Chapter 6
This is quite a short update, I started writing it and was planning to make it a long one so I could make it my weekly update, but while I was writing had another idea that I want to do this week, so thought I may as well put this up, though it's probably not all that great as like I said was going to be a lot longer x
It was a Friday and Rosie was with her head of year, she'd got into quite a lot of trouble that week for various things however it was only when her head of year pulled her and in and started giving her a telling off, that she realised how angry Rosie seemed about it all, but this was quite unlike Rosie, she'd got to know her quite well over the last few weeks and had really helped her settle in and although she struggled in some of her lessons she seemed like a really nice girl
"Do you like it at this school Rosie?"
Rosie shrugged her shoulders and stared at the ground
"It'd be nice if you would actually dignify my questions with an answer"
"It's okay"
"Well from what I've seen and been hearing about you, anyone would get the impression you don't actually want to be here"
"Well then they'd be getting the wrong impression miss"
"Is that so?"
"Yes it is" Rosie said
she hated being in here, especially when she was in trouble, even though she knew after this week she more than deserved everything that her head of year and form tutor had said to her.
"Well you've got lots of friends, most of your teachers say very nice things about you so what I don't get is why you'd want to misbehave"
"I think the teachers here are very good at blowing everything out of proportion, I haven't even be that bad"
"That's not what I've heard, and I think you'll find the teachers in this school are remarkably good at keeping things in proportion, unlike a lot of other schools I've worked in"
Rosie stared at the ground again starting to feel really uncomfortable
"Can I go now miss smith?" Rosie asked
"Yes but you can expect a phone call home tonight, I can ring your mum or dad take your pick"
"Well my mums dead, and my dad's banged up so why don't you take your pick" Rosie Said before storming out
As soon as she left miss smith put her head in her hands, she couldn't believe she'd completely forgotten about Rosie's circumstances, it had just slipped her mind.
In the end she decided to call Rachel, who wasn't best pleased when she heard about everything.
By the end of the school day Rosie really didn't feel like going home as she knew miss smith would have called home, it was a shame joe was away with work as she was sure that he wouldn't be as harsh on her as Rachel was going to be.
Rosie was meant to be meeting Rachel in the car park like normal but she really didn't want to face her today, so decided to go for a little walk around.
About 15 minutes passed and Rosie knew she should probably head to the car, Rachel had tired to ring her about 10 times on her new mobile, so she knew she must be worried and as scared as she felt she realised she'd have to go home some time, so sighed before going I to the car park.
Unsurprisingly it was pretty empty by now so it was easy to spot Rachel's Mazda. Rosie sighed before walking towards it and then getting in
"Hey where the hell have you been" Rachel asked angrily the second she got in
"With teachers"
" I know all about what's been going on this week and I'm not one bit happy"
"I thought you'd be delighted" Rosie muttered however she wasn't quiet enough for Rachel not to hear her
"And you can cut out the cheek, I'm not having it"
Rachel had noticed that recently Rosie had become a lot cheekier with her, although in some respects Rachel knew this was because she felt as though she knew, she was going to stay at Rachel's forever and nothing would change that and Rachel was glad to see her feeling more relaxed, she knew she'd have to stamp it out before it became a real issue.
"We're going to talk about it at home, now out your seat belt on"
"Why can't we talk about it now" Rosie asked just wanting to hear whatever she had to say
"Because I need to drive"
"You can't just take a teachers word for everything" Rosie said tears beginning to form in her eyes
"So is it not true then?"
"Well yes but .."
"Fine question answered" Rachel said
Tears began to roll down Rosie's cheek, she hated being in trouble especially with Rachel.
They drove to Jans house to pick lily up, but neither of them said a word while they drive there.
"Stay in the car I'll be 5 minutes" Rachel said
She knew seeing Rosie's tear stained face would equal a load of sympathy with jan, as she knew how much she hated seeing a kid upset but that would mean Rachel would get a load of ear ache about being to harsh on Rosie and she'd finish up getting away with it Scott free.
A few minutes later lily came out however she didn't look too happy either.
"Why are you in the back Rosie?" Lily asked as normally Rosie would get in the front with Rachel
Rosie shrugged her shoulder not wanting to explain
"Are you feeling a bit better now lily?" Rachel asked as when she'd first seem her she'd been in tears cuddling her mum, as she'd had an argument with one of her friends and she'd felt really upset about it.
"I'm okay" lily said
"Well I'm glad about that, and come Monday you'll have both forgotten all about it"
Lily then looked at her sister and realised that she'd been crying
"What's wrong Rosie?"
"Nothing"
"Why have you been crying?"
"Leave me alone" Rosie said
Lily then leaned in to whisper in Rosie's ear "are you sad because you're thinking about dad" she asked as often this would be something that would still make lily sad whenever she thought about it , so she wondered if this was why Rosie was upset
Rosie suddenly lost her temper and pushed lily quite hard, in order to shut her up, however she ended up pushing a lot harder than she meant to and lily ended up hitting her head causing her to burst into floods of tears
"Hey what do you think you're playing at" Rachel shouted "that must have really hurt her"
Lill crying for all of the journey home as she'd hit her head quite badly but it was more because of he shock of Rosie hurting her.
