Here is the first few chapter's in Jasper's POV!..yay!...sorry if they blow :/ lol
I own nothing. Just this plot and Idea.
I felt the fuzzy cloudiness on the edges of my conscious as I was coming out of the dark abyss of slumber. I just laid there, not wanting to ever wake up, wanting to be in an eternal slumber for the rest of my existence.
It was the same damn routine every single day. Wake up, shower, eat breakfast, be slightly ignored by the others, save for Esme', Carlisle and my sister.
They were really the only ones who paid me any attention. The others maybe acknowledged my existence for a few seconds before blowing me off to be absorbed in whatever useless crap they were into.
I've been with the Cullen's since me and Rosie were just 8. Our parents were young when they had us. Just the tender age of seventeen, but they stepped up and were amazing parents. The finished high school and my father went to college for business. Mom finished school also and she took online courses, but stayed home to look after my sister and I.
Must have been hard for my parents. Not only were they teen parents, but they ended up being screwed over by getting a deaf son.
My medical expenses weren't exactly cheap either. I was always constantly at the doctors for the first few years of my life. They found out I was deaf before I was one. I guess I've been deaf since birth but they didn't find out till later.
But they loved us dearly. As soon as they found out I was deaf they got into sign language classes so they could communicate with me and also teach me.
So I've known sign language since I could remember. And same with reading lips, it was almost like second nature to me. When normal people talk, they look into each other's eyes, well I look at their lips.
I will forever remember the day it all came crashing down.
We were coming back from a movie, we went to a twilight showing since dad worked and we were coming back, my sister and I in the back and I will always remember those bright lights completely engulfing the car in bright shining light and whiplash inducing force knocking you back and the seat belt locking on my ribs with bruising force to the point of getting the wind knocked out of me.
Rosie and I were only knocked out for a few moments. But my parents, they had no chance. They were gone instantly. I remember waking up confused, I looked around me and was stunned to find my window had spider webs decorating the glass. I looked ahead and saw my mom's seat was pushed back more than it was originally, effectively pinning my legs.
I looked to my left and saw Rosie; her head tilted my way, but cuts on her lefts side of her face, trails of blooding sliding down her cheek bones, leaving a trail of crimson in their wake. Her lip was busted and swollen and I noticed her left eye was bruising.
Her eyes scrunched then her eyes fluttered open and she looked around her, in that lost kind of way. She looked at me for a few seconds then she looked at were mom was sitting in front of me, and then I watched as absolute terror engulfed her expression. She started screaming at the top of her lungs, I think.
I dragged my gaze from Rosie and looked at dad in the driver's side. Dad was slumped to the left, his head resting out the window, since it shattered under the pressure of the crash. I couldn't see him that well, but after I saw their condition at the funeral, I think I'm glad. There would have been blood bathing his face.
After that, everything was a blur. The paramedics and firemen, tearing apart the car to get everyone out safely. The image of my parents resting on the glass covered cement, with a white sheet covering them, soaking up their blood, will forever be branded on my memory.
The paramedics rushed me and my sister to the E.R and we were lucky to only get off with bruises and cuts. Well, we both had cracked ribs, but that was so insignificant that it didn't even really matter.
But they kept us at the hospital for a week, trying to figure out what to do with a couple of orphans.
They found out we had no other family, which we both knew. My dad's mom died when we were three from breast cancer and his dad ditched I guess when he found out grandma was pregnant with dad.
Mom's mom and dad both died in a car crash also, last year by a drunk driver. Like us...
Funny part was our drunk driver was still alive. He was driving a big loaded truck while we only had a small little family car. He was only nursing a few broken ribs and slight internal bleeding.
We were able to go to our parent's funeral. It was thrown by some of their close friends. Both of the caskets resting by each other almost like a train.
It was sad most definitely...having to say goodbye to your dead parents while they looked like that. The last time you see your parents shouldn't be with their faces marred by gashes.
My mom had such a bad one they had to fricken give her stitches just so she would be slightly presentable for her funeral. Right smack dab on her fucking cheek.
And dad...oh god.
He had deep cuts everywhere. Marking his face where the eye could see.
After that...I couldn't tell you what happened. I was on auto pilot.
After words we were put in an orphanage for about three months until Esme' heard of our story and begged Carlisle to adopt us.
After another nine months we were on our way to the Cullen house. Which at the time was in Dallas Texas. Shortly after we moved to Alaska and just moved to forks just two years ago.
