I sat on my bed, staring forward with a blank expression. How the hell could this happen?
I mean sure, it was only one day I was late, but I just had this feeling...
Maybe it was just a scare. Hopefully that was all it was.
Well, I would have to tell Jasper that there was at least a possibility that I was pregnant.
Gosh I wonder how that conversation will go...
I would be seeing him tomorrow, so I would talk to him then. So all I could do now was calm myself and hope everything worked out...
Sighing, suddenly tired I stood up and stretched. I went and got ready then proceeded to crawl into bed and wait for the unknown darkness to sweep me away.
I woke up, and groaning I turned to look at the clock and saw it was little after ten. Jasper would be here at 11 to take me to his place for brunch with the family.
Oh joy...
Getting up rather reluctantly I shuffled my way to the bathroom, bringing my bag of toiletries along with me and proceeded to do my morning ritual.
After rinsing my mouth I made my way back to my room and carelessly threw my bag on the bed and went straight for the closet.
Grabbing the first t-shirt I saw which was a plain black one and grabbed some Capri's I started to change into them.
After changing with only one stumble, I went to my computer desk which my phone resided on and check if I had any texts and only saw one. Clicking it I saw it was from Jasper.
Good morning.
Was all it read. Smiling slightly I sent back my reply then looked at the time and saw it was 10:50.
Rushing downstairs I grabbed my jacket and slipped on my shoes then sat in the living room, watching TV while waiting for Jasper to arrive.
Seeing Jasper black Mercedes pull up I then stood up and rushed out the door, swiftly locking it and darted down the stairs and walk way to his car and slide in rather gracefully.
Once in a life time thing...trust me.
He turned in his seat and smiled rather sweetly at me and leaned over then pressed a quick peck to my lips, pulled away then put the car in gear and pulled away.
The ride to the Cullen's house was quite, but what did you expect. But I was still nervous. I was just thinking about the possibility that I was preggers.
Jasper smoothly pulled up the Cullen drive way and killed the engine then climbed out as I scrambled out to keep up with him. He opened the door to the house, fluidly took of his jacket to hang it up then walked down the hall, leaving me tangled in my jacket as I tried to tear the stupid thing off.
I scurried down the hall to find Jasper lounging in the kitchen at the island as Esme worked the kitchen as she made brunch.
I went and sat down beside him then he turned and smiled at me then reached for my hand and gave a gentle squeeze.
I gave a half smile and I saw a spark of worry flash in his orbs.
I turned my head away before he could start his visual inspection. Of course he knew something was wrong with me. I wasn't the best actress and the worst liar possible.
Esme scurried off to the dining room with plates and cutlery in her arms and I heard her setting up the table. I stood up and went off to help her; she flashed me a grateful smile.
"Thank you" she said then walked off into the kitchen to grab the food I'm sure.
She came back in, her arms full with plates stacked high with food, Jasper behind her helping her also.
They set the food on the table and arranged it for easy access then Esme called out that it was time for brunch.
I heard the sound of footstep rushing down the stairs and saw Emmett burst into the room not even five seconds later.
I couldn't help the chuckle that escaped my hold as I saw the excitement in his eyes, like that of a child on Christmas morning...all for food.
Rose came in only a few seconds after him, an annoyed look in her eyes. I turned away and caught Jasper's gaze, the worry still there as he watched me.
He knew something was off.
I smiled, but I could even tell it felt twisted and wrong, more like a grimace then a smile.
...
Brunch was pleasant enough. The family included me in the random chatter and I was even starting to loosen up. I laughed, I joked around with Emmett and it was nice. When brunch was over the nervous twist in my stomach returned, almost ten times worse then what it was before brunch. Because I would have to tell Jasper soon, preferably when his family wasn't there to witness the conversation.
After helping Esme clear the table I motioned for Jasper to follow me and started my way up the stairs.
I made my way into his room and carelessly plopped myself on his bed and waited for Jasper to enter. He entered and shut the door behind him then sat down beside me, looking at me with concern.
I looked at him for a few moments, trying to find away to tell him that I might be pregnant. It wasn't an easy thing to do. I always thought I would start a family when I was older, like 25. Not 17.
Maybe I should just mouth the words, and not actually say them. It's not like he would notice the difference.