"Rosie go straight to your room and you need to have a long hard think about all your behaviour" Rachel said as soon as they got inside sounding really angry now.
Rosie immediately ran to her bedroom and slammed the door before bursting into tears.
"Oh dear how's your head" Rachel asked
"Okay" lily sobbed
Rachel quickly lifted her up in her arms and they went through to the kitchen
"I didn't mean to upset Rosie" lily cried
"I know you didn't, she was out of order doing that to you"
"She's never hurt me before"
"Well she won't do it again I'll make sure of that"
"Whys she upset?"
"Well because she's got Into quite a bit of trouble this week at school and I think she's feeling pretty bad about it now, but that still doesn't excuse her hurting you like she did, and I'll be making that perfectly clear when I see her in a couple of minutes"
"Please don't shout at her" lily said as she really didn't like the thought of her sister getting into trouble with Rachel
"Don't you worry love"
Rachel then stayed with lily till she was feeling better before going up to see Rosie
She knocked once on her door before going in and found her curled up on her bed crying
"Sit up" Rachel ordered
Rosie sighed but did sit up anyway
"Why did you hurt lily, she was in floods of tears downstairs it took me ages to settle her down"
"I might have known she's the only one you'd be bothered about" Rosie cried
"Oh don't be so silly, don't you dare try and turn this round on me" she Said "what's been going on at school?"
"You already know"
"Well perhaps I want to hear it from you"
"Well perhaps I don't want to tell you"
Rachel was about to loose her temper properly but stopped herself
"You know what that's fine, you can stop up here until you do"
Rosie sighed before getting her phone out and texting one of her friends
"I'll have that, thank you"
As soon as Rachel left, Rosie kicked her wall as hard as she could, wanting to let some of her anger out, she then saw one of her school books in her bag and hurled it against the wall. Before curling up on her her bed and bursting into angry floods of tears, wishing there was someone who understood how she was feeling properly.
Rachel went downstairs and went to sit with lily, but she noticed she was running her stomach
"Are you okay sweetheart?" Rachel asked sounding a bit worried
"My tummy hurts"
"Really when did that start? It seemed fine 5 minutes ago"
"Just now"
"Where does it hurt"
Lily pointed so Rachel started to rub it
"I'll get you a hot water bottle, and some water that might help but if it doesn't i'll get you some calpol"
Rachel went upstairs and grabbed her hot water bottle before getting it ready and getting her some ice water, hoping all this would help,
"Lily put this against your stomach"
Lily took it and out it against it and sipping her drink
Why don't you out some tv on?" Rachel said
Rachel then grabbed the remote and looked on the guide, eventually finding something she thought lily would like.
They were about half an hour into it when lily started crying
"What's up love, is it your tummy?"
"Yes it really hurts" lily cried
"How about a little lie down for half an hour or so then"
"Yeah"
Rachel and lily then went up to Lily's bedroom
"You may as well get all comfy love, get into some pyjamas if you want"
Lily then took her school uniform off and Rachel helped her get into her favourite pyjamas
"I feel a bit sick"
"Maybe get to the toilet then, just in case"
Lily got up and went into the bathroom followed by Rachel
"Just stay in here, for a couple of minutes if you feel sick"
"Okay"
Rachel stayed with her but luckily she wasn't sick in the end
"Come on then love, I think you should try having a little rest"
Rachel then tucked lily up in bed, but suddenly she noticed her looking even more uncomfortable
"I think I have to go to the toilet" lily said
"Go on then love, I'll wait here"
After a couple of minutes lily came back and got into bed
"Do you feel any better?"
"A little bit" lily said
Rachel stayed with her for a little while but she ended up falling asleep so she decided to creep out of her room.
It was only then that she realised Rosie still hadn't come out her bedroom, Rachel that she would have calmed down by now and come out, so she was a little worried and decided to check on her.
When she walked in she saw her curled up crying into her pillow and couldn't help but feel sorry for her
"Go away" Rosie mumbled
"Come on you, let's go downstairs"
"No I'm alright, I just want to stay up here" Rosie said through sobs
"I want to talk to you"
"I'm sorry about everything" Rosie mumbled
"Well I'm glad you've began to realise it was wrong but I still want to talk"
"I really don't want to" Rosie cried
Rachel sighed before going over and sitting on her bed
"Come on, surely I'm not that bad"
Rosie didn't say anything just continued to cry, so Rachel gave in trying to stay angry with her and ended up wrapping her arms around her and giving her a big cuddle, so Rosie collapsed into her chest and sobbed
"Oh love, what's happened?" She asked
"I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to be so bad"
"Well I was pretty shocked when I got the call, it doesn't sound like you at all darling"
"I've just felt really upset all this week, and I guess that's made me take everything out on everyone"
"What's upset you love, it's nothing at home is it?"