When I was ten, Emmett moved in with us, under foster care. He and Rosie immediately got hooked with each other. They liked each other practically from the moment he walked in for the first time.
When I was twelve it was Alice that moved in. Her parents signed her to the government, apparently not being able to accept their daughter said she had dreams that came true. Thought she was crazy and didn't want her anymore.
And Edward came just a year and a half ago.
He and Alice have been together for about a year.
Me and Edward...well he's nice but he still isn't used to having to deal with a deaf person.
So there's my crappy life in a nut shell. My damn memories that I wished would go way.
I've gone to counselling, but really...the guy just thought I was dumb, talking really slow like as if talking to an impaired child.
So I finally got fed up after two years and quit.
Rosie quit to after three years.
Ah what a way to start a morning...Having angst thoughts about your past.
Just then I felt a gentle shake and rolled over slightly and looked into the eyes of Esme. She smiled and signed.
"Time to get up sunshine"
I nodded and sat up then stretched.
Esme left and I looked around my room.
Time for a shower...
Throwing off my covers I grabbed my towel resting on my computer chair and went to the bathroom, preparing to have a shower.
After fifteen minutes, I jumped out the now steaming shower and grabbed my towel, wrapped it around my waist, and left to go back to my room. Upon entering my room, I went straight for my closet without second though, rummaged around, found a button down black shirt, a plain white t-shirt and went searching for some jeans. After some searching I found dark washed denim jeans slightly warn around the knees.
Throwing on my outfit, I went trudging down stairs, no one even lifting their eyes upon my arrival (Big shocker there)
Man don't I feel loved...
Opening the fridge I pulled out the orange juice, poured myself a glass and put it back while downing the juice.
I sat down at the island, just staring off to space, sipping on my juice when I saw Esme slide me a plate filled with pancakes, scrambled eggs and bacon in front of me.
I looked up, put my hand to my chin, and pulled it out slightly saying "Thank you".
Grabbing the fork I started to eat my breakfast as Esme bustled around the kitchen, trying to get everything ready. She always gave me my breakfast first so she was trying to get it ready for everyone else.
I felt arms wrap around my shoulders quickly and a pat on the head, meaning Rosie was here, in her own way saying good morning.
I nodded and continued to eat. Everyone went to the dining room to eat, leaving me in my solitude to finish my breakfast at the island in the kitchen.
After finishing, I grabbed my plate, went to the sink, rinsed it and went to go collect my stuff.
I waited by the front door, as everyone else got ready to go. I felt a tap on the shoulder, I turned and saw Rosie. She smiled and motioned to get a move on.
We all decided to go in Edwards Volvo. It was a bit crowded. Edward in the drivers, Alice in shot gun, Emmet in the back by the door, Rosie in the middle and me to the right.
I always hated riding in cars, especially in the back to the right. I didn't have a problem driving but I absolutely loath riding in the back. I got all antsy and couldn't wait to get out.
When we pulled to the school, I practically ripped the door open and hoped out and slammed the door and briskly walked away.
Screw that shit.
I was definitely riding to the left next time.
Time to kill some time.
Great.
Time skip...
Now was my second class. English.
And as always I was early. Not like I had friends to talk to for the measly five minute between classes anyway.
Damn clock...wish you would speed up.
I hate school.
Can you tell?
It was always the same.
Nothing interesting ever happened.
Really, shooting myself in the foot would be more entertaining than sitting around for the same damn thing.
But I always was a good boy and paid attention and took notes.
To be honest, I also took notes just for something to do.
It was either that, or hitting my head on the desk, hoping it would knock me out.
I was staring at the clock blankly, then I noticed something in the corner of my eye, briefly glancing over I notice a brunette girl. Uninterested I looked back up at the clock. I saw her pass in front of me but my gaze on the clock didn't falter.
She then sat down beside me. Finally curious, I looked over and she smiled.
"Hi, I'm Bella" She waved slightly.
What the hell?
Didn't the teacher tell her I was deaf?
They usually make that the first thing to tell my classmates.
Just then the rest of the class came pouring in and I felt my phone vibrate meaning class was beginning.
The teacher lightly tapped my desk then started talking. It was mostly reviews so I didn't really take that much notes.
My phone went off and I got up and the rest of the class followed suit then I gathered at my belongings and went off to the cafeteria.
Entering the cafeteria I saw my 'Family' sitting at our usual table. The other students even call it the "Cullen" Table.
Lucky us...
Carelessly throwing my stuff to the ground I sat down and sighed as I stared at the fake wood ingrains. 50 minutes of this every day. It wasn't much better then class to tell you the truth.