Or I could type them in a text, and then run for the hills like the coward that I feel like.
"I'm pregnant!" I blurted out.
Well...shit.
That didn't go as planned.
I might not even be pregnant...but I think I kept telling myself that so I wouldn't panic like a mentally disturbed person...
Jasper just started at me, frozen like a statue.
I had the feeling he knew what I said...
The time he sat still was unbearable and felt like an eternity.
He finally moved, very slowly and stiffly, like that of an un-oiled robot.
I saw his throat constrict as he swallowed and he turned back to me, his eyes widened.
He opened his mouth, almost as if to say something, and then closed it. I saw that he was barely breathing as he continued to stare at me in pure absolute shock.
He grabbed my hand and held it between his hands and mouthed the words "You sure?" He looked slightly panicked as he waited for my response.
"Well...not 100%, I'm just late" I elaborated.
He seemed to relax, but not much.
'We need to make sure' He mouthed the words then stood up then made his way to the door then turned to me, waiting for me to follow suit.
I stood up then followed him out his room door and down the stairs to the front door. He robotically grabbed his jacket then walked out the door. I snatched my jacket and ran out after him then ran to the passenger side of the car as he started the engine. He didn't wait for me to buckle my seat belt like he usually did. As soon as my door was shut he pulled out and down the road that led the world to the Cullen's.
I could see his posture was very stiff as he drove on the highway.
The tension between was suffocating.
I saw the sign that said Forks town limits and knew he was taking me out of town. I would just have to wait and see what he planned to do.
...
A little while later he pulled up to a pharmacy in Port Angeles. He turned to me.
'You should go in and get a test. I'll wait here' He mouthed the words to me.
Nodding stiffly I stumbled out of the car and made my way inside.
I guess the reason why he took me here was in Forks, everyone knew everyone. People would gossip if they saw me buying a test in Forks and the rents would defiantly find out maybe...a half hour I bought it?
I walked in and went down the aisle and saw the different kinds of test.
God which one do I pick?
What's the difference?
Just grabbing one...I paused then grabbed a second, just make sure then shyly walked to the counter and couldn't meet the elderly lady's eyes and she scanned my items.
After I paid and she put them in a bag, I caught her glance and she smiled at me.
"Have a good day" she smiled, but it was almost sympathetic.
"Thank you. You too" I nodded then scurried out the store.
I saw Jasper in the Car then saw a Star bucks was just next door. I looked at him and held my finger up for a moment.
He tilted his head in a curious way, I then turned then ran in the store and into the bathroom.
I went into the room, locked the door then pulled out the test.
...
Three minutes.
These were the longest three minutes of my entire life.
I leaned against the wall staring at the two sticks in almost a trance like state.
I looked at my watch and saw only two minutes had passed.
For fucking crying out loud!
Hurry the hell up!
I nervously chewed my bottom lip, waiting for the next minute to finish.
I looked at my watch and saw my three minutes was up.
The moment of truth.
Trying to take a calming deep breath that in reality made me more nervous I took a few steps and looked at the tests.
They read...
~~~~To Be continued~~~~
Im so so sorry.
I was scared to update -_-
The last chapter got alot of mixed reviews and I wimped out.
But since im taking about that let me say a few words.
Im going thumper style!
If don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all. Get out Don't read the story. I don't care.
Cuz last chapter I knew some people weren't going to be happy, so I said be nice about it and few of you guys just totally spazzed.
Don't yell, and don't swear. Stop being a couple of ignorant asses.
And some of you were totally sweet and I thank you guys for that. I love you :D
Also, because this is MY story, I'm writing it for me. It's to make me happy but also you guys.
I know it will piss some of you off but...right now I don't really care.
I did but some of you totally pissed me off. I can take constructive criticism. But not when you guys are just being plain rude.
This is my story and im writing it the way i want, you don't like? Then leave.
And im trying to get my motivation for my other story PRETEND
And I wrote a new story, another JASx BEL story and it's going to almost like a back ground story. Pretend and Unheard love are my top two, Love of time will be last on the list until im finished these two
But i will update Love of time every once in awhile, im also not really happy with it, to me it could be tons better so i may edit it then re post it some time.
And i'll try to update this one more. Im sorry. I havnt abandoned it!
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