It had to be you

by WOLD

His body was shaped like a Greek god; she only knew one person that took such great care of their body oh my god images from last night came rushing back and the realization of who was next to her hit her like a tone of bricks. She had slept with her best friend's brother, Bellamy Blake, who was currently holding her so tight she was finding it hard to breathe.

2. Chapter 2

Finally I'm done with chapter two! Thank you to everyone who left a review and favored this story.

Clarke was lying in bed, she didn't want to get up, as long as she stayed in bed the day didn't officially start and she wouldn't have to deal with the fact that Octavia was coming home today.

Bellamy was still asleep next to her; he had stayed over almost ever night since Octavia left. Being with him the past week had been a surreal experience. After spending the whole weekend together locked up in her apartment, Bellamy left early Monday morning. He lingered by the doorframe; he was as unwilling as her to part ways. She was afraid that once he left the fragile balance they had reached wouldn't survive being exposed to the outside world. He gave her a mind-blowing kiss before finally walking out.

Her day at work dragged on, she was constantly distracted replaying her weekend in her head when she was supposed to be completing her patient's charts. When she got home she was completely exhausted both mentally and physically, their activities of the weekend were finally catching up to her. When she got to her door, she noticed Bellamy standing there with a bag of Chinese food in his hands and a bottle of wine. Her heart skipped a few beats seeing him waiting for her, she realized in that moment just how easy it would be to fall for Bellamy.

'Hey princess, miss me?' He was giving her his usual smirk, but for once he was right, she had missed him.

'In your dreams Blake.' He didn't seem particularly offended by her comment; this was after all normal for them.

She hadn't been able to bring herself to tell him the truth. They had avoided talking about feelings over the weekend, too distracted by their new found sexual chemistry, but it was getting obvious the more time they spend together that this thing they had went beyond physical desire. She liked him; liked the way he hummed without realizing it when he cooked, the way he always needed to be in charge of the remote control, and she especially like the way he held onto her when they went to sleep. She told him she was willing to try, and in order to do so properly she was going to have to start with admitting how she really felt.

She kissed him on the cheek, before unlocking the door and ushering him inside.

'So what brings you by? When you left this morning you didn't mention anything.' Bellamy frowned a little at her question.

'Am I interrupting something, do you want me to leave?' He suddenly looked so sad; all she wanted to do was make it all better.

'No, that's not what I meant. I'm glad you're here. I'm just surprised.'

'I didn't say anything this morning, because I had plans with Miller, a friend from work' He hesitated for a second. 'but I cancelled, I missed you today and I wanted to see you.'

After his initial declaration that he liked her, Bellamy had been very careful as to not reveal too much about how he felt about her. It made sense, he had known for some time that he liked her and she was just starting to figure things out. He was probably worried that if he pushed her too soon she would run away from this thing they had. The fact that she had been less than honest about missing him and her question about why he had decided to come over probably didn't help in making him feel wanted.

He was normally so arrogant, to see him with his guards down and his emotions so apparent on his face did things to her heart she had never experienced before. She walked over to where he was standing and placed a gentle kiss on his lips. 'I'm really happy you decided to come over.' His smile returned to his face, and he returned her kiss but his was not quite as chaste. His hands brushed against her arms as they made their way up to cup her face, as he intensified the kiss. She had a pretty good idea where this was going to end, unfortunately for her, her stomach also had needs and the growling sound that came from that need was hard to miss. Bellamy detached his lips from hers, and she could see he was trying really hard to hold back his laughter.

'Don't you dare laugh Blake, I haven't eaten since this morning, and this is a normal bodily reaction.' His smile remained, but the laughter never came.

'Hard day at work?'

'Yes, we had a bunch of emergencies in the afternoon, I didn't have time to eat lunch.' The look in his eyes changed from amusement to concern. He was worried about her; he really did care about her. This made her feel bold. 'Plus, it didn't help that every time I did get a second to myself, all I could think about was your hands all over my body.'