Rosie placed her apple in front of me. I looked up.
"Eat it brother" She signed.
Resisting the urge to roll my eyes I took a bite and chewed, swallowed and smirked.
She playfully rolled he eyes and went back to conversing with her 'Boyfriend'.
It was weird to call him that, because I truly see him as a brother. So to me it is like my brother and sister dating.
After I finished my apple I went back to having a staring contest with the table.
After a few more moments I felt a tap on the shoulder and looked up to see Emmett smiling in his goofy way.
"When we get home want to play some Halo?" He signed.
Nodded slightly I went back to staring at the table.
I really need to find something else to do.
Because this was just ridiculous.
My phone vibrated and I was almost relieved.
Now that's bad.
Time skip...
I was now sitting in my chemistry class.
Only so long until the school day was over.
Come on Jasper.
You can do it.
Out of the corner of my eyes I saw movement, looked over for a split second and saw it was the same chick from English.
She sat down beside me. Still looking at her from the corner of my eyes I saw her fingers moving over her phone. After a few second she tapped the desk, and slides her phone in front of me.
Truly intrigued I looked at her, wondering why she was sliding her phone to me. I got my answer.
Sorry about this morning. Hope I didn't make u uncomfortable. I'm Bella by the way.
Was what her phone said. Ah so she found a way to talk to me.
All the other students were to dumb. They didn't even know that I could read lips. So the dumb blondes talked about me, in front of me sometimes.
Really how else was I going to learn? Like really?
Common sense people...too bad it doesn't come in cereal boxes.
Looking up from my thoughts I smiled a little. It was nice someone was making an effort...but why was she making an effort?
Being raised with manners I held out my hand for her to shake, which he took and I saw surprise flash through her eyes.
Huh...that's interesting.
Her smile grew and mine grew in response involuntarily.
I handed her back her phone and got mine out to reply to her. Not like she knew my language.
It's nice to meet you Bella. But I can't help but wonder why you are talking to me. Usually when ppl learn im deaf they don't even bother anymore.
I handed her my phone and she stared at my reply for a long time. She took her phone and replied a reply.
I'm not like that. I want to get to know u. Maybe be friends? :)
I couldn't help the warmth that swelled in my chest. She wanted to be my friend. Not many people wanted to be my friend.
I handed her back her phone.
She started to text a reply immediately...even thought I didn't say anything...
Not 2 sound rude or ignorant. But i've never met a deaf person, so sadly i don't no sign language. We will have to talk thru text :( is that bad?
I couldn't help it. I had to laugh. I just didn't expect people to automatically know sign.
I looked at her, and shook my head and started to text my reply.
It's not a bad thing at all. I don't expect ppl 2 automatically know sign lang. This is fine :)
She read my text then handed me back my phone and I started text again.
You don't always have to type ur message. I can read lips just fine. Just tap my shoulder 2 get my attention and talk and i'll type a reply. It'll b easier 4 u.
She looked up and me and nodded.
"Okay" She 'Said'.
I couldn't help chuckle at her. She really was amusing.
"You have a pretty laugh" She said.
I couldn't help but feel stunned. She thought I had a nice laugh? Well, at least I know I sound okay...Better make sure.
Really?
She smiled and nodded.
I started to text her again.
Do mind if i give u my #? I just think it would be easier sending texts then having to trade our phones back and forth
She smiled hugely and nodded.
We started texting each other. She asked a few questions and I answered.
Then the bell rang and we went to attention.
But it was funny to watch Bella look shocked that it was class time already.
I had to try not to laugh at her.
And class was absolutely horrible. It was the type of boring where you want to kill yourself to end your misery.
Class finally ended and I had a class that I might like.
I love art. Any type.
Drawing, painting, music being one of my favourites and photography.
So right now I had photography and I was slightly excited.
Curious what class Bella had next, I checked and saw she also had photography. I was just getting better and better.
We went to class, chatted a bit via texts. And the teacher walked in, a short guy and informed us we had to have out won cameras. Bella's reaction was slightly amusing so I guessed she didn't have her own. I didn't mind sharing mine so I 'told' her that and she smiled that made me want to hug her.
Well...I got excited for no reason at all. It was so boring.
I didn't even bother trying to read his lips anymore. I just stared at the pictures.
Some of them were cool, but some of them you are like "What's so special about that?" really? A bucket of water?
Yeah because that just screams ART!
I even almost passed out in class. It was that boring.
And here I thought I would love this class.