"No, I really don't want to talk about it"
"Well If you don't want to, I'm certainly not going to force you if you don't feel comfortable discussing if with me, but I would like you to because I can't help if I don't know what it is"
"I really don't want to say"
"Okay, well the thing is much as I don't want to I am going to have to punish you for what's bee happening"
"I know"
"So I'm going to be keeping your phone over the next week and you're grounded"
"What does that mean?"
"You're not allowed out the house for the next week... Well unless it's with me or joe or jan"
"Okay"
"Come on let's go and get a drink and some chocolate, you look like you could do with it"
The two of them then got up and started walking out
"And Rosie, if you do change your mind about not wanting to talk, well you know I'm here don't you, and I really would listen to you"
"I know"
"Even if you think it's going to get you in trouble, or it's going to make me angry or upset, I am here for you"
"Honestly I'll be fine"
Rachel went down and made them both a drink
"I don't think you're sisters feeling too good" Rachel said as she sat down
"Why?"
"She's got a bad stomach"
"She might just be trying to get off school tomorrow"
"Erm it's Friday, you don't have school tomorrow" Rachel said laughing
"Oh yeah I forgot, good job maybe mrs smith will have calmed down by then"
"Let's hope so young lady " Rachel said
A few minutes later lily came downstairs and went to sit on Rachel's knee and cuddled into her
"Hey, you feeling any better"
"My tummy hurts still"
"Okay, Rosie love will you do me a favour and bring the calpol through it's just in the cupboard next to all the biscuits and stuff"
Rosie got up and quickly found it so brought it to Rachel
"Thanks love"
Once Rachel had given it to lily, Rosie took it back.
Lily stayed on Rachel's knee for ages, not wanting to get up, but eventually Rachel tried to ease her off
"No, I want to stay with you"
"Darling I'll be 2 minutes, I'm just nipping to the loo"
Once Rachel had got back, lily Immediately cuddled up to her again, she always did get really clingy whenever she was poorly, but Rachel knew this was probably because whenever she was Ill when she was with her dad, he used to just find it annoying and wouldn't give her any extra attention.
"Lily I've got to go and make the tea now love"
"No" lily said feeling a bit tired and this would often cause her to be a bit whiney
"Well I don't think you'd want to go hungry would you? Anyway Rosie can give you a cuddle"
Lily wanted to stay with Rachel but reluctantly got up and sat in Rosie instead.
The night seemed to pass quite quickly and before long everyone was asleep in bed, well all except Rosie, ever since Rachel had tucked her in she had been worrying quite a lot, and still hadn't got to sleep even though it was really late.
In the end she decided to get out and go into Rachel's room.
As soon as she went in she heard Rachel snoring, which made her giggle a bit, as she hadn't thought of her as the type of person who would snore.
She stood by her bed for a bit, not being sure if it was a good idea coming to see her now, as she felt really bad waking her.
Eventually Rachel stirred and saw Rosie stood next to her
"What's up love?" She asked sleepily
"Can I come in with you for a bit" Rosie whispered
"Yep, go round the other side" Rachel said as she was way too comfy to budge over
Rosie crawled in Beside Rachel, who wrapped her arms around her so they were cuddled up
"Rach I can't sleep" Rosie said
"Is that why you came in here?"
"Sort of, I guess I had some stuff on my mind"
"Want to tell me, what this stuff is?"
"Yeah, it's about earlier, you know I said I didn't want to talk to you"
"Yeah"
"Well I think I do"
"Okay love just take your time, I'm listening"
"I know I've been bad this week, but I've had loads on my mind, the thing Is, it's my mums anniversary today and it's kind of got to me a lot"
"Oh love, I'm so sorry I completely forgot"
"I don't think lily remembers her much and she definitely won't have a clue about when she died and I don't want anything being said to her about it because ..."
"Let's not concentrate on lily, at the moment it's you I'm bothered about"
"It's just when she was around, she was like a real mum to me you know, like it was okay when she was around, dad would still go mental but it wasn't as bad, but then when she had lily she just went all funny, I remember she used to cry for hours in the bathroom and me and lily would listen but lily would get so upset sometimes she was only 3 at the time and then it was me who found her this time last year .. You know when she killed herself and it's just been on my mind all week, and I've been acting up because it makes it easier doesn't it? To pretend everything okay"
"Oh love" Rachel said
She really didn't know what to say to all this, it made her so upset whenever she heard about aspects of the girls past, even now and sometimes it really did get to her.
"Sweetheart it must have been so hard for you, and I'm so pleased you felt you were able to talk to me about this"
"I just wanted you to know"
"I am here you know, whenever you do need to talk"
"I know that"
"Do you fancy maybe going downstairs, we can chat some more if you want, I'll get us some coffee or whatever you fancy"
"That sounds nice, but I'm really tired now"
"Okay love, do you want to stay in here or go back to your own bed?"
"Stay here"
"Okay love"
Rachel then put her arms around Rosie and before long they were both sound asleep.