'Princess if you want me to feed you, you can't say things like that.' It was her turn to smirk; she liked knowing the effect she had on him. After a few mores kisses and a second warning from her stomach that it needed to be fed they found themselves in front of the television eating the food Bellamy had brought over. He, of course, had the remote control in his hands, flipping threw the channels looking for something to watch. He eventually gave up and instead put in a movie. It was only seven o'clock, but she could feel her eyelids slowly closing as she struggled to keep them open. She moved next to Bellamy and rested her head on his chest; he wrapped his arm around her, as she finally succumbed to darkness.

'Clarke.' She was startled awake. The clock in front of her showing that it was now five past eight, she must have fallen asleep. 'Why don't you go get ready for bed?' She shook her head no, if she went to bed that meant Bellamy would leave to go back to his apartment and she wasn't quite ready to give up the warmth of his body.

'Come on princess, your clearly exhausted. It's not like we had a very quiet weekend, you need your sleep if your going to survive the week.'

She wasn't sure if her sleepiness was responsible or if she was simply tired of holding in her feelings, either way she couldn't stop the words the came out of her mouth.

'No, I don't want you to leave just yet, stay a little longer Bell.' She looked up at him, he was giving her the same smile he had worn on his face the first time she had used his nickname.

'How about you get ready for bed, while I stop by my place and get the stuff I need for tomorrow.' He was looking so hopeful; she wasn't sure she could have said no even if she hadn't been ready.

'That sounds like a very good idea.' He kissed her on the head, before getting up ready to head out.

'Wait, just in case I'm asleep when you get back take the spare key.' Surprise was evident on his face. Clarke hadn't really though about what she was doing when she offered the key. She was just being pragmatic, the key held no other meaning. Realizing what this could mean, she started to panic a little. 'I'll leave it on the counter when I come back.'

'Thanks' Crisis averted she though to herself, Bellamy knew her too well, knew exactly what to say so the moment didn't get awkward.

She had been asleep when he came back, briefly waking up when he joined her in bed. Wrapping his arms around her, she moved closer, completely enveloped by him.

The rest of the week went on in a similar fashion, Bellamy showed up at her doorstep with food and they spent a quiet evening together, getting to know each other. Then Bellamy would take her to bed and make sweet love to her. He always made sure to worship her body, before giving into his own desires, and in her 23 years of existence she had never felt anything quite like this. To be wanted this much and with so much passion, it was so encompassing that sometime she felt she was going to combust.

She was officially sure that she liked Bellamy when Thursday he called her to let her know he couldn't come over. He hadn't given her an explanation and she knew that he probably had a good reason for not coming over, but despite all her rationalization she was restless the whole night. What if he changed his mind? What if he had gotten tired of her? The thought of not being with him scared her, and that's how she knew just how much he had come to mean to her in a short time. She had of course been worrying for nothing and found out the next morning why he had suddenly been called away.

I missed you last night, princess.

Me too, hope everything's ok?

Ya, remember my friend Miller, well he and his girlfriend split up, he had wanted to talk about it Monday night when I cancelled on him, so I felt I should take him out to cheer him up.

She of course, after finding out where he had been, felt horrible for imagining the worst. It was clear that Finn had not only broken her heart, but had also left her with trust issues. If she didn't deal with this right away, it would only get worst, and might put their relationship at risk. So when Bellamy came over on Friday, she sat him down for a talk.

'This isn't the talk is it? You're not having second thoughts about us?' He let out a nervous laugh and she felt bad for making him worry.

'No I'm not, but last night I was afraid that you might be.' He looked at her confused, and rightfully so. If it wasn't for Finn and his lies, what had happened the previous night, for any rational individual, shouldn't lead to be so suspicious. 'When you called last night and told me you couldn't come over I started worrying that maybe you got tired of me and went looking elsewhere. I could hear in the background that you were at a bar, and I feared you were picking someone up.'