I wanted to capture life in stills, not frickin watch it already in stills.
Finally my phone buzzed but I couldn't care less.
Sure I was relieved but I was still tired and bored.
What's the difference?
I'd just be going home, and then be bored and tired there.
Me and Bella got ready and left the class room. Walking comfortably by each other. We made it outside and saw the silver Volvo and saw Emmett wave over to me. I turned to Bella and motion behind, trying to let her know I got to bounce.
She got the message and did something totally new to me.
She hugged me!
The only people that hug me are Rosie and Esme.
Being shocked to immobility for a few seconds I finally embraced her back.
She slowly unwound her arms from around me.
I smiled softly and spun around then took off towards the silver car and hopped in.
I looked at her and Edward pulled out. She was watching the car; I smiled softly and got out my phone.
You have a good night to Bellz :)
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Last night went pretty normally. I got home, went to my closet, got out my baby and started to gently strum her.
Playing guitar calmed me. To feel the vibrations of the strings under my fingers. The different vibrations meaning it gave a different sound, sounds I couldn't hear but feel.
It was fascination and calming. I played for hours in my room, thinking of Bella, the intriguing new girl who looked at me like a normal person.
I thought about all this on the ride to school. It was taking longer than normal since Edward was being a pansy and driving like a 100 year old grandmother.
Yeah it snowed last night, at least go over 25!
But he loved this car and didn't want to scratch it, never mind crash it.
I'm going to have to start taking my own car. Because this was ridiculous.
We would have been there like ten minutes ago if her went 40, but no...23 seems to be his preference.
Finally reaching the school, I being middle aged now I hopped out and started walking towards the building when I felt my phone vibrate.
"Have a good day honey" It read. From Esme.
I started to text my reply. Almost having it finished I felt some unknown force slam into my back, effectively knocking me over. Slamming to the ground I snapped my head up, looking for what hit me and I saw Bella get hit by a car. She went flying a few feet out of my eye sight.
A flash back of the accident that happened when I was nine and the image of my father flashed through my mind and I snapped up, fighting tears the emerged in my eyes, trying not to think the worst.
I saw a bunch of students, surrounded where Bella was. I paid no heed to them I shoved them out of my way and saw Bella curled out on the cement. She looked up, her face engulfed in a pain stricken expression. It was becoming harder to fight off the tears.
I just wanted to touch her, to assure myself this wasn't an illusion, that she was actually alive. I reached out and gently touched her face, like she was a chine doll, to fragile for even the smallest of touches.
Paramedics pushed their way through the sea of people too and I back up slightly so they could get to work.
Flashes of my dad and the accident kept hounding my brain. Argh why wouldn't they go the fuck away?
That won't happen to her!
She was alright...well as alright one can be by getting smacked by a car.
I watched as the paramedics tried to help Bella and I saw her mouth open, not forming any words, meaning she was crying out in pain. My fingers itched to just do something, anything to help with her pain.
They finally wheeled her into the ambulance and I just hopped in. I didn't care.
The paramedics could go chock on a dick if they tried to get me to move.
I was staying with her.
She started talking to me and I gestured my answers back, and I reached out and took hold of her hand, holding it as softly as I could. I didn't want to cause her any more pain then necessary.
We finally got to the hospital and we were waiting in the E.R for a doctor. It would probably end up being Carlisle. I just had a feeling.
Being slightly bored I was playing around with my phone, twirling it around in my hands as we waited for the Doc.
Seeing movement in the corner of my eye and looked up and saw Carlisle. I knew it.
He was talking to Bella and she was talking back, saying something to make him chuckle.
He said farewell, winked aat her, smiled at me and walked off.
Bella turned to me, looking slightly shocked.
She asked if he was my dad and I nodded.
Then she asked if I could talk...
Was she on crack?
Well...she was on pain medication...
But of course I couldn't talk. I wouldn't know how to properly pronounce stuff. I know what it looks like to talk but not the pronunciation.
I haven't spoken a single word in my life.
I would love too...but I just couldn't...it was impossible and I accepted that.
I have to deal.
I was about to type my answer but then I looked up I saw her passed out and chuckled slightly.
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Carlisle came back, picked up Bella and we went to the x-ray room and I sat outside for about 20 minutes, bored out of my wits and slightly worried, What if a bone was broken? Because she saved me?
Someone she barely knew.
After we got back to the E.R room, Bella turned to me and told me she wanted to learn sign language. She really doesn't have to do that. I was content communicating with texts messages and reading her lips. I didn't want her to learn a whole new language just so she could talk to me. Because learning sign language was like learning a new language.
But man was she stubborn!
She wouldn't budge, so I caved and said okay.
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After getting hr set, I left her with her father and went to Carlisle and then we went home for the night.
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Last night was a bit...tense for me. I couldn't' stop thinking about Bella. She had taken over my mind.
I was worried and felt immense guilt.
She wouldn't need crutches if it weren't for me to begin with.
But I felt appreciation for what she did, that car could have killed me and she saved me by taking the hit herself.
So I was going to take some responsibility and take her to school and help her out throughout the day.
Rushing to get ready, I sent her a text told her I was picking her up.
Time skip...
Finally arriving at school, I asked Bella where her next class was and she reluctantly told me. She didn't want me to be late for my class or something like that. I ignored her and dropped her off to class.
I got her to her class, felt my phone vibrate and bella shot me a look as if to say 'Told you so'.
I then did something that shocked even me.
I kissed her!
Well, not like kissed kiss her but I kissed her cheek. I was like second nature to me.
I quickly spun around and rushed to my class. I was only two minutes late but I was able to get away with it because I was 'Special'...
Time skip...
Lunch time...
Greaaaaat.
I really loved lunch.
I looked over to Bella and she didn't look exactly overjoyed at having to sit with her other friends. Jessica Stanley was...well she was something else.
When I first got here, she hit on me and flirted, found out I was deaf then avoided me like I was a leper.
Got to love her.
I invited her to our table and she looked excited yet nervous which I could believe. Our family were famous at our school. For good and bad.
We went to our table and started to have lunch...well it was a disaster.
My sister was being a complete bitch. I really have noooo idea why.
She was really going to blow it for me. I was starting to like Bella, as in LIKE her and Rosie was going to scare her off.
Edward was acting like an idiot. He was usually intelligent but man...he was being a moron.
It was awkward at our table to say the least.
Then the whole thing about them finding out I was the one going to get hit by a car but Bella being the heroine saved me, well that didn't help at all.
In fact it pissed Bella off. At first I thought she was mad at me but she was actually mad at them...
Bella then stood up and announce she should get to her next class...one that didn't start for like half an hour...
I couldn't just let her go. I couldn't!
I was not going to let my so called 'Family' screw this up for me. Bella was like once in a life time chance at...uh...something and I wasn't about to let it juts float on by.
Scooting out of my chair I stood up and raced out of the cafeteria and went to her biology class.
I walked in and saw her looking ahead with an unreadable expression.
I started to walk over to her. I need to apologize. I should have told them she saved me...
"I'm sorry" I mouthed to her and she looked slightly shocked.
"Why?" She asked.
"I didn't tell them" I mouthed back.
"It's okay. I'm not mad" She smiled.
And the relief I felt, really it should be inhuman.
I then stared at her lips.
I had the sudden urge to kiss her. I needed to kiss her.
I sucked in a breath, and then let it out.
No chickening out Jasper.
This girl...she really was something else.
Who pushes someone out of the way of an oncoming car for someone they barely knew?
And all I think about seems to be Bella related.
She was intriguing...
And every time I saw her...I felt...calmer, not so on guard with her around. I feel like I can relax around her.
I leaned forward, then I started to get nervous, but in no way was I backing down. I needed to feel her lips against mine.
Then a flash passed through my mind, a picture of Bella's radiant smile and I smiled softly and leaned forward just a tad more, just a breath away from her lips.
"Thank you" I mouthed against her lips then closed that tiny gap and kissed her.
The feeling that went through me when I kissed her was...beyond words can describe.
It felt...right.
~~~~~~End of Jasper's POV~~~~~
Next chapter will be the normal chapter 6.
Just people have been asking for J POV so i tried.
Did I fail?
it was really hard to get inside his head. I like know how my Jasper is but it was hard for me to portray him.
Like he's sweet but there's a side Bella doesn't get to see since he loves her and shows his true self. He's hard, guarded almost because of what happened in his child hood. He has suffered trauma.
He's also slightly sarcastic too. But when he is with bella. He's his true self. He's sweet, and more carefree around her
As when before he kept to himself.
So it was realllly hard to like...write in his POV.
I honestly think it could be better.
And I did skip some stuff obviously lol. Only did three chapters :P
I might do the others some other time, might not. Don't know yet. So tell me what u think.
Review please and tell me what u think...I think I failed lol but oh well..I tried. Oh and sorry for the beginning..it was slightly morbid :/