste myself on his lips.

I push him until he's lying on his back and I straddle his waist again. My hands go to his belt and I start to undo it. "You don't have to Bella."He says as he grabs my hands.

I take his hands and put them on my chest. "I want to Edward." I say as I grind myself on his lap.

His head falls back and I arch my back. "I love you." I say as my hands go to his belt again. I make quick work of his belt and zipper. I move back and tug his jeans and boxers down at the same time.

His cock springs free and I freeze. I've seen a few naked men before but he's bigger than any I've ever seen. It fascinates and frightens me at the same time.

Sitting on my knees beside him, I reach out and grasp him. Edward moans and covers my hand with his own. He guides my hand up and down slowly, showing me what he likes.

Once I get a rhythm going he lets go and watches my hand on him. The moans that escape him cause the wetness to pool between my legs again. I love that my hand is bringing him pleasure.

I use my thumb to spread the liquid on the tip of his cock. I run my palm across it and use it to lubricate him.

"Faster baby." I move my hand faster, my other going to his balls. I squeeze him and his eyes roll back. "Fuck Bella, I'm gonna cum."

"Cum baby…cum for me." His cock jerks as he cums all over my hand. I keep moving until he becomes soft.

"I love you Bella." He pulls me down and kisses my lips softly. He rolls off the bed and heads into the bathroom. I hear the sink turn on and then off.

"Here sweetheart." He holds out a wet rag. "Sorry." He looks embarrassed.

"Don't be. I enjoyed it." I giggle, cleaning up.

He pulls his boxers on and climbs back into bed. "How does a nap sound?"

I nod as I yawn. "Sounds perfect." I go to stand up but he pulls me back down.

"And just where do you think you're going?" He laughs.

"Um...to my room?" It comes out as a question.

"I'm not quite ready to let you out of my bed just yet." We lie down and he pulls me to him. "I love you." He kisses the back of my head.

"I love you too Edward. Always." He turns the light off and I drift to sleep in his arms, happier than I've ever been.