'Clarke.' The way he said her name broke her heart, like he was the one responsible for making her feel this way when he had done nothing wrong. 'Look I now I don't have a great record when it comes to women, but its different with you. When I said I would try I meant it, and that means I'm only going to be seeing you while we try and figure this out.' Of course Bellamy would think this was about his character, but in truth even knowing he had been with a lot of women and never had a proper relationship she hadn't been worried when it came to her. She knew from the start he was being honest and he wouldn't have risked angering his sister unless he really wanted to make it work between them. It was her own insecurities, the fear that she wasn't enough, which had made an appearance last night. And she hated Finn for that, more than anything else he did to her.

'Bell this isn't about you, I trust you, I do. What Finn did, it left me a little broken. The fact that he was also with someone else, made me feel like I wasn't enough for him. My insecurities and fears come from him, not from you.'

'Clarke, that guy was a fool for what he did. I don't see how anyone would ever be in need of someone else if they got the chance to wake up next to you ever morning.' She could feel herself tearing up at his words. Never in the time they had been together, had Finn said anything like this. I guess being in love with two women at the same time makes it hard to proclaim that you're the only one for you. 'What can I do to make it easier for you?'

'Well I was going to ask that next time you just let me know where you are so I don't worry so much, but that totally makes me sound like a clingy girlfriend. And seeing you now, I realize just how different you and Finn are, maybe that will be enough for me to get past this.' Bellamy remained silent, but he was looking at her and smirking.

'What?'

'You do realize you just called yourself my girlfriend.' She had? She hadn't even realized it, it just slipped off her tongue like she was always meant to be his.

'Do you have a problem with that?'

'No, do you have a problem with me being your boyfriend.'

'I really don't, a secret boyfriend sounds like more fun than a secret lover.'

'True, but I will still be performing my job as a secret lover.'

'I wouldn't expect anything else from you.' She walked off towards the bedroom and she could hear Bellamy getting to his feet and follow behind her. She was proud of herself, she had been avoiding dealing with the repercussion Finn's actions had on her, but she'd be an idiot if she let it affect her and Bellamy's relationship.

So now she found herself in bed with her boyfriend, who was also her best friends' brother, and that best friend was currently on her way home. She had texted Clarke during the night saying that she would be back in the afternoon and she wanted to get the gang together to celebrate her engagement. So tonight would be the first time her and Bellamy were out together and had to pretend that the past week hadn't changed absolutely everything about their relationship.

'Clarke don't worry so much.'

'How can you be so calm about this, she's going to find out.'

'No she won't, she's probably going to be so focus on herself and her engagement she won't notice anything.'

'You do have a point, but she is going to remember to ask about the guy that was in my shower last Saturday.'

'And I'll be all ears as you tell her about the handsome stud you brought back to your place.' He was grinning like a fool, he clearly found the situation amusing.

'Your no help.' He suddenly moved his upper body so it was hovering over hers, his legs holding her in place. He looked straight into her eyes, all joking aside.

'Clarke nobody's going to suspect anything, because not even in their wildest dreams would they ever expect us getting together. I know you want to wait until we tell them, and honestly so do I.' She was surprised by his admission; she had thought that the only reason he had agreed to keep their situation hidden was because of her request. 'Don't misunderstand I would love nothing more than to walk in that bar tonight with you hand in hand. However, before we tell Octavia I would like to show her a better side of me.'

'Yes you haven't had the best track record when it comes to girls, she really hates that about you.'

'I was always honest with them, never pretended to want a relationship, they all knew what they were getting into.'

'I'm not judging Bellamy, I knew this side of you when I agreed to get involved with you.'

'I guess I never found anyone that made me want to start something serious.' Until her, he didn't say it out loud but with the way he was looking at her it was clearly implied. O, she never understood why it was easier for me not to get attached, and she didn't approve. I want her to see a different side of me, before we tell her we're together, then maybe, despite her warning me not to get involved with any of her friends, she might have an easier time accepting us.' He had been putting on a brave face, but the very real fact that Octavia might not accept their relationship was clearly also worrying him. 'Having said that even if they were to find out tonight it's not like it would be the end of the world. She would eventually get over it.' As she thought about what he had said, he was leaving a trail of kisses on her neck making it difficult to concentrate.

'I suppose so, but I would still prefer us being the ones to tell Octavia, rather than having her find out. And I refuse to be responsible for stealing her thunder, let's let her enjoy being the center of attention for a while longer. Do you think you can keep your hands to yourself for the evening.'

'Between the both of us I think you'll be the one having a hard time resisting me.'

'You wish Blake.' As he winked at her, from his position above, she was afraid he might be right, spending the night close to him but unable to touch him might be the biggest challenge.

-:-

She had been standing outside of the bar for the past ten minutes, unable to gather the courage to go in. Despite Bellamy's assurances that their friends wouldn't find them out, she was extremely nervous. She didn't know how to act around him; she was sure she would end up being the one to give it away. She took a deep breath and finally walked through the doors. She found her group siting in the back, all of them had already arrived. Bellamy noticed her approaching and she saw him hide a smile, this was going to be a very long night.

'Clarke! What took you so long, I already ordered you a drink, come sit.'

'Hey guys, haven't seen you in a while.'

'And whose fault is that, Jasper and I have been trying to see you all week. What's been keeping you so busy?' She could feel herself blush. The guys had indeed left a few messages on her voicemail; afraid they would ask too many questions she had opted to text them back claiming she was too busy. Truth was it wasn't just about being afraid they would figure something was up; she hadn't wanted to spend an evening without Bellamy. She noticed him raise an eyebrow at her, she hadn't told him about Jasper and Monty wanting to go out, and she knew he was going to make a comment about her preferring his irresistible body to hanging out with her friends. As if he needed any more reasons to inflate his already large ego.

'Sorry about that, work has really been kicking my ass lately.' That sounded like a reasonable excuse. She then turned to Bellamy, and froze, did she normally greet him or would she just ignore him, why couldn't she remember how their normal interactions would go.

'Blake, good to see you on time for once.'

'Clarke' She sat down next to Octavia as everyone else returned to their previous conversation. No one was looking at her weirdly, it would seem she had managed to pass the first stage. Feeling braver she glanced up at Bellamy, he winked at her, and she immediately lowered her eyes again as she felt her blush return.

'So Octavia, how was it meeting Lincoln's family?'

'They loved her of course.' Lincoln interrupted, looking lovely at his fiance.

'It was really fun, he has such a large family, it's always only been me and Bell, it was incredible to be welcomed and accepted by so many people.' She knew her friend hadn't intended anything by her comment apart from sharing her happiness. She also knew Bellamy and hearing that Lincoln's family had given her something he could never, would hurt him. She wanted nothing more than to be able to squeeze his hand, but he was too far away.

She abruptly stood up. 'Well I think the brother of the bride and the best friend should get the next round, Blake why don't you come and give me a hand.' Her friends seemed surprised, but didn't comment. Bellamy walked quietly next to her, only speaking when they reached the bar.

'Clarke, I know I'm hard to resist, but I thought we agreed to at least try and not get caught.' She looked behind him, back at their table to make sure they weren't paying attention to them, before placing her hand on his cheek.

'I just wanted to make sure you were ok.'

'And why wouldn't I be?'

'Bell, don't shut me out, I know how hard this is on you.'

'It's fine, yes it sucks that she had so much fun being part of someone else's family, but it doesn't diminish the relationship that we have, you taught me that princess.' Well look at that, a Bellamy Blake that actually listened to her. 'Do you think they would notice if we started making out?'

'I'm pretty sure it would be impossible to talk our way out of that.'

'What a shame, having you worry about me is quite the turn on.' He leaned down towards her and she felt her pulse increase, she checked on her table again their was no sign of anybody looking at them. Then just a second before their lips touched he turned away, leaning against the bar and ordering their drinks.

'Remember Clarke, hands off for the evening, your rule I believe.' She was fuming, he had deliberately played her and now she was more than a little turned on, but at least he seemed to be in a better mood, she could wait until tonight to get back at him.

The evening progressed well, Bellamy had been right Octavia was so busy talking about her wedding plans and her weekend away that her focus was never on her or Bellamy. That is until Monty reminded her, of a certain morning encounter.

'So O, you mentioned having some juicy gossip about our lovely blond friend before Bellamy and Clarke showed up.' Their eyes briefly meet, before Clarke turned her attention on Octavia. She was pleading with her eyes for Octavia to keep quiet. But the girl either didn't see Clarke's suppliant look or she simply choose to ignore it.

'Oh yes, that's true.' Octavia exclaimed, she was clearly very excited about this. Clarke couldn't really blame her; Octavia had been pushing Clarke for months now to get back on the dating market. She understood that the only reason Octavia was this happy was because Clarke having a man in her apartment meant she was finally moving on from Finn. If that man had been anyone other than Bellamy, Octavia would have been the first person she called to tell her what happened. She felt terrible for lying, fortunately for her, her guilty face looked awfully similar to her embarrassed face. 'When I stopped by Clarke's place Saturday, very early Saturday morning, I caught her with a man in her apartment.' Clarke looked around at all her friends to assess their reaction to the news. Octavia looked extremely pleased, Lincoln's expression remained unchanged, he probably heard this story as soon as Octavia had left her apartment that morning, Jasper and Monty were in complete shock, and finally Bellamy was trying to look uninterested, but she could tell he was really looking forward to her being grilled by Octavia.

'Is that why you've been blowing us off all week, you been shacking up with a boy?' Of course Monty would figure out the truth, he was too smart for is own good.

'Let's calm down, nobody's been shaking up. Yes, I may have picked up a guy at the bar last weekend and I may haven taken him over to my place, but that was it. A one time thing.'

'Come on you can't expect us to believe that Clarke Griffin would have a one night stand, and here I thought you were better than me princess.' She was trying really hard not to be angry at Bellamy right now, they had agreed before hand that in order to maintain their cover they might have to fall back into old patterns of insulting each other, but it was scary how good Bellamy was at pretending not to like her. Then again, according to him he had been doing it for years.

'I don't have to explain myself to you Blake.'

Her phone chimed, it was a text from Bellamy.

I'm sorry.

'You're really not one allowed to judge, Bell. I mean sometimes I really wonder if you're even capable of having a normal relationship.'

'So wait its ok for Clarke to have a one night stand, but if I do it I'm some big evil monster.' She could see what he was trying to do, have Octavia admit that what he had done in the past wasn't as bad as she painted it out to be.

She took advantage of the change of conversation, to text Bellamy back.

Just don't call me princess when your being condescending; I can't hear it from you that way…not after you've whispered it to me during…well you know.

'It's different; you can't compare the two of you.'

'I think it's a double standard, you judge me harsher because I'm a man and you're offended as a women. I didn't force any of those girls to come into my bed, they made their choose, knowing it wasn't going anywhere.'

'Ok, Ok guys we're getting off topic, finally after months our little Clarke is finally moving on.' Even if that meant the attention was back on her, Clarke was glad for Jasper interruption, the conversation between the two siblings was making her rather uncomfortable, she knew of Bellamy's past but that didn't mean she wanted to be discussing his past conquest.

Clarke, I'm so sorry, I didn't realise. Does that mean the nickname growing on you?

'Right, so tell us Clarke on a scale of 1 to 10 how did he rank?' Trust Octavia to get right down to business with her choice of questions. She noticed that Bellamy's attention moved from his phone to her, it seemed he was very eager to hear her answer.

'I am not answering that.'

'Why not, you rated Finn when you guys were dating.'

'I most certainly did not, I made a few comments and you took it upon yourself to rank him.'

'What, is that what you girls talk about when were not around.' Monty pretended to be insulted, but it was clear he found this as amusing as Octavia.

Maybe

'Does that mean you've rated me as well.' Lincoln seemed a little bit afraid to hear the answer.

'Of course not darling, Clarke is too proper to ask that kind of question, me on the other hand I want all the juicy details.' Clarke couldn't help but think how she would regret asking about the details when she found out they were about her brother.

'Don't think you've escaped answering the question Clarke, let's hear it.'

'I'm not discussing my sex life with these guys.'

'Ok everybody leave, I need a minute alone to talk with Clarke.'

'You can't be serious, O.' Bellamy clearly wanted to be here when she talked about him, but knowing Octavia, she would end up getting her way.

'I'm the bride to be I get to do whatever I want, know go entertain yourselves elsewhere for a few minutes.'

'Come on Bellamy we'll go play a game a pool.' He reluctantly left with Lincoln.

'Ok Clarke it's just the two of us, now be honest what's really going on.'

'What do you mean? I've told you it was a one time deal.'

'We've been avoiding talking about Finn for months now, because every time his name is brought up you cringe, but earlier when I said his name you didn't even flinch. It was like he meant absolutely nothing to you, something clearly changed while I was gone.' She knew it, she had blown it, she couldn't go with the one-night stand excuse.

'I did bring someone home from the bar, but I've been keeping in touch with him.' Octavia screamed in excitement, which got the guys attention. Bellamy was walking back towards them when she waved him away.

'Why didn't you say anything, does that mean you're finally over Finn.'

'I've been over Finn for a while now, I didn't mention anything because I really don't know where it's going with this guy, I want to take it slow and see what happens.'

'That makes sense, after everything you've been through. I'm happy for you Clarke, whether or not it works out, at least your back on the market. You know I've got this friend from school that you might actually like, if it doesn't work out with this one.'

'Ok calm down O, one step at a time.'

'Bell was right it's totally not your style to just hook up with someone. I really wish he would stop doing that.'

'Maybe you shouldn't judge him so harshly, maybe he has his reasons.'

'Well I never thought I would see the day that you defended his actions towards women.' Oh crap, she just couldn't seem to help herself anymore, its like her subconscious was trying to get Octavia to figure out the truth.

'I'm not, it's just your giving him a really hard time about it, its hard enough watching you be so happy, you don't have to remind him he doesn't have anyone special.' Octavia wasn't buying it. 'We talked a little after you left Friday. Bellamy was having a hard time with your engagement, don't get me wrong he's happy for you, he just felt he was losing his only family.'

'I hadn't looked at it that way.'

'Don't say anything to him, I'm surprised he even told me anything, all I'm saying is after everything he's done for you maybe you should give him a break. And this is coming from someone who doesn't like him.'

'Thanks Clarke, for looking out for him, I know you two don't get along so it means a lot that you put that aside for my sake.' Octavia's comment made Clarke feel even guiltier. Octavia thought she was saying this for her sake, when she was putting Bellamy in a good light for her own selfish interest.

'Ok enough of that, don't think you're getting out of telling me more about this mystery guy. So was he good?'

'Octavia!'

'Just give me a general idea.'

'Why do you care so much?'

'I'm getting married, I'm only going to be with Lincoln for the rest of my life, so from now on I have to live vicariously through you.'

'Your ridiculous.' The guys choose that moment to finally return at the table, Octavia would just have to find another friend willing to discuss their sex life, she knew if she said anything now when Octavia found out her brother was the one giving her those mind blowing orgasms, she would never forgive her for sharing so much.

'So did you manage to get Clarke to talk?'

'No she's being very secretive with this one, seems he's more important than she's letting on.' Crap, maybe she should have said something after all. 'But I'm going to let it go, for now.

'Thank you O, that is so generous of you.' The boys all chuckled at her sarcasm. True to her word Octavia didn't bring it up for the rest of the evening. One by one her friends left to go home, until only her and Bellamy remained. As soon as Jasper, the last to leave, stepped out the door, Bellamy was kissing her.

'An evening next to you, unable to kiss you, is complete torture.'

'What happened to mister arrogant from this morning who believed it would be a piece of cake to stay away from me.'

'He underestimated how hot it would make him to see you blush in front of our friends while you were thinking about me.'

'Your sister is not going to let this go.'

'Probably not…Clarke about what I said.'

'We had agreed Bell, it's fine, just…'

'I know, I won't ever use it again that way. Come on princess your carriage awaits